Jai

Apr 25 Another day that was a little on the tough side. Not because anything was actually wrong. More because I felt a little disappointed with my studies and maybe expectations not being met. I really wanted to study more but my mind was exhausted and a dull. I just didn't have the necessary concentration. I did some stuff like bike rides and hikes but still felt dull all weekend. It's good I want to study but I want to avoid getting disappointed if I feel a little off. I also probably need to schedule an entire day off on the weekends just to totally unplug. It may be better in the long run. I'd really like to study even more but if I reach my limit then that is that. Other than that life is good. It was really warm today and I liked that. Went on a nice hike and took some photos. Hung out with a friend and did a nice meditation. Went on a bike ride. Talked with some friends over the phone. Life overall is pretty good. I also have to enjoy life and be grateful. + Spiritual practice: a couple nice sessions today. God is definitely the foundation of my life. I've been really spiritually active for a year. As long as I bring God into my life everyday I'll be good. I'm committing to another year as God being the priority and focus. / Attitude of service: pretty good. Thought of getting soda waters for when my friend came over so I had something to offer. Was stuck a little bit in my own problems today, so not really great outward energy. I like having an orientation where I'm always looking to contribute. / Mental and emotional states: Not really where I would like to be. A little disappointed and discouraged. Really just because I wanted to study more. I would like to have better faith and just trust that consistency will get me where I need to get. Don't have to worry about this or get disconnected. I think I'll probably bounce back tomorrow and start the week strong. + Life habits: Still pretty good. Lived clean today and avoided any bad choices. Moved forward today.

Apr 24 Tougher day today. Not bad, just not as energized. Sometimes on the weekends I dip a little. Maybe because I expel so much energy during the week. Regardless I felt a little disappointed with my studies. It's difficult stuff, I mostly feel good about it but sometimes I have a tough day. I wish I could get more done on weekends but I also need to unplug some. Sometimes I just hit my limit a litttle with how much I can work and study. It's just going to take time. I just feel in a rush sometimes because I want to build a nice future and I'm getting older. so tomorrow I want to do a little better and be a little more excited about life. I did take a nice bike ride today. I also had pretty good habits overall. So a lot to be proud of. Just not feeling as connected as recently. + spiritual practice: good effort here. A nice morning session. / Attitude of service: A little stuck in self today. A little worry and inner turmoil. Not horrible but not the faith and optimism I'm used to. / mental and emotional states: a little less connected and a little less optimistic. Never fell into being really negative, but I also wasn't playing on offense. + Life habits: Pretty good overall. Did pretty good with doing some healthy things. Moved forward today

Apr 23 Another really good day. I'm starting to learn and understand better some sql code. Also really learning javascript as well. It's starting to sink in some and I'm having better understanding. It's nice to be able to query into a production database. I'm having to pretty much teach myself. I'm also getting better with a legit javascript course that puts a lot of emphasis on fundamentals. That's good also. I just want to keep putting in top level effort like I have been. Last month I've made great progress so I really want to keep this up. This is definitely a product of my good habits and going celibate. I definitely have higher levels of focus and energy. So I have to continue to keep discipline and live clean in this area. I've come a long way in the past year. Was thinking about that with gratitude for the opportunity I have. So definitely want to make the most of it and keep close to God. + Spiritual practice: Nice morning session. + Attitude of service: pretty good at work. Trying to get things done. Good outward energy and good overall attitude. + mental and emotional states: really good. definitely optimistic. Also pretty focused. Living in faith and feeling connected. + Life habits: Also good. Up on alarm and a nice cold shower. Living clean all around Moved forward today

