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I had my second ayahuasca journey. On the day of the ceremony, I fasted. It took about 1 hour for the journey to begin. I could feel my heart beating fast and strong. I then began to feel a weakness like I was going to faint, and it was really unpleasant. Then Mother Ayahuasca started to envelop me with a fog and she was pulling me into another dimension. Because of what I was experiencing, I panicked and opened my eyes, fearing that I would be trapped in suffering that I couldn't escape from. I was able to pull back from an experience I wasn’t ready for. When I pulled back, I was thrust into a void of blackness where I experienced the pain of loneliness and disconnection from the divine. I think that fact I didn’t eat could have lowered my glucose and caused the fainting. The journey continued in waves. In one of the peaks, I started hearing audible voices speaking gibberish, first 1, then 10, then it seemed like a thousand voices at once. I put my hands over my ears to try to stop the noise. Then I realized that the voices I was hearing were my thoughts. The medicine was showing me that my mind was full of noise, which gets in the way of solving my problems. I feel that I am started to learn the skills of navigating a journey. It is important to surrender to the process, and when suffering comes up, remind oneself that it is temporary. This comes from developing a personal relationship of trust with your plant teacher. Also, it is important to not analyze while on the journey because the analytical mind can create misleading thoughts that interferes with the journey. Mother Ayahausca is a teacher and downloads the information that we need to know.

This is my first post. When I lived in Mexico, I went to a local medicine man to get treatment for anxiety. I asked him about Ayahausca. He then asked me If I had ever taken psychedelics before, and I said no. He then said that Ayahausca lasts about 5 to 6 hours, but he had a medicine called “sapito” which lasts for about 30 minutes, and if I have never had experience with psychedelics, it might be better for a first experience. He said the “sapito” has masculine energy and gets right to the point, whereas Ayahuasca is feminine and takes longer. Sapito is 5-MEO-DMT. In Mexico, it is called “sapito” or “sapo”. The word “sapo” means “toad” in Spanish. “Sapito” is a diminutive form which would roughly be translated as “toady” or “little toad”. He then put the sapito in a glass pipe and told me that as soon as he lights it to inhale and count to three. I inhaled and almost immediately fell back into a deep trance. I felt that I was in a void and I had no thoughts. My mind was complete silence. I felt I was dying. I started to move towards a light. When I approach the light, I flipped into another dimension. I was astonished and gasped “this is reality, and the everyday life I have been leading is bullshit, it is all an illusion”. I felt something like a presence of God. I then felt myself descending back into my body. I could actually feel the ego with its thoughts coming back as I descended into the body. When I was in my body, I felt an overwhelming intensity of emotions. It was like every emotion I had ever repressed over the years came up at once. I released them by my entire body violently shaking. Sapito didn’t change any of my long term negative habits or negative emotions. However, it altered my basic beliefs about reality and set me on a spiritual path. I am no longer a materialist. This was my first psychedelic experience. Since then I have recently gone through an Ayahuasca ceremony. For me, madre maestra Ayahuasca was much more useful and is now my medicine of choice. The differences: Sapito lasts 30 min, Ayahauscua lasts about 6 hours. During the 6 hours, Ayahuasca downloaded information useful to my life. Saptio goes for the head. Ayahuasca went to the heart center. Ayahuasca worked to release deep pain and energy blocks in my body. Ayahuasca was conducted with a ceremony and there was a group of people. I found an empathetic connection to the other people in the group under the medicine which aided inner healing. The ceremony creates a safe circle for sacred healing.