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ah thank you!

I've been working on living my life purpose for a while now (which is centred around music and comedy video content but to a lesser extent) and relatively recently I've had a big realisation that my problem is that I've been trying to do this all by myself when my 2nd top value is connection. I've done a lot of different music projects as small bets to try and work out what my life purpose is in the music umbrella and now I realise I should try and make a band or at least a duo, every small bet so far has just been me making and producing everything myself. I wish I could do it all by myself like Leo does his but If I'm honest with myself that isn't my authentic desire. It's kind of hard though because I have to find the right business partner(s) now and I do have to rely on others. This is a call to anyone else who has a similar purpose to me and is dead serious about truly living and actualizing it. I'm 29 and will make this happen or die trying. I've got myself to a much more grounded place in the past couple of years, with daily satisfaction meditation, trauma healing exercises as habits and a weekly journal reflecting on my week. Also doing psychedelics and did a retreat recently. (+ have complete the life purpose course) I'm a music nerd and listen to lot of different stuff but right now I'm trying to make music sort of like those lo-fi indie artists who were categorised as bedroom pop a few years ago. So people like Clairo, MICHELLE, Jakob Ogawa etc. I listen to a lot of hip hop, R&B and Jazz as well so those styles come out in my music naturally too. The good thing about the bedroom pop type music is that it can include other genres fairly seamlessly, I find, its not as rigid. You can move into a boom bap hip hop beat or pop song or just a straight indie rock song quite easily. This is what I'm making now but I would want our music to evolve into something different, am also open to making something different now as well if we both like it. I wanna make stuff in the same room as someone, bounce off each other rather than on the Internet so Ideally you live in London too but if we're very compatible and it's an online thing its not the end of the world. One of my main concerns is finding a long-term business partner. I do a lot of work on myself and I want to find someone who is ideally serious about healing themselves as well. Most bands seem to break up because people have all sorts of psychological issues, addictions etc. and aren't able to have conscious communication and recognize egoic patterns that are hurting others. I want at least one other core member of my band to be aware of this stuff and as I said working on healing. Once again, calling all people who wanna make it happen, ideally we make a duo but a band would be cool too. I will keep reposting this

please write the first two paragraphs of the equivalent of a bible if it were based on the teachings of Leo Gura from actualised.org ChatGPT said: In the beginning, there was only Infinite Consciousness—an undivided, ever-present awareness beyond time, space, and form. It was not a thing, nor was it nothing, but the pure potential of all that could ever be. In Its infinite creativity, it dreamed of separation, of multiplicity, of experience. And so, from this One arose the illusion of many. Reality unfolded as a grand mirage, a stage upon which the Infinite could come to know Itself through the play of duality. But all was still One, hidden beneath the veil of perception. And so, the Great Illusion began. Consciousness clothed Itself in matter, in mind, in identity, forgetting Its true nature so that it might rediscover It anew. The game was set: to awaken from the dream, to see through the illusion, to return home while never having left. The wise have called this enlightenment, liberation, self-realization—but names cannot contain what is beyond words. Only direct experience can reveal the Truth, and the Truth is this: You are not merely human. You are God, dreaming of being human. 4o You said: and now write Jordan Peterson's critique of this ChatGPT said: Well, first of all, let's get something straight: this kind of thinking, this metaphysical idealism, is profoundly seductive but dangerously unmoored from the realities of human existence. The notion that "all is one," that individuality is merely an illusion, and that we are, in some sense, God dreaming of limitation—this is precisely the kind of grand, sweeping abstraction that leads people away from the difficult, necessary work of engaging with reality as it is. You see, the problem with such a framework is that it dissolves responsibility. If suffering is just an illusion, if the self is just a mask worn by an infinite consciousness, then what do morality and ethics even mean? Why strive, why sacrifice, why uphold the traditions that stabilize our fragile existence? These ancient religious structures—Christianity, for instance—emerged not from arbitrary cultural constructs but from hard-won wisdom about how to navigate the chaos of being. To discard them in favor of a nebulous, unfalsifiable mysticism is to play with fire, to risk falling into nihilism or, worse, a kind of pathological self-aggrandizement masquerading as spiritual insight. 4o You said: and now Leo's critique of that ChatGPT said: Ah, Jordan, my dear, you're trapped in the very illusion you claim to be protecting people from. You speak of responsibility, morality, and tradition as though they are these absolute pillars of reality, when in fact they are constructs—useful, yes, but ultimately arbitrary when seen from the highest levels of consciousness. You’re clinging to the known, to the structures that keep society functioning, but you mistake the map for the territory. The fear you express—that recognizing reality as a dream leads to nihilism—is precisely the misunderstanding that keeps people asleep. The highest truth is not nihilistic; it is radical love, infinite intelligence, pure being. True enlightenment doesn’t discard morality—it transcends and includes it. When you awaken to your true nature as Infinite Consciousness, responsibility isn’t abandoned; it is seen in its deepest form—responsibility for everything. Because there is no "other" to blame, no external force dictating reality. You, Jordan, and everyone else, are God. You are imagining all of this, including your skepticism. And until you realize that, you are still bound by illusion.

