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I think to tell one has got it all and that's it "forever" is an indicator of delusion. It sounds like an absolute statement from a finite domain. For me this also looks like a marketing strategy from his side. And if he would really appreciate Leos work he wouldn't go public, but look for a dialog first.

I would be interested how you would think about an individual from a dual point of view. Even if some higher-concioussness states are reached one could still think its something special most people don't achieve and that's why "I" am special. Honestly, I think every being is like a flower and how it evolves just depends on the nutrition, the environment. Also genetics. And genetics are nothing special and do not relate to an Individuum, but at the end to whole humanity and the universe or cosmos. And "good genetics" are imo completely subjective as well as how you interpret science. I opened this topic, because I hope some people think like I do, so I don't feel alone in this (currently for me) achiever-world, where you always can climb higher and therefore always be unsatisfied. Someone could always be better than me in some way and therefore I am less worthy. Which doesn't feel true to me. Did you had a similar issue and can relate to that? Did you overcome it and if yes, how? What's your mindset?

As they are human and often not that developed like most people, they tend to interpret behaviour subjectively. There are cases where 10 psychiatrists give 10 different diagnosis. This can lead to huge damage and loss of actual lifes. Sometimes it works sometimes not. It's like playing poker with the most valuable thing a human has - the psyche. I think for most people it's obvious that psychology or psychiatry is very primitive regarding to what it could be and according to effectivness. And I mean effectivness regarding life quality. I know people on medication. They living in a body-prison and have nearly no energy at all, they are sleepy all the time. It's sad that many docs don't know real solutions. And I think today's treatment are for some part not human at all. Some friends were psychologist or people who are often times in contact with them regarding their jobs. What cristallizes is that many psychologists/psychiatrist are doing this work because they have some kind of disorder themselves and started doing this work for self-help in the first place. Some are not but I think there is a blind spot in society which gives this kind of docs too much credibility. If one thinks about going there, this could be a good decision. But I would be critical and also observing if this person is competent.

This is genius, thank you so much! The issue really seems to be a feeling of being unworthy. I felt into it and something changed. It was like nothing had a meaning anymore and I didn't try to compensate for unworthyness anymore. It was like a numbness where it was not possible to think about or feel hurt by "others". However, like everybody became uninteresting because it felt like all people live according to the same ego-pattern. So no one was special and only feelings remained. It was like I wasn't affected by anything anymore and didn't care about the future or past. I tried just for the experience to grasp what no mind feels like. Then I was close to a mystical experience. One night duality mostly resolved. I had countless mystical experiences without psychedelics including seeing UFOs, k-hole, kundalini, non-duality and physical manifestations of ghosts. However, this was really weird, because my sense of reality changed dramatically for two days to some kind of nihilism but wihout a bad feeling behind, some calm feeling and I thought maybe I will become emotionally numb forever or something. So I trained myself to become angry at people again I guess this was spiritual avoidance. But I am not sure.

Is it insane to be happy, singing, dancing, hug people and talk about your experiences? If be people would be more cool they would turn on the music and dance as well I think it's more insane to walk around with an angry or sad face all the time and criticise other people to compensate for low self-esteem like people in Germany e.g. are used to. If one would add up all the toxicity in at least Western culture it would probably include far more delusion than the sum of all 'mentally ill' persons in the world. For me, mental illness is more like a degree of delusion, which doesn't allow to function in society or survive - besides the suffering it may includes for oneself. I am not enlightent, but isnt it the case that a non-dual experience cannot be experienced from a place of falsehood? But mental illness is caused and based upon falsehood. So I guess it's not possible to experience mental illness from a non-dual perspective and therefore see it from that perspective. Experiencing mental illness must include the related feelings + monkey mind etc..

The question is: "What is mental illness from a nondual perspective?" In this case, I would suggest, for example, volunteering in a psychiatric hospital and directing your awareness to what is considered "mentally ill" until you finally become so. I do not think that would feel comfortable. Remember that depression, for example, is also considered a mental illness. Thoughts and discussions would only distract from the actual topic you are having. Imo the term "mental illness" is a scientific construct to keep society together. Try it and run naked through your neighborhood or city center, dance and hug people in a platonic way, sing songs and tell them about their experiences when you realized that you are God. Some really nice guys in white coats would probably come and ram a syringe into your ass.

@Leo Nordin Thanks, I printed this one out and put it on my wall. @Meta-Man Currently, I don't experience god-mode so I cannot relate to this one. However, permanent enlightenment is also a goal of mine. I guess for one part to overcome suffering and be happy. But also because of interest in truth.

