StudentOfLeove

@seeking_brilliance @Mikael89 YES... language is limited.

Who is it that suffers? What is form? I mean where does form come from? What is love, how is love formless? Why do "I" suffer? Why does "he" or "she" or "it" suffer? Is suffering itself the brutal nature of love? I try to get out of my mind... what is this "mind"? How did it came to existence? How did it all came to existence? What does it mean to surrender the EGO? How does this happen? How does anything happen at all? Wtf. Well I realise I cant understand it/reality with my mind... but then who is it that tries to understand this right here? You see how my mind works? How it tries to get somewhere.... but where is somewhere and where is nowhere... Nowhere is now here! hahah I could try forever...

@allislove @Javfly33 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

As I woke up from this dream I began to realise that I aka GOD himself, created all of it. All the galaxies, universes, planets, earth, humans, emotions, bodys, etc... Well this sounds like one EPIC fucking awekening where I need to fought a dragon and punch Thanos in the face or something to get there XD. Well, well, well... NO! I just woke up as GOD from this sad nightmare I created (it was a very, very, very sad dream, where the "I" was constantly creating circumstances which confirmed that "I" was a sad pussy who did not deserve LOVE from anybody... even from my parents I could cry now...) but it was alllll just a dream, all the pain and sadness was just ILLUSION! This exactly happened after ayahuasca got me into one strange loop of toughts. "I" tought I was going crazy... as this was happening a shaman and a witch were taking care of me. Without them I wouldnt be here anymore... Anyways after my mind was mindfucking itself for 3 hours I guess... slowly it kinda stopped mindfucking itself and then BOOOOOOOOM!!!$@^@%@ TAAADAAAAAAA! I woke up... NO-MIND... just me... nothing else. I looked at the witch and couldnt fucking believe what the fuck was happening all my life... I asked her: "What the fuck was that?!"... she replied: "Just an ayahuasca-trip XD"... when she said that I couldnt stop laughing histerically like a maniac for eternity... GOD laughing because of GOD about GOD like this: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH... Well two weeks passed now since this experience and I am kinda on a brigde to awakening, on a brigde from falsehood to Truth, on a brigde from "hell" to heaven on earth... Yeah, cool stuff, right? So that was my story, now please have a beautiful day you sexy soul Adios, peace out!!!

I have to share this nostalgic motherfucking masterpiece!

Thanks for the anwers y'all... life is way easier when one lets hinself go and lets god do the job for you

@Nahm HA thanks!

Unbelieveble

How the fuck could I ever know that this shit really works! Holy fuck...

Okay thank you interesting

Yeah its hard sometimes...

I did not deserve this... Thats just way outta my head❤ Leo please say something just one time...just one time.

They are killing you with kindness

I think its fucking time to go on a journey...

@bejapuskas Very great advice! "Only a fool learns from his own mistakes. The wise man learns from the mistakes of others." Pleeaaaase young humans plleasse listen to this. I ignored this kind of advice and I became crazy and would have killed myself if god wasnt there to safe its child! LOVE❤ Ladies and Gentlemen! Its all about love... dont take this for granted.

@James123 interesting bro. Did not think this way, Hahah. Lol... yeah this makes sense

Most of you guys really dont get it! You are way to stuck in the head! Gods love is unconditional. This means it loves absolutly everything about it self. Its total self-love because there are no single entities in the first place. You cant love this thing over here but completly ignore the other thing over there. Well @James123 you confuse me a little with the sentence: "self-love is suffering" which in my understanding of reality as a whole is not true because everything is god and god loves everything about himself.:) then you say "ego dissolves, then unconditional love takes place" with which I totally agree! But yeah I guess its the language that confuses us all. Reality is a strange loop and language can just grasp a small part of it. For me the ego is just a certain structure of language with which consciossnes identifies itself with and it does everything to maintain its form. So there are then all those survival mechanisms it creates to keep the illision alive. But when one then awakens from this dream he can see through all this illusions, paradoxes, glitches in the matrix and BOOOOM! TADAAAA! A masterpiece by god. The best movie there is with the biggest plot in it. What a genius god is. Oh my fucking god.......

I cant take it. You guys are way too funny. You make this so much fun for me. Thx for that

[I dont understand this... what do you mean by stop loving what? Maybe its the english language or something else that confuses me here. I dont get what this sentence is pointing at.]OMG! I think I got it!!!! He sais: "fill in the blank" but what if I dont fill in the blank. That then also means: The Benefit of staying awake is to love everything unconditionally! Right? The good as much es the evil. The right as much as the wrong. Thats true love.. when you shine your light of awereness on the darkness. The darkness then has no choice but to become LIGHT itself. Thank you for helping me getting more selfless. I have complete trust in truth/ god (not falsehood) now. I do feel like god is guiding me... thank you thank you thank you thank you... love love love love... it is killing me slowly and softly. What a gentle way to kill someone.XD

