The observer

what i find interesting is the many ppl who tried through out history to solve the problems of poverty and hierarchical structures of society and what amuses me is that no one of them so far succeeded in that mission despite dying hard for it. here i will present a view for why its not possible to end this mess. warning this insight is derived from watching porn haha. so i was enjoying watching two ppl having sex on my screen and it hit me wht the hell is going on here? y r these ppl doing wht their doing? and then suddenly the dots connected them selves and it became clear to me how every thing work all animals strive to survive naturally but humans in particular have created many sophisticated systems for how survival and well being are supposed to be achieved. porn industry is one of those systems and so is every other business career religion institution etc.. so every human being is under the illusion of his particular system and is striving to climb up to the top of his system b cuz that is the narrative that he gets fed with from birth and as long as hes staying where he is or moving up wards it feels good and it feeds back positively in to his motivation to climb up and demand more while people who are moving down wards feel bad about their selves and that feeds back in to their motivation so they go down even more and the hierarchy is all about competition and deception so the more competitive and deceptive u are the higher ur chances will get. any way so ppl start from some where but they dont have enough power until they are at the top. all right so ur at the top enjoying all the pros spending money enjoying sex etc.. u will want to maintain that structure b cuz it serves ur ego haha and even if ur the most enlightenment master u will still not give up ur powers b cuz power corrupted u b cuz corruption is inevitable. and even if u want to be brave and noble the rest of the hierarchy some times even the poor will resist and fight u so u will end up murdering them or them murdering u. and all of that is only the beginning now lets move on to y the illusion that moves ppl exists to begin with or in other words y ppl submit to the hierarchy in the first place. and here i think there r two components desire and programming. programming is basically the ideas u have and all the things u believe in and how u view ur self and the world around u. desire is a lack of fulfilment and once it is fulfilled the only thing that remains is the programming. one question that comes to mind is that can desire ever be completely fulfilled? i would say no. there can only be windows of fulfilment here and there and then a sense of lack will grow back again. but it can be diminished to the lowest levels ie necessary physiological desires for survival and security. now imagine that u and every other human being can have all ur desires fulfilled constantly and without lag u will still have the old programming and patterns that u cant get rid of immediately and unless uve done tons of work for decades it is not likely that u will be able to let go of ur patterns addictions etc.. so ur patterns will fight for maintaining the hierarchy. ppl low on the hierarchy will still enjoy moving up and ppl high will still enjoy putting others down so it wont make sense y to even try to get rid of the hierarchy b cuz it serves a certain psychological function that has to be worked through also imagine a world where no one has to do any thing but survive him self and only him self. assume that every one is peaceful and will leave u survive for ur self this will mean the end of life as u know it. no more hollywood no more money no more status no more porn no more government no more any thing. u will have to hunt or grow ur own food and build ur own house u will have to design ur own car etc u see where this is going. human beings will have to reduce their selves to animals to achieve the utopian society. other wise it will remain just an ideal dream. conclusion its literally impossible to end poverty and transcend hierarchical structures so its more practical to do wht u can do to better ur life and be grateful for all the illusions of life

for the third time in a week i wake up crying feeling intense love. it came in two different variations ive only felt these two kind of love 10 to 15 years ago i felt the latter towards one person for more than two consecutive years but now i have no feelings for that person what so ever. its not the kind of spiritual infinite love thing but it is divine and it is love and it is intense like a heavy black hole inside the chest which feels both good and bad at the same time. i couldnt identify it perfectly yet but it has a component of attachment which gives the feeling of being imprisoned for eternity yet this imprisonment is hauntingly beautiful b cuz its where u wanna be its like being drunk and in love. the former kind of love has a component of vulnerability its like being completely powerless and in love. if it was up to me i would choose the latter i would choose attachment over powerlessness even though theyre essentially the same thing but the difference is that attachment empowers u within the relationship and gets u back to normal without it so its an all or nothing situation while the other kind weakens u within the relationship and does not empower u without it but u only feel relief from recovering.