Apr 22 Really good day. Felt like I was playing offense today. Pretty positive, energized, in faith and trying to do service for God and expand myself and show what is possible. Yesterday I was a little flat but today I turned it up some. It was good day with studying, with work, and with my spiritual practice and habits. Day in and day out I'm putting in great effort. Also my retention streak is still strong. I need to keep committing to that on a daily basis. I'm over a month in. I want to get to 3 months. So now it's just living with high sexual energy and staying disciplined. I'll be better for having done this for sure. Tomorrow is Friday which is good also. Hopefully finish the week strong and go in to the weekend ready to get some studying done and also unwind some. Weather is getting nicer so I'm happy about that. + Spiritual practice: nice breathing, meditation, chanting sessions. + Attitude of service: Trying to get things done ASAP at work to be helpful. Also trying to keep learning sql which is nice at work. I want to keep building my knowledge. + Mental and emotional states: nice and positive. Really oriented correctly. Felt good connection as well. + Life habits: good here. Good discipline all around. Moved forward today.

Apr 21 Solid day overall. Each day I'm making progress with my studies and at work so that feels good. Sometimes the goal seems far away but I am definitely making progress and working consistently. I'm really giving close to 100% over the last month. I've really stepped up my effort. Today I didn't have as much energy as normal, but also never really felt down or low energy. Just not as high energy as I've been. Sometimes it's tough just becasue there isn't a lot of free time. I'm usually always busy. But that's how it goes when I'm trying to build a nice future for myself. Really everything is in place and I'm just in a little bit of worry from time to time over finances. It's going to be a long haul with working. Next 10 years I really want to transform my finances. So just got to trust God and not get worried about things too much and enjoy the things I'm doing now instead of thinking I'll be happy in the future. Honestly things are good and this summer is going to be great. + Spiritual practice: Good morning session. Going to do a quick meditation before bed also. / Attitude of service: overall decent. but also missed a small opportunity for service at the end of the day. I should go out of my way to be helpful. Should really recognize every opportunity and be helpful. + Mental and emotional states: Pretty good overall, just not as energized as I've been recently. Still pretty good mental discipline. + Life habits: Living pretty good.

Apr 20 Bounced back today and had a solid day. Since I was tired yesterday I slept an extra hour this morning. That proved to be a wise decision. I felt more energized today and more optimistic like I've normally been. I was less distracted by sexual energy and also was not in doubt about the future. I felt pretty connected all day. Really glad I bounced back and my streak is still going with being fully celibate. I really want to control that energy. Also I was pretty excited at work about some of the queries i've written and my increasing knowledge of sql. I really like being able to query into this production database. Also my studies are satisfying. Funny how if I have an off day I question those things. REally I've been on a nice streak and I'd like to keep it up. I'm putting in a lot of effort and really changing my life. I just can't let off the gas now that I've had a solid year of consistent spiritual practice. A year ago today is when I started this review I think and I've had a great year. So definitely want to keep it going. + Spiritual practice: Had a nice morning session. Happy about the effort there. Good meditation and prayer, definitely felt like I connected with God. + Attitude of service: Good outward energy today, not stuck in my own problems. Looking to be helpful at work in general. + Mental and emotional states: big improvement from yesterday. Yesterday I just felt a little dull. It showed here, today I bounced back. + Life habits: overall pretty good. Setting a really high standard. Moved forward today.

Apr 19 A tougher day than normal. Not really bad but I felt kind of dull. Usually Monday I come out strong at the beginning of the week. But today all around I didn't feel super energized. Mentally dull and a little worn. I felt like I slept okay but I did study a lot last week and maybe I pushed the limit and it caught up with me. I also had a little doubt and less confidence with the path I'm on. Also felt more distracted by sexual energy and felt a little lonely. Whenever I have an off day it shows up in these two areas, how I feel about my situation and the future and how I feel about sexual energy / distraction. Fortunately still kept solid habits and it wasn't a real threat. But still i noticed that tendency. Hoping tomorrow to come out strong and have a solid day and feel energized. Going to sleep now in a bit. + Spiritual practice: Effort was there but I didn't have a lot of mental clarity or focus. Still good effort with meditation and prayer. + Attitude of service: Pretty good job at work of looking for opportunity. / Mental and emotional states: not horrible but off a little. That's okay, just an off day. Probably the first off day I've had in a month. Also I entertained more sexual thoughts than normal. I want to clean that up to really gain control of this area of my life. + Life habits: Good here. Living clean. Moved forward today.

