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A little bit at first. But I was overtaken by bliss that I didn't care. Also, I switched postures.

Nope. Mostly laying down.

Of course you can't stop thinking permanently. You can't stop thinking even for one minute. But thats not the point. It is not that you have to stop thinking. You have to create a gap between thoughts and awareness. If you put a distance between the intrinsic silence of your awareness (which is the natural state of mind, just like when you are sleeping) and thoughts, then you notice that thoughts are just gibberish. You are allowed to think when you need to. This happens automatically. You are not even the thinker of thoughts.

What is wrong with "hedonism"? The point of life is to maximize happiness and minimize pain. Nothing else matters,really. Where have you ever seen a future? The future is just a fiction In your mind. And this very belief in the future is what obscures happiness in the now. Which is the only thing that exists. And the only thing that will ever exist. Trauma is In the past. I would only concern myself with it If we invented a time machine and are Able to go back in time and prevent it from happening in the first place. False. it is the story of the time (past and future) that is preventing you from happiness in the now. There is absolutely nothing wrong with your life right now. But if you think about it.. There is. Therefore, stop thinking.

All of that is just mental noise and overthinking. Which veils the unconditional peace of this very moment. Don't worry. Your body is the most intelligent machine in the universe. You will eat when you need to .you will fight when you need to. Or maybe you won't. Why is that a problem? It's like you're saying we should be all tensed up in A fight or flight mode 24/7 because..Well.. you never know...the boogeyman might eat you while you are sleeping. I've discovered this insight yesterday after meditating for 6 HOURS STRAIGHT!.

@Egosum solipsism is just a big pile of bullcrap.

Think about it ..what is the location or position of existence? Where is it existing? Like we exist inside the universe, right ? Then where does the universe exist ? Let's imagine that the universe exists in some sort of container that is bigger than it ...OK fine ..but that is just pushing the problem back one level ..because we have to ask where does that container exist ? And immediately you should see that we are facing the "turtles all the way up " situation here. Existence has no beginning or end . And therefore it exists quite literally nowhere. But that's the macro level that I just explained..let's consider the micro level . What do you think is the building blocks of existence? You might say atoms . But of course you have to ask what are the atoms made out of ? And again you are just pushing the problem down one level and we are facing a "turtles all the way down "again . We can do the same thing with Time as well . And my point is that existence being infinite in all directions and dimensions is something that will shatter your mind's ability to comprehend. Think about the ramifications of that . Post em in the comments below !

I mentioned many times before that I struggle with chronic absence of pleasure as well as anxiety. Now here is where things get to me. They say that pleasure (our good moods) aren't all that important in life and that there is far greater meaning and joy one can have in their lives besides their good moods. They say pleasure is nothing more than some chemical feel-good sensation and that.. For this very reason.. it is nothing important and that there are far more meaningful and joyful things in life such as making the world a better place and other such moral obligations and moral duties. Or finding the ultimate Truth. But what these types of people fail to realize here are two things. I will explain the first. There is a big difference between the idea of something versus the experience of that said thing. I could say to you that physical pain is nothing bad at all and doesn't matter simply because it is nothing more than a chemical response in the brain. But if I were to take a saw and saw your arms and legs off, then imagine just how awful of an experience that would be for you. As a matter of fact, I would actually consider this a form of mental health stigma against people who struggle with anxiety. They tell people to just deal with it simply because they think that anxiety is nothing more than some unpleasant chemical sensation in the brain. But little do they realize the actual experience of anxiety that this person is going through and just how awful and life-destroying this said experience is for him/her. So you can see the difference here between the idea of something and the experience of it. So you could tell me all you want that my pleasure is nothing important at all, but little do you realize just how profound and great of an experience it is for me. In terms of the experience of pleasure, I wouldn't even describe it as pleasure because to do so would imply that it is nothing more than some pleasant sensation. I would describe the experience as a completely divine magical sacred energy that fills my life with complete joy and meaning. No other experience in life ever compares to it. All other experiences in life are absolutely nothing in comparison. We are not talking pleasure here. We are talking an experience that is on a whole new plane of existence for me. So that is what my experience of my good moods are like for me. They are the very source of all joy and meaning in my life and are what give joy and meaning to everything else in my life.

Let's agree to disagree then Those who can handle the truth can be the most happy because a lot of truth is ugly and not happy. The truth is hard to digest. To be happy you do not need to be true. Truth is a lot harder to process. However, it is the truth that will set us free. It depends on the person. A lot of people are happy not knowing or living in truth.

Thank you. I will contemplate on this .

@SourceCodo @amanen This experience, right here, right now, pure magic, this now is the whole point! Have fun no matter what ..bla bla bla .. that's my current attitude. I'm the happiness in the sense that when I meditate and detach from all the bullshit of everyday life ..I feel at peace . But that itself is a conditional happiness. Because I have to be meditating .so this utopian Buddhist unconditional happiness is a fairy tale.

I can't do psychedelics for the next decade or so .so you can forget about it. Actually I'm not saying that I'm suffering currently. I used to have anxiety back in the last year. But since seeking medical help I improved a lot. I'm saying that happiness and enjoyment is the point of life .not anything else. No matter how much you talk about other important stuff ..what you are really seeking is happiness. Or to put it more bluntly..pleasure. yes ! You are a pleasure rat .all you care about In fact is just pleasure. Even seeking truth ..you seek truth because you seek the good feeling that comes from achieving it.

I'm not conscious of that. Perhaps you can help me awaken to the fact that what I am is happiness and that I don't need it from external sources.

