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I'm not denying the big bang . Sure its a well accepted theory in the scientific community that explains the origin of the universe. But you can't just STOP suddenly at the big bang and that's it. You have to explain where did the big bang come from . And if you posit another cause that is prior to the big bang ..then you have to explain where did that cause came from as well ..and no matter how many initial causes you posit..you have to explain them ad infinitum. So you have to accept that the cause of the universe is infinity .and infinity is just another word for God.

Where did the big bang come from ? You have three choices: 1-either it came out of nowhere for no reason at all. 2- coincidence. 3- some cause have caused it . Now ,do you understand why option 1, and 2 don't make sense ?and the only explanation left is explanation 3?

My big brother is a very toxic person .and our relationship with each other is completely neurotic and fucked up . he rarely ever truly take responsibility for his negative actions (rarely apologize, almost always see himself the victim and everything/everyone else as the villains, blames others when something bad happens, etc.). he very quickly resort to anger, aggression, and violence (even at extreme levels) when something bad happens or he don't get what they want. he doesn't really do anything for anyone else..he mostly only care about themselves. He hates having responsibilities (being financially responsible, cooking and cleaning, handling adult responsibilities on his own, etc.). he is naturally drawn to drama and start drama themselves. He is not charitable..most acts of service he does to eventually get what he want from the person he helps. he have a toxic pessimistic mindset. Whenever im are around him or hang out with him, i find my energy levels quickly drop. i find myself having to "walk on eggshells" around him to make sure that nothing gets himin a bad mood .I must always be perfect, but he doesn’t have to be at all 10.he keeps complaining about how bad things are for him while ignoring all the things he is doing that are causing those bad things to happen . He is blatantly hypocritical (ex. I hate when people yell at me and bully me, but I'll immediately start yelling at you and bully you if we ever get in an argument). Now I can't just cut him out of my life ..he Is my big brother ..I live with him and I'm somewhat financially dependent on him ..but at the same time I can't stand it anymore..I'm sick of having to fight with him every single funking day over the most trivial shit possible. Any advice?

If you keep going with this line of reasoning you will face the problem of infinite regress. You have to accept infinity as the only source of reality .either it's Gods all the way down .or one God that is eternal and uncaused. Notice that you have no other option to explain existence. The ‘infinite regress’ argument posits that we cannot have an infinite amount of preceding events or causes. For if we have an infinite amount of preceding events then we can never get to where we are now, that there must ultimately be a ‘first cause’ or ‘prime mover’. An example that has been used to explain the problem is that of the soldier waiting for orders to fire. imagine a soldier waiting for orders from other soldier before to fire at the enemy. The soldier at the front asks the soldier behind if they have permission to fire. That soldier then asks the soldier behind them, then that soldier repeats the same process. Eventually we must come to a soldier that gives permission to fire, otherwise the soldier at the front of line would never be able to fire. There must be a soldier who is the ‘first cause’, the one that gives permission to fire

Same thing with me . Where else could I discuss these issues of God, Free Will ,Solipsism, infinity etc in real life ? Most people if you talk to them about these subjects they will call you crazy or at least a weirdo . I use this forum as an outlet to my creative and Philosophical thoughts . I started a few Journals but I wasn't satisfied with them .it didn't feel right to me knowing that thousands of people will read my crap And BTW ..perhaps If you use a picture of yourself as a profile picture, that will help you gain more popularity here.just for people to get to connect with you on a deeper level .just a thought.

@Breakingthewall bro you have some serious talent playing with words in a poetic way. imo ,you are one of the most underrated members here .

OK this is serious shit ..I can't keep it up with smoking insane amounts of cigarettes everyday. This is suicidal. If I keep it up I'm probably on my way to have a heart attack ,a stroke,or lungs or throat cancer . I need accountability partner. Someone who could DAILY check in with me to ensure that I didn't smoke this day . I hope I conveyed the depth of the problem I'm facing in my other thread .. So if anyone is capable..please PM me and I will so much appreciate it . Thanks

Still contains nicotine (which is the substance I'm addicted to ). As bad and unhealthy as tobacco. If not even worse . Same with weed .let alone the fact that I don't have access to these in my country. They are banned/illegal. Nor sure what are these .gotta Google them lol.

