Vittorio

I would love to suggest you a really good book to read on the matter: "Difficult Conversations: How to Discuss What Matters Most". This will help you a lot

Accepting the situation is exactly the kind of suggestion I would give you too. I read you are saying you weren't ready. Well, you were indeed. Otherwise you never would have tried the substance in the first place.

Good one.

Just watch the videos I linked you they are helpful!

To reply to all your questions in depth, I suggest you to watch following Leo's videos: (part 2 and 3 are optional)

To reply to all your questions I highly suggest you to watch these 2 Leo's videos:

You jump from video to video because you are searching outside the solution or something that will inspire you to finally "flip the switch". I did that for a very long time. I know what I am talking about The reality is that you don't even know what you want to do with yourself, with your life etc. You won't solve this by consuming more self-help material, but by turning inward and get your understanding from yourself (trips, meditation and a lot of journaling). I suggest you again to reread and apply what I suggested you for your specific situation

Watching more self help Material to find the solution to stop being lazy won't help you but will keep you stuck in this cycle. I highly suggest you to start following my advices. You will eventually find your way out of it

What?

The problem is that if you don't understand how the current reality works, what emotions, judgments and labels are, what are polarities and dualisms and why are they there and thus why the reality works in this specific manner, you'll continue wanting this kind of reality that cannot exist. You can indeed reach an internal state of joy, happiness and freedom through detachment, understanding and acceptance, but you cannot materialize a world with no wars and where everyone loves each other for the rest of their days. P. S. Small hint for your internal work: suffering is a thought/believe as much as soy.

Yes

There are different degrees of enlightenment. Enlightenment itself is just a label

The fact you are admitting you have a problem with overtheorizing, reading and consuming material without taking action is a really good thing. This is the first step. If you reread your text objectively, only a small part of it tells about what your desire are. The most of your text contains judgments about yourself, labels (I am lazy, I am this and that, I have this and that problem) and telling what's missing for you to act. They are all just stories. You are not your behavior. You are not lazy and you are not a bad person. The more you identify yourself with this stories, the more you add fuel to the reasons why you CANNOT do the things you would love to do and you CANNOT be the kind of person you want to be. So the reason why you are stuck is because of these stories full or self-hatred you are telling yourself Start disidentifying yourself with these behaviors by: 1) meditating every day at least 20 minutes 2) stopping consuming self help material for a while 3) starting using a journal and contemplate your sticking points and the things or the area you would like to fix first 4) taking action, baby steps 5) becoming spontaneous and detach yourself from the outcome 6) being compassionate for yourself, your actual feeling of being imperfect and for your past

You cannot understand it logically. Leo helped you with some answers, but you won't understand them until you realize them by yourself through psychedelics and contemplation. PS there are other psychedelics you can try, eg LSD or Nn DMT. There is not only 5-Meo

With 100 ug you can start exploring the psychedelic world, if you are newbie. Ask yourself max 3 specific questions or set max 3 intentions (1 is best) that are related each other and you want to explore and then do the trip.

Knock knock Who is there? Noone.

Leave for a moment to the side the entire dual-nondual speech. This does not matter at all right now. Why do you want to study psychology in the university? What's your end goal? What kind of profession do you want to after you got your degree? It may be useful for you to get a degree to have credentials and to learn more about the human psyche from different perspectives. But you have to understand why you are doing it in the first place.

The purpose of life from a "human" perspective is to experience life (yourself) itself and to simply live your life as a "human" as you whish. Having a life purpose or finding meaning in life is something you decide to do consciously. In the end you will discover that nothing matters.

Om Facebook too, when people write in local city groups to meet other people and write things like: "I am shy/introvert/etc.".

There are many degrees of depression. It isn't black and white and this is not a reason to ridicolize them.

We are all already enlightened in their purest form, because we are all the same thing, God. And God is omniscient, perfect and infinite. We created ourselves unenlightened to discover life as if it were the first time we live and to enjoy fresh perspectives with each reincarnation. So yeah, you're already enlightened, but you still don't know it.

Very rarely and only in small amount. In fact, I never got drunk once in my life and I plan to never get drunk ever. I get sleepy and slugghish when I drink alcohol. Plus I don't personally find any valid reason to splash money only to get sleepy, sluggish, diminish my reflexes and to limit my social interactions.

You miserunderstood my words totally. The problem is why you got addicted in the first place and why you are still addicted. Addictions are consequences of mental unbalance, low awareness, missing life purpose and such. There is actually no difference in the addiction mechanism between heroin and videogames. You won't fix your addiction by studying how dopamine works, but rather by understanding the things I mentioned before. I speak with first hand experience (in my family too).

It's useless for the purpose. You are just studying science and scientific neurobiological processes, which are useless for people with these kinds of problems. Addictions are mental and not physical problems. I gave you a list of carefully crafted question that will help understand your addictions and procrastination, what's underneath them, why they are there and much more. Awareness on the matter and being mindful will help you A LOT go over them. But awareness has nothing to do with the study of the root causes.

1) Don't use any nootropic. They are just surrogate of mental clarity and concentration. Use them only if you reach a good level of concentration and mental clarity 2) Meditate EVERY day for at least 20 minutes 3) Stay as mindful as possible during day. Analize what you do, why you want to do it and look at the urges that arise when you want to distract yourself without judging them. Look at the muscular tension and at the feelings/energy that arise with the distractions 4) Do what for you matter most. If you do something you really love, you don't tend to distract yourself 5) Use to-do-lists. Work with priorities and on one thing at once