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She is also a Reiki Master and has done Reiki distance healing with me. Afterwards my sleep has improved drastically and I feel that I can see more clearly and therefore also whether my consciousness is purer. I also had a lot of energy so that I could work longer and more effectively. Every time something like this happens, you have the feeling that it becomes more and more obvious what kind of matrix we live in.

The Kardashians are I think daughters of an attorney who defended O.J. Simpson and were super rich by birth. However, I agree that there are many celebrities who became famous without a decade or multiple decades of work. I think LOA plays a huge role as well as karma and environmental factors. I personally think if you are famous you will recognize it's not that great as initially imagined. Asking what one really wants could save a lot of time even if one would become a celebrity.

This sounds beautiful.

I can really identify with what you've written. It reminds me of my current situation. Because I don't want to be one person out of billions, but somehow special and want to be heard, understood, validated. I want to be seen as what I am as an ego. I saw too much direct evidence that I am not mediocre. Did IQ tests, delivered extraordinary work results, university grades and degrees. At the same time, I don't really believe that I am special, I often feel unworthy. Currently, many things in my life change and sometimes it's hard regarding admitting where I am in life and that I am all alone. I am the only person who can see who I am as an ego. All other people want to be seen, too. They also want, that I see their potential. They are mostly concentrated on themselves - like myself - and thus are biased by this perspective. Everybody sees the world through their own lenses and so it is never possible to be really seen. Nobody will come in my life and see who I am really. Have to give myself the love and acknowledgement. Because all love and acknowledgement came, come and will come by myself alone. It is time for me to realize that it is completely unimportant and does not matter who I become or who I am. Because, everyone will forget me anyway. It doesn't even matter how I felt or if I was happy in life when I die. But I do know that there is something I really want to decide about in life if I just want to feel good and have fun. People who shit chat, do shit chat and don't do or like it. I realized that I liked the aspect of having fun and laughing together with other people. Because even if I was enlightened, there is nothing special about it, and being intellectual does not make me a better person, better than someone else, smarter or more intelligent. Being in my own head for too long gives me a feeling of disconnectedness. Philosophical discussions, for example, often lead nowhere and are therefore are also shit chat. Talking about theoretical stuff is interesting, but most of the time I don't learn much new things and using Google or reading books would be more efficient in this respect. I have realized that the main goal of a conversation is emotional exchange and therefore it is not wise, smart or intelligent to give intellectual discussions such weight. I realized that behind all this there is only the ego, which is a highly intellectual/spiritual belief, and that it is the result of not getting enough love in my life because my life was hard and I had to go through too much shit. It takes courage to take a step back and tell me that I decide to live and let go of all the fantasies I have, but not my visions/dreams. The visions/dreams are just there and feel good, which is the main goal in life if I am honest with myself.

The Game said he rapped for just 2 years before becoming famous. There are also reality show celebrities who managed to keep their fame consistent for years.

@Display_Name I wasn't sure. So I tried to write the post in a way which includes both possibilities. Quote: "But you went into a discussion which could have an unfair negative (not huge but anyway) effect on someone's reputation." This could also be just the discussion here in the forum. However, I somehow got the feeling that it might be the Real Franky Yang. In general, it's not important.

Lol this is pure subjective interpretation and you don't seem to have watched much of the videos of actualized.org rather than educated yourself. But you went into a discussion which could have an unfair negative (not huge but anyway) effect on someone's reputation. Expressing accusations and acting like your interpretations must be true doesn't look rather conciouss nor mature. If someone makes a video that long just to defend his opinion - this looks like making stuff complicated. In addition as in the video no other perspectives are really considered it seems that others should be convinced of an idea. And this reminds my on cult leadership.

I think to tell one has got it all and that's it "forever" is an indicator of delusion. It sounds like an absolute statement from a finite domain. For me this also looks like a marketing strategy from his side. And if he would really appreciate Leos work he wouldn't go public, but look for a dialog first.