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it really is not a problem on my part i give love to every one but i either receive hate or no other reaction. right now i have over 100 posts here im sure at least 15-20 of them are a reply to a question with advice of my own experience. not a single reply got any positive feedback. i guess im looking for attention cuz thats what might fill the gap inside me but at least im looking for appreciation of my help which no one does. no body really cares about u every human is a devil caring only about him self. i hate all human beings if i were god i would throw them all in hell and thatd still be mercy of me b cuz they deserve more. theres no worse species than the human race they only want to take the good and give the bad they never give any thing good for free they always want some thing in return and if u ever make a mistake or tumble they will immediately without a second thought prey on u. theyre heartless zombies that suck u out and leave u broken and empty

just earlier today they announced 1290 new covid-19 deaths in china. i dont trust whats going on in there the chinese govt is probably manipulating the numbers and there probably are more cases and deaths than announced. its not unusual for china to hide info id stay cautious cuz its not over yet

@Intraplanetary procrastination trap! clearly ur mind is tricking u to avoid doing the work. u shouldnt be thinking let alone asking questions about what u should do its obvious that u should just suck it up and get ur assignments done. i mean for gods sake its just 3 months and u will be done with university forever. watch some motivational videos exercise for some time each day do cold showers breathe deeper and slower every time u feel resistance and just do what u gotta do. doing the lp course is irrelevant to this not to say its not for u just sayin the timing is bad. keep in mind that if u dont make use of these 3 months ur gonna need another year so ur just gonna be wasting time if u avoid the work. try to not think about it just do it cuz it always sounds a lot worse in ur head than in reality

im trying my best thanks id rather not say

yet another proof that ppl are evil what did i do to deserve such accusations? i was just having a honest conversation with leo yet a blind worshipper jumps in defending leo from nothing and projects his complexities and lack of authority on to me. ive found his comment offensive so i reported it and now i hate him but i didnt reply to him b cuz i know it for a fact he will attack me again i need love why do i receive hate?

@davidluginbuehl the ideal is to do nothing at all but eat and drink by the least amounts possible but thats an extremely difficult feat so dont be hard on urself. aim for the most and allow a little bit of back sliding leave a room for error dont try to perfect the retreat as thats another trap and one last really important thing is to let go of all expectations go on the retreat without any preconceived thoughts about how much value ur supposed to be extracting and in fact counter intuitively do the opposite go on the retreat with the intention of losing instead of gaining keep in mind that u can only fill ur cup only once its empty get ready to waste ten days of ur life for nothing and believe that its totally worth it im doing a silence challenge starting from tomorrow its basically like a mini at home retreat only difference is that its without emptying my cup but rather filling it with information im full of wisdom right now but lacking in information so thats what im doing seeking information but for u seeking wisdom is counter productive as i explained above u should be aiming at emptying ur cup and let wisdom come in naturally good luck

reading the book "Destined for War : Can America and China Escape Thucydides's Trap?" for Graham Allison and its a very interesting and enlightening read so far right about now i created another journal with the intention of making use of the quarantine. silence has always been a good friend and a great teacher

@Pouya think of it this way the collective is at purple and then suddenly some individuals realise the limitations of purple and become red. what do u expect to happen? of course since the red individuals have relatively higher consciousness than their peers they take their rightful place and lead the less conscious towards higher consciousness (red in this case) and then after the society starts growing into red and becoming a barbaric society then blue starts emerging as higher conscious individuals that have gone beyond the limitations of red so they become leaders and impose morality on their red people and so on the spiral goes on forever after some hundreds of years even yellow will be viewed as cult like too. dont forget that when blue and purple first emerged they were viewed as something very cutting edge so every thing cutting edge will be appreciated in comparison to the old limiting system of course after years of resistance and fighting against it

causality is an illusion there is no key to success its all a matter of luck even if u try to be smart and come up with a list of things that can be done to get u closer to success or money ur still bullshitting urself some ppl are born rich and theres no changing that and some ppl are born poor and theres no changing that and theres rich and poor ppl and ppl in between that change with time but that does not mean any thing irl of course thats not to say u should stop working u can do what ever u want and still be poor or u can do what ever u want and become rich but the bottom line is that its not up to u not 1% nor 99% its 100% out of ur control or choice

u cant lose what u never had u are illusory progress is illusory levels of consciousness are illusory and all is a zero sum game for infinite love

haha yes i think its time for a lock

it is a zero sum game but from the limited and identified human pov it does not seem so. try expanding ur perspective. it is definitely a zero sum game from the ultimate perspective. every thing is changing all the time yet its all still the same b cuz its one. form is ever changing yet formlessness is always the same and it cant be otherwise. if u think life is not a zero sum game then u havent truly awakened to oneness and ur still operating from ego

again ur repeating urself. im talking about being and ur talking about becoming. were not in disagreement leo but ur failing to see my point probably b cuz ur so much identified with ur imagination. u can always choose to let it go.

