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Have sex instead .

The only match I enjoyed in the World Cup . I felt depressed after this match .

Why do I need to know the truth ? because when I finally know , I would say “yes ! Finally! I KNOW “ and this would make me feel happy. So I actually don’t want to know the truth, I just want to be happy. pretty simple and obvious when you think about it.

Pinning some topics to contemplate so that I don’t forget : - pedophilia. -childhood’s ignorance. -Tomboy girls .

So, you are god . And being and knowing that you are god sucks to you ?

but that just circles back to the question of : “why is this a problem ? if it’s not a problem then where is the problem ?” 🔄

Maybe , for you ,but how do you know you are alone ? Maybe you are not .

And why is this a problem? And if it’s not a problem then where is the problem?

I still have anger issues btw and I might fight someone today . But I’m working on shifting my mindset .

Do you look through your own eyes? Or is that an unexamined assumption borrowed from your conditioning?

The best way to respond to someone who is yelling at you disrespectfully , insulting you , talking with a harsh tone or talking down on you is to not respond at all and not even look at his face . This is not weakness . This is a huge power.

Why do you need to know ?

“Hell is other people” -Jean-Paul Sartre. being constantly judged and defined by others is a kind of psychological imprisonment. I don’t think I’m meant to live surrounded by people. I find a kind of peace in solitude that I don’t find anywhere else. Being alone doesn’t make me lonely it makes me feel calm, free, and more like myself. I don’t seek solitude because I dislike people. I seek it because, when I’m alone, my mind is quiet and I feel at peace. Peace is the most beautiful emotion in the world . And it’s not Merely an emotion, it’s literally God . I’m fully awake to that Peace = God. “Aloneness and silence are two aspects of one experience, two sides of the same coin. If one wants to experience silence one has to go into one´s total aloneness. It is there. We are born alone, we die alone. Between these two realities we create a thousand and one illusions of being together - all kinds of relationships, friends and enemies, loves and hates, nations, races, religions. We create all kinds of hallucinations just to avoid one fact: that we are alone. But whatsoever we do, the truth cannot be changed. It is so, and rather than trying to escape from it, the best way is to rejoice in it. Rejoicing in your own aloneness is what meditation is all about. The meditator is one who dives deep into one´s aloneness, knowing that we are born alone, we will be dying alone, and deep down we are living alone. So why not experience what this aloneness is? It is our very nature, our very being.” -Osho.

God= Peace . if you found inner peace you found God.

I do suffer from OCD and perfectionism. I have attachments and aversions. I cling to things, and I grieve when I lose something I love. The root of this, I believe, is that I believe my fulfillment and happiness depend on external things—experiences, possessions, objects, people, places, or things. It’s clear to me that the only way to achieve permanent peace is to accept reality as it is, as much as I can, and let go of my clingings and attachments, as well as the unrealistic expectations of perfectionism—the expectation that everything should always happen without conflicting with my wishes. But even though I know this mentally, it seems like subconsciously there is still the belief that I shouldn’t spill coffee on my suit, or say something mean to my coworker, or whatever. But these things happen and will never change, because life is chaotic and obviously the ego doesn’t get to have everything going its own way all the time. So what is the solution? Making peace with reality as it is. and how to do this ? There is literally nothing I can do . When I’m experiencing that discomfort I have to just suck it up and live with it and let the discomfort and suffering be fully there and allow myself to give up to it . “What can I do ?”