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I had the same situation a while back . Here is what I did to to resolve it: I asked myself what my superpower was (we all have one, you know.) What was it that I loved doing the most? That thing that I could do all day without getting bored or tired? What gives me the "where does the time go" feeling? To answer these questions, I took my time. And I found mixing music and creating music is my thing . Find a hobby that you enjoy. Go buy sport's shoes and run miles or play soccer or whatever.

Haha fair enough. What would we should do to you if Messi didn't win ?

@Tyler Robinson hi .I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I know it's terrible. Let me try to shed some light on your situation so that you have an idea what's going on. The reason you are having a lot of negative thoughts is because your mind is idle. The reason your mind is idle is because you don't have energy to do anything. The reason you don't have energy to do anything is because you are channeling the bulk of your energy into suppressing your emotions, as a result of your negative thoughts. Negative thoughts -> negative emotions -> use energy to suppress emotions -> no energy to do anything else -> mind is idle -> more negative thoughts The fear that you will not be normal is one such negative thought. It's all connected, but it can be hard to see when you're in the thick of it. It's all one big haze, one neverending cloud of darkness. The first thing to realise is that you cannot trust your own thoughts. That's scary, I know. But when you're in the midst of a depressive episode, you cannot trust your own mind. That means some of the things that your mind thinks are real, some are not, and you are unable to differentiate which is which. In such times when you can't even trust your own mind, who can you trust? your parents your best friends your therapist Pick one or two, and trust that person’s words over your own, against your better judgement because during these times, your judgement is impaired. The second thing to do is to reduce the number of thoughts that come to mind. Remember, the reason you have so many is because your mind is idle. Give your mind something to do. I highly encourage going out into the sun and doing some vigorous exercise. Sunlight and exercise and great ways to lift the cloud of darkness around you, for physiological reasons. Also try serious meditation retreats .or just meditation I'm home . Can make you feel present and in touch with the real world . Call a suicide prevention hotline ASAP if you feel you can't take it anymore. I hope others will give you something useful if mine wasn't useful for you . Can't much comment on the journal thing .because I'm not part of the staff here. I wish you to live a long happy life with peace in your heart . I hope you get better soon .

France will win .

No . I no longer need them as its clear from the title. Im finally cured. If it’s possible for people to stop taking heroin then it’s possible to stop taking antidepressants. People just have to be prepared to feel off or bad until the brain chemistry re-sets and you adapt to your new normal. many I know have come off anti-depressants and are using alternative methods to deal with their flux in moods. I came off antidepressant drugs in the beginning of last July. and doing fine using meditation, exercise, and being in nature. This is my experience, but I don't know if it may not be helpful for others. But I just shared what has worked for me . Also the meditation technique is EXTREMELY helpful and powerful. And is mandatory to cure the anxiety.

i'm so happy ! i just really want to share it with someone! i have been creating my own happiness outside of other people for a while now. i've been getting to know myself and i LOVE spending time with ME! i'm so proud of what i have achieved so far and excited for the journey ahead of me. i just get these random bursts of "I LOVE MY LIFE AND MYSELF, WOO!" lol, so here i am! I'm so happy I could cry For the last two weeks I have been strangely positive about life and myself. I've been so happy at times that I could literally start crying in the middle of the street. I don't know why though, from pure happiness. For the first time in my life I can actually say that I love myself, the nature, life etc. and mean it. Mean it so badly that it makes my cry lol. I was also pretty scared that it won't last this week but it did. I am doing well. I am pretty sure that it's all the result of daily meditations, vitamins, music, cutting down on cigarettes, recent sexual experience etc. the nice stuff that I do for myself. It's incredible. I wish I could share it (transfer it) with all of you guys. Love you all ❤ ??

