Mvrs

These are all just words when people say they have an awakening they mean they had a sudden realization of something they realized they already knew but was pretending not too. Some are minor some are major and will make you unable to function. There’s an infinite range of awakenings because awakening is just a word that points to the moment of extreme insight into the nature of the Self .

I won’t go into the full story but up until that day I had been an atheist the kind of person to jump on any religious dogma and call it out. I was really into quantum physics at the time just finding out about the double slit experiment and quantum entanglement. God seemed absurd to me. I had heard of enlightenment but I didn’t know anything about it. Up until this point I had been addicted to Lsd for about two years taking around 10-17 tabs at once every weekend non stop pretty much for two years . I was stupid asf don’t ever do that. Also I had just started making music about two years before as well. My normal trip would consist of me sitting there going through my music trying to improve it. One day I got some rick and Morty tabs from my friend and as with every tab I took one just to make sure it wasn’t n bombe but keep in mind I was taking like 17 at a time at this pint so I expected nothing. That night I que up a song I made a few months earlier called fate. Lmao, the lyrics explained my entire existence here to me and I finally understand what an ego death was. It’s just the realization that your in w “video game” and all u are is a characters. I fell to the floor crying it rocked me . So much weird shit happened that night that I can’t put into writing here . But after that it happened two more times the next two weeks and then I started to find out about enlightenment and realized everybody already knew what I was talking about . About a year after I found ram das and Alan watts, and like 3 years after I found Leo . I’m now 21 , this is the super short version of what happened it was beyond crazy. Since then I’ve had 2 other satoris but since then I live in full acceptance of me being god. I would be lying if I didn’t. And also Lsd ever since I realiz d those insights has completely stopped working all psychedelics have. I don’t gain any insight from them they don’t change my consciousness besides visuals anymore because I live with the knowledge it’s never gone. U could say I live in a constant minor satori . My main satoris tho I would be able to function normally in that state .

Don’t overlook what’s going on right now because you wanna fantasize about before and after and give those all the magic even though they don’t exist.

This is the truth. Enjoy now. But also keep in mind time doesn’t exist all is now that’s why you have memories. If you went unconscious when you die and it’s lights out forever but time doesn’t exist who would be aware of this right now? The mind fuck is no one is aware of it . So idk no one can know

this is true , and this seems consistent so you think your real and can function and Play out the story you need to without being a crazy person. This is the greatest gift you have given yourself is this illusion of consistency. However when you start to become fully awakened . Consistency isn’t the same anymore. It’s always rn , times constantly jumping. You start to realize your own memories from the day aren’t even real and some things that happen throughout the day that seem crazy you just forget about. You can bring up these repression’s in hypnogonic dream state. You actually see some fucking crazy dream like shit everyday you just forget . Like entities and shit . Crazy shit I promise u.

This is heaven

Wait a minute I might be wrong but I just realized isn’t @Moksha the name of the monk that got reincarnated as a moose that eats fucks and sleeps all day ?????

Do you control your dream or is it a happening that you feel you have control over in the moment??

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No not Tesla the company. Nikola Tesla. He credits a lot of his discovery’s , saying he got the information beamed to his mind from Mars. When I had satori I can def see why someone awakening would think an alien shot a beam of info into there head. That’s exactly what it felt like. You just get a beam of info shot straight at u.

This is what confuses me is all I amness illusion in the “end.”(at the regroup point lmao) Or in the end will I just be there as nothing chillen in nothing like yo I am this nothing. I know that’s what’s going on right now but is it ever gonna be I amness without appearance ? Is this way the void is on 5meo? Where u realize u still exist without any appearance ? Words jumble up truth so much smh:/

If you lose you who’s aware of absolute being even being a thing? Something must you don’t have to think your an I am to have I amness

My own music induced my first satori... the lyrics I made a year before explained all of reality to me . It was insane , the song was called fate

Formless is form.... non duality isn’t separate from duality? That wouldn’t make sense it’s one... behind all form is nothing which is formless but it’s not some other thing

This is the real reality, awakening is realizing this. Real just means what’s going on right now.

The brain is a chicken and egg paradox realize this. It makes no sense. In a dream you would believe u had a brain and could damage your brain in a dream does that mean it’s real? Or is it just appearance your misinterpreting as real?

The brain is a thought to make you think your real. Something for you to find if you go looking. A infinite rabbit hole of function and appearance but nothing more. It’s a trick, as is everything .

Or another strategy just dive into it? Love the power of imagination then appreciate it doesn’t come true. Don’t live in fear of these thoughts then they will manifest. Love the power u have to manifest these thoughts as just stories and imagination. And embrace it the more u run the more it will chase u . My family friend is scared of everything always thinking something will go wrong at it always does for them. I think everything will always go right and it always does for me. Never not got a job stuff like that.

Just let them arise notice them like you are doing Rn then let them go. All of this is imagination. It’s the same realness as thinking your gonna win the lottery all the time .

Is this real? Can’t tell if you serious. I have switched time lines. I once hit dmt and in the middle of my trip realized my piece I used to hit its mouth piece was no super long I was like lmao that’s so funny it looks so long. Then I come down and the shit never goes back to normal . Soooo I’m now in the version of reality where it’s mouth piece is long not short.

Doesn’t that mean this life is it? i understand technically every moment is it cus I don’t exist. I change moment to moment. Will I always be like this? Or will this idea completely die along with all experience.

Does anyone else have the inability to stop smiling sometimes (most the time)because it’s to great?

What do you care about? Your forgetting who’s god.

When @Leo Gura says we become infinite love when we die does that just mean I just get to go on forever in my creation? Experience is love this is love so does he just mean we realize we never die and go on loving our creation forever.

@Leo Gura just like you as a child and now I have always been one to feel for all beings and be upset if one gets more love than another. I just realized I do this with the forum. I go through and find people who have 0 replies to their post and try to reply if I can. I feel like someone’s sitting around all day just sad waiting for someone to respond to their thoughts. Like the kid that has 0 friends in south parks 0 friends ep. when you realize god tho it’s extremely adorable and hilarious that it sub divided to feel bad about itself and make heart warming satire tv shows about it hahaha