I need guidance, but I tend to get into conflict with people, so I'm not sure if I should take a life coach. And if you had a really good one, then all the others look like a joke. Like the cheap version of something. At least that's how it is for me. I think it's damn hard to find good coaches, especially nowadays. And even with certified IPEC coaches or something, I don't think I would do that. Because being coached by someone who is suffering himself feels like a waste of money. These would have to be more developed people. So I thought about investing in radical honesty instead. Because there you take turns talking to different people. That way I can spread my damn people-off or difficult being over many people, which reduces the chance of getting kicked out. But maybe I can even manage that. Right now, the most important thing I have to learn is to put feeling first. Radical honesty is like a trigger party. I could mentally prepare myself to focus on the feeling instead of thinking and acting reactionary, which in my case happens quite often. Maybe I should call a reality show doc or something. Because sometimes I realize later how what I express could be interpreted. I would be very interested to hear what you think and I would appreciate helpful tips!

An former friend of mine is a manager of a big e-commerce company. He said his boss went to China and made some Chinese politicians his friends. I guess he went on a Chinese elite school or university. Then he created factories there and got some really good duty conditions as well as logistic contracts.

Sounds like a good revenue for the beginning if you consider the average conversion rate! I will do it.

There are e-commerce platforms which provide you the whole website and also marketing options. This will contribute to the traffic. However, I will use SEO tools and upgrade my SEO skill level. I bought like 5 quality SEO books and 8 business books. Then I will contact influencer and so on.

You don't resell it. With dropshipping customers directly buy from the manufacturer. Your website is like a interface. That's why the business model itself is zero-investment. If you don't consider all the expenses for digital products.

Honestly, this is the only part I skipped most of, because some other urgent things came in focus..

in the research phase. This must be more expensive but lightweight products, so the shipping costs are relatively low compared and the margin larger. I do the research via SEO tools like Ahrefs, SEMRush and Ubersuggest. And I use in addition BuzzSumo and AnswerThePublic. Also I take a look into the annual reports of dropshipping companies and compare them with SEO metrics like organic traffic as well as manual analyzation of the website. I also have the idea to look at top US and international dropshipping sites and to take some insights out of their ideas and translate it to German. In addition later I concentrate on customizable products and then I want to ship internationally at the time I can afford a lawyer. I also plan to switch to normal E-Commerce meaning I buy the products for myself. Then I would get a margin of 40% on average rather than 15%. For the Gründungszuschuss I just combined US business plans and translated them into German. So you think to execute this plan but maybe I find better solutions I hope to get realistic insights and somehow connect the dots the get the optimal business out of it.

Did you work with psychedelics? I only did one mushroom trip and it was really great. And in Amsterdam I did THC mixed with mushrooms. THC is really good for me to feel empathy, authenticity and love. It lasts for weeks. I thought about maybe smoking joints every 2 weeks and doing mushrooms every week. Mushrooms I can grow but this requires time as well as the trips. THC is more difficult to get though. And maybe searching for it would also be too time consuming. Holotropic breathing is not that strong as psychedelics, but maybe I should level up. Tomorrow I start with it.

So true. I will do it.

@supremeyingyang Quote: "Yes and you have to convince a 'fachkundige Stelle' that your business plan is valid..." As I wrote I want to do create a dropshipping business. I am good at convincing. But they are often stupid German bureaucrats. The come with the argument that I am a young software developer and there are lots of opportunities and thats why there is a "mediation priority". No good argument in the COVID-19 time. So I send out 400 applications and tell them thats still not possible. Then you can get in the contradiction process where the success rate is about 90%. I spoke a lot with business consultants. Thats not a big problem. The application is already out.

Feels true. However, I don't feel this software development path is my path. I want to follow my bliss.

ok its called Gründungszuschuss. Its a government fund they give you money for 6 months and then you can extend to 9 additional months. In my case that would be like 2600 euro netto a month, what is a lot of money and gives much opportunities. I saw a lot of examples of people making 1 million euro revenue in the first year.

Then you should have learned to not judge or value behaviour because its always projection and has nothing to do with actual reality. I learn all the time. I also read the books there. I gave unconditionally, but then I was exploited and treated like shit. Afterwards I didn't felt like to give much to anybody. Because I am valuable too. I am not someone from which everyone can take something and give nothing back without even being grateful. And then steal your stuff. Seth Godin said "your gift is personal" and that its about sharing it but not treat yourself as a business transaction and call it uncoditional. Reciprocity in terms of just putting stuff out to people with the hope to get something back is not uncoditional. This is more like being opportunistic and not self-loving. This would be like staying in an abusive relationship. Unconditonal giving in my terms means give something if you feel a connection and sympathy. Currently, in software development I couldn't do it. Because most of the time for the people giving you the work its like they just want to have someone who does the stuff, gives you money and say goodby. There is not much personal connection there. The manager on the top doesnt care about you. Most of the time doesn't even know your name. @SirVladimir My feeling tells me to purify myself first but I don't know how long it takes and I don't have much time now. I only have a few months and in this time I should have started my business a long time ago. Because I already applied for a fund. It was 70% negatively motivated. But I feel like its an important value to me anyway. Because I always wanted to do whatever I want. However, maybe I change it.