@Razard86 exactly! What if consciousness has nothing to do with the brain? What if quantum theory and relativity amount to a load of malarkey? I think that these questions are roughly comparable, and that the answer is the same in the two cases: It’s back to the drawing board! neuroscience has no explanation of consciousness. Nor will they ever have .because they are tackling it from the wrong paradigm. So far, they really can’t. They speculate. They philosophize. They conjecture. But they don’t explain. Mainly because they still don’t have a model (descriptive or constructive) of what consciousness is. What exists is several speculative philosophical arguments, not too different from the arguments used to define beauty.

Yes, exactly .. it is senseless. The whole point. It is paradoxical to a thinking mind. Not that thinking is bad .. far from it. It is like small whirlpool alongside of a river. Not that whirlpools are bad, either. ..you could frame it however you want .the point is that all these apparent paradoxes are dualistic .at the ultimate level..no self =self . There is no you =all that there is ,is you etc .all duality must break down at the ultimate level to lead to both,none, simultaneously.

Paradoxes are the consequences of the rules and laws fixed by science but if we go into spirituality and get at the state of enlightenment, then every paradox's answer can be given. The most important paradox is of self that says a question (“Who Am I”) am I just particles or strings or some chemicals and energy or am i something more than that?, the question of the self to the self for the self is known as spirituality.

I didn't smoke for the past month. And I'm willing to continue.

I see where you are coming from. But i guess I know myself And my situation in life better than anyone else ?? People often ask to themselves this question.How long can happines really last ? well if we first of all we should take a note that people who want to be always happy should become mad so that you will be happy forever. Keeping it aside if we look at the happines of a person. It mostly depends on the attitude of a person .And the people who have tendency to complain for evry thing ,”well they will have little of happiness “. On the contrast to that people who doesn't complain , who are gratefull for the little things which they get will be happy for longer time .So it mostly depends on your how your attitude and yeah as i said mentioned above no one can be happy forever you will face problems.But we should not forget rainbows appear only after a storm. So cherish every small moment .Be happy to get to see every morning sun shine .Be happy to have all those idiot friends who are the reasons for your spicy life. Be happy to get to see wierd people because they are the ingredients of your awesome life . So want to stay happy change your attitude

Ooof. I'm not a liar.

Haha thanks bro ? Although as I said it's because of plenty of reasons .not just the sexy time . I believe I finally achieved true happiness. After a very bad times in the beginning of this year . But I made some changes in my lifestyle ..I stopped smoking ..meditation 1 hour everyday etc I realized something that @Nahm used to preach..feelings are what's important. The only thing that matters is your demands and requirements. Once, your demands get fulfilled, you become happy for the time being. While, the next moment you might feel that you need more. That is not enough. Happiness is the ultimate reason for which human beings work so hard. We work hard with the hope that we will seek happiness. In fact, happiness is the ultimate aim of every living beings on this planet. Happiness is the reason of one’s survival. And I have it.

@Carl-Richard @Vincent S @Razard86 ❤

Unfortunately yes . But it wouldn't be a happy ending to his phenomenal career.

@Ulax thanks man . Love ya ?

Reality is ineffable.

I feel like I've finally made it. I finally accomplished a goal I set for myself and I'm so happy. As a fitting end to my story. This is what really put a smile on my face because I knew I had made it. Things just reached their natural conclusion where I enjoy each moment. So maybe what I thought would be the end is actually a beginning. I'm glad to have you to chat with, friend, you are a very intelligent person. Thank you so much for all you've done.?

