The observer

How do you know that? After all, you're imagining me. So, you're imagining both my perceptions and my thoughts. But let's put that aside for a moment and assume that you are talking about your own experience. Then how do you explain the tree on the ground while all other trees are not? Just because you haven't personally witnessed something doesn't necessarily mean that it didn't happen. It could mean that it happened and it could equally mean that it didn't. Notice that there is thought involved here: 'because I haven't personally witnessed an event, then that means ...... (fill in the blanks)'. Notice that you dismiss thought here but nevertheless allow it to make an explanation for why you can't actually know. You only became aware of the thought that you never became aware of a tree falling, and only became aware of the thought of the thought of a tree falling. See. We could go on like this forever. There is a meta insight here, and you guys are missing it. That's why you're still stuck in the dualistic mind. I hope one day you will get it and break out of your non-materialistic paradigm.

In other words, awareness is perception. Okay, how do you know that perception exists? Do you perceive it? Or do you think about it? What's the difference between thinking about something and perceiving it? Where is the line between thought and awareness? How do you distinguish one from another? But still, it could mean that.

You didn't answer. Only repeated what I said originally. Does the existential bind actually exist or not?

Alright, well, what is awareness? And how do you distinguish it from thought? And what about this extrapolation? Why do you allow the mind to get away with it? Why the double standards? Sure, it's useful to think that it didn't actually fall, but it did actually happen. That's just a story you tell yourself to explain why you can't explain why a tree is on the ground.

You're imagining that existential bind. It doesn't actually exist, right? Or does it?

Care to elaborate?

You really mistake the map for the territory. Maybe that's what enlightenment means after all; Not being able to distinguish between your understanding of reality and reality itself. You just need to open your mind. Open your mind!!!! Also, you should watch Leo's video on his blog. I guess it's called: All understanding is metaphorical. I activate Mirror Force.

Of course, tell that to your friend who gives unexpected slaps on the neck all the time.

Yes. I didn't say it does. But I did say that your paradigm is problematic. The perception of its effects instead of the actual phenomenon.

Yes, it does. I'm sorry that your paradigm doesn't allow this possibility, but the problem is on your paradigm's behalf, not on reality's. Your mind is incapable of grasping that it happens or how it happens, understandably so. But that doesn't mean it doesn't actually happen. Calling it imagination does not mean anything, because all thoughts are imaginary, and questions are thoughts. Therefore, the question itself is imaginary and the conclusion is imaginary too, so what do you expect? You're confusing the map (your thoughts about God) for the territory (God itself). You just need to open your mind. Open your Mind!!!!

@Milos Uzelac My fetisth

Life is not someone. But someone imagines that it is.

I, the individual human, don't matter that much to life. My survival is not life's highest priority. There are much more important things than me. If I am too dysfunctional, life will send someone to put a gun to my head and shoot me down.

Do whatever you like. I am not your supervisor.

It does not matter whether I remember them or not. They will still be valid regardless of that.

I'll give you my honest opinion from what I've experienced and learned through reading. The love you're describing is not just some ordinary love. That's passionate worshipping. I'm sorry for saying this but this kind of love is very deep and it is known to drive people to insanity, literally. Right now, you most certainly have an idealistic image of him in your mind. This image cannot be broken intellectually by hypnosis or anything of the sorts. It is like a spell that can only be broken by drinking the same potion that caused it in the first place. You have to find him and talk to him in person and see his flaws and mistakes first-hand. He's not an angel. He's not perfect like your mind is portraying to you. Your conscious mind might understand that, but your subconscious mind can't yet. You should seek him out. You must watch your fantasies breaking before your eyes. You must be disappointed with all the sandcastles you've built around him in your mind. Only then will you be free. Remember, everything has two sides. There's no absolute good quality. For example, being spiritually developed must mean that there's lack in some other aspects, even if your mind can't fathom that yet and tells you otherwise. That's probably the best way to do it. If you go and meet other guys, your mind will only see their shortcomings compared to the ideal image that you have of him, and therefore the problem will only get worse. You will believe that he's perfect and irreplaceable. So, unless you can intuit that since nobody is perfect then he can't be perfect either, stay away from relationships and endure the pain alone before it gets worse. And don't worry about your motivations for now. They will remain untouched because you're actually doing what you're doing for God but your mind confuses God for that human. Also, take everything I said with a grain of salt. A simple self hypnosis might work for you. I don't actually know your situation.

Life is not merely about survival. If it was so, you'd see the most malformed and dysfunctional beings walking in the streets, if that. You'd never see a healthy one. Life cares about survival, but it's not everything. There's health. There's beauty. And there's happiness. Life cares about balance first and foremost.

Thought is formed awareness, just like sight and sound and other perceptions. The difference, though, is that it works simultaneously with the other perceptions, and that's how duality exists. That's why silencing the thoughts is a prerequisite for having a non-dual awareness. The other questions are nonsensical because thoughts don't get created. Creation does not actually occur. It's a metaphor.

Not at all. Just flowing with life.

@Meta-Man I'm at a level of surrender where I don't mind dying, really. I know that everything will be right even if God does not take care of me, because I don't matter - I don't even exist for that matter. And hey, I notice your pronoun for God is She ?

I did and it's still vague. I guess I see a potential but I am not sure on what to do. All I see is people struggling and stressing themselves out for no good reason because luck plays the major role. Thanks man. Appreciated.

@Meta-Man Yeah. Right now I am comfortable with who I am, for the most part.

That can be changed? I used to be more ambitious than I am today when I was a kid. It seems like it depends on my environment. If there's a good infrastructure in my life, my ambition grows. When my country was on the rise, the economy was good and things were working fine for me. Right now, after 9 years of war, I don't have any dreams I want to accomplish. The economy is shit. Me and my family are almost broke. Even compared to the locals here, we're more broke than most. Things don't seem to be going anywhere better either. Long story short, I gave up. It seems impossible for me to do anything to change my life for the better. There's no more suffering though. Right now, the standards are extremely low compared to what they used to be, and they're getting even lower with time. Yet, I am completely comfortable with my life. I see my life unfolding into the worst directions possible, and yet, I don't give a fuck. I mean I still work and go to college and everything, but I don't have a passion for anything in particular. Not that I feel nihilistic about life (even though I've gone through it at some point), but that really nothing seems to motivate me to move. I only do the bare minimum. I believe that if my environment could change for the better, then I would change along with it. What do you think about this Leo?

The problem is; how do I know what I actually am? What if trying to become something other than what I already am is actually a part of who I am?

How can I become more ambitious? I really seriously suck at this. My life could be extremely minimalistic and I wouldn't mind. What's my problem? Or is this something that cannot be changed?