Apr 18 Another good day. Got home so got back to a little better discipline with diet. Had a nice day of studying also. Ran an errand, talked with some friends. Just a predictable solid day like most are now. I've really become consistent over the last month and not having any off days. Celibacy project is still going strong, tomorrow is 30 days so obviously happy about that. Also pretty happy about life in general, I'm on a pretty good trajectory. I really just need to keep investing in God and building good habits each day. I've had a really solid year so I don't want to lay off the gas. It's solid because I've put in the effort. If I put in less effort I'll have worse results. + Spiritual practice: Really nice morning session. gonna try getting up tomorrow at 3:45 am to get some more time to meditate before work. So breaking the 4:00am barrier. It's intimidating but I want to do this. More time with God in the morning is good. + Attitude of service: Good outward energy today. Not overly stuck in self. + Mental and emotional states: Good. Good focus, good optimism, good clarity overall. I have really good mental control and discipline lately. The last holdout was sex drive. If I can bring that fully under control through being celibate for 3 months with any sexual activity - and avoiding sexual thoughts then I'll be proud of that work and it will have a good benefit also. + Life habits: Good here. Back in my home element so easier to keep things clean. Moved forward today.

Apr 17 Pretty solid day. Found a nice office chair at a thrift store that saved me $185. Glad I didn't buy a new one. Good day overall. Went to thai temple again and chanted and meditated. Ran some errands and hung out with my sister. Overall I felt pretty solid. Not really having bad days. I'm operating on a high level and putting in great effort. I want to keep this up. A big part of this is having great discipline with the sex drive and practicing retention. I definitely have good energy. That combined with my already clean habits has me in a good spot daily. I really feel more confident and convinced of my goals. I'm more motivated and driven and just ready to keep working toward them. All of this with God as the director and source. + Spiritual practice: nice session at the temple. Really nice to go there. + Attitude of service: Pretty good outward energy, not stuck in self. + Mental and emotional states: Consistently at a high level. I'm on a nice streak and really would like to keep this up. I've got a nice life and I'm really building something good. So the point is to enjoy it and be optimistic and positive. + Life habits: Good. Retention goal is still strong. I'm avoiding lustful thinking and when it does come up turning my thoughts in another direction. This is an important key, to really mentally always avoid entertaining sexual thoughts. The discipline there is good. Other part is just managing a high level of sexual energy. Right now the energy I have after almost 30 days is the energy that I will have to deal with for the next 2 months. Point is to actually appreciate this high energy and use it in other ways. Moved forward today.

Apr 16 Did some service today at the thai temple which felt good. Snowed last night so I shoveled the snow for an hour to clear the driveways and sidewalks. Then had breakfast with the monks and then meditated some. Tomorrow will go again to chant. Too bad I live so far away from the temple or I'd go every week. I'm visiting my sister now so it's easy to go. Other than that had a good day. Got a bunch of studying done. Was helpful at my sisters. Although I did fall short with diet which normally happens when I visit. + Spiritual practice: nice meditation session. Out of my normal routine at my sisters but good session at the temple. + Attitude of service: good opportunity today to be helpful, glad I was ready to do that + Mental and emotional states: Good, feeling pretty positive and optimistic generally / life habits: fell short on diet and didn't exercise so not good there moved forward today

Apr 15 Another good day. Got a bunch done at work and not stressed. Feeling pretty comfortable at work which is nice. Our team is out of the clear yet with projects but for the most part we're in a good spot. I'm happy I've settled in some. The intensity definitely has decreased and I can even study some sql at work which is nice. Habits mostly good, did eat some french fries with dinner which I shouldn't do. Just the flavor and processed foods I want to stay away from. Normally eat super clean. Retention streak continues. Nearing a month so I want to keep this a priority. I've made a lot of good progress and don't want to have an off day and lose that. + Spiritual practice - morning session is good, just wish there were more time. Tomorrow going to thai temple so happy about that. + Attitude of service - always trying to be helpful at work, trying to be efficient and get things done. trying to contribute to our team so this is going well. + Mental and emotional states: Good here, mostly on the positive side of things. Feeling mostly connected. Never really fell in to any fear or worry or negativity so that is good. + Life habits: Overall pretty strong. I'm recommiting more to the cold showers which is nice. I'm almost at a year of daily cold showers so I have to sign up for a second year. The benefit is nice. Moved forward today

