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Kids’ talk .

Kids’ talk.

Interesting. I think the only purpose of life is to love myself as I am . Self-Love. Self-Acceptance. it should be natural, but it isn’t because we’ve been conditioned to judge ourselves and get judged by others.

@Nemra was it that the distinction between dream vs reality realized experientially to be imaginary? Whereas in the past it was just theoretical ?

So , you had a dream …aaaand ?

I’m really not in a hurry at all regarding sex or marriage or any kind of a relationship with a girl currently. I’m currently pursuing other stuff .

No it’s not like that . I just don’t have that itch “I want to have sex with a girl this week”. I welcome it if it was available, but same same . obviously you are not me and you are experiencing the urgency. Good luck !

The urgency is unnecessary . Don’t set a time like “this week “. This puts unnecessary pressure on you . im honest as well . I want to have sex with a girl asap too if possible , it’s just not bugging me .

Then why so desperate?

Are you a virgin ?

Today spend time meditating , contemplating, relaxing ,praying , just grounding. Not too much noise and toxicity.

Yesterday I could not sleep without repeating the Islamic mantra, La ilaha illa Allah :“There is no god but God.” I had been feeling afraid and deeply sad, carrying a heaviness within me that I could not easily explain or remove. I deal with this almost every day:a feeling of uncertainty, vulnerability, and fear before the vastness of existence. In that state, I began repeating La ilaha illa Allah. At first, I repeated the words almost mechanically, simply because I needed something to hold on to. But gradually, something inside me began to change. The repetition gave my mind a point of concentration. Instead of allowing my thoughts to scatter endlessly, I returned again and again to the same declaration: there is no ultimate reality, no ultimate power, and no ultimate object of worship except God. As I continued repeating it, I began to calm down. I felt less alone within my own thoughts. A sense of tranquility began to replace the agitation, my mind less chaotic, and eventually I felt a kind of serenity that allowed me to surrender to sleep. It was interesting to me that such a simple phrase could have such a profound effect. The words themselves are short, but their meaning is enormous. They contain a whole worldview: that behind all the changing things of existence there is one ultimate reality ..that I’m not abandoned in an indifferent universe..that everything I encounter from fear, happiness, suffering, beauty, uncertainty, and death exists within a reality ultimately governed by God. Eventually, I fell asleep. Yet the sleep itself was not particularly restful. My dreams were extremely disturbing. They were chaotic, strange, and at times almost disgusting. They seemed to contain fragments of fear, confusion, and images that did not follow any coherent logic. I woke with the impression that my mind had continued struggling even while my conscious awareness was asleep. Recently, I have also found myself thinking increasingly about my origin and my ultimate fate. These questions have begun to feel more important to me than many of the ordinary concerns that occupy human beings from day to day. every human being encounters those deeper questions. Who am I? Where did I come from? Why am I here? What is the meaning of my existence? Where am I ultimately going? What happens to me when this life ends? These questions seem almost unavoidable because human beings possess an awareness of their own existence. We do not merely live…we know that we live. We are capable of looking at ourselves from a distance and wondering what our existence means. We can contemplate our birth, our consciousness, our mortality etc.. Every human being, in one way or another, seems to confront the mystery of existence. Even when we do not consciously ask these questions, they can remain somewhere beneath the surface of our lives. Sometimes they emerge during moments of happiness, sometimes during grief, sometimes in solitude, and sometimes when we become aware of our own mortality and especially when we feel lost and depressed. For me, these questions have gradually led toward a particular realization. I came from God, and ultimately my destiny is God. Full stop. This does not necessarily mean that the journey from beginning to end will be simple. I may encounter suffering. I may experience happiness and sadness, fear and tranquility, confusion and understanding. There may be trials whose purpose I cannot comprehend while I am experiencing them. There may be realities beyond my present understanding. Perhaps I could pass through heaven or hell. Perhaps there are possibilities that I cannot even conceptualize from the limited perspective of my present human existence. My understanding is finite, while God’s reality is infinite. Therefore, I cannot claim to know every detail of what lies beyond this life. But beneath all those possibilities, I find one idea that gives me a sense of coherence: my ultimate origin is God, and my ultimate destination is God.Everything else may be part of the journey. Islam talks a lot about heaven and hell as ultimate destination for people. If God is truly God, then His power cannot be confined by the limits of human imagination. If He wills to create heaven, He can create heaven. If He wills to create hell, He can create hell. If He wills to create realities beyond anything human beings currently understand, His power is not limited by our conceptual boundaries. This doesn’t mean that I must go through them , just that they are possible. When I was afraid and repeating those Islamic mantras during the night, . My mind was searching for stability, and the remembrance of God provided . There is no god but God. Human beings suffer because they want certainty about things that cannot be made certain. We want to know the future. We want to know exactly what will happen to us. We want guarantees about our relationships, our health, our success, our survival, and ultimately our fate. But existence does not give us complete control over these things.At some point, we have to surrender. If I truly came from God, then my existence is a return toward its source.From God.Through life.And ultimately back to God.I do not know .But perhaps it answers the most important one. I know where I came from.And I know, ultimately, where I am going.

If you start with romantic and sexual love, there’s an attraction between the masculine and the feminine. What keeps them connected is love. Maybe it’s the same with existence itself. Something is holding everything together, something that connects everything to everything else. Maybe that something is love. Love is like the glue that holds existence together.

All knowledge must be relative . Had it been absolute, it would be eternal .

If you are into Actualized.org then you are into these things .