JayT79

I would advise to stay at your place while taking it. If you end up taking too much, you'll probably get a full on body buzz which won't allow you to function in public setting. That's my advice to you.

When you say that God doesn't understand how nothingness gained awareness and life will always lead to this question. Is God in turmoil for forevermore about this but happy at the same time of beingness?

This maybe true but do you have data for this? I mean I have a lack of experience with women and not had a lot of sexual experience with women but the idea of killing oneself is a bit of stretch. I couldn't fathom myself killing myself because I wasn't getting pussy from women. Maybe my intellectual knowledge of spirituality from this forum and psychedelic experience and practicing stay in the moment has prevented me leading to suicide.

The only experience I had is at age of 5, my mother told me about the Christian Religion and how we were created by God and we're going to have to face judgment. After our conversation in the car, I started to look at my hands intensely in awe how was it possible I could be here. It was almost to the point where I almost scared myself to death in deep thought. Then I said to myself, "I'm all alone".

Attractive people have trouble on tinder as well, when it comes to physical looks that is. I have a relative who is not as good looking as me physically wise but he gets more matches than I do. I think it's because women view good looking guys who've ran through a bunch of women and gives the not so looking guys a chance.

What type of meditation are you doing to get these results?

Lol you're mess

Those guys are exhibiting low self-esteem traits. A man with high self-esteem wouldn't dare to bring another man down. If that was me, I would've said, "Okay Mr. Low Self-Esteem, you look dumb as fvck bringing down another person down like that, sucks to be you" My words usually sting people. But yeah, you need to defend yourself next time.

My very first spiritual insight is when my mother told me the traditional gospel about God being our creator and judge, and that we're accountable for our lives and Jesus was our Saviour to save us from our sins. After the small talk conversation about the topic...I immediately looked at my hands (age 4 or 5) was an amazement that I had exist and I begin to get scared (my ego) of knowing this truth and then I said to myself "I'm alone" as in my awareness.

I had recently took a drop of cbd & thc underneath my tongue. Man, I had a realization that we are made of nothing, like nothing. It kinda startled me. In the process of seeing it visually painted in my mind, I had to tell my mind.."wait a minute, rewind that back again" then that's when it was clear, my mouth dropped open. Couldn't believe it. I've could've realized more truth but my ego wouldn't allow it, I fought it off.

I agree with NoSelfSelf how what men are missing from the game. The game is about YOU, not women. Some women will come for the ride and other's won't because they have the own standard, principles and rules they live by just as a man should.

You can hallucinate on it if you take too many within a short amount of time.

Don't mean to hijack your thread but a couple of weeks ago I had a dream realization that the whole universe disappeared and I was the only one left (I guess this is my first God realization without direct experience through meditation or psychedelics). I was absolutely terrified and snapped out of the dream..it was too much handle.

I did the other night. Its nice feeling to it. But if you're not careful (in what I experienced) you'll can start hearing noised that aren't even there.

I've purchased a book called The Presence Process by Michael Brown Revised Edition. Its suppose to be a 10-week spiritual journey on tapping into the present awareness and you're suppose to grow and unfold from within yourself. I'm curious to know if anyone else have read and going through the journey in the book.

I work for an employer full-time. Looking to transition to work from home or become self-employed

I took 3 mdma pills in a short amount of time as well just like you did and I had a full blown hallucination trip. Parts of the trip I wasn't sure if I had an out of body experience or if I was temporarily dead on certain parts of the trip. Taking too many pills in a short amount of time is irresponsible and not respecting the substance itself. I know better now.

1gram should do you just fine. That's how much I took on my first time.

LSD = Never tried MDMA = Tried it 3 times. The third time I took one too many in a short amount of time and I hallucinated for 6-8 hours straight. Definitely an eye opener. I definitely didn't respect the drug due to not knowing what could happen. I thought about sharing my experience on here but I don't want to give Leo a bad rep.

Did you call the police? What's the update? I've experienced with a Narcissist (my father), the 13 yr old needs to be away from the abuser ASAP!

I agree that in probably most cases you can sense a guy that has the aggressiveness and willpower to defend himself to protect his gf/wife, but in other cases you can't tell. Sometimes it can come by surprise.

I'm curious to know if anyone has been in stuck in a period of their life where they're no longer interested in dreaming at all. Well I've come to that point of my life, after constantly self-meditated on thoughts about non-duality and that we are God in a finite form on a weekly basis, even though I don't have much inner direct experience work to working towards self-realization or have a bit of awakening in which I want to do eventually. I don't know for someone reason I'm just not looking forward to going to sleep and dream a dream knowing its all an illusion with in the moment direct experience.

I have a serious issue with being in my head a lot and self negative talk that keeps my anxiety at medium high. I want to be at a stage when I can be calm majority of my life and enjoy life like everyone else is doing (or seems to be doing). The calmness I'm referring to is similar to a mdma high when the mind quiets down and everything is peaceful while being in the present moment. I also feel like my body needs to release trauma that's been in my body since the trauma effected my body when the trauma (abused by my narcissistic father) happened as a young child ( at Age 6). When I say release trauma, I mean a physically sensation that I could feel and release and no longer have the trauma there. Is this something I can do on my own or would I need a specialist to help me achieve this? Thanks in advanced for suggestion and advice.

@studentofthegame What resources are you using? I'm thinking of buying a book called Letting Go by David R Hawkins and see if it can help me out. Lots of good reviews 86% 5 star rating.

@WaveInTheOcean So if someone who is traumatized by their childhood and well into their adulthood. What psychedelics would you recommend to start this repair/growth transition.