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Today spend time meditating , contemplating, relaxing ,praying , just grounding. Not too much noise and toxicity.

Yesterday I could not sleep without repeating the Islamic mantra, La ilaha illa Allah :“There is no god but God.” I had been feeling afraid and deeply sad, carrying a heaviness within me that I could not easily explain or remove. I deal with this almost every day:a feeling of uncertainty, vulnerability, and fear before the vastness of existence. In that state, I began repeating La ilaha illa Allah. At first, I repeated the words almost mechanically, simply because I needed something to hold on to. But gradually, something inside me began to change. The repetition gave my mind a point of concentration. Instead of allowing my thoughts to scatter endlessly, I returned again and again to the same declaration: there is no ultimate reality, no ultimate power, and no ultimate object of worship except God. As I continued repeating it, I began to calm down. I felt less alone within my own thoughts. A sense of tranquility began to replace the agitation, my mind less chaotic, and eventually I felt a kind of serenity that allowed me to surrender to sleep. It was interesting to me that such a simple phrase could have such a profound effect. The words themselves are short, but their meaning is enormous. They contain a whole worldview: that behind all the changing things of existence there is one ultimate reality ..that I’m not abandoned in an indifferent universe..that everything I encounter from fear, happiness, suffering, beauty, uncertainty, and death exists within a reality ultimately governed by God. Eventually, I fell asleep. Yet the sleep itself was not particularly restful. My dreams were extremely disturbing. They were chaotic, strange, and at times almost disgusting. They seemed to contain fragments of fear, confusion, and images that did not follow any coherent logic. I woke with the impression that my mind had continued struggling even while my conscious awareness was asleep. Recently, I have also found myself thinking increasingly about my origin and my ultimate fate. These questions have begun to feel more important to me than many of the ordinary concerns that occupy human beings from day to day. every human being encounters those deeper questions. Who am I? Where did I come from? Why am I here? What is the meaning of my existence? Where am I ultimately going? What happens to me when this life ends? These questions seem almost unavoidable because human beings possess an awareness of their own existence. We do not merely live…we know that we live. We are capable of looking at ourselves from a distance and wondering what our existence means. We can contemplate our birth, our consciousness, our mortality etc.. Every human being, in one way or another, seems to confront the mystery of existence. Even when we do not consciously ask these questions, they can remain somewhere beneath the surface of our lives. Sometimes they emerge during moments of happiness, sometimes during grief, sometimes in solitude, and sometimes when we become aware of our own mortality and especially when we feel lost and depressed. For me, these questions have gradually led toward a particular realization. I came from God, and ultimately my destiny is God. Full stop. This does not necessarily mean that the journey from beginning to end will be simple. I may encounter suffering. I may experience happiness and sadness, fear and tranquility, confusion and understanding. There may be trials whose purpose I cannot comprehend while I am experiencing them. There may be realities beyond my present understanding. Perhaps I could pass through heaven or hell. Perhaps there are possibilities that I cannot even conceptualize from the limited perspective of my present human existence. My understanding is finite, while God’s reality is infinite. Therefore, I cannot claim to know every detail of what lies beyond this life. But beneath all those possibilities, I find one idea that gives me a sense of coherence: my ultimate origin is God, and my ultimate destination is God.Everything else may be part of the journey. Islam talks a lot about heaven and hell as ultimate destination for people. If God is truly God, then His power cannot be confined by the limits of human imagination. If He wills to create heaven, He can create heaven. If He wills to create hell, He can create hell. If He wills to create realities beyond anything human beings currently understand, His power is not limited by our conceptual boundaries. This doesn’t mean that I must go through them , just that they are possible. When I was afraid and repeating those Islamic mantras during the night, . My mind was searching for stability, and the remembrance of God provided . There is no god but God. Human beings suffer because they want certainty about things that cannot be made certain. We want to know the future. We want to know exactly what will happen to us. We want guarantees about our relationships, our health, our success, our survival, and ultimately our fate. But existence does not give us complete control over these things.At some point, we have to surrender. If I truly came from God, then my existence is a return toward its source.From God.Through life.And ultimately back to God.I do not know .But perhaps it answers the most important one. I know where I came from.And I know, ultimately, where I am going.

If you start with romantic and sexual love, there’s an attraction between the masculine and the feminine. What keeps them connected is love. Maybe it’s the same with existence itself. Something is holding everything together, something that connects everything to everything else. Maybe that something is love. Love is like the glue that holds existence together.

All knowledge must be relative . Had it been absolute, it would be eternal .

If you are into Actualized.org then you are into these things .

Complete ego dissolution happens when the body dies . But you can see through your own ego while alive as human . At first it will cause you suffering but then you realize that the ego was the very thing that caused your suffering and that getting rid of your ego makes life easier and less serious because you are no longer constantly trying to maintain an illusion or a house of cards .

