Chris365

The 'you' who wants to enter god mode will never be able to enter god mode. Because it's an illusion, an identity created in the process of human evolution, the sense of separation.

Don't remember seeing any recommendations for supplements that would be useful before/after 5Meo. In my case, about 6 hours after the experience, I feel an increase in ruminating thoughts, lasting 2-3hours, which I interpret as 'ego backlash'. Wondering if this can be explained by swings in serotonin etc and if there's supplements that may help?

Do you create thought? Think "I wonder what my next thought is going to be", then wait, expecting, see what comes up. Whatever thought comes up, how are 'you' creating it?

@Harmony342see how Jesus reacted, or not reacted

Is this 4 HO DPT?

24mg nasally

15 seconds is not that long, I have a camera and saw I breathe 10 times in 5 minutes, so 30 seconds between breaths

I took 100ug 1cp-LSD for the first time yesterday. (was micro/minidosing a couple of times before, 25ug max with no big effects) Didn't really know what to expect, when it started kicking in, I started listening to this in headphones: Oh my God I was listening to that clip before while sober, and didn't get much out of it. On LSD, There was this huge 'tree of life' (not sure of the technical term for it), that was maybe 1000 km wide and tall, and I was picking different frequencies from the sound, rotating slowly around this 'tree', always going upwards, like surfing on the sound waves. I saw the island I'm holidaying on as part of the tree, from maybe 1km away, slowly rotating, me moving always upwards in a spiral. Lots of other things appeared, always rotating, and me always moving upwards. No visuals with the eyes open, with eyes closed... different story. Then I started listening to From the first clip, where it was mostly 'earth', this shot me up to space, always climbing higher and higher, but the scale now was gigantic, I almost couldn't tell I was moving. I was trying to ask myself... is this .... infinite? No reply though. Anyone else tried similar music on LSD? What other music is great for expanding consciousness on LSD? Also, my head was moving from side to side with the energy (in a spiral/fractal motion and feeling), mostly to the right (red dominant) , but a few times to the left (blue dominant). Any significance to this, or just go with the flow?

thanks, will give them a try next time. Anyone else try similar sounds while tripping?

Do you have actual dried toad venom? That's only 10-15 % 5meo if I remember correctly...

@actualizing25Guess what Buddha said enlightenment is ...

Primarily an end to suffering caused by the ego (100%). Second, awaken to love (if the tales are true) and start creating consciously.

26mg next, got it

Did 24mg yesterday (after 20 last time), saw the thousands of layers of the ego, self-referencing itself, go away. Don't "remember" much after (no white light), apparently my Higher Self does remember it. Oh, this Universal Unconditional Love everyone is talking about, didn't necessarily feel it, is it an 'infinitely' more intense version of egoic love? Or something totally different. Also read Martin Ball's book Entheogenic Liberation yesterday (after 5 MeO), he's dismissing all religions and spiritual teachings... I kinda like it, but is he missing something? I'm glad my ego just dissolved without putting up much of a fight. I could tell when coming back, the ego was thinking about "wait until I post this on the forum, it's hilarious" It also solved my breakup suffering, at least for a day. I'm kinda digging the new found Presence and strong mental energy straight after. I guess this is it, breakthrough n stuff? Any point going to 26mg next, or milk 24mg more? Maybe I should go back to 22 to see.

I prefer to be fully lying down when meditating, I can relax my body much deeper I feel. Are there any inherent advantages to meditating while sitting up?

In 3 weeks time, when the rest of the family go on holidays, I plan to have a few days home retreat, starting with 3-5 days of meditation then, depending how I feel, choose between 1cpLsd and 5Meo. Prev experience is micro/mini dosing 1cplsd, up do 40ug but the effects were not too strong. With 5Meo, I'm up to 20mg nasally with no breakthrough. Should I continue with 22mg , 24....etc 5Meo ? Or take it 'easier' and go 100ug 1cpLsd and see how that feels... minidosing before definitely had 5Meo characteristics, no visuals. Which would be better for a heart/love realization? Also seem to be going through an ego backlash atm, if this is not resolved in 3 weeks, are psyches not recommended?

