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What are your thoughts on narcissistic people? Is it true they truly don’t care about others or have empathy? Would a narcissist ever be able to recognize they need to work on themselves and begin? I’ve been doing a lot of research and watching Dr Ramani videos to better understand them for reference.

@28 cm unbuffed I’m just so curious what this community has to say because clinical psychologists say they do not care about others and very few can have enough introspection to change at all. But from an ego standpoint, I thought we could all change etc. (?)

@Javfly33 @Leilani "Your own body is a manifestation of god." - idk where I got this its just something I remembered reading in one of the enlightenment books. Also, in my own experience, we are all gods. But we can't see it. There is a veil over your eyes. Enlightenment is lifting the veil. (I think but my thoughts are ever-changing) Gods are beautiful though. Without flaws. You are that, I am that but we don't see it.

@seriousman24 No. 5-meo will take you outside of yourself. To enhance video game performance, get Adderall. Major gamers take it when competing. It's like putting your focus on steroids. https://www.webmd.com/drugs/2/drug-63163/adderall-oral/details

@Arcangelo When's the new journal entry coming out? lol

I'm finishing up, "The Untethered Soul." I really loved it. I'm looking for book recommendations on understanding men and then practical guides on how to revisit trauma and release it. Thank you.

@Aratrok It's definitely triggering for people. I'd say the most triggering topic there is. Look at how it dismantles the inner work community. I see your original intent. I hear you. Wish you well, brother.

@Aratrok You know better than to go back and forth with carnists on an online forum. That is deep, deep conditioning and lack of health education you're up against. We know that every human being, being one of the three grate apes can survive on a vegan diet, but even doctors preach against this. So people with health problems have gotten validation from their physicians that they need animal proteins or some random nutrient. (lol) To break down conditioning you need to have footage of slaughter, physical touch, and compassion. They need to feel safe and reassured because their reality will be changing. I understand they're here so they must be somewhat open minded. But you have to take what people say with a grain of salt. Always. They're not as open minded as they think. I've had to see pigs put into a gas chamber and become an activist to fully grasp what I was contributing to. The same way we have to do tons of meditation or psychedelics to see what's on the other side, they will need to see animals skinned, boiled and and chopped up while alive to fully grasp what's on the other side. I always encourage other vegans to get active. Do educational activism where people are viewing this while you have a calm conversation with them. You see reality hit them and then you see the change in their eyes and it's beautiful. (Also a way to pick up vegan women.) @Display_Name I have some ptsd and misanthropy from this that I'm actively working on changing. I use to get into online debates and felt so much hate towards humans who I thought were a plague on the earth. I was ignorant and felt helpless. Which is how most vegans feel after seeing truth. So any temperament you see, anger, aggression, etc is from them seeing reality and feeling helpless to do anything about it. If you really believe that everyone is you. (And yes, animals are someone) Then you will resonate with the vegan message. Truth/Reality: Don't allow your conditioning to protect you from their suffering https://www.dominionmovement.com/watch Philosophy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5hGQDLprA8 I won't argue with you either. You are either ready to accept truth or not.

@Galyna Thank you for your recommendations, Galyna. I will check them out.

@Himanshu Thank you for your response. I will check these things out ?

@BornToBoil It sounds like you're co-dependent. You're worrying about another person so much, that you are putting aside your own feelings. Be grateful she was honest about not wanting to be with you and politely allow her to move on. Delete your communication and don't message her again. I'm sure you're a great person and you deserve self-love.

First off, I'm posting this because I feel like I'm a genius for figuring this out. But, I'm just excited. (I posted this in my journal as well but I wanted to share.) I realize my whole life, I've been letting my sexual urges/desires run my life. I've approached every relationship with people I'm attracted to, with the goal of having amazing sex. Even when I was young, I was sexually driven. I think this is from lack of love growing up but no matter what it's from, this is something I feel like is an integral part of what keeps me from realizing my higher potential, Today, I had occasional thoughts of the guy I went out on date with, fucking me in various ways. By the time I got home for lunch I was so sexually frustrated, I didn't know what to do with myself. I feel like this frustration or this energy blocks me. It makes me angry, frustrated and sad. I see it as this: If I'm sitting at work, lost is sexual desire, unable to release it genuinely. Then I will become frustrated. If I go home and release it from masturbation, I will become addicted to the feeling and it will not be a true release of desire. The thoughts that I'm thinking are not present desire. They are thoughts. It's not real desire. If I'm sitting on this guy's couch, in his house, and we are having a deep conversation and I start to desire him, then, that is real desire. Desire that can be acted on if we so choose. Solution: Meditation. It silences thought. I meditated on my lunch break for about 20 minutes and I feel completely different. I'll link my Tolle meditation for others to utilize. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sh-Q50YEno This may not sound big to you guys, but this has caused so much chaos and bad decision making in my life and I'm just grateful to finally feel like I'm gaining control of my own life. I'm so happy right now and just so ecstatic. I feel so fucking powerful.