Imo ,Anxiety is basically hightened stress response. People who have anxiety react to triggers that most would not. It could be something as small as getting a call, going outside or getting ready for an event. The question that follows is why some people react so strongly to triggers that are not objectively stressful. This comes from a low self-esteem.. people who are constantly doubtful of themselves, their choices and decisions. Such people are those who have become too identified with their thoughts .thoughts which are often self-loathing and reproachful. They have to deal with inner voices that often say things like, “you aren't enough”, “your future looks bleak”, “you are ugly”, “you should just give up”, “you cannot do this”. The problem is they do not realise that these self-loathing voices are not their own. They become too identified with these. Left untreated, these voices take over the subconscious as well in which case anxiety gets worse.

Yes it happens .when you spend a long time without exercising ,you build some sort of tolerance or resistance to it. Which makes it more difficult at first. But as you get used to it ..you start getting your stamina back . OK. But I can't think of any healthy alternatives..my mind is wandering between jerking off to porn ..or fast food and tons of sugary food ..to playing video games endlessly. To spend too much time on this fucking forum mentally masturbating about all kinds of stuff .. Can you suggest an activity to me ?(don't mention exercising ,I don't have the energy to do it .smoking actually zaps you of energy and motivation ).

https://www.osho.com/osho-online-library/osho-talks/awareness-sexuality-transcendence-20c87fb3-c50?p=897cfa16f1317e48a7d1f401b57ea03f A very interesting read .

@Carl-Richard I think I need a more healthy approach to quit. The why /reason has to be strong enough that it outweighs the desire to smoke . i should start going for runs/ exercising. Really shows how bad of shape my lungs are. because I went for a run one day and nearly died not even 5 minutes in lol.

@Carl-Richard ok .fair enough .I appreciate you trying to help. I know you come from good intentions.

@Carl-Richard Is it not likely i will overdose on nicotine just from smoking cigarettes. The body absorbs only about one-tenth of the nicotine in a cigarette, around 1 milligram, when you smoke it. Overdosing from regular cigarettes is rare, but it's possible .but Its gonna require me smoking suicidal amounts . I don't know .something about this whole thing doesn't feel right . No fucking way. Keep dreaming Don't worry. Its ok .I'm a skeptical motherfucker. I don't do stuff like this before researching it enough.

@Carl-Richard OK fuck it ..let's try it out ..what do I have to lose anyways ? Unless It's not deadly right ? I heard that Liquid nicotine and e-cigarettes are more likely to lead to nicotine poisoning compared to traditional tobacco-containing products, such as cigarettes and cigars. So what should I do exactly? Smoke a whole pack that contains 20 cigarettes in them in a row ?

Of course it's the youtuber's fault. But since Leo started giving warnings in his videos about the dangerous of this work..then he is slightly trying to not take responsibility for what anything do with their life using Leo's content . I mean Connor Murphy is a good example .he used Leo's content to basically make a joke of this work and getting himself into troubles . So I would say the responsibility is mutual between both Leo and this audience.

@Carl-Richard I don't know man. Sounds risky to me. Its like saying to an alcoholic that to stop using alcohol you need to get painfully drunk to the point you might have a car accident if you drive while drunk and that will be a wake up call .

No it's not like that . Leo is not selling a knife (or any physical objects). Leo is selling ideas .and he himself recently started to put warnings on his videos that these topics and this information could be dangerous for mentally unstable people. So this user is clearly suffering from Leo's ideas about infinity. And then Leo blames him for parroting what he teaches. I think ideas can change how one views reality. So if you feed your mind positive ideas you will experience a positive reality. If you feed your mind negative ideas you will experience a negative reality. The problem is that this concept of absolute infinity that Leo teaches can easily be turned into negative thinking. Its like yeah we are stuck in an infinite reality that contains all kinds of torture and pain and unimaginable suffering and misery because God wants to experience the full potential of himself. That's what Leo teaches .and that's what this user is parroting right now.

Leo..but aren't you the one who teaches these concepts that this user is anxious abou? You have three videos about absolute infinity describing that reality contains absolutely EVERYTHING even hell Realms and horror? And you have this video titled "the radical implications of oneness " where you talk about how you as God will experience every single possibility that can ever possibly exist. So this user is only parroting what you teach.

Open yourself to the possibility that everything you think you know about reality is complete horseshit.