I did it . I fucking did it . I lost my virginity to this hot girl (please no personal questions about the girl. like where she from or whether she is blonde or brunette etc .to save her privacy ) So we both arrived to the hotel in 8th December. I didn't pick up her from his house. She told her family that she is going for a vacation with her girl friends. So we arrived late at night and it was the perfect time. Before I arrive I masturbated to test myself..didn't cum .just was checking if my dick is working. me and this girl were alone. I kissed her and hugged her then I asked her If I can go the shower. She didn't mind .she asked me "do you want me to go to the shower with you ?" That statement turned me on so much .I went to the shower and started checking again if my dick is working. It was .so I didn't feel I need Cialis. . As I was masturbating I heard her get in the outdoor shower. I heard a lot of moaning and went to check on her and I asked her if she was okay and she turns off the water and she walks out of the shower completely naked looking like a goddess..she had big breasts and was curvy. Then she looked at me up and down and she said “I need your help” And I instantly started growing a boner. but as I was talking to her , the horny 14 year old I am I started to get hard and she noticed and asked to touch it. I had to think about it for a minute and then I say sure so then we went inside and she started licking all over my cock and balls, and she was sooo good. It felt amazing and after a while I asked if I could play with her, so I started kissing her neck then her feet and went back up to to her breasts then to her thighs and then to her pussy and it was soooo wet, and I couldn’t get enough of her and she tasted so sweet. After a while I asked if I could put it in. She said yes please, as she grabbed my cock and shoved it deep in her pussy. I went in and out really slow. Then she grabbed my hips and thrusted me deep inside of her pussy, she was moaning super loud and it didn'ttake long for her to cum. and she came a second time but this time was different because she absolutely soaked me in her sweet squirt. Then a few minutes later I came so deep inside her pussy (in the condom of course, so no risk of getting her pregnant).and it was the biggest load I had ever seen. Then after that we made out for a few minutes but she told me to wait there for a minute and she went to her room and after 5 minutes she came out wearing a strapon and she had a bottle of lube in her hand. She said bend over bitch ..so i did then she started to tongue my asshole. After that she put some lube on her finger and slid it in slowly and it hurt but it felt good. So I was ready for the strapon and she lubed it up and stuck it in and I screamed super loud but I told her don’t stop and she kept on pounding my ass and soon after I had the best orgasm of my entire life, and the gape on my tight ass was the biggest gape I will ever see in my lifetime but she was playing with my balls . And man ..I've never ever felt that good my entire life . Then we ate some pizza and went to sleep .I rested my head between her tits and slept like that . That was the first night . Then the next day she told me she doesn't like to have sex In the morning. So we ate something. Played some video games together. And before you know its.it went dark . we started by making out and taking each others clothes off, then once i was naked and she was in her underwear she pushed me against the wall and sucked my dick which at the time was about 5 inches i think. I was so turned on. then she laid out on the bed took her panties and bra off and told me give her oral, which i didnt even know you could do to a girl but she told me how, then we decided it was time to finally do it we did missionary style and were making out and hugging the whole way through and its to this day one of my favorite memories of my life, the intimacy there was something ive never gotten again, it was so special because it was our first time. we were both pretty bad at it but i last about 5 minutes until i pulled out and nutted on her boobs we then cleaned up and put on our underwear and she just laid on top of me and we fell asleep, it was like a scene out of a movie and i think it was the perfect way to lose your virginity We didn't have sex the next day because we were sexually exhausted. Instead we spent our time eating KFC and playing video games and I ordered champagne and we both got drunk and slept on each other's belly. Then the next day we have regained our energy and appetite for sex . Although not fully. Because I orgasmed three times. So I popped two pills of Cialis. we had a wonderful view of the sunset. Then when the night came , We immediately started making out with each other and then she went down on her knees and started sucking me off. I was already hard and she was looking at me seductively. We stripped fully naked and I penetrated her from behind. slowly and soon after 5–10 mins I was fully inside her. Never had I felt our bodies so connected and we started thrusting in sync loving it all. It was over within 5 mins. Thanks to the foreplay she came first. I then came over her face and boobs. We cleaned up and then returned we left the hotel next morning .The experience ended and then we met our friends in the cafeteria. I gave her a wink and she smiled back. He had sex a lot of times before that.(she wasn't virgin, she didn't bleed when I penetrated her). We left today's morning because we were both tired and exhausted after having ejaculated too much . One note I want to add is that sex require physical strength. Unlike masturbating. In masturbation only two muscles are working : Your dick and your hand . But in sex your whole body is performing effort . So if any of you guys have not had sex before ...just know that it's a little bit difficult than masturbation. Also there is performance anxiety which can make your dick limp no matter how hot your partner is or how she is seducing you . In conclusion: This was the happiest week In my entire life .I made some epic memories to remember for the rest of my life And what's more exciting is she told me we can do it again in the future. ??

