Chameleon

Hey! Great work. I deactivated my Facebook account and deleted my Instagram a week ago, the withdrawals were.. turbulent. Regardless of my suffering lonesomeness without it on some days, I have found so much more of my valuable time to engage in other activities that I really enjoy; which is the reason why I took a break from social media in the first place. And the benefits from taking a break so far are worth it, I feel happier! I feel so free, that I'm not indulging in other people's lives that I barely even know anymore. That I'm paying attention to more important things without procrastinating. I'm not going to lie, there are times during the day where I still do miss it, but taking break from it so far has done me wonders It's made me shift my focus on myself

Learn how to juggle balls, not just tha three ball cascade, but the dozens of other tricks you can learn. It's seriously a good workout for your brain and it's fun. Sudoku is also a lot of fun and improves your problem solving skills and memory.

Arts and cultural music festivals that have spiritual and enlightenment workshops etc, have met many wonderful people and these festivals encourage self expression aslong as it supports the positives in life. I get that loads of people take drugs at these festivals but there are many who don't and there are so many beneficial workshops you can immerse yourself in with other like minded individuals. Won't hurt to give it a go Ive met lots of people who went in alone aswell and came out with a refreshing outlook on life and a bunch of new friends. I myself can personally say that ive made lifelong friends and have learnt a lot from these festivals. It's one big loving community.

Our lives are not our own. We are bound to others, past and present, and by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future. David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas

Like most people, I've experienced the positive and negative influences that LSD had to offer through doses of different strengths; quality of substance, the company I kept, the environmental factor that came into play and my state of mind at the time; it all had an impact. Through this one memorable experience I had, I had to sit myself in a comfortable bedroom away from the party upstairs, away from any distractions, I say down and meditated. But before isolating myself, (as you know this is a potent substance alters the state of your perception), I experienced what felt to me like telepathy, I knew exactly what the individual was about to say before they said it, word by word, even thoughts from some of the strong sexual energies in the room, it was THAT powerful, and ofcourse by that time I had to seperate myself from the crowd as it became a little uncomfortable. I went deep into the rabbit hole, processing these thoughts and feelings, as I looked to the top of the ceiling I saw an array of colourful energies exchanging back and forth, signifying each individuals various emotions as they were conversing with one another. After long observation of myself and what just happened, I just let it all go and that's when I had a truely remarkable experience of just being in the moment, and being with myself. It was probably the best trip I ever had and it was just proof to me that you can find true contentment and solace in yourself, if you just let it be. Mind you this trip lasted for 14 hours, but I meditated for what felt like half that time. What I left with defiantly shed some light about what I was learning at the time, and am still learning now. Also to back up my telepathic experience, which I know can be hard to believe, (it's like you have to experience it to believe it, just like any other theory that hasn't been scientifically proven as of yet). My friend and I went to a festival early last year and consumed very a strong LSD tab and throughout our trip we were able to Tele-communicate, even without looking at each other. We both confirmed this the next day, that this actually happened. And it was hard to wrap our heads around it, just like it is say if you were to see aliens for the first time, your mind just cannot comprehend it. Theres so much more to these two specific LSD trips I had but I'm not going to go into great detail because it's very hard to verbalise it without sounding completely whack, but I digress, that experience shed some light but also had some long term negative affects on me; it surfaced paranoia in me; this belief that others can read my thoughts; and some other weird stuff but I haven't gotten myself diagnosed so I'm not going to claim that it was drug induced psychosis (although that's what it felt like). I've only just recovered from all that mind boggle and anxiety provoking thoughts now To answer your question, yes, all that was beneficial for my self development, although there we some post traumas involved I've learnt a lot from it and about the mind itself, which I'm absolutely fascinated by.

I don't think pot is bad, unless it become an addiction, and although addiction with pot is rare, it's real and dependency on any kind of substance whether it be video games, ciggerettes, pot, food, other various drugs; can backfire if it becomes a crutch and isn't self actualizing. I guess you gotta ask yourself, is this something that is motivating me to be the best I can be? Or is it hindering me? Am I benefitting anything at all from this? Or is this just a distraction? In your post you are clearly aware of this and I think you know the answer. Smoking on weekend with your friends I think isn't sinister. But I also think you can still have fun without it. Especially in the long term. How was life before you started smoking pot? It was fun, right?And you can still enjoy yourself without it. Once you decide to quit pot completely, you will see the benefits plus all that time smoking pot can turn into peaceful walks in the park, playing outdoors, reading a book, getting into nature, hiking, fitness, you name it. Which is so much more rewarding for your overall wellbeing, trust me. Good luck!!