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Do you meditate daily ?

@Thought Art @Shiva99 thank you guys for the support . unfortunately though . I just bought a new pack but I didn't smoke yet .I should just get rid of it immediately, right?

For me, this is kinda funny. I've had many suicidal thoughts, and i think i'm more scared of living than dying. Furthermore, i have never experienced "non-being" all i ever know is "being" so i can't really believe, that death means "non-existence" like materialists say. Like, you are here, right? If you were born once, why not a second time? And then third time? Why not infinite times?

When we are born or we are children, we are happy, engaged in ourselves, away from any bond that binds us now. Have you wondered why? Because we don't know much and all we have is us and world to play. As we grow, we get boundaries, limits, dejection because we have accepted the worldly way. So why keep something which depresses you? Why accept the bustle and hazy life when you can call the inner child. When you avoid the trap of thinking that you have something to lose, expectations, fears, worries and largely the whole world simply disappears because all you see is you and now the magic begins.... because you have no one to answer to, all you do is right, hence ultimately what you do gets right for the people around you. We mustn't treat the problem, rather treat the cause. You have held something for so long that you fear losing it. Let go of everything right away. It's not that hard. I have faced such circumstances many times before. All I ask myself is WHY? Always the answer has been something external and quite feeble(often the fear of failure). What I do is that I don't do anything about it. No thinking about something which makes me feel bad and unhealthy. I wasn't born to be afraid or dejected rather I was born to enjoy life and if failure or any such thing of my own creation blocks my path, I shall not bow. The dimensions we think and observe have no meaning to the universe. You are a physical body and you are dimensionless compared to universe let alone your depression and mood. Break out from your boundaries and do not give a damn to anything. When there seems no hope at all just leave what's outside. If something that haunts me never existed in me and it has no real existence then it is of my imaginative creation and you can always improve on that. Your mood, depression and everything else is just a thought. Think about it as you meditate. Results will come. You will feel better and most importantly you will feel alive.

@CuriousityIsKey why do you want to die ? Can you be more specific?

I see. I think it's a hard question to answer, because we have to really define our terms here. We all know what death is, but I think we don't have a great idea about who we are. Now, part of me is a personal identity. "Hi, I'm akshay." Akshay is going to die. All of my opinions and likes and dislikes and habits and memories, they are going to die and never be seen again. But what if there is something about me that is deeper than that? The part of me that is observing all of those things. The part of me that isn't the object of awareness like "table" or "emotion" but the awareness itself. I can conceive of a believable universe in which this awareness is more fundamental to reality than matter is. This awareness is currently inhabiting a body, but it will continue it's journey after the body dies. So in conclusion..this current human self that you are living right now will die and disappear forever and its never going back .and either it's completely blank after that or you will reincarnate as a different creature (not necessarily human ). But who knows.

I've had Tons of awakening in the past .all of them while sober. Without using any chemicals. Awakening to me is simply shedding the false beliefs about reality and hunting the Truth . And it's actually super easy to do . The truth is simply the totality of your direct experience right freaking now. There is nothing else .the past and the future are beliefs .so I guess I'm getting close to grasping Leo's point .if death exists only in the future..and the future is a belief..therefore death is also a belief.

I guess I understand you now . The concept of existence is dependent on the concept of the present. In normal English, once something is "destroyed" it no longer "exists", and nothing "exists" until it has been "created". You can't say something like "the future exists" because it hasn't been created yet and by the definition of existence, it doesn't exist. I was reading comments somewhere and someone said "all of time is actually happening now". That phrase doesn't make sense. The word "now" has already been defined as a reference to our current position in time. You can't use words with a time-based definition to explain concepts contrary to the concept of a "present" that progresses through time.

Maybe! Who knows? The only thing you can say for sure is that if there is even one world where it's physically possible for you to exist, that's where you will find yourself. And that only applies to you and your subjective experience. nobody else. Subjectivity is qualitatively special and for that reason, speculating about anyone who is not you is kind of meaningless. So I'm not concerned about what Leo said because that's his own direct experience. It contradicts mine . Death of the body is a biological fact .I don't understand how "its never going to happen ".

So do you agree with the option that this life is the only life you ever gonna live and after you die you will just turn back into what you were before you were born (which is pure formlessness )? So basically no afterlife? I feel its more useful to think that there isn’t. Like if you assume that you only have one shot at life, then you will do things and have experiences you wouldn’t if you assumed you have another go at it. But so far I would say its a fundamentally unanswerable question given the limited portion of information we have about this subject.

@acidgoofy I believe consciousness is like a bottle of water in the ocean. When I die, the bottle breaks, and the water in it is mixed with the rest of the ocean. Without the container, there can be no “I”, and you cannot fill a container with the same water twice, so “I” won’t be back. But I won’t disappear, I’ll just go back to the same state as before I was born.

No .he clearly said that death doesn't even happen. Not sure myself how to interpret that or make sense of it .