Apr 14 Going strong still. A nice streak continues. Every day I'm really operating at a high level. I'm starting to feel more energized and motivated. I'm working on something difficult with learning to code but I'm excited about it and the future. Each day I'm trying to improve and give full effort. Lately I really have been giving full effort. On my mind I'm asking myself 'what if I gave 100%'. That's a good way to look at it. Just keep trying to give 100%. I'm getting more excited also because I can see myself doing this as I learn. It's important to really have a clear vision and I'm definitely getting a clearer vision. Other than that all of the good habits help especially being celibate now. That has given me more energy and focus. I'm really eliminating lustful distractions from the mind. + Spiritual practice: good morning session - my breath retentions are getting longer which is nice. After deep breathing I do have intense focus, a great way to start the day. Haven't been chanting as much though going in to work has eliminated the lunch chanting session. + Attitude of service: pretty good here. Good outward energy, helpful at work. Looking to contribute during the day. + Mental and emotional states: doing really well here. Operating at a high level and feeling confident and strong. I want to keep this up obviously. I like playing offense here and not defense. + Life habits: My first decisions of the day set the tone. Wake up at 4, deep breathing and meditation, cold shower. Everything compared to the cold shower is easy. Moved forward today.

Apr 13 Another good day. I'm on quite the streak and want to keep this up. I'm doing well on all fronts - habits, spiritual practice, work, study, etc. All doing pretty well here. I've just renewed my committment in general. I've been getting up as soon as the alarm goes off and having a good day overall. I just feel nice and energized and not really depressed or down at all. For the most part pretty confidnent all around. Plus my vision of the future is becoming clearer which is good. I really see a clear vision of where I"m heading. It's just a matter of hard work on my part. Only negative was feeling a bit insecure today. Some girl I wasn't interested in was texting me and I communicated that I didn't want to hang out and she got upset. Don't even think she was interested in me but she was being friendly or something. Anyway she got upset when I said I didn't want to hang out. It's just a distraction and I really want to focus on gaining sexual discipline. Retention is going really well. + Spiritual practice: just a morning session but pretty good. Have to do a better job during the day of reconnecting. I should actually look to schedule this in. + Attitude of service: Good here. Good energy and contribution at work. Good outward energy. / Mental and emotional states: Generally good but a little insecure today. That will disappear though. Good thing is that I feel great focus overall. Just got to keep getting more serious about improving everyday. + Life habits: Really good. It's become natural that I have good habits. Love the discipline that I've been having. Moved forward today

Apr 12 A really solid day. Got some extra coding in at work writing sql queries. Glad I'm able to do that at work in a production database and gain experience. Got a bunch of tasks done also at work so happy about that. Trying to be of service and contribute. Talked with a friend which was great also. Glad I have a good friend and we can talk about very real spiritual topics and growing spiritually. Celibacy streak is going strong. Just have to keep this up and not falter on a bad day. + Spiritual practice: good here - setting aside time and making this a priority. I'm pledging to never back off of this. + Attitude of service : good outward energy not stuck in self + Mental and emotional states: really positive today, good focus, good connection overall. This is what I want to maintain and not go back and forth. If I really keep my habits clean then I'm doing good. + Life habits: Good here - living clean with a lot of disciplien. Moved forward today.