One of the deepest things Nisargadatta Maharaj keeps pointing to is that consciousness is not the Absolute. It’s difficult to understand for me because consciousness seems to be the most fundamental thing i know. Everything i experience appears in consciousness. The body is experienced in consciousness. Thoughts, feelings, sensations, memories, people, and the whole world are experienced in consciousness. Without consciousness, there cannot be any experience at all. And his point seems to be that “no experience at all “ is precisely the ultimate condition or the Absolute. the fact that there is consciousness right now is absolute. But Nisargadatta says no. Consciousness itself has appeared.There was a time when this consciousness was not present. Before the body was born, there was no experience of being this particular person. There was no sense of “I am.” There was no world being experienced through this body. There was no experience of space and time.Then the body was born, and with the living body consciousness appeared. Suddenly there was the simple feeling:“I am.” Later came:“I am this body…”“I am this person.”..“This is my family.”..“This is my life.”..“This is my world.” And the whole experience of existence unfolded from there. Before the body was born there was nothing at all . Similar to deep sleep . Then The body appeared, and consciousness appeared with it. Therefore consciousness cannot be the Absolute, because the Absolute cannot be something that appears and disappears, I guess is his point. The Absolute was there before the body, before the sense of “I am,” before the experience of the world.And when the body disappears, the consciousness associated with that body also disappears. He completely associate the body with consciousness. He is saying that what we take to be our entire existence like the body, the mind, the sense of being, the world we experience is something that has appeared. And what has appeared cannot be the final reality.This is why he says the Absolute is prior to consciousness. “Prior” here does not mean a long time ago. It does not mean that there was a period in history when the Absolute existed and then consciousness came later. The Absolute is prior even to time itself.Before consciousness appears, there is no experience of time.Before consciousness appears, there is no experience of space.Before consciousness appears, there is no experience of a world.So when he says the Absolute is prior to consciousness, he means that consciousness itself depends upon something that does not depend upon consciousness. The Absolute does not depend upon the body.The body depends upon consciousness for its experience.Consciousness does not depend upon the personal mind.The mind appears within consciousness.The world we experience does not exist for us independently of consciousness.But the Absolute does not depend upon any of this. I only listened to half of the ultimatum. Will add more .

If you read any spiritual tradition..you will find that the founders of those religions have awakened when they abandoned society and isolated themselves. Take Buddha. he left a luxurious life of being a Prince and went to the woods meditating until he either wakes up or dies there . Take Muhammad.he awakend in his 40s after he became fed up with his society's worship of idols . He used to meditate alone in a cave before he awakened one night. When the enlightened person dies , people turn their teachings into rules : “You gotta walk like this , talk like this , eat like this , shit like this , have sex with your spouse like this “. Stage blue religion is all about morality and god-given guidelines. the religious institutions’ functions nowadays is organizing society.

Yes they can be helpful . Stretching your jaw daily helps with getting wider jawline. I’ve done it before.

Yea , totally. I was curious about these kinds of topics since I was a little boy . Always wondered about big and difficult topics.

There are a lot of warning videos and presentation guides. I think it’s actually good that it’s public available for free .

Try doing a dopamine fast for a few weeks. Stay away from unnecessary technology and take a break from social media and constant entertainment. Cut out sugar and refined carbs, start working out, and focus on eating healthy, nutritious foods. Give yourself some time away from all the things that constantly keep you stimulated. You’ll start to appreciate the simple things again like listening to music, going for a walk, reading, or just enjoying a quiet moment. Sometimes, you just need to slow down and give your mind a break so you can enjoy the little things in life again.

The hardest drug in the world.

Yesterday, I stayed up until around 3 AM. I’ve realized that staying up past midnight is not good for me. That time of night can feel a little depressing. There’s usually not much going on, and because the day is basically over, it becomes easier for me to lose my discipline, waste time, and fall into bad habits. I ended up masturbating as well. I don’t want to judge myself too much for that anymore. I’m single, and I accept that I have sexual needs. Sometimes I feel sexually frustrated or pent up, and I think it’s okay to have some kind of release. The part I don’t like is how unconscious I can become when I do it. It’s not really the fact that I masturbated that bothers me. It’s the way I got there. I was up at 3 AM, tired, with no real reason to still be awake, and I slowly slipped into something without really thinking about it. That’s the real issue . I feel like I should have just listened to myself and gone to sleep. I could have taken a warm shower, made some cocoa, relaxed for a while, and gone to bed. That probably would have been better for me. At the same time, I was actually feeling sexually pent up. So I don’t want to pretend that the urge wasn’t real. It was. I just want to learn how to deal with those feelings in a more conscious way instead of letting them control me when I’m tired and it’s late at night. let’s give it another shot . Not allowed to Stay up past midnight fooling around .