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Hi there . Thank you . well it’s really becoming a physiological problem. The nicotine is in my blood . I’ve been smoking for 6 years now almost everyday. before smoking , I feel like I want to bang my head to the wall if I don’t smoke. during smoking I feel like I’m getting high . As If I’m sniffing cocaine from a prostitute’s tits lol . after smoking I usually feel better and calm . But now that I’m experiencing health issues I feel depressed after smoking.

Relapse . Smoked a cigarette. Fuck .

you have to do it by yourself.

Ramana’s teaching is that you should NOT answer the question “who am I ?” Verbally or conceptually .Just ask it and look within your own being and find the source of the “I” .

What art do you create ? You can get paid for it if you’re talented as well .

Only when I tried to quit did I realize how completely addicted I’ve become. Not just to one thing, but to almost everything that gives me a quick hit of comfort or pleasure. I’m addicted to caffeine. To cigarettes. To sugar. To checking social media for attractive girls, even when I know I’m wasting my time. To watching porn. To video games. To music constantly playing in the background so I don’t have to sit alone with my thoughts. I’m addicted to staying in my comfort zone, avoiding discomfort, and choosing what feels easy over what I know is good for me. I’m addicted to distraction. To instant gratification. To reaching for my phone whenever there’s even a second of boredom Maybe addiction isn’t always about one destructive thing. Sometimes it’s simply becoming dependent on anything that helps you avoid being uncomfortable with yourself.

Sometimes I think she is an angel , not just another pretty girl .

Well, you said the main reason you can’t find a girl is they think of you as having no goals in life .

Do you have a job ? How do you pay your bills? Why don’t you have ambitions in life ? What kind of girls are you interested in ?

I want to take a long break from the internet. This constant attachment to my phone and the digital world is really starting to drain me and zap my soul. I feel like I need to step away from all the noise, distractions, and endless scrolling for a few weeks and simply learn to live more naturally again. Last time I did a dopamine detox I felt high just by watching a sunrise or a sunset lol. I want to wake up early, go to bed early, spend more time outdoors, eat simple and healthy food, meditate, read, reflect, and enjoy the quiet moments without constantly reaching for a screen. No unnecessary electronics, no social media, no endless notifications etc I see it as a kind of detox, not just for my body but for my mind and soul as well. I want to disconnect from the digital world for a while so I can reconnect with myself, find some peace, clear my head, and appreciate the simple things in life again.

Do you have any unhealthy habits? How is your diet? thanks .

5 days without smoking . Definitely going through tough withdrawals now. I’m pissed off . My body asks for the nicotine.

@Inliytened1 aren’t you married/have a partner and/ or family etc ?

Watching porn originally starts as sexual lust but once you become addicted, it stops being about libido and starts to be more about the brain craving the dopamine which is released,without being really interested in sex physically.

The main thing I’m going to focus on right now is quitting smoking and sleeping well . I will keep a daily record here . 4 days without smoking .