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Isn’t semen like a Vital fluid that contains a Lot of energy and nutrition ?When you give it away its natural to feel lethargic and down .Makes sense ?

Good point .I don't claim to be enlightened or attained the highest truth.but I've seen some facets and missing other facets .like goodness and love for example. I'm not conscious why existence must be good .and Death is another example. I'm not conscious of what happens after death. I wish eternal rest though.

Because I fear The unknown. And Death is the biggest unknown. I wanna make sure that everything will be okay in the end . Eternal darkness. No experience whatsoever. Eternal sleep . Idk.

I awakend to the fact that I'm the only conscious thing In existence. And there is nothing but me .and everything is my dream .that in itself is not enough to tell me where I came from ,why I am here ,and what happens when I die .these are two separate subjects.

I have no fucking idea .

How so ?I'm not repressing my sexuality. I'm allowing myself to fap whenever I feel like it .and I watch whatever kind of porn that arouses me . Do you think fapping and porn in general are healthy or not?

I heard that orgasms trigger a release of certain neurotransmitters that cause the mood to go down .is that correct?

You look in your 30s .

I disagree. It's the opposite.

Okay so you search for happiness in sex and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in food and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in drugs (tobacco, weed,herion etc) and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in homosexuality and you don't find it .so you search for happiness in religion and you don't find it .in spirituality and you don't find it . Where does it end ? When are you going to be truly happy ? What do you think is always lacking ?what will send you home once and for all ? Probably nothing?

@Inliytened1 cool pic bro .Good to see you

I agree and that's what I came to notice recently. Although it takes a long way of chasing your tail in endless desires before you surrender to unconditional love .

How do you do it in practice?

@itachi uchiha why do you demonize masturbation?

@itachi uchiha what's wrong with having some fun?

What does it teach ?

@Leo Gura I've realised no self and no free will .I've realised absolute Solipsism and the fact that I'm alone as God dreaming up the entire physical world from scratch. All perspectives. All people. .all animals. .all objects. .literally everything is the activity of my imaginative mind .But I Wanna go deeper .I want to explore this rabbit hole to its end (If it even has an end ).I recently started researching psychedelics and dark room retreats to manifest a Mystical experience. I want the highest understanding of reality possible. What am I Missing ? How you define total and final awakening? How to make sure that I Understand everything correctly? Thanks.

Since no one really knows what the fuck is going on here (what reality is ) should we only focus on hedonism and acquiring as much pleasure as possible? I mean life is short and no one has a clue what happens when you die ..probably go to hell..so we might as well enjoy the ride while it's last. These are my thoughts recently. I wanna hear what you think of this ?.

Pray to God.

@machiavelli you're welcome.

@machiavelli all of what you mentioned is basically correct . if you fully grasp what you're talking about then that's awakening.

There is no separate god that created it. It never began and it will never end .and we know this even scientifically. the law of conservation of energy states that the total energy of an isolated system remains constant.. it is said to be conserved over time.This law means that energy can neither be created nor destroyed; rather, it can only be transformed or transferred from one form to another. For instance, chemical energy is converted to kinetic energy when a stick of dynamite explodes. If one adds up all forms of energy that were released in the explosion, such as the kinetic energy and potential energy of the pieces, as well as heat and sound, one will get the exact decrease of chemical energy in the combustion of the dynamite.

I'm practicing contemplating using a journal as Leo suggested in this video to derive my own answers for myself independently. Here are the list of questions I'm currently contemplating: What Is reality ? How to distuingh real from illusion? Is there even a different? How do I know I'm not dreaming right now ? Is solipsism true? Are others imaginary or real ? Am I truly omniscient and omnipresent and omnipotent? Is religion true? Why is there something rather than nothing? Why is reality structured this way and not some other way ? What is happiness? Am I the only conscious person in existence? What are dreams ? Did the past realy exist ? Suggest to me more questions to contemplate .any questions you've been puzzled by . Thanks

How so ? Could you elaborate?

@Michael Jackson i awakend to absolute solipsism. But there are many facets of awakening that I'm still missing. Like I don't know exactly what happens when you die .and I'm not exactly sure what reality is. But I'm aware that it's no different than a dream at night. It's made of the same stuff .and the buck stops here .