Apr 11 Good day overall. Got some nice studying in and also enjoyed the weekend. Excited I got Friday off this week so I can go in to the week strong. Overall had good habits today and good connection. I'm avoiding the rotation of having a good week with study and then a bad week with study. I've been able to stay consistent and I want to keep this up. A big part is cleaning up my lustful thinking and really having discipline there. I'm 3 weeks going full celibate which is great. I have some good focus and that energy is available overall. I'm avoiding the negative dip that happens when I watch porn. So I have to keep good disciplien here and not mess up. I got a lot of good effort in and I want to keep that up. + Spiritual practice: Good effort here. Well rounded practice today and put some extra time in. + Attitude of service: picked a friend up, hosted a friend to hang out. Overall good outward energy. + Mental and emotional states: Good here. Mostly positive and confident. Felt connected and directed by god. + Life habits: Really nice. Setting an alarm on weekends is good. I can get extra sleep but I still get up on an alarm. Moved forward today

Apr 10 Good day overall. Lots of good things. But felt bad about a hurtful text I sent yesterday. I made an apology but didn't get a reply. I definitely feel bad about this. I haven't had something like this for awhile. It definitely threw me off a bit and I felt remorse and less connection. A total error on my part. I can't change that but definitely want to avoid something like this again. I really need to watch what I want to say and not say things that are hurtful. Other than that a nice day. Good study sessions, a good streak overall continues with retention. My habits are real strong so I want to keep that up. I'm really becoming a person with good disciplien, habits, motivation. Big thing is just staying grateful and being patient. It's gonna take time to build the life I envision. I'm learning computer languages and it's not going to happen overnight. Each day just put in effort and make progress. + Spiritual practice: really nice morning session. Hour total between breathwork and meditation. Nice having extra long weekend sessions. + Attitude of service: Pretty good. Saw an opportunity to open a door and did. Generally decent outward energy. / Mental and emotional states: was thrown off by my bad comment from yesterday so I felt remorse for this, this just disconnected me a bit + Life habits: good here. Lots of benefit from having clean habits. Moved forward today.

Apr 9 Another good day. Was more energized today. Didn't feel burnt out. Felt good energy and focus. Had a good day at work and wrote more queries which I'm happy with. Felt pretty good God connection. Only problem was that I sent a message to someone as a joke and I think they were offended. So I feel bad about that. Weird situation because I kind of don't feel bad about bro humor and if someone takes it the wrong way then they shouldn't be butthurt. But on the same hand I do feel bad. So this was the only down thing today really. It's like I indulged in a joke when the opportunity was there. + Spritual practice: pretty good here. Glad I set aside time in the morning. Tomorrow is a day off so gonna have a longer session. / Attitude of service: Good effort , overall good orientation toward the world, but also was stuck in self a bit thinking about the future and my plans and not really being present. + mental and emotional states: Good here. Pretty optimistic and connected. Felt like I was energized and had a lot of clarity and strength. + Life habits: Good with this. Living clean. Lots of discipline, really want to keep up the celibacy streak I'm on. That was really and is really the last hold out on habits. It's the most difficult, if I can do this I can handle other things easier. Moved forward today.

Apr 8 Another solid day but feeling mentally fatigued. Just a lot of hours on the computer. 2 hours studying plus 8 work hours daily. Weekend usually put in another 8 studying. So the time really adds up. This weekend might take a full day off from the computer to refresh. We'll see. I still want to hit my goal for study hours. Other than that solid day again. I'm settling in to work which feels nice. I've been used to work really being tense from all that's going on so it's a much more normal pace now. Had a nice walk on lunch, really appreciating the absence of fear and the presence of God and being connected. Life is pretty normal and predictable, not too much is going to change over the next year. But that's good, I need to really dig in and make progress and at the same time get an even strong er relationship with God. + Spiritual practie: nice morning session. Daily I make time for this. Only 30 minutes today so looking forward to weekend session. + Attitude of service: Good outward energy, good action here. Sometimes thinking too much about my own goals though. + Mental and emotional states: In a good place here. The discipline with being celibate pays off with higher focus and concentration. Just lack of distraction and more clarity. Also just free from fear or real worry. I want to build this more to have more confidence and conviction and dedication to my path and goals. + Life habits: Good here also. Living really clean and not making compromises. Moved forward today.

