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Tonight. Im available until I go to bed Tonight. Tomorrow morning I will go off permanently .

I appreciate you too. But I have made my mind. I must quit this forum and go off all by myself from a ground zero to discover the truth and to achieve success in my life. And basically I disagree with the entire worldview of leo. So no point in me being here.

I've spent 2 years on this forum. It's been a great experience. And Leo kept telling me that I'm not doing the work and that I'm mentally masturbating. And that's true. So if I came back it would be after purchasing some psychedelics or having a huge awakening realization. Otherwise, unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) there is really no point in me being here any more. Thanks for the gentle comment. You are a wise dude. Well, the root cause is I simply have no clarity on what It is that I want. Do I want full awakening? If that's really what I want it's definitely not going to be by being In a internet forum and eating pop corn and posting half assed posts about awakening. The issue is I'm not awake. And I simply realized that one of the main reasons for that is me being on this forum. I also fundamentally disagree with Leo about Solipsism, idealism, god realization or whatever it was called. That's Not awakening.

Professional philosophers are just like Leo. They have their own body of work. Whether it's YouTube channel like leo or writing a book. Mostly I will become a philosophy professor but Leo has said that philosophy done in academia is not real philosophy. Just like what you've been taught in school for fucking 20 years. Memorizing shit that you won't get to use even once in your adult life.

We will see . For now all I can say is I made up my mind and I chose to focus on my life purpose which is to become a professional philosopher. And for that I have to work really hard and lessen my social media consumption and just make a fresh start.

For me it can't work. I post here daily. That's not what I should be doing at this point in my life. I must focus on getting a uni degree and escape poverty and other important stuff than mentally masturbating about how long is God's dick.

1-get the hell out of your house. Start approaching today. This night. Stop procrastinating. 2-dress well, smell well and get a nice haircut. 3-do not memorize any pick up lines or openers. Be comfortable with your genuine vibe. 4-be polite and don't talk about anything sexual, especially in the first date. 5-make her laugh. If you succeeded in putting a smile on her face then you are 90% getting laid. 6-ask her for another date and get her number. The rest will just take care of itself. Good luck!

I won't.

@Devin thanks.

@Breakingthewall thanks bro. It was a pleasure reading your sophisticated posts and we had a lot of fun together. Wish you all the best and complete awakening ? I know. But not coming back. I want to take my practical life seriously. Im gonna quit anything that Is not contributing to my life In a practical way.

Is there any scientific research that studies the relationship between age and happiness level? I feel like the more I grow up, life becomes dull and boring and melancholic. Whereas my childhood was filled with joy and bliss and excitement. Up to teenage age I was happy almost for no apparent reason. But now in my late twenties I feel a little bit depressed for no apparent reason. I don't know how to describe it. But the older I get the more I feel like reality is getting on a low resolution acceleration. Literally the sun is less bright and the days are just boring and repetitive. Why is that? Also I expect that when I get to my 30s that this will get worse. Anyone can relate to what I'm saying?

Well, “you” cannot transcend "the ego" because the ego is the you asking the question And one’s ego will never destroy itself. And yet ego transcendence can & does happen. But it's not for my ego.

You are overthinking this a lot. Every living being will die inevitably eventually. I would go vegan because it is healthy not because of this reason.

What is the argument for that? Transcending the ego is itself a constant struggle. Because you have to go against your personal desires and comfort zone. And also you can't erase the ego completely. To function as a human being you have to have a sense of self.

I guess that most people get sadder as they move out of childhood and realize what the world is like and how Brutal it is. They can occasionally feel better but the general level of happiness is lower than in childhood. Even though I was bullied all the way through my school years.. I was still happy more often because I had a couple of friends. We would buy candy and cookies, write stories, build huts out of branches and come up with plays. Whereas when you are an adult, you have to constantly worry how are you going to take care of yourself financially, when are you going to get a job, what if you get a job and then it turns out you suck at it and they don’t give you enough time to learn? Adult life is full of worries like that. Also once you reach 60, everything starts to dissolve physically and you just wish to die to finally rest in fucking peace.

That's true. I can confirm that. Unfortunately most of the time we have to learn by making mistakes. We understand what truly matters by fucking up many many times and doing the wrong things expecting that It will give us happiness. I envy you lol. I don't resonate with this. I don't feel like I am in heaven. There is so much stress, struggle, and suffering in my life. I need to transcend the duality between good and bad to realize Absolute Good with no opposite. But I still have a long way to go. Thank you for the suggestions.

