Terell Kirby

Wishing you a speedy recovery, glad you made it out alive. We all fall into fantasies and self deception-even the most “enlightened” of us. God Realization and Awakening can turn into their own unique set of self deceptions. Seems like you’ve made great progress in many areas of your personal development and spirituality at 27-it’s ok to incur some unexpected hurdles along the way. Take care of yourself

Vibin out to this one. Playlist is 🔥

I know some people aren't the biggest fans of Owen-but this video is legit. Anytime I get carried away with spiritual work to the point where it turns into inaction and bypassing, I turn to this video. It's a great reference for building a solid material foundation, getting shit done. Which then makes it easier to do deep spirituality Fight the inner DERP !

On the heels of the latest Actualized.org video on conforming, I'm now realizing how empowering it feels to say NO. Saying NO to unhealthy things, is saying YES to healthy. This entire year, I've been assessing what has worked for my personal development and growth, and what hasn't (includes people, activities, ways of thinking, etc). It has become all too clear now the ways in which I limit myself and my growth for the sake of being liked and approved of. Saying NO is one powerful, under utilized tool in this work. I hope to get better at it as I age and develop.

How do you know?

Yes. In modern western culture, we’ve substituted religious dogma with New Age and scientific dogma. No one understands how they are constructing false Gods

This is a very nuanced point, it’s difficult to grasp. We need perspective to round out our worldview and epistemology, but it’s easy to trapped and locked in. Only through 5 years of not just following Actualized.org, but also putting the insights into practice through contemplation and experimentation, I’m only now able to clearly see how paradigm lock happens, the subtly of it. Of course the most challenging is not turning Actualized.org into a worldview.

At your level of understanding these days, I’m curious if you consume any outside content from spiritual teachers to deeper your understanding? Seems there is a limit to all human perspectives on this matter, inherent in the fact that they are human

What helped me was deeply contemplating the structure of Existence before fully understanding it. How much of Existence is conceptual vs. actual? Has the materialistic / scientistic worldview answered all the fundamental questions about Existence?-or are there still gaps? Actualized.org 3-part series on deconstructing the myth of science is a great starting point. Watch those if you haven’t, but really try to take points in those video seriously- contemplate each for yourself. Your Mind has to be an active participant in understanding these things at their root, engaging in thought discussions on the forum won’t help much-as it’s more so a passive approach to understanding

Would be a great screening question on a second or third date: ”So, how many stupidity neurons do you have? We should go get tested before things get serious.”

Yea- I’m sure it’s easier for some cultures than others. Survival can hinge on pleasing your boss or parents- so takes some level of freedom and autonomy to put the power of saying no into practice.

yup- paradoxically so an opinion about the opinions of others less about having opinions, more about how serious you take them but hey..thats even an opinion

Turn on some good music and vibe out- it's Sunday

Dont be so silly- I’m just sharing content I’ve found useful in my personal development. It’s totally within your right not to watch it. No harm, no foul

Watch the video! Many nuggets of truth in viewpoints from people with personalities we don’t like

Sounds about right. If find ultra wealthy people to be a bit sociopathic, bordering full blown psychopathy. It’s almost a pre requisite to extreme wealth. (Generally speaking)

Islam is ultimately a set of beliefs. And through deep spiritual work, you realize that proving true any set of beliefs is a faulty endeavor. Most if not all religious systems are founded on a set of beliefs and taken as true via assumptions and hearsay. Truth can be discovered, but it takes discipline and humility to admit and see things as what they are. In the case of Islam, a set of beliefs

I mean, yea- but they’re probably more focused on real national security threats. On a threat level- what people say / do on this forum is peanuts compared to radical jihadist groups, neo nazis, foreign authoritarian regimes, drug cartels, cyberattacks, market crashes, AI etc. Leo is probably just some random guy on YouTube to them. (If they even know who he is at all)

Including the idea of a separate self that exists independently outside of NOW. The unfolding of your entire life has been almost exclusively mental, grounded in conceptual knowledge and backstory. God awakens when it sees its work in the unfoldment of reality; it sees itself as a sort of master craftsman through Divine Consciousness and Intelligent. Consider how much you resist this unfolding, and how much suffering is caused by not recognizing that it is all your Minds work. To fall in love with life requires you see the Intelligence of your own Mind- bask in the fact that it’s Eternal.

Do you have a close friend or family member you can talk to? Maybe hire a therapist. It's important to lean into the feelings, but you don't have to do it in isolation.

how do you know shiva isn't some made up construct you're imagining? Be careful to check if your ideas of self / shiva are your own, or if they have been adopted by some external source. This is the real work

In my experience- state is only as important insofar to the level and degree in which it enables understanding. A state of kangaroo Consciousness is probably pretty cool to explore, but even better if it gets one closer to Pure Understanding. Same goes for all other states. After all, what’s a state of Enlightenment worth without pure understanding that comes along with it? Not much in the end .. just more played out spiritual ideas and platitudes

I asked God where I was and he replied: Nowhere

Only way to be God is to be Yourself! whatever that is for you

But Isn’t it obvious that academic philosophy is not in the business of guiding people to become directly conscious of what’s true in their experience of reality? I guess not. Academics are fluffed up through their sophistication, what is true for most intellectuals is what is polished and sophisticated-language and thought. An adherence to the traditions of academic thinking and speech. Yet that itself will not guide them to becoming directly conscious of what is true. You may have better luck discovering truth by staring at a rock for a few hours over listening to an academic.