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Sadness is an emotion I find fascinating, and, in a strange way, beautiful. It is so central to the human experience that nobody can truly escape it. It is perhaps one of the few emotions that unites us all, regardless of who we are or what our lives look like. I remember being severely depressed five years ago, to the point of being suicidal. I vividly remember crying in my mother’s arms like a baby, shedding hot streamy tears. It was one of the lowest points of my life. My mother eventually introduced me to the therapist I still see today, who prescribed me five different SSRIs throughout my treatment. I have been taking them ever since, and I can genuinely say they saved my life from suicidal depression. And also anxiety. It’s a feeling that you are never home . There is no safety to be found anywhere.Those medications helped pull me out of that state that had brought me dangerously close to ending my life . Having experienced sadness in such an intense way, I think I have developed a particular appreciation for the emotion itself. I literally find beauty in sadness, not necessarily in suffering, but in what sadness represents as an intrinsic part of being human and the depth of our emotional existence. Don’t you feel a sense of huge relief after a long hot cry ? There is also something rather poetic about the fact that all of us enter this world crying. Our very first response to life is a cry, long before we have the ability to understand or articulate anything. Obviously there is a certain symbolism in that. Almost as though tears are woven into the human experience from the very beginning. I always feel sad this time of the year . Not to a suicidal depressed degree but a mild one.and I find beauty in it. I try to express it through listening to certain type of music and art .

A Fresh Start: Day 1 of Smoking Abstinence. Today marks Day 1 of my fresh start toward smoking abstinence. I didn’t smoke yesterday, although that was largely because I was physically sick from smoking the day before. I experienced a sore throat, pain, lethargy, and a general feeling of being unwell. I’ve also noticed that my energy levels have been declining, and my overall mood has been quite low. These are things I need to take seriously and work on improving. Another issue I struggle with is my constant need to snack or have something to drink. I find it difficult to go three straight hours without eating something or at least having a cup of tea, coffee, soda, or some other beverage. I’ve managed to stop drinking soda for quite some time now, because I don’t crave it as much during the freezing ass winter months. However, the underlying habit remains. I struggle to sit down, focus, or go about my daily activities without constantly reaching for something to eat or drink. Or obviously smoking . I want to understand this habit better and learn how to feel comfortable spending time without constantly consuming something. I don’t like just breathing lol . I want to drink or snack haha . I also struggle with loneliness and a lack of social interaction. At this point, my social life is practically nonexistent. For a long time, I convinced myself that this wasn’t necessarily a problem because I’ve never considered myself a social person. But obviously prolonged loneliness and social isolation aren’t healthy, regardless of how introverted someone might be. I’m fairly active online through social media, Discord, chat rooms, and various forums. Nevertheless, online interactions can never fully replace meaningful, real-life relationships and human connections. All of these aspects need work .

I don’t think so . This has always been his writing style.

Okay . Let’s just discuss one point at a time . when you say that God is “ what Is “ rather then “ being “ . I honestly think we are saying the same thing. ”being “ could mean an entity or it could mean isness . I mean isness , which is the same as “what is “. my ultimate point is that that thing is nameless.

that doesn’t answer my direct question which you’ve quoted. This is deflection and changing the topic into repeating your baseless belief that I must not know . But I’m not distracted by your silly tactics , answer the motherfucking question . Again , “people must discover on their own “ isn’t the issue . If you understood what I meant then why are you repeating it again . how do you know there is validity to Leo’s pointers through his videos ? You don’t know that . You just believe in it because you don’t know. If gravity is a belief then go jump off the 11th floor without parachute. Otherwise you are full of shit . 1- it’s very obvious that YOU are the one who doesn’t know . Trust me , boy . 2- no that’s a layman answer . Answer with rigor : how do you know that Leo knows his head from his ass ? How do you know? 3- it’s obvious that you don’t know and you projecting your own ignorance on others. Just because you don’t know, doesn’t mean I don’t know. thank you .

What are you using to make sense of the world ? Your intellectual factuality and your knowledge you’ve gained from school , life experience, education, books you’ve read , plus how you yourself intuit and interpret your experiences? I’m not saying they should not. That’s not the point I’m making. Try to understand before commenting. This is simply false , and even silly . I didn’t discover gravity , Newton did . That means it isn’t discovered? 1- open yourself to the possibility that I do know . 2-how do you know that Leo knows ? 3- just because you don’t know , doesn’t mean I don’t know.

It’s not merely empty theorizing . It makes logical sense and is based on already established knowledge. Why does Leo make a thousand videos explaining god if that’s useless and people should discover on their own ?

no , that’s not true . The real reason is because what I said . your “challenges “ are endless . And therefore they will never lead anywhere . maybe you are a Type of person who enjoys the questioning more than the answers , the journey rather than the destination. You do you . Again thanks for sharing your reflection but I would refrain . No offense or ill feeling towards you whatsoever .

@Breakingthewall I don’t recall a single conversation between us that has ever lead anywhere . So I would just refrain from engaging you . But thank you for sharing your thoughts. We can agree to disagree.

You are . Because Reality is the same as God . And you are saying that God is a fairy tail. If it wasn’t for the usage of the word “ God “, you wouldn’t have any problem with what’s being said . Notice that you just commented by saying that God is a fairly tail and a concept that harmed humanity , instead of addressing anything else which was said in OP .

Yes , nobody said that you have to understand the reality you are living in . You can survive just as fine without understanding anything. A cockroach doesn’t have to understand anything to survive . But you can choose to understand if that’s your thing .

If the word “God “ triggers you , replace it with “Reality “.

Why not . Explain . I’m all ears . And I will engage you in good faith .

Yes. I just said that in a different way .

@Joseph Maynor I still don’t understand other facets to God . Such as Absolute Love , Absolute Goodness without opposite . It’s confusing to me because whenever I hear the word “love “ and the word “ goodness “ I can’t help but think of the relative meaning of these words. another thing I don’t understand is how to reconcile Infinity with logical paradoxes . Like if infinity contains absolutely everything then can it have square circle or anything that is logically incoherent. I only explained the facets of God which I understand.