So in childhood there is less ego and more spontaneity.. And at old age you just grow tired of chasing your selfish desire.. So again less ego and a bittersweet type of happiness. But what about 20s to 40s? The ego fully matures at this range.. But having lived so much you start having experience fatigue and you just want to lay in bed all day doing nothing.

I don't understand. If you are saying that illusion =reality...then there is no difference at all between "ACTUALLY " and "NOT ACTUALLY "..and so there is an apparent boundary between each object in the universe .and there is at first glance a space or a distance between any two distinct objects . So if you hold an egg on one hand and you hold an apple on the other hand ..these two objects are different, right ? So the apparent boundary between my physical body and your physical body is ACTUALLY there as long as we are hypnotised by the illusion of separation. Which I think god have created for a reason . After all you are typing on a computer right now to what seems to be an "other " on the other side of the globe .why are you doing this if I'm not actually real from your POV ? Do you realize that you are literally just talking to yourself? Or do you adopt it as a belief system or a cool philosophical idea ? I'm not trying to be smart arse here or split hairs .I'm coming from genuine curiosity and desire to understand .because this whole solipsism stuff is raping my mind on a daily basis ?

Again..if God is infinite..he will try the "unnecessary "route as well . I agree we don't need stuff behind the scenes to explain the first order layer of qualia/consciousness. And that our direct experience is first order .but still ..if God wants..he definitely can imagine a big bang ..Space ..time ..atoms ..fucking math equations and all that to underpin the first order consciousness. If you say God can't do do this then you are basically saying God is not omnipotent. That's my point .unfortunately you did not address it in your reply .

Interesting man! Seems like you broke out to other dimensions. Physicists say reality has 11 dimensions to it. But maybe thats just what has been discovered yet . Just the tip of the iceberg. Probably reality has infinite dimensions. And all that..And that's not even the most potent psychedelic out there. They say Salvia is a total reality shatterer. I read some fascinating salvia trip reports. People say if you've ever done some DMT and broken through, multiply that by a million and it's still a tame experience in comparison. It breaks reality. It leaves you having no idea what the fuck happened. And It can't be "Englished" because it would be like trying to stick a fork into the moon.

@Inliytened1 if God is infinite..why can't we have multiple layers of reality ? And why can't we both be conscious simultaneously? If that's an impossibility to you,then aren't you limiting god that way? You are basically erasing the omnipotent feature from God by claiming that God can't have multiple experiences happening simultaneously.

@Oppositionless @Leo Gura what fascinated me the most is the second DMT video . Thats like a portal to a whole different dimension of existence where nothing makes sense anymore. Is that for real what you guys see on DMT ?

But you claimed in the past that you've achieved total omniscience. I remember in your live awakening video you claimed to know everything. And here in the forum you explained that omniscience is not to know for example what your neighbour ate for dinner but to recognize that your neighbour is your own imagination. Or something like that. So how come you say now that you didn't reach it? Or do you mean that you are just not in that state right now in the ordinary sober state of consciousness? NO Leo. Please don't retire just yet .you changed my life since discovering your content and this forum .and you still have a huge amount of wisdom to share .please don't quit just yet . Sure, take breaks all you want and reduce the frequency of your publishing. But please don't retire ?.

I have a question, is there an end to this bottomless hole we call awakening? Is there a final stage of awakening when you understand absolutely every single goddam thing ever and you feel full to the brim and all your questions will be answered ? Or it follows that since reality is infinite there cannot be a final awakening and its a never ending process of ever deeper exploring? I'm asking because over the years ..you always come up with new crazy levels of awakening..so I want to make sure that you are not just keeping your audience on a treadmill for your own benefit or to make profit or to turn spiritual work and awakening into a business . I apologise if that sound ill intented or disrespectful of your work .but I'm asking genuinely.

Yeah so that's why we feel terrified of losing our sanity .we know it's just a house of cards and a little incident in our lives can turn our existence into a blazing hell . It actually seems impossible to me to seek the ultimate nature of reality without losing my mind a little bit . If reality is infinite then it has the power to turn the entire universe upside-down and downsid-up. After watching your solipsism video it got stuck in my mind for few weeks .I thought I had brain cancer. I thought my mind was doing extra thinking because it knew it was about to die and the truth will annihilate all my flimsy attachments to realiy being real vs imaginary.