@X_X Too much theory, philosophy, belief, and BS.
You have no idea what true meaninglessness is. You have some constructed worldview that says one thing, yet the way you live life is completely the opposite of that. If nothing has meaning then why you are you unhappy? You see? You're living in a BS fantasy world of your own construction.
To realize that reality is meaningless is a profound, life-transforming epiphany that will take you decades of work to achieve. You haven't actually achieved it. You've merely created a fake front. Which is why you suffer from it.
The solution is to stop lying to yourself and to ground yourself in direct experience and your current level of development. Your current level is one in which you operate based on good/bad and meaning. All your fear and suffering coming from the latent meanings you assign to things.
Drop you dumb philosophy, open your mind, and start following your heart.
True meaninglessness is not what you think it is. It's Love.
You're right, the universe doesn't need your help. But it is your playground and an expression of your Love, or lack thereof.
You are not here to fix the universe. You are here to discover Love.
Helping people is not done out of some dumb notion of objective right or wrong. It's done out of Love.
The universe is meaningless so that you have the freedom of choice to imbue it with your own personal meaning and style of love.
God is not telling you what to do precisely so that you can decide what is worth doing. And if you decide that the only thing worth doing is pissing your life away, then that's what you've decided.