Nothing traumatic about it. It's quite obvious. There is no "history" in the Here - Now(Aka direct experience). Hence it only exists as a thought in your mind. Nothing creepy about it. Stop exaggerating things

Can you help me get my hands on some ?

Continue to read ..I explained it here:

I was texting my girlfriend and she is a nerd freak just like me(although she knows nothing about nonduality)and we had a discussion about the existence of God. So I thought I would share it..because I made a really good points lol. she asked me : Her: do you think god exists? Me : of course. Her: what is your proof? Me:existence! Her: how so? Existence could be a product of chance or maybe there is multiple universes or maybe we are inside a simulation... Why does it have to be God? Me: existence is a proof of existence. God is existence actual existence. Her: I don't understand.. Which god are you talking about? Me :there can only be one God because there can only be one infinity. Her: that's true but which God is the real one? The Christian God or the hindu God etc? Me : none of them. Her: how so? Which one is it then? Have you seen him? Me : of course no. No one can and no one will. How can you see something that has no beginning and no end? Her: hmm.. But then .. What makes you sure that God exists? ..isn't it better to be agnostic? .. Maybe there is no God after all.. Me : lol. There is no way. If you are fully aware of this present moment you will know it's impossible that God doesn't exist. Her: what does that have to do with God? Me: because God is not separated from creation.. God's fingerprints are present in every moment of creation. If you can see it you can see him. Her: you just said that you can't see him.. Me :yes because God is infinite.. There is no place for both YOU and HIM to be .. He take all the place.. If he is to be present.. You have to leave first. Her: leave? Me : to die basically. To disappear. That's the only way to see God directly and to know for certain that he is real. That he is the reality itself. Her: so are you saying that God is existence.? Like the pantheism of eastern religions? Or is God a separate being who created the world and is no longer in contact with it? Me : the infinite can't be separated from anything. Yet at the same time it is always free and not limited to only include a certain finite worlds. So God is precisely this present moment that you are experiencing right now and yet he is none of that stuff and completely beyond it and beyond anything you can even imagine!, Her: that's weird lol Me : exactly. God is a weird motherfucker. Why do you think humans struggle so much with understanding God? In fact he cannot be understood. That's what makes God God. You can understand anything except God. Investigate reality as deep as you can.. And once you hit a point where your mind collapses and your logic give up.. You've reached God.. You've reached to nowhere and everywhere.

@Leo Gura Who is the 'right' online Guru for you, the most ‘reliable’ to guide you home on your 'spiritual path?' For me.. No one. Or, it doesn't matter. Do you choose your Guru, does the guru choose you, or does Life choose both? There is no Guru, no "you," and no 'spiritual path.' Just Life, unfolding. And "you" are already Home. Probably sounds like Nahm's neo advaita? Could be but I'd rather be told that god is the most near and intimate thing to me. Not that I have to hallucinate 150 times to just get an idea of what God actually is. Also btw you said you gonna tone down the arrogant vibe

I think I have shared every single insight I have and every single question I have with you guys. I feel like I am addicted to this forum and it's affecting my study and my work. Also I might be afraid of solipsism because recently I had a weird experience in my sleep that made me feel like I was all alone. So I wanted to contemplate this issue alone by myself. I enjoyed every single conversation with all the members here and especially with Leo. I learned a lot by being here. But I feel like It's time to drop my attachment to this forum and jump into a more practical life. The main reason I'm leaving is because I do a lot of mental masturbation here without doing anything practical. And so the forum overall is a bit bad for my life at this point. I'm 26 now and this is a very crucial period of my life. My whole future hinges upon me doing my best or else I will not achieve my goals and my dreams. I enjoyed my time with you guys.. Where else In real life can I have conversations about God, metaphysics, solipsism, free will, spirituality etc...? But honestly I feel like I shared everything I want to share and now I'm just repeating myself and posting boring stuff. So I cannot continue. Anyways thanks to everyone who engaged with me in a meaningful respectful deep conversation. I appreciate everyone of you guys. I will be active for a couple of days to respond to any questions you may have. Then I will disappear. Much love to yall ?

Lmao. ? Surprise surprise.. I'm back and it hasn't been 2 days already lol. It seems like this forum regulates my serotonin levels. And I get a hit of dopamine with each notification.lol. Jesus.. That's tougher than quitting porn or Tobacco. So without rambling too much.. I won't be leaving the forum just yet. And sorry for the unnecessary drama

@OBEler thanks buddy ?

@PenguinPablo solipsism Is false.

Who says so ? Evolution never happened. The entire past and history of the universe is imaginary. God doesn't need to go through a process of steps of Evolution..it can pull anything out of its ass like magic hat . Evolution requires time . Time itself is something you are imagining. You don't need to believe me (I'm talking seriously now ) ..you can test what I'm saying against direct experience.

Elaborate?

I agree. A finite mind cannot comprehend the infinite. But I don't have any method to expand my mind other than meditation and listening to your videos. You know why? Because I was born in a shitty country that makes it impossible for me to get my hands on some 5 meo. Also I was raised by hindu family and I got brainwashed certain things about what God is. Its nothing in mine and I am just fine with that. God is just result of your society passing on old beliefs. If you were lost in the woods as child and raised by animals would you ever hear about any god? No. Your belief comes not from the facts, god himself or herself but from society you were raised in. You see, if you were raised in Iran you would be Muslim, or in India. you would be Hindu or China.. Buddhism or USA.. Christian…etc.