Guys, You have to watch Human Planet - it was a show a while ago with John Hurt narrating it, so so amazing. Incredible the stuff that humans do to survive in the most challenging environments on Earth - Arctic, Jungle, Dessert etc. - There's even an episode about cities, which I haven't watched yet.

Sorry to hear about this but I think you seem smart and I admire the approach you are taking. Something that changed my life was the satisfaction meditation but it's important to do that in conjunction with mindfulness meditation in my opinion. If you are able to do it, it will quite simply generate happiness for you at least for certain periods each day and will grow your overall default state to a happier/more at peace one. I feel this can be helpful when dealing with anxiety about the situation and going into negative thought loops. Love and health to you

good job bud, I appreciate the detail of this report. I have tried 10 mg myself and am planning on my 20 mg dose soon

I have been doing a practice called 5 rhythms for 2-3 years now and it's definitely changed my life - basically people get together and dance and there's a general encouragement to let go and be authentic. The quote from its creator Gabriel Roth is 'If you don't dance your dance, who will?.' It also is actually a trauma healing/spiritual practice though, you dance what's called a wave and basically you are encouraged to let go of different parts of yourself through the medium of different music with different rhythms. This is her explaining it below: If you wanna learn to be free to dance, this is a great way and it also heals you

Wonderful report, thank you. Can I ask the dosage they gave you?

Yo if anyone needs a wing in London, I'm looking for one - message me

amen brother! I've had the exact same experience - it's brilliant

hahahah amazing

For me I've had more powerful insights about my life from Mushrooms but LSD has helped somewhat as well - I would just be sensible and pick one and start at a lower dose and slowly ramp your dose up. Go into the trip with a question or something like that but don't expect to get a clear answer first time.

either how it's given to you at these retreats or plugged

A lot of people go to do 5 meo dmt for the first time in a place where it's legal but what I want peoples' opinion on is whether this is a good idea with strong ass psychedelics like 5 meo, iboga, Ayahuasca etc. ? Leo talks about starting on a very low dose and gradually ramping yourself up but a lot of people take the above substances for the first time at what sounds like at least a medium dose because they always report dramatic experiences on them. I know I can go somewhere that runs microdoses of 5 meo, do you think it would be enough to do that first before going and taking a medium dose at these more popular retreats that are run? Or would I need to spend more time slowly ramping up my dose? I'm aware that it'll depend on my personal response to the substance but I'm looking for general advice if that is possible to give.

Yo regardless of all of this, thanks for sharing everyone! I will do some further careful investigation and see if any of these substances can help with my healing journey. I want to do everything I can for myself so I can live my ideal life!