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I still suffer from insomnia and restlessness to this day. This morning, I woke up after 12 hours of sleep, having been awake for more than 24 hours beforehand. Insomnia is pure torture and pure pain. If it lasts Long enough it can lead to suicidal thoughts but not suicide itself because eventually you will pass out and sleep or you take some sleeping pills. But insomnia is literally hell . My whole body hurts because of it, and I feel as though my head is going to explode. The reason I still suffer from insomnia is simply that my mind is not at peace. Not my conscious mind, but my subconscious mind. Because Even when I am in a deep sleep, I feel disturbed and never fully at rest, which I know might sound strange or difficult to believe. But there is a certain tension and restlessness going on in both my conscious and subconscious mind. That is the main reason behind my insomnia. And the main reason behind that tension is simply overstimulation, as I mentioned before. Maybe I need to go on a silent meditation retreat or something along those lines.

Can you give some examples?

A vegan diet is simply not for me. I love the taste of meat and seafood, and I genuinely enjoy eating them. I have just bought large quantities of seafood, along with a big, meaty duck that I plan to roast. In this cold climate, a hearty meal like that feels so comforting and warming. A bowl of crab soup in winter is incredibly relaxing and delicious. it can help when you have flu also . I honestly choose to eat meat not necessarily for health reasons, but honestly, for the taste and the way I feel after consuming animal protein. That feeling is simply irreplaceable. No matter how flavourful, spicy, or well cooked a vegan meal may be, vegetables and carbohydrates cannot quite offer the same experience. Meat is something else entirely. That being said, I do acknowledge that a vegan diet is generally healthier for the body than a diet that includes a lot of meat.

Yep . The Hindu tradition is by far the richest , most wide and diverse spiritual tradition. It is also the oldest .

It doesn’t try to do that intentionally. It doesn’t assume the conclusion. The ancient Hindu sages (supposedly) went on an inner journey of exploring themselves, and reality at large . And then they concluded whatever they experienced.

What does this mean ?

Reality must always be real , as the very word itself suggests . There is no such thing as an unreal reality . If physical objective reality exists as such , then that’s what’s real . If , according to Vedanta , there is nothing more to reality than there is to a dream , just an imaginary world in consciousness, then that is what is real . So whatever the nature of reality is ontologically , it is always real , never an illusion . But of course you can apply some nuance and say that there are degrees of realness . A hallucination induced by a drug or a mental disorder is NOT at the same level of “realness “ as an actual physical concrete wall .

Sorry that was a separate insight which I should’ve posted separately. It’s unrelated to the point about the distinction between real and illusory , which is what people are discussing here. edit: btw I meant there is no “creation “ as a verb , not a noun .

“I searched for God , and found myself . I searched for myself , and found God .”

"I want to let you in on a little secret. There are no problems. There are no problems. There never were any problems, there are no problems today, and there will never be any problems." -Robert Adams . This is a statement right ? Is it true or false ? It is false .not the meaning of it is false but just by virtue of the fact that it is a finite limited statement then it's false. Truth is not a fixed mantra you use to pray with everyday or make it into a necklace. This is why people grasp truth but they fall back again into delusion a million times .and in fact It's never going to end .because truth is not static. Truth is reality.is reality static ? No. It doesn't stand still for a single moment .so when you are in the midst of deep suffering starving alone in Sahara desert or being burned alive etc these kind of statement no longer mean Jack right? This is because of what I just said . Change your perspective and understanding of truth from a static object or permanent state or a mantra you repeat to truth being a never ending process. A never ending flow of existence which will never rest on a rock .

He usually means that about things such astral projection, paranormal healing etc . But he doesn’t mind stuff like meditation and basic spirituality .

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. Please know that I’m not judging you for feeling like this. I’ve actually been through a very similar experience myself in the past, and I’m genuinely glad I managed to make it to the other side. recognise that simply opening up, expressing how you feel, being honest with yourself and others and looking for ways to help yourself are already steps in the right direction. Don’t underestimate that. If talking about what you’re going through brings you even temporary relief, then please keep doing it. Don’t bottle things up. I would suggest starting by trying to make sense of your confusion. From what you’ve written, you sound more lost and confused about what you want from life than depressed because of your current circumstances. I have a feeling that even if you were living in a palace, you might still feel unhappy if you hadn’t figured out what was missing. Try to start by asking yourself what you actually want out of life. What would make you feel fulfilled? What kind of life would you genuinely enjoy living? And if you feel comfortable sharing, tell us a little about yourself . your age, what you do for a living, your relationship with your family, your friendships, and anything else you think might be relevant. I’d also suggest making two lists. The first should include the concrete things in your life that make you unhappy, and the second should include the things you believe would make you happier. Try to be as specific as possible. Then start working on both lists. Take meaningful steps to distance yourself from the things that are making your life worse, and start moving towards the things that could make it better. You don’t have to figure everything out overnight, but you do have to start somewhere. also you need to talk to a therapist , take potent medication or antidepressants , you need huge emotional support from people close to you , and you need a spiritual or religious practice of any kind that can help you .

Then talk to a therapist ASAP . Nobody can help you if you are not willing to help yourself.

@Jirh hello friend! Hope life is treating you well.