leo i told u that ur using duality by creating points of reference and u denied but then u do that again right now. if we think of consciousness as a light its still always one light but to say its more brighter or less brighter we have to create points of reference which is what we call the dualistic mind b cuz the notion of time is by definition dualistic.

ok but whos imagining the levels but consciousness? its one consciousness imagining zero to infinite levels

this is only true when in duality by creating points of reference for the higher levels. levels only exist in gods imagination

i can intuit that this reincarnation concept is not meant to be taken literally but rather metaphorically. if u read between the lines u realize that whoever created the concept was more or less saying that u will never be able to transcend death unless u accept reality as it is right now. i strongly believe he was talking about ego death not physical death. so if u want infinite love stop waiting and just be infinite love right now. thats it!

amen to that!

@Leo Gura haha

better? idk but i have many things to do

haha but my awakenings have shown me that improving one pov necessarily deteriorates other povs b cuz of balance ie since ur growing urself some things must die and when u die other things will grow so in a sense awakening is a selfish act haha idk about that. i think its a interesting story but what i know is that right now im in infinite love and cant not be in it unless ur implying some thing else which im not aware of yet

haha no dude it wasnt ur message but a way of explaining my point by implying ideology i explained in my opening post why becoming conscious doesnt help and i repeat here b cuz it does not automatically change the world nor suddenly neither gradually. b cuz theres desire that needs to be got rid of and theres programming ie karma that needs to be worked through but these two things are opposites if u want to maintain the system. however if u want to merge them u have to leave the system entirely and go live in a cave and basically every one has to do the same thing for that to happen but thats not realistic b cuz ppl are not conscious enough to consider that and also theyre addicted to and dependent on the system and also most ppl wont intuit that it will be rewarding so that is that. so if ppl completely left their lives and went to meditate in caves that would make a utopia like im describing but lets assume all ppl wanted to pursue god and purify them selves it still wouldnt happen b cuz they would have to leave the system collapse and no body including me and u would want that b cuz ppl want to preserve the system b cuz at the very least its serving a psychological function (addiction) let alone all other physical and what not services that are simply only possible b cuz of the system and if ppl could let go of them then that would make a utopia like the one im describing on the other hand if we start with working on the transcending the system by following our desires without resistance that would create a huge back lash and the human life would become more or less like a jungle until we burn through all of our karmas and theres no desire left if thats even possible (this scenario is not likely) now u might say again that it will happen gradually one human at a time as were developing (which is obviously the most realistic trajectory tbh) but what im saying is that gradually is a infinite process and will not ever end b cuz first awakening is infinite so even if everyone awakens thats not the end and second b cuz a child is not born awake he has to go through delusion first and then transcend it in to awakening b cuz thats the nature of awakening b cuz delusion is a prerequisite for it and so the cycle goes on for ever and ever and so also i have another hypothesis its that when some one dies his awakening goes away with him so some one else has to awaken to that truth otherwise it will be forgotten and then the loss will create a deficiency that needs to be fulfilled in order to maintain the system as it is and so until it is resolved the system will be unstable which will manifest in unconsciousness and so on. but of course ppl dont die once a day a lot of ppl die every day and thats why its never gonna be stable it wont be any different if u dont have an ideology. from a bigger picture nothing is changing at all. but again from ur pov (desiring to end racism and to equate with women) it seems like its changing for the better when in fact its simply taking place on the expense of other things i cant even intuit but for example its like cutting down forests to build cities and thinking that the forests are not decreasing and that were only increasing luxury. bottom line is that luxury cannot increase without consequences if ur living a luxurious life some other being is definitely not and so on. u cant make every one live in luxury its just a law of life it can but dont forget that any political change by definition hinges on ideology u cant get rid of ideology even if ur realised sry for talking a lot thank u for taking the time to read and contribute it was a great discussion feel free to add whatever u want i will read but probably not reply cuz im done explaining my pov