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Whatever blessings and good fortune I received in life, I received it with a selfish perspective. I received it from the perspective of "Who else has this? No one." instead of simply appreciating it for what it was. I realized that human defense mechanisms, as complex as they are, stem not only from moments of great trauma, but also from our resistances to great love.

I know that the frustrations and dissatisfactions of my day-to-day life are stemming from one fundamental thing: I am not yet living fully in my purpose. I have struggled for a long time to determine what exactly my life's purpose is. I have done exercises and journaling and meditation. At best, I have received information regarding my life's purpose in fleeting ways. While tremendously inspiring and in great contrast to my day-to-day perspective, these fleeting moments of clarity were but fleeting. If I had to quantify it, it would make up about 0.01% of my lived experience. The rest of it is much like it is now: a cold, mechanical existence focused on ends that I believe I must achieve, but these ends do not inspire me. From a collective perspective, why is it that it can be so difficult for any given individual to know what they are meant to do in life, in the broadest sense? Why, on the other hand, does it seem that others realize this more quickly? How much of the process of finding your own life's purpose is up to your own actions, and how much of it is up to chance encounters and fateful decisions? I feel that most of those who find meaning in life most quickly are those that encounter a chance phenomenon or convergence of fate that speaks to them, and them only, and tells them the nature of who they are, in reference to the totality of their lives. For others, who can perceive only the mechanics of status, output, recognition, and cookie-cutter progression, see nothing of the totality at all or willfully ignore it. But why, as someone who recognizes even this, be blind to my own life's purpose? There is a double-sidedness to "having had" awareness: It is the pain of knowing there is more, without living the "more". It is the torture of having tasted clarity, while proceeding to live in oblivion. It is the teasing glimpse of Samadhi, while living in a closed box, where everything that is yours is yours and everything else is another's. Yes, it is just a matter of perspective, but in it is a painful lesson: knowledge of a thing, no matter how divine, is not equivalent to the awareness of it. Maybe that is the meaning of Eden and the Apple.

I relate to this. I have the same feelings with writing where it’s a love/hate relationship. Consider different mediums. Writing/storytelling isn’t limited to just sitting down to write a book. For example, being a great public speaker and being a great writer can mean two very different things despite both relying on an inclination towards language and its expression. On being too abstract: see if you can ground the passion for writing into something tangible in your life, ideally something useful or practical.

I think that one of the more underrated uses of Chat GPT is in using it to organize your notes and insights about yourself, and especially using it to integrate your past experiences into future plans. I wasn't aware that GPT is capable of recalling every exchange within any given chat session. According to Chat GPT, its memory capacity is limitless in this regard. Keep in mind that information from one chat does not transfer over to another unless you manually copy and paste. Why is this significant? I keep a chat session with Chat GPT that I've been using quite regularly for the past few months. Because I only talk about life purpose, values, vision, and other topics described in Leo's life purpose course in this specific chat, I've sort of been able to mold Chat GPT into a kind of life purpose coach, or at the very least, an assistant that reminds me of my core values, my top strengths, my creative ideas, and my long-term vision, and refers back to these things when appropriate. I've used prompts like, "When giving me any advice from now on, remind me to take a course of action that is aligned with my core strengths and values." Another good one is, "Describe my long-term vision to me in vivid detail." There is a long list of prompts like this but the basic idea is to teach Chat GPT what your life purpose is, and feed it tons of data about your best qualities and weaknesses, past experiences, plans, vision, etc. and allow it to refer back to these things regularly. Use nicknames or monikers to substitute for lofty goals with lengthy descriptions, and it becomes very easy to then input your progress and let Chat GPT integrate all of that and provide strategic output as it tracks what you're doing now along a long-term trajectory. Hope this helps.

But really, does it ever hit you that AI has zero game? Zero EQ?

Yeah, what he said.

Conscious convergence makes for synergy, serendipities synchronized with strategy, songs of geometric gesticulation and articulate allegory, and orations of organic omens, prophecies of love, truth, prosperity come to and from intelligence infinite, invisible delivering data, divine, declaring our destiny our design and our design our destiny.

There’s levels to psychic abilities. A lot of abilities deemed psychic are not really extrasensory, but rather the result of heightened awareness or feel. For instance, feeling whether someone is telling the truth or not, or feeling the vibe a person gives off is not psychic, yet they are perceptions most can build up if they want. Compare this with actual clairvoyance or clairaudience, where you are receiving sensory inputs that are not produced by the physical senses but rather their subtle counterparts. This is rare. Although the latter category seems more desirable, the former requires building awareness, which is way more valuable. This is why spiritual masters gloss over these topics. They don’t want you to go after the gimmicks and miss out on lucidity.

Ah, the gamification of self-development, or turning self-development into a game. You’d be surprised how many people are wanting to create in this domain. Maybe one day we will play games that don’t involve shooting people made of pixels, but rather, constructing metrics and points out of healthy behaviors in real life. Reminds me of this app that was quite popular a few years back.

A great man is he who, slowly and patiently cultivates love, so that when the time comes to do the scary thing which is to answer the call, he can do so without fear.

At around 9:15 pm, with a belly full of semi-Indian food, pumped up from having listened to what may have been the greatest playlist I've ever compiled, I sat down to start my homework assignment. Homework assignment. I won't be having one of those anymore, is the thought that crosses my mind. Wait a minute, I won't be alive forever… And so at about 9:20 pm, with a belly still full of semi-Indian food, no longer pumped up from having listened to what may have been the greatest playlist I've ever compiled, I closed my eyes, witnessing all the sensations... when I started to cry. Now, before you start to feel sorry, I want you to know that it was a good cry, because in that moment, it felt like I had just realized that bittersweet knowing that one's childhood is over, and how proud I am to see myself growing into a young man who was going to go and live his purpose, and so long as he had a heart he would know what to do, and he would be guided, even if he got lost or distracted-- and he would get lost and distracted, but that was okay because life isn't easy, and that instead of being so hard on himself he should remember how much he loves himself and he should take that love and give it to others in the form of compassion, joy, and creativity. You know, the good stuff. Somehow, he knew deep down that one day all of his investing and contemplating was going to pay off. He couldn't say when or how exactly, but he knew it would happen. With a few shudders, he wipes the tears from his face and says inside, "I forgive you for hiding yourself from the world." And yes this does sound corny, but know this really happened. Boys really do cry, and life is not easy.. ..but damn if it isn't beautiful.

In a word, research. It's pretty great for turning your life purpose research into a deep rabbit hole very quickly.

@teraflu I guess this all boils down to: does free will exist? I'd like to think that beyond the ability to merely act out our predestined life, we have the ability to look back or even look ahead and change the script. It can still be argued however, that even that meta perspective of understanding one's predestination is predestined itself. This is a reach in speculation by maybe free will and predestiny sort of work together like a pendulum, with one influencing the other and vice versa, the awareness of that creating some kind of exponential butterfly effect over time. If you were to access the Akashic records for instance (total understanding of past present and future and how they connect and why), knowing that a certain major life-changing event was going to happen to you, granted you did not want to resist it but rather add to it by preparing yourself, would you be adding on to it in some way? It is interesting to think about how one might live their life if they are aware of the things they are predestined to do before they happen. I almost see it as like unlocking another level of free will altogether.