I would be interested how you would think about an individual from a dual point of view. Even if some higher-concioussness states are reached one could still think its something special most people don't achieve and that's why "I" am special. Honestly, I think every being is like a flower and how it evolves just depends on the nutrition, the environment. Also genetics. And genetics are nothing special and do not relate to an Individuum, but at the end to whole humanity and the universe or cosmos. And "good genetics" are imo completely subjective as well as how you interpret science. I opened this topic, because I hope some people think like I do, so I don't feel alone in this (currently for me) achiever-world, where you always can climb higher and therefore always be unsatisfied. Someone could always be better than me in some way and therefore I am less worthy. Which doesn't feel true to me. Did you had a similar issue and can relate to that? Did you overcome it and if yes, how? What's your mindset?

As they are human and often not that developed like most people, they tend to interpret behaviour subjectively. There are cases where 10 psychiatrists give 10 different diagnosis. This can lead to huge damage and loss of actual lifes. Sometimes it works sometimes not. It's like playing poker with the most valuable thing a human has - the psyche. I think for most people it's obvious that psychology or psychiatry is very primitive regarding to what it could be and according to effectivness. And I mean effectivness regarding life quality. I know people on medication. They living in a body-prison and have nearly no energy at all, they are sleepy all the time. It's sad that many docs don't know real solutions. And I think today's treatment are for some part not human at all. Some friends were psychologist or people who are often times in contact with them regarding their jobs. What cristallizes is that many psychologists/psychiatrist are doing this work because they have some kind of disorder themselves and started doing this work for self-help in the first place. Some are not but I think there is a blind spot in society which gives this kind of docs too much credibility. If one thinks about going there, this could be a good decision. But I would be critical and also observing if this person is competent.

This is genius, thank you so much! The issue really seems to be a feeling of being unworthy. I felt into it and something changed. It was like nothing had a meaning anymore and I didn't try to compensate for unworthyness anymore. It was like a numbness where it was not possible to think about or feel hurt by "others". However, like everybody became uninteresting because it felt like all people live according to the same ego-pattern. So no one was special and only feelings remained. It was like I wasn't affected by anything anymore and didn't care about the future or past. I tried just for the experience to grasp what no mind feels like. Then I was close to a mystical experience. One night duality mostly resolved. I had countless mystical experiences without psychedelics including seeing UFOs, k-hole, kundalini, non-duality and physical manifestations of ghosts. However, this was really weird, because my sense of reality changed dramatically for two days to some kind of nihilism but wihout a bad feeling behind, some calm feeling and I thought maybe I will become emotionally numb forever or something. So I trained myself to become angry at people again I guess this was spiritual avoidance. But I am not sure.

Is it insane to be happy, singing, dancing, hug people and talk about your experiences? If be people would be more cool they would turn on the music and dance as well I think it's more insane to walk around with an angry or sad face all the time and criticise other people to compensate for low self-esteem like people in Germany e.g. are used to. If one would add up all the toxicity in at least Western culture it would probably include far more delusion than the sum of all 'mentally ill' persons in the world. For me, mental illness is more like a degree of delusion, which doesn't allow to function in society or survive - besides the suffering it may includes for oneself. I am not enlightent, but isnt it the case that a non-dual experience cannot be experienced from a place of falsehood? But mental illness is caused and based upon falsehood. So I guess it's not possible to experience mental illness from a non-dual perspective and therefore see it from that perspective. Experiencing mental illness must include the related feelings + monkey mind etc..

The question is: "What is mental illness from a nondual perspective?" In this case, I would suggest, for example, volunteering in a psychiatric hospital and directing your awareness to what is considered "mentally ill" until you finally become so. I do not think that would feel comfortable. Remember that depression, for example, is also considered a mental illness. Thoughts and discussions would only distract from the actual topic you are having. Imo the term "mental illness" is a scientific construct to keep society together. Try it and run naked through your neighborhood or city center, dance and hug people in a platonic way, sing songs and tell them about their experiences when you realized that you are God. Some really nice guys in white coats would probably come and ram a syringe into your ass.