What is Shizophrenia? What is Psychosis? What are mental disorders? It seems to me a lot of people just dont know for sure (including doctors, psychologists, etc.). Yeah they read some stuff about it here and there and there are different forms of shizophrenia and then they give other human beings that label and some medication that just make them to a zombie. There is so much more to learn about it. Every conscious mind is unique. You must find out for yourself what that really is. Do not let it hold you back from pursuing enlightenment if that is your goal. There is a lot of research you can do. Read a lot of different kind of books about shizophrenia, do meditation,shamanic breathing, yoga, self-inquiry, research psychic powers, shamanism, kundalini, enlightenment and go do research about psychedelics and do mild doses of them if you are old and mature enough. Explore your conscioussnes. Find what works best for yourself. Here is what Terence McKenna said about shizophrenia: "Schizophrenia is just a catch-all term for forms of mental behavior that we don’t understand. In the 19th century, there was a term “melancholia,” which we would now call bipolar depression, so forth and so on. But all forms of sadness, unhappiness, maladaptation, so forth and so on, were poured into this label “melancholia.” Now, schizophrenia is a similar thing. I can remember an experience I had years ago, it was in the Tolman Library at the University of California, which is the psych library, and I was looking up some drug or something, and I just saw a book and I pulled it off the shelf, a book about schizophrenia. And it said, “the typical schizophrenic lives in a world of twilight imagining, marginal to his society, incapable of holding a regular job, these people live on the fringes, content to drift in their own self-created value systems.” {And I thought,} That’s it! That’s it! Now I understand!… We have no tradition of shamanism. We have no tradition of journeying into these mental worlds. We are terrified of madness. We fear it because the Western mind is a house of cards, and the people who built that house of cards know that, and they are terrified of madness. Tim Leary once said – or I gave him credit for saying; he later told me he never said it – but whoever said it, this was a brilliant statement; someone once said, “LSD is a psychedelic substance which occasionally causes psychotic behaviour in people who have not taken it.” – right? And I would bet you that more people have exhibited psychotic behaviour from not taking LSD, but just thinking about it, than ever exhibited it from taking it – certainly in my family. I watched my parents both go psychotic from the mere fact that LSD existed; they would never have taken it. There is a great phobia about the mind: the Western mind is very queasy when first principles are questioned. Rarer than corpses in this society are the untreated mad, because we can’t come to terms with that. A shaman is someone who swims in the same ocean as the schizophrenic, but the shaman has thousands and thousands of years of sanctioned technique and tradition to draw upon. In a traditional society, if you exhibited “schizophrenic” tendencies, you are immediately drawn out of the pack and put under the care and tutelage of master shamans. You are told: “You are special. Your abilities are very central to the health of our society. You will cure. You will prophesy. You will guide our society in its most fundamental decisions.” Contrast this with what a person exhibiting schizophrenic activity in our society is told. They’re told: “You don’t fit in. You are becoming a problem. You don’t pull your own weight. You are not of equal worth to the rest of us. You are sick. You have to go to the hospital. You have to be locked up.” – You are on a par with prisoners and lost dogs in our society. So that treatment of schizophrenia makes it incurable. Imagine if you were slightly odd, and the solution were to take you and put you – lock you into a place where everyone was seriously mad. That would drive anyone mad! If you’ve ever been in a madhouse, you know that it’s an environment calculated to make you crazy and to keep you crazy. This would never happen in an aboriginal or traditional society. I wrote a book, I mean this has to be the wrap-up, because we’re over time – but I wrote a book called The Archaic Revival; I signed it tonight for some of you. The idea there is that we have gone sick by following a path of untrammeled rationalism, male dominance, attention to the visible surface of things, practicality, bottom-line-ism. We have gone very, very sick. And the body politic, like any body, when it feels itself to be sick, it begins to produce antibodies, or strategies for overcoming the condition of dis-ease. And the 20th century is an enormous effort at self-healing. Phenomena as diverse as surrealism, body piercing, psychedelic drug use, sexual permissiveness, jazz, experimental dance, rave culture, tattooing, the list is endless. What do all these things have in common? They represent various styles of rejection of linear values. The society is trying to cure itself by an archaic revival, by a reversion to archaic values. So when I see people manifesting sexual ambiguity, or scarifying themselves, or showing a lot of flesh, or dancing to syncopated music, or getting loaded, or violating ordinary canons of sexual behavior, I applaud all of this; because it’s an impulse to return to what is felt by the body – what is authentic, what is archaic – and when you tease apart these archaic impulses, at the very center of all these impulses is the desire to return to a world of magical empowerment of feeling. And at the center of that impulse is the shaman: stoned, intoxicated on plants, speaking with the spirit helpers, dancing in the moonlight, and vivifying and invoking a world of conscious, living mystery. That’s what the world is. The world is not an unsolved problem for scientists or sociologists. The world is a living mystery: our birth, our death, our being in the moment – these are mysteries. They are doorways opening on to unimaginable vistas of self-exploration, empowerment and hope for the human enterprise. And our culture has killed that, taken it away from us, made us consumers of shoddy products and shoddier ideals. We have to get away from that; and the way to get away from it is by a return to the authentic experience of the body – and that means sexually empowering ourselves, and it means getting loaded, exploring the mind as a tool for personal and social transformation. The hour is late; the clock is ticking; we will be judged very harshly if we fumble the ball. We are the inheritors of millions and millions of years of successfully lived lives and successful adaptations to changing conditions in the natural world. Now the challenge passes to us, the living, that the yet-to-be-born may have a place to put their feet and a sky to walk under; and that’s what the psychedelic experience is about, is caring for, empowering, and building a future that honours the past, honors the planet and honors the power of the human imagination. There is nothing as powerful, as capable of transforming itself and the planet, as the human imagination. Let’s not sell it {short?} straight. Let’s not whore ourselves to nitwit ideologies. Let’s not give our control over to the least among us. Rather, you know, claim your place in the sun and go forward into the light. The tools are there; the path is known; you simply have to turn your back on a culture that has gone sterile and dead, and get with the programme of a living world and a re-empowerment of the imagination. Thank you very, very much." -Terence McKenna

I love that.

Why am "I" afraid of Love/Death? Why does the devil rather survive and keeps suffering instead of letting himself go and experience Love?