Yep. I told her early on that I like my asshole liked, fingered ,and fucked .I told her in our second date when I first got to know her that I have some gay tendencies like this one . She didn't mind .I'm really lucky to find an open minded and sexually involved girl like her (I guess it's cuz she ain't Indian ). She is very sexually experienced. (She wasn't virgin) she fucked guys before me ...but I just couldn't care less .I was desperate for sex. She told me if you want to keep taking my clothes off and fuck my brains out, that’s heaven for me. I think a man who shows his desires, lusts to a girl and I doesn't give a shit about all that ..will be more desirable by women.

@Ulax thank man Yeah I just felt I liked it(the anal play ).. It felt really intimate, something only we could share. It Showed that she liked my body as much as I liked hers and sometimes it was not so subtle signal that we were going to get all naughty . But I fucking enjoyed it and that's what matters, okay ?

@Gesundheit2 @blueberries @petar8p @Razard86 @Federico del pueblo @Roy @Jannes Thanks ?

Wohoo I'm feeling on top of the world. The girl I met few weeks ago in college told me she is ready to have protected sex ..I booked a 4-star room in a hotel in Delhi from 8-12 December. Why ? Because I simply can't have sex at my apartment. My apartment is in the same building as a guesthouse. In fact, I’m the only permanent resident here apart from the owners of said guesthouse. And almost on both a daily and nightly basis, I’m “treated” to the sounds of guests who check in for 10 or 15 minutes and then check out again. It’s made me more disgusted with humanity than I ever thought was possible. So that's why I'm shooting for a hotel . However that's NOT my primary concern at the moment. My primary concern is that the last two times I masturbated ..I was so sensitive (because I've been doing nofap since January). I ejaculated in less than 3 minutes. So I don't want that to happen when I fuck this girl..I want this night to last for hours ..I want to absolutely fuck the shit out of this girl .if I ejaculate too early ,it will be a failure. So I need to buy three things : 1-a condom. 2-a spray that reduces the sensitivity of my dick so that I can last longer . 3- a pack of Cialis to help me get it up so that if for any reason I couldn't get hard . This is my first time having sex ever . So I hope you guys overlook my immature excitement. and any sex experts here who had plenty of successful sex before to share how to have a kick-ass amazing sex ?. Oh man! LIFE IS GOOD ?

Lol thanks man ?

Of course it's a form of cheating . But you have to be open-minded about guys .most guys are bisexual but they keep it as a secret. They don't tell anyone about it .so im not sure how did he have the gut to tell it to you explicitly that he wants to sleep with a guy .he should've kept it a secret and not tell you about it .but since he is not doing it behind your back and he is open with you about it ...then you might want to give him some credit for being honest . Like i said If I was a girl and my boyfriend displayed gay tendency I would immediately broke up with him . Why? Because somehow being gay emasculates men. However..if I'm being honest , I'm not sure what should you do. That kinda sucks, not knowing if the person you're romantically and sexually involved with actually swings your gender-way. Maybe try to offer him what he is looking for in a guy. So maybe you should fuck him in the ass if that's what he wants . Option 1: buy a strap-on penis, duct-tape your breasts into your armpits and walk into the bedroom naked with your strap-on hard-on and see if your boyfriend yodels with delight. Option 2: potentially deeply offend your boyfriend by questioning his sexuality and sexual commitment to you. Option 3: be confident in your attraction and attractiveness and your lovability and trust your boyfriend and drop the topic and any associated thoughts and . Do whatever YOU find best. Good luck ?.