Again I agree. Currently, I am not that grounded and maybe I should change my perspectives. The question remains how do I make a living out of business in about 6-9 months? Most businesses take more time to build up. Writing an ebook takes itself probably months for example. And then you have to do the marketing and get traction. It must be something which does mostly require background knowledge in business itself and maybe some transfer knowledge. I don't consider freelancing because this goes only via agencies and then I would depend on them. And its like having a regular 9-5 job, because most of the time you have to be on the spot. I don't want to work in a company. Software developer is not a cool job, I also feel overqualified. Last time I did 80% of the work of a 10 headed developer team. Had to answer questions all the time. Did the whole software architecture. But most of the developers are on basic level and don't understand much. 70k euro is exploitation compared to the value I provide. In My city the average salary of a software developer is 60k euro. The employers only look mostly at years you worked but not on how good you are. I program since I am 13 years old. There are too much questions at the same time. And I don't know which is the best one to answer. Intuitively I think I should focus on making money now. But then I get backlashes and lose time because of emotional problems and purification.

Nobody knows my identity here, so its still private. I thought maybe someone can post what comes into mind and this could be something I haven't thought of yet and maybe it resonates. Because I crushed my mind on this one.

You are right. There is this inner struggle that I want to do something spiritual but at the same time I want to earn much money to make up for all my youth threefold. And spirituality doesn't offer much money. And I think I have to live out something before proceeding with philosophy and spirituality. Therefore I need much money. And I want to do it in a professional and excellent style. Something which is connected to research. Honestly, that is why I resonate with Leo so much. But I don't want to copy something, I want to create something completely new by myself.

Thanks for your willingness to help. I don't know which profession fits to my desires. This are my strengths and values Top 10 Values: freedom self-actualization conciousness love learning purpose creativity excellence honesty wisdom Top 5 Strengths: bravery and valor hope, optimism, and future-mindedness curiosity and interest in the world appreciation of beauty and excellence creativity, ingenuity, and originality Zone of Genius: big picture thinking or abstract thinking They feel very authentic and I spend a lot of time to figuring them but really feeling into myself. So they are not the problem. The theoretical foundation also not. I just don't know how to combine my values, strengths and skills into a profession I resonate with. I thought business consultant would fit best to my zone of genius, but this doesn't fit to my values. There are tons of coaches out there and I would feel like some looser telling somebody something about life but haven't achieved anything by himself. And this doesn't give you much money on average. I just don't know what I could do. Enlightenment work would be the best one. But the net worth of Eckhard Tolle is just 60 million. And he earns the best I guess. Abraham Hicks has just 10 million dollars. And she is really famous and stuff. So this gives me an indication, that this marketplace is not that lucrative, because its stage turquiose and too far away from our current development stage. Tony Robbins has a net worth of 600 million but this is general stage orange and there are too many fraud personal coaches out there and its too popular. The competition is very hard so the success probability is too low. You have to outcompete many people with much more experience and connections. And in addition I don't see the point in doing anything. Everything takes years to achieve. But I want to start a business now I can make a living of in about 6-9 months. My current strategy is to get into business by taking a simple business model to learn the basics. From there extend it to other businesses. Learn about finances. Get much money in a couple of years like a few million. So I could live for 10 years in theory without working. From this position make a 1 year solo meditation retreat with psychedelics. Afterwards increse my social and communication skills. Then travel the world for half a year. Now I have developed to an extent I can help other people and do some challenging work with much research and stuff. But also I have the feeling I don't know what to do with this life. What's the point in helping others? This doesn't go deep enough. I feel like I am currently questioning my whole existence. But it doesn't feel realistic and I get often sucked into the idea that other people want to tell me to just be mediocre because your dreams are too big. Thanks I really feel lost.

I searched for myself a long time really intensive. I don't know what I should do or want to do. Even the life purpose course couldn't help me. I am just too stupid for living. Therefore maybe somebody can tell me a solution. I don't know further. Its so cold and love alone does not offer a good life.. I don't think that I can do it by my own just when I feel good. Then I get stupid ideas like starting with dropshipping to get experience in business because it seems to be easy. But there are better solutions to get money but I am too stupid. I feel suicidal but wouldn't do it because its harder to achieve than financial success and too uncertain.