Apr 7 Good day today all around. Good motivation and perspective. I've been on a really strong pace but my habits are holding up strong and I'm able to bounce back from a down day when it happens which isn't often. I'd like to really keep up this comittment. Work has settled down a bit and I can write some sql code into our databse to practice. I'm excited about that. It's interesting for me to write queries like this. It's a new aspect of my job that I'm liking. Probably can also take a course on this through work which will benefit me a bunch. I'm kinda proud of the queries I've written. Today also had pretty good connection overall and a good outward energy. My celibacy streak is going strong also. That is a big part of the progress I'm making. I can't let up here. Each day I can commit to this and build discipline with this area of my life. + Spiritual practice: Good here. Gonna do an evening chanting session. Good morning sessions also. When I wake up as soon as my alarm goes off I have enough time for a morning practice + Attitude of service: Good outward energy, trying to contribute. I want to really mentally remind myself throughout the day that I'm serving God. + Mental and emotional states: Really good also. Nice and positive, recognized some gratitude today also. Need to see the good in others. It's too easy to be critical of others. I need to correct myself when I am. + Life habits: Good discipline here. I've really turned into a person with great habits. Not forcing them either. I do them because I get a benefit. But I want to really keep up the celibacy and sexual discipline. This is the hardest of all and the last holdout. Moved forward today.

Apr 6 Another solid day. Felt more connected and energized than yesterday. Feeling pretty good at work. Able to contribute, also writing some sql queries which is keeping me interested. I'm starting to figure out this database and write queries instead of just using the interface which is good. I think if I keep practicing I'll get a really nice understanding of the database. It will be good practice and keep me excited about work. Other habits strong today. I'm dialed in with a few friends that I really stay in close touch with. Staying really accountable to the good habits. Also really just moving forward with being fully celibate. The risk is really when my sexual energy is really high or I have a bad day. So just have to recognize those things and keep focus and strength. So another solid day and feeling good about the direction I'm heading in. + Spiritual practice: Good effort, but another day without a second session. I do want to get better about getting in second sessions. Maybe I can get chanting in after this review. + Attitude of service: good at work. Trying to be helpful. Got a project done off the list that wasn't even asked of me. Was just proactive and that felt good. Good outward energy and not stuck in self. + Mental and emotional states: Really solid and focused. Not distracted by girls or lust. Avoiding checking out girls or thinking about scenarios. Once in awhile I'm tempted but I'm doing good here overall. Also really gaining a lot of clarity on my vision. I'm also feeling really good about the progress I'm starting to make with coding. This is leading to more confidence and focus. + Life habits: living clean. Good discipline all around. WHM breathing and cold showers in the morning is going well. Moved forward today

Apr 5 Good day but felt a little flat. It's okay because my actions and habits were still good. Just not at the same level of energy as over the past two weeks. I've been on a really nice streak and want to keep it up. From time to time there will be days where I'm just not as connected and energetic. A kinda boring meeting at work threw me off a bit. Toward the end of the day felt a little mentally fatigued. Gonna get some good sleep tonight. Other than that want to keep up the high discipline in the area of being fully celibate. I'm just setting all sexual activity aside for 3 months. I'm also really monitoring my thoughts, that's definitely the area to be careful with. If I'm vigilant there then I'll do okay in action. So good day overall. + Spiritual practice: pretty good morning session, missed the lunch/afternoon session. Want to make sure to get this in tomorrow. + Attitude of service: Trying to help out at work. Trying to collaborate and have a good orientation to contribute. Also trying to keep a good outward orientation and look for opportunities of service. + Mental and emotional states: Good here but not at the same level of vitality as other days. Still didn't fall in to fear and worry. + Life habits: Good. The discipline is becoming natural. I get up at 4:00am without too much effort. This is my new good habit, get up as soon as the alarm goes off. Other habits are also strong. Being celibate and taking cold showers makes everything else seem easy.