No .Trust me .it's not escaping from tough emotions or anything like that. It's pure chemical addiction. I'm addicted to the taste and smell of nicotine in my mouth and nose .it has nothing to do with coping with shitty circumstances. I'm skeptical that this will actually work . I can understand eating food(stuffing myself)to the point of puking .but how does that work on smoking ? Besides. I don't think I need to associate smoking with negative experience. I'm already feeling the negative effects .there Is a very painful sensation in my chest and heart area .it's started to take a toll on me . I think I need someone to check in with me daily or a support group (thought about joining discord groups ) who can help me . So basically you are saying to switch my addiction to another addiction that is less damaging? Could be .but I don't think i need meditation to quit but thanks for the suggestions anyways.

When you say there is no individual..what are you exactly talking about? Here I am .I exist. It's the most obvious thing in the world . I do understand tho that there is no separation (no separate self) and that reality is unified undivided field of consciousness. But within this non-dual reality ..there appears to be separate self.sepertate bodies and so forth . So I want you to be clear what do you mean exactly when you say there is no one home . Do you deny our physical existence as living organisms ?or are you talking about the ego being illusory?

For me, it’s called accepting reality. I’m limited in what I know, in my compassion, and in my physical condition. I just am. It would be delusional and counter-productive for me to presume otherwise. None of this means I can’t or don’t seek to improve . I do. But it means I’m doing so aware that even progress is progress, not perfection.

From the Buddhist perspective, which is where this is coming from, I think it's important that one understands what is meant by "no-self". There is clearly a person typing this message out, and you are clearly reading it. And these individuals (me and you) and distinct and different entities, with different feelings, experiences, and emotions. These of course manifest in different personalities. But, there is a tendency to assume that this conception an individual has about their self, "who they are" "what they stand for", etc. is a permenant, fixed, unchanging entitity. We often hear expressions in our common speech, "No matter what happens I will always be this kind of person" and so on. So, there is the idea that is developed which essentially implies that this self is an entity, and it is an entity which exists beyond the confines of the physical body, almost. It is this self that the aforementioned philospohers are claiming as non-existent. Try this thought experiment: imagine yourself at the earliest age possible, 5, 6, 7.. however, young you can recall some sense of self with any capacity. Imagine what your favorite experiences were, your hopes, what you wanted to be as an adult, your favorite show, food, color, etc. Now, I'm sure nearly all of those things are no longer true, correct? What happened to that self? Where did it go? It changed. As you changed physically, and as you experienced more, you altered. But how? And why? And what part of that child is still with the adult? If we could locate that one thread on similarity between your earliest self and today could we say that that is the permemenat self? Surely not. Too many things in your life would be deemed too important by the current incarnation of the self to state that the only existent true self was whatever thread connected to infancy. But the corollary is important to pay attention to as well: what aspects of your present incarnation of self that are curcial to your understanding of your unique individuality will become unimportant and trivial in twenty years from now? Will you have to reduce the self to just the thread that exists from to day to twenty years from now and infancy? No. Because there is no self. This idea of some permement you that exists through space and time is just an illusion. So I get that part ..but then you go on and say : Didn't we just agreed that the self Is an illusion? Then how could an illusion suffer or fear death ? How could something which doesn't even exist suffer any kind of emotion ? One question : a metaphor for what? Second question: do you distinguish between ego death and physical death , Third question: do you think physical death is an illusion ? If so..why ? If not..the what happens after it ?

So which one is it ? An illusion ?or already the case ? I'm still confused. You can't say death =Awakening =God =Love =Truth ..and at the same time say that death is imaginary or that death is already the case ...these three are not the same thing. Not sure how does Leo equate them . @Breakingthewall Death and life are real in this dimension as much as a dream seems real when we are in it. There is however a much greater reality we know after death, that makes our physical passing look very much like an illusion. Our human lives are really an experience of moving our awareness through an infinite field of loving energy that has no beginning and end. Our brains filter this energy and give us the perception of a solid reality. Even our science admits that that are ranges of energy beyond sight and hearing, and now in quantum phsyics there is acknowledgement that at the subatomic level, where we observe something it appears as matter whereas moments before it was only a “probability wave.” So in the end I think it depends on what infinity decides to dream in the next lifetime .If it decides to dream of being a dog or a cat or an ant or a human..or of nothing at all (with the Literal meaning of the word nothing)..then nobody can stop infinity from dreaming whatsoever the fuck it wants .