@Member We'll see. I've only masturbated once this week and before that nothing for almost two weeks. My sexual frustration I think got really bad because my sex life with my ex was very infrequent and he turned me down often. We'd have sex once or twice a month. (He had ED, wasn't his fault) So, I think that's where the bad energy was coming from. It's sorted.

@Chris365 Chris, I noticed the other thread you posted about her not wanting to orgasm. I think it's good you guys are ending things. There's a lot of red flags here. Her not wanting to cum. Her spending her time with another potential guy to fuck when that wasnt what you two agreed upon in the relationship, etc. I wouldnt go as far to say she's unstable. For some reason she isn't being honest and vulnerable with you. But I dont agree with you asking her to "fake it." That hurts my soul. Wish you healing ?

@Leo Gura I'm just joking with you about suppressing. My LP is on hold till rona ends. But studying this has taken up some free time for sure!

@Leo Gura Let's suppress it! It can't control us like this. Figure it out. I'll semi-patiently wait for your synopsis.

@Leo Gura How awful...

@Leo Gura But I was masterbating every day, multiple times a day before my isolation trip. It was all I could think about. I felt like it was making my sexual frustration worse. Is it normal to be this sexual? Every day? It made me have more sexual thoughts. This is what I'm supposed to be like?

@JosephKnecht Nah, I'll respond ? I dont like the top but you're probably right.

@JosephKnecht For example; this "thought-desire" made me angry at this guy. I was actually angry at him for not be available to have sex with me. I asked him if he was available on Sunday night. He apologized and said he was available Monday night because of his chaotic work schedule. I got angry. Literally angry. In the past, I would have told him, "Oh that's okay. Lets wait a few weeks until our schedules align." Now, this may not seem insidious but it is. It's me punishing him for not being available to me. I know he really likes me and has waited a year for the opportunity to date. (His words not mine) So I noticed this feeling about myself (consciousness), I put my phone away. I went home, meditated. And then when I wasn't emotionally charged, I wrote him, saying I could make myself available Monday night but it would only be for a short time. (Compromise) I'm amazing. I'm in such a good mood at me compromising and being able to step away. Don't judge me for this. I promised myself to be honest on the forum even if I came off unattractive. I think everyone is unattractive underneath our layers. But honesty is something I'm good at..so..w.e.

@JosephKnecht Well, I mean all desire is thought. But I think its very different for our inner selves to experience cultivated desire from physical, genuine human interaction vs thought based desire. Thought desire is incurable. It's unfulfilling. Desire in the present moment, is an emotion... an energy. You can feel it, let it pass through you and then be done with it. Thought desire stays trapped inside of you. I think this is where incels are trapped. Have you heard of these men? Angry at women for not getting sex from them so they kill them or something. I realized my thought desire is never fulfilled. The more I think these thoughts, the more frustrated I become. If I have sex with the intention to release this thought desire, then I feel terrible after. It wasn't genuine. It wasn't truthful. This is why I'm trying to be celibate right now. Until I figure this out fully.

@Dinesh Karki The brain supplement will help. That is a natural way. Stop consuming all animal products. ALL. No animal proteins. Work out every day. Ashwganda(?) I think stimulates testosterone production as well. But taking bio-identical hormones is natural to your body. It's not steroids or anything. It's like a supplement. Some people have fucked up their hormones so bad from prolonged consumption of animals and their secretions that, you will probably need bio-identical hormones. Edit: I have heard in the vegan community that ashwaganda stimulates T production. I have not seen science backing up this claim.

@Dinesh Karki Dairy will negatively impact your hormones. It should never be consumed. Ever.

@Dinesh Karki This is a common problem with hormone levels. I would speak with your doctor and have your testosterone levels pulled along with estrodial, TSH, PSA, sex hormone binding, CMP, FSH. Your T levels should be in the 600-800 level for males. We treat brain fog at my clinic, etc. I'll link a brain supplement that is vegan friendly as well that we recommend to patients. https://www.a1supplements.com/brain-armor-pro-brain-nutrient-formula-liquid?utm_source=google_shopping&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIv8Lft62d6gIVrdSzCh0--QduEAQYAyABEgIShPD_BwE

@OmniYoga @Michael569 @hyruga @Superfluo @IJB063 Holy shit, thank you guys for all the great recommendations. Quick question: If I'm drifting to more inner work and hoping one day to lose all desire for romantic relationships, should spend time on understanding male psychology? I would like to learn to love men more instead of projecting the pain I've had in the past from them, onto them. But I think this will come naturally with inner work. What are your thoughts? I'm leaning towards Tolle teachings now. (Just as a point of reference.)