Now that I got your attention, I would say this situation is pretty rare. My girlfriend who's into spirituality (more into the souls/higher dimentions, astral projection, channelings etc) has the belief that having an orgasm drains her energy and she feels lethargic/unspiritual for a while after. This leads to sexual encounters lasting hours (e.g. 1hr sessions, 5 times a day some days (not every day ) which, while 'nice', I struggle to keep up with, since I don't have this hangup about orgasms. (During the multi session days, I hold the orgasm until the end, sometimes not having it). Some may see this as an ideal situation, but: - My inner caveman wants her to have an orgasm, otherwise I get the thought that I'm not satisfying her. Even though she reassures me at every opportunity that's not the case, how can I shut up mr caveman? - I feel that having an orgasm at the same time as your partner adds that last 10% of bonding/connection between lovers, again, might be a hangup, can I get over this somehow? - I sometimes struggle to delay my orgasm, any supplements that may help with this? I even suggested she should fake it sometimes, just for my inner satisfaction... Halp

So, I accidentally saw a conversation on Instagram of my girlfriend with a work colleague that invited her (on both their days off (I was working) on what turned out to be a 5 hour trip to some scenic part of the country. After, she agreed with me that because I'm not comfortable with herself going alone with this colleague on such long trips, she'll keep it to local walks etc. The conversation went something like: gf: :flower: colleague: that flower looked good on your blouse gf: :blush: thanks :smile colleague: I miss your smile gf: I miss your presence too When I confronted her about it (saying I don't agree with flirting, if you're ready to do that, may as well leave [we were both veeeeryyy tired when we had this conversation], but I didn't say I saw the convo, just the subject of flirting came up in conversation) She said flirting maybe is an impulse for the other person to 'be better', to 'work harder' to keep them. And she re-assured me numerous times since then that I'm the only one for her etc, and everything else she does/says is showing me she loves me very much Now on one hand I can see how it could be 'innocent', maybe she felt a bit neglected, she likes the attention, 'presence' is a nice spiritual thing etc. On the other hand, when I'm thinking about their convo, I'm seeing red and cannot think anymore (never had a panic attack, but I imagine this is what it must feel like), I'm trying to ground myself, be present, breathe etc, it's just that 'my ego' is overpowering. I would like to develop myself to the point where I wouldn't care so much about this,if she wants to be with me, great, if not, move on without feeling like dieing. And I really believe her assurances, she's just so innocent sometimes that I feel the need to protect her and to remind her that some (I'm thinking 'all') men don't necessarily have platonic thoughts always, it's just that she's taking any offer of outdoors activities in her days off without too much thought (we match 1 day off a week normally, and we do plenty during that day, but she needs/wants more) Edit: also about the colleague she says he just wanted to show her his beautiful country (she's foreign), talking a lot during their trip about every little touristic and non-touristic attraction on their route. Any advice on how to not feel like I'm dieing? Up the 5Meo dose?

I'd also like to see you fill a 1ml syringe with 2ml of liquid

After a few 5MeO experiences (up to 20mg, no breakthrough) I kinda developed this habit (or the habit developed me) that, when I meditate (lying down) and focus on : "am aware that I'm aware" "focus on the present moment" "feel the inner body" self inquiry I always have these sensations that (maybe retrospectively) "I" associate with "doing it right": a VERY slight tensing of some muscles on the front of my body - pecs, abs, front delts, a bit of arms, neck, traps... If I focus on the relaxation of the muscles, they relax, but then I feel I'm losing some 'depth' of meditation. Is there any inherent problem with this? Could I be attached to the sensations I feel and this could be a blockage/ slow down of my practices ?

I feel 5Meo showed me this, so now my body automatically goes into that energetic mode...

I feel the ego backlashes are too powerful for me to be dealing with them with no Valium. But that's the only drug I'll take for a while, I promise, and only if I feel I can't cope with the suffering myself. Today I only had 1 10mg. Thanks, I feel much better.

Do Not have 2 nights of no sleep, very little food, then take 10mg valium at 1pm, 1 Xanax for the 1st time ever at 8.20pm, followed by 10mg Valium at 9pm (because the Xanax "wasn't working" [I had no idea how it was supposed to work]), then at 10pm go have an emotionally charged discussion with the girl you're in the process of breaking up with. Thank God I didn't hurt (physically) or kill anybody or myself Also (yep, there's more) Do Not take 5Meo 15mg one night, 20 mg the next, when you're unstable emotionally and during a break up - it makes the situation from bad to suicidal and acting crazy. Ego backlashes when they are least needed and least able to be dealt with. Thank GOD everybody is fine (ex-girlfriend is maybe scared of me now, my reaction was to remove all my belongings from the apartment we shared and take them to the car without explanation) . The Youniverse gives us exactly what we need at all times, right? I'll just have to see what that is...

If you question if it was a breakthrough, it's not a breakthrough. True? Or how else can you tell

Something else, is that there's a feeling of energy focusing from the body towards the head and up, with the top of the head becoming energized. And the 'third eye' sometimes gets a sensation of pressure at this time. And I feel the deepening happens on the exhale, while I'm trying to 'hold on to the depth level' on the inhale, to be able to go deeper again on the next exhale.