Apr 4 Good day, went to church with a friend which was kinda fun. So Hare Krishna stuff yesterday and church today. Was one of the newer style churches with a band that plays jesus rock music. Pretty nice experience and good energy. Only got a little bit of studying done. Did hang with a friend which was nice and went on a bike ride. Overall life is going good and I'm on a nice streak of solid days. I also have two weeks of being fully celibate. That is a nice development of discipline. Now is where I really have to be on the look out for temptation. Going three months is my goal and is definitely difficult. I have to get used to high sexual energy and not be distracted. + Spiritual practice: Good here today. Nice prayer and meditation sessions. + Attitude of service: Good outward energy. Gave a friend a ride, went and bought a gatorade for another friend. + Mental and emotional states: Good here. Not in fear or worry. Just nice and connected. + Life habits: All pretty clean and good. Just have an injury to my chest muscle. Really sore so bummed I got to take a break from yoga and from upper body exercises. It's already hurt for a week so it might be awhile before I'm 100% Moved forward today.

Apr 3 Another solid day. Went to a small kirtan today which was nice. Felt good to chant and do something new. Getting into the krishna stuff some which is having a good impact. Don't know a lot about it but it's been nice. Living really clean and life is feeling interesting and exciting. Day in and day out I've been doing my best. I'm making progress and the big thing is to not be in a rush. I have to focus on daily living and gratitude and not be in a huge rush. So solid day and want to keep this progress moving. + Spiritual practice: good here. Kirtan was nice with chanting. Felt uplifting and something new. I want to get more involved with this. + Attitude of service: Tried to be helpful. good outward energy, not stuck in self. Felt pretty connected. + Mental and emotional states: Good here. Nice and positive, felt the connection with God all day pretty much. + Life habits: Strong day. Keeping the weekends strong is key. I don't want to fall back on the weekends into laziness and bad habits. More relaxed weekends, but filled with good things. Moved forward today.

Apr 2 Another good day although a little mentally fatigued at work. Still decent effort all around. Glad it was Friday. Another really solid week. I want to keep this up. The kind of discipline I've had over the past 2 weeks is what I'm aiming for. Real clean living and nice effort in studying. I'm really putting in good effort all around. I'm back to where I should be. Feeling connected and motivated. Just can't fall in to bad habits. + Spiritual practice: good morning session. Went in to work today so I didn't have a lunch session. After work went on a bike ride and ran some errands. So no extra sessions but still good. / Attitude of service: good overall, but a little spaced out at work. Just felt a little fatigued and distracted which is rare. + Mental and emotional states: Feeling motivated and positive. Have had a good orientation. Not in fear or regret. Just focused on making the day as good as possible. + Life habits: Still strong here. I get a lot of benefit from living simply and giving things up. Overall: moved forward today

Apr 1 Another solid day. I'm on a nice streak. I've really recommitted to seeking God each day and trying to improve my life. My morning breathing sessions are going really nice. I'm doing really long breathholds which is nice. Sexual discipline is high also which is energizing and good overall. Really committing to freeing my mind of lustful thoughts and distractions. I want to commit to 3 months of being fully celibate to improve my spiritual life. If I can really gain that discipline other things will seem easy. That really is one of the toughest things to get under control. Other than that really happy warm weather is coming. Went for a really nice bike ride after work. So glad I'll be biking more. One of my favorite things to do. + Spiritual practice: really good here. Keeping this number one. Connection with God is the foundation. + Attitude of service: Good outward energy, trying to contribute at work. Not stuck in my own problems. + Mental and emotional states: Felt connected today, free from fear and doubt. Felt energized and optimistic and focused. Benefits of clean living and committing to God and trying to maintain connection. + Life habits: Waking up as soon as the alarm goes off is a huge benefit. So valuable to do this. Even on weekends. If I want extra sleep that's fine, I'll set the alarm later, but I'm getting up on the alarm. This starts the day off right. Other strong habits just end up reinforcing each other. Moved forward today