@Leo Nordin Thanks, I printed this one out and put it on my wall. @Meta-Man Currently, I don't experience god-mode so I cannot relate to this one. However, permanent enlightenment is also a goal of mine. I guess for one part to overcome suffering and be happy. But also because of interest in truth.

I need guidance, but I tend to get into conflict with people, so I'm not sure if I should take a life coach. And if you had a really good one, then all the others look like a joke. Like the cheap version of something. At least that's how it is for me. I think it's damn hard to find good coaches, especially nowadays. And even with certified IPEC coaches or something, I don't think I would do that. Because being coached by someone who is suffering himself feels like a waste of money. These would have to be more developed people. So I thought about investing in radical honesty instead. Because there you take turns talking to different people. That way I can spread my damn people-off or difficult being over many people, which reduces the chance of getting kicked out. But maybe I can even manage that. Right now, the most important thing I have to learn is to put feeling first. Radical honesty is like a trigger party. I could mentally prepare myself to focus on the feeling instead of thinking and acting reactionary, which in my case happens quite often. Maybe I should call a reality show doc or something. Because sometimes I realize later how what I express could be interpreted. I would be very interested to hear what you think and I would appreciate helpful tips!

An former friend of mine is a manager of a big e-commerce company. He said his boss went to China and made some Chinese politicians his friends. I guess he went on a Chinese elite school or university. Then he created factories there and got some really good duty conditions as well as logistic contracts.

Sounds like a good revenue for the beginning if you consider the average conversion rate! I will do it.

There are e-commerce platforms which provide you the whole website and also marketing options. This will contribute to the traffic. However, I will use SEO tools and upgrade my SEO skill level. I bought like 5 quality SEO books and 8 business books. Then I will contact influencer and so on.

You don't resell it. With dropshipping customers directly buy from the manufacturer. Your website is like a interface. That's why the business model itself is zero-investment. If you don't consider all the expenses for digital products.

Honestly, this is the only part I skipped most of, because some other urgent things came in focus..

in the research phase. This must be more expensive but lightweight products, so the shipping costs are relatively low compared and the margin larger. I do the research via SEO tools like Ahrefs, SEMRush and Ubersuggest. And I use in addition BuzzSumo and AnswerThePublic. Also I take a look into the annual reports of dropshipping companies and compare them with SEO metrics like organic traffic as well as manual analyzation of the website. I also have the idea to look at top US and international dropshipping sites and to take some insights out of their ideas and translate it to German. In addition later I concentrate on customizable products and then I want to ship internationally at the time I can afford a lawyer. I also plan to switch to normal E-Commerce meaning I buy the products for myself. Then I would get a margin of 40% on average rather than 15%. For the Gründungszuschuss I just combined US business plans and translated them into German. So you think to execute this plan but maybe I find better solutions I hope to get realistic insights and somehow connect the dots the get the optimal business out of it.

Did you work with psychedelics? I only did one mushroom trip and it was really great. And in Amsterdam I did THC mixed with mushrooms. THC is really good for me to feel empathy, authenticity and love. It lasts for weeks. I thought about maybe smoking joints every 2 weeks and doing mushrooms every week. Mushrooms I can grow but this requires time as well as the trips. THC is more difficult to get though. And maybe searching for it would also be too time consuming. Holotropic breathing is not that strong as psychedelics, but maybe I should level up. Tomorrow I start with it.

So true. I will do it.

@supremeyingyang Quote: "Yes and you have to convince a 'fachkundige Stelle' that your business plan is valid..." As I wrote I want to do create a dropshipping business. I am good at convincing. But they are often stupid German bureaucrats. The come with the argument that I am a young software developer and there are lots of opportunities and thats why there is a "mediation priority". No good argument in the COVID-19 time. So I send out 400 applications and tell them thats still not possible. Then you can get in the contradiction process where the success rate is about 90%. I spoke a lot with business consultants. Thats not a big problem. The application is already out.

Feels true. However, I don't feel this software development path is my path. I want to follow my bliss.