Yeah I think we will inevitably figure it out .if death is real and we are going go die ..then we will know sooner or later what's the deal . So why not just forget about it and focus on enjoying the moment? I think we need a shift in perspective. If it's causing us suffering then that's a sign that something is out of sort. Personally, I never died. I sometimes thought I was dying... but in the end, I did not die. I deduce that death is only for others. Even if it may happen to me again, to think “I am dying”, I say : a thought noting my death is no more possible than a thought noting that I am falling asleep. From the inside, no one dies, no one falls asleep. From the outside, on the contrary, everyone dies. Materialist chose his side outside. Spiritualist chose his side inside. So, materialists die, and spiritualists don’t. Lucky bastards ! Finaly, only materialism makes death frightening. In fact, how could death, this absence of existence, exist ?

That doesn't explain anything. Either I'm dreaming everything or I'm dreaming nothing . Are you saying I'm imagining in my human mind the notion of death and projecting it into the far future when I'm an old ass man ? Or are you saying that even the physical event of death is imagined by universal mind ? Because if its the first then that doesn't mean it can't happen in the future. We imagine the future all the time and it happens .and if its the latter ..Well.. that's something I have no experience of..so I will just have to take your words for. Which I won't do because I like to think independently

@Loba interested to know how exactly did you have a near death experience? Cuz when I was younger I almost drowned in the middle of the sea and I didn't have a near death experience..I was just thinking that I'm gonna simply disappear forever.and never ever again in the history of the cosmos will my life repeat again or any other kind of life for that matter . But after I was rescued ..I thought that death won't ever happen to me if I could survive this situation then I will definitely survive even harder situations in the future if they happen . And now I'm at a point in my life when I'm questioning whether death is even real. I'm kinda losing my mind ngl?

@Rob06 @Rob06 thank you

I once sat down and started questioning what happens after I die ? And I wanted to get a direct answer from within myself. Not go to YouTube or Google for the answer. And all the sudden I got this skeptical idea that "wait a minute, how do I even know that death is real ?". I mean I never experienced it before . Then I thought about what happens when you die In a dream .you simply wake up . So is it that when you die in "real life " that you simply awaken to a higher level of reality beyond the "real life " level (just like how you awaken from nightly dreams to real life). Or is it that death literally doesn't happen at all . Like literally if I just jump off a cliff or shoot myself in the head ..still I won't die .but does that mean I'm stuck in this world forever . I'm confused.

@Leo Gura I really don't know .I'm just speculating here based on the information in the article linked above . but it would be interesting if you explain what exactly happens after you physically die .

Doing nothing is just that...doing nothing. Don't try to stop thoughts or get anywhere or achieve anything. Just let loose and allow whatever is arising in your experience to arise . That means if your mind is going crazy..let it be. You might also benefit from this meditation technique that I discovered from myself...it's about noticing the gap between thoughts and expanding this gap.

Sorry if this offends American people..but is having sex with a hooker easy in America? All I need is to pay good chunk of money and there Is plenty of sluts there who are willing to sleep with you just for money . It's because I'm so desperate these day for getting laid and I feel like pickup just isn't gonna work in India. So I'm considering moving to America for a month or two ..just for the purpose of having sex there . Sorry again but that's what Holywood movies and pornography imprinted in my mind is that sex In America is as easy as breathing. if you are in relationship with American girl it's absolutely yes.in countries like india prematrial sex is seen as taboo and most girls will hestitate or feel guilty to have sex even if you are in relationship but in western countries if a girl is your girlfriend you can have sex without any problems. Am I correct?

I think that's a good point . I need to be 100% in it without hesitation. It's a bit of an open ended question but here's my take. In short, I'd say that finding passion can be thought of in terms of finding love. You aren't born with secret passions that you need to discover (just like you are not born with a soulmate somewhere on the planet that you need to go find), but you are born with a plethora of natural tendencies and curiosities that when explored, can develop to a passion (just like you have natural 'turn ons' that attract you to certain people, and during dating can develop to I think I will just ask myself what's you like to do if A)Money and B) Limitations C) Fear were no problem. Then do that/those things. Most people have multiple things.

Basically I want to try things out of my comfort zone. I like to learn new things but only certain areas interest me, so I pursue those areas and try to branch out in related areas. Let's say I like to camp, so I might go camping in another state, or in another eco zone where I haven't been. I also went from a shy person to being able to be comfortable at a party, I just did it in small steps.

Well.. I mean that there are limits on when it is socially acceptable to start doing particular activities. In cases when it's unavoidable that your inexperience shows and when you need somobody else's cooperation, surprisingly large portion of society will subconsciously or consciously act against you, preventing the experience gain. It's a kind of protectionism that people do not admit and are offended if you convict them of doing it. The most blatant examples are romance and sex. Obviously, it does not apply to travelling or doing anything by yourself. So number one ,# society is stopping me . Then my own laziness and lack of self efficacy.

I better hurry up. I don't want to approach my 30s with almost nonexistent life experience. That would terrible on all levels. I have to start trying to do stuff. I think that at 25.. it may still be "allowed" by most of the society. The older you get, the more you fall into a viscous cycle, as the society prevents you from gaining experience, because you don't have experience.

Lol ? There Ain't no "bars "in my country bro . I should've stated in OP that I live in a third world country where dating before marriage is considered a "sin " . Not to make excuses. But also so we can be clear and realistic.