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i think there are other factors at play in regards to relationships. There may be certain needs that a person needs fulfilled like motivation from the other partner or whatever. I dont think judging someones compatibility should be entirely focused on spiral dynamics. there are many other features to a persons character and if the compatibility is right a lot of the issues that are recognised are low hanging fruit to be picked. That doesn't mean you should find a stage red person and try to fix their problems, just make investigation into a person before you draw conclusions.

so this rejection about myself and sexuality is just telling me that this thought is not me as if it is a alarm system warning me. I think the biggest problem was that the alarm system was a trigger on itself because this anger that i didn't realise was pointing me towards goodness. Its like i value the response as a indicator that says hey this thing is not in alignment with the goodness i want to be. i think i am looking at this the right way because this defence mechanism in my body is protecting me from all the things i think are bad and wrong. Thanks Nahm

i think contemplating what you need is a important way to know your needs. once you know your needs more and more its easier to recognize that life is supporting you at a existential level. i found centering helped me a lot, specifically abdominal breathing.

my understanding is that men and their relationship to attraction is very visual and women are more emotional. i think understanding our primal attributes can make us extremely powerful, charismactic and attractive to materialistic dummies. to my knowledge primal masculine attributes can attract girls very easly.

I am someone who struggles with learning academic stuff or any school related work. i had a mother that was a school teacher and really gave me a hard time as a kid during homework hours. when i do try to sit down and learn i struggle alot on concerntrating on the work. i am someone who wants to learn how to learn how to do essays and stuff. if there was a video specifically for university type learning i think it will fit in well with people achieving their life porpose.

that will be a challenge for me because i am a very horny person. I do find also my repression can come out in wet dreams and this ejaculation fear manifests in this way too. i think the abstinance will be a good thing for me because it helps me build the energy. i will aslo be doing mdma soon so i can do love meditations and bring it to my heart. i do find if the energy sits there it just makes me really aggressive and i struggle to know what to do with it because i dont have a job and stuff. my real life circumstances are a bit of a mess at the moment.

i believe that when i accept the situation it has a beauty to it as if accepting what is. Fo me the downfall is that the feeling can take me to dark places i dont really want to go to. it doesnt even have to have a sexual thing to it, it just seems to be abstract like touching myself and thinking about pumpkin soup.

yeah. i had a homosexual experience and i liked it. I feel disgusted with the homosexual steriotype and avoid the behavour because i feel other parts of my personality wouldnt survive. in the past the orgasm would depict my desire and my disgust for it at the same time and now it has manifested itself as this general disgust. i find my fulfilling orgasm happens when i feel a sense of receiving. but my homosexual encounter has been a challenge to intergrate because of the person and curcumstances. ive contemplated on the experience and im finding i am getting more in touch with my need and the shame is dropping away.

Thats the scary thing for me. I am trying to choose to do something that is good and contribute to the world, its just that i dont know if what i do will be as valuable.

i am currently workong or building my identity in the world. At the age of 24 i have like alot of people in the world many obsticals that have made it difficult to find my passion and life purpose. Following Leos advice on creating a career and choosing something i love i have decided to go into human services and achieve the goal of becoming a trauma therapist councillor specifically for women. The fear i have is that if i do radical spiritual work like smoking 5meo dmt and having profound insight i might loose the goals i am trying to manifest and end up like a guy living in a hut or whatever. my fear is that my own suffering is perpetuating my goals and if i loose that suffing i might loose what i have worked on and squandered all that effort for nothing. would it be best to being working on my career or soing radical spiritual work? I feel as if the radical spiritual work will make my goals way to abstract and i wont care much for being part of this world, if thats the case i wont have any education and i will just be a enlightened uneducated person. so whats more important for young people building ego or killing ego?

natrual process has been hijacked from porn addiction which i feel alot of shame about :(. But what you said about allowing the mind to express itself sexually i think thats my golden ticket. thanks

I think she is too dense in her material and can become quite complicated. She tries to project her experience onto the audiance and that can be very dangerouse because people start to believe they are sharing the same experience that she had. Her whole work is based on her healing of the trauma she faced and now she tries to help people with that insight, I feel that her teachings can be ungrounded and cold which is not good for newbies and people who dont question things.

Thats how peter ralston would say it.

I have been doing the forgiveness work with mdma and using your tempelate. What other psychedelics can you suggest in regards to trauma therapy?

I dont think that love should be measured in this way, it cannot be measured by our trauma if it is beyond our trauma.

I find that when i go to a specific trauma and do the forgiveness techneque that trauma is linked to other related memories. My bully is related to my aggressive father to my cruel boss to other bullies and so on... When i stick to one specific event will it make the other events esier to heal? I can feel the tension in my body and it just feels like all this rejection and hate. The tension feels like so many people... The tension is like the devil and there is a angel somewhere else and the angel is repressed and in fear of the pain, when i do this nondual thing it feels like they are both integrating but the fear still crops up its like the hate from my bully and his projection of my weakness is the very thing i am afraid of becoming.