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I Had a trip where i realized why i must love/learn to love the things that i am afraid/suppress and Karma is nothing but a thing that loves you and serves you, but it doesn't understand what is good or bad for you because it loves both-sides equally and most people including me suppress and run anyway from the things i actually want to do/love to do. Fooling myself and waiting that one day something will change. My whole life I was trying to figure out what is wrong with me, why do i do the thing i don't like doing but keep doing them. Until one day, I completely surrendered to whatever was happening to me, I don't know how it happened but it happened. Ironically, I realized that if you want to experience the ultimate/best/a mindblowing life i had to face by biggest fear which is LOVE. At the end of the trip i garbed a pen and and notebook and i filled 2 pages of everything that i'm afraid to love : being afraid to procrastinate: i realized i love when i work supressing my need to masturbate: i realized i love when i'm horny being afraid to be weird: i realized that there is no such thing as weird and i love being in this body and this genius mind remembering my past and the things i did and the bad things that happened to me: i realized that i love every single one of them afraid to suffer: i realized that i cant wait to suffer so i can see what the other side looks like afraid to love myself: realized how blind i was to my beauty and perfection. I really wish for everyone who's suffering from depression to open their mind until it explodes My life purpose for now is to learn how to love even deeper because its soo scary and fun

Do you think If someone discovers god in this Life,they may not in the next?@Leo Gura

@tsuki I really appreciate it, i feel weights got off my shoulders.

@tsuki Thanks, i understand how to take my approach now. one thing about leaving, do you have any advise on how to convince an extremely stage blue father (who's all about family sticking together) to let me leave? I tried taking it out last year and it turned south very quick.He called me a devil, selfish, brainwashed, who's gonna take care of your siblings talk, etc... i feel like i'm stuck in the middle.I guess Guilt is what's pulling me back from exploring myself.

I often get really annoyed from my family low concussions behaviors, messy life, negativity and stupidity. I always try to help them and make them see things from different prospective but they always keep being in denial. I can't leave them because they can't function without me (siblings i have to take care of) but it got to the point where i'm about to explode. I'm trying to balance my life purpose, spirituality and dealing with this. I'm wondering if the feeling of getting annoyed is associated with ego? Plus Leo talks about mastering love, How can i love this?

@Preety_India I often skim trough peoples comments but for some reason i like to read yours. I get warm feelings from your comments lol. I think you have this ability to capture emotions .

@Leo Gura Would you say Trump is less developed than the average american?