Harsh Bagdia

@freeman194673 yes you are thinking of God as some religious God. YOU ARE GOD. Drop all your ideas about God and LOVE. IT'S YOU WHO KNOWS WHAT'S IN YOUR HEAD, AND IF YOU ARE ENOUGH EMPATHETIC YOU WILL KNOW HOW CHILD IS FEELING. If you have a problem with a child getting raped, go create some conscious policies by getting into politics to eliminate rape. Join some community, make a support group, make people aware of their ignorance and give to society tools for psychological growth. ACT. Don't be caught up in theories about God. If God would have been seperate from you, then God couldn't see you suffer. But the thing is, YOU ARE GOD. You suffer because of YOUR IGNORANCE. You choose to suffer. You have control over your actions so do whatever you feel GOD would do in the situation you are facing. It's as simple as that.

There's no hurry. Focus on complete financial independence and understanding personal psychology- What is thought? What is thinking? What is mind? What are emotions-fear, anger, happiness etc.? How does mind work? how society works? How my body works? Not by reading a book but by direct experience and understanding. After all this, naturally a question will arise, "Who am I?" And it will bother you so much that it would be good enough reason for your way towards Spirituality. If you aren't asking yourself who am I, then you are just trying to pursue this because it seems so cool. Sri Ramakrishna said: “Do not seek illumination unless you seek it as a man whose hair is on fire seeks a pond.” But yeah Psychedelics can show you glimpses of it without going through earlier stages of financial independence and understanding of mind which can then lead you towards this path which happened with me. Lastly I will like to add what Leo says, Pursue Truth for truth's sake.

@assx95 don't you wanna know your true existential nature? It's bigger than a experience. It's a knowing. It makes you still. It makes you feel fearless. It makes you feel like a new born child ready to explore the world. Yes sure this urge to know comes at different times to different people. You can give yourself sometime before you jump into it, but when you do there's nothing more important for you than this. This is not some aspect of life but rather this is about the very basis, the very fundamentals of life. And yes you don't know where you will end up but that's the beauty of it not a flaw.

This was the first time I did LSD in a proper setting in my room(earlier did it at parties & with toxic friends), a week before. I watched Leo's "What is Actuality" video just before the trip. It was midnight. 30 mins into the trip, power cut happened and the air cooler in the room started sounding loud, making unusual sounds. That's when the effects kicked in. I experienced sudden rush of fear as the inverter at our home couldn't have handled the load of 3 rooms for a long time. There was a possibility that my brother and my parents could have come to my room. In 10-15 minutes power came back but that sure felt like half hour or so. Thoughts were minimal. Sense of time was distorted. Awe & wonder rose. Played some songs. Reality was kind of flowing, I was no longer controlling things. Music radically deepened my experience. For the first time I was FEELING REALITY in such a deep way. In 5 minutes I danced on 3 different kinds of music. Here are some things I wrote, Raw experience is Reality. Is this what realness feel like, is this what depersonalization feels like? Man I feel so real. Shit is just floating. (Then I drew some random stuff and labelled it as ART) I am feeling complete. I don't need anything. There's only one thing that exists 'BEAUTY'. Concept can never be Actual. This is Actual. RAW.REAL.COMPLETE. Authentic Self Expression. Fully. There's no reason to not to be true to yourself. There's no RIGHT or WRONG. Everything is so ALIVE. I looked at a spider and a mosquito for quite a while and was so lost in their beauty. Simple task like drinking water was such a beautiful experience. I observed my hand and it was no more "MY" hand it was something else. As I was in bathing in the bathtub I tried to explain what is happening and as soon as I tried to think or explain, I laughed. I laughed crazily for a good 5-10 minutes. After this again I took my book, Exploration of the self is the only thing to do. There's nothing to fear. Everything is so crystal clear. It's like rebirth. It's funny how we are caught up in petty human issues. There's so much to this. It is so so so amazing. Reality is nothing but one who is in absolute love with itself. what is internal? what is external? why do I choose to do one action over another action? I feel very new. Surrounding is me. I am reality. Judgement is foolish. Good, bad is foolish. I am foolish too with lots of other things I am. This is it. GOD- Welcome Harsh , To the 2nd chapter of your life. God & I am literally one. I cant stop my laughter. Everything is me. Every other word is equal to every other word. The point is it. There's no other point. There's no need for me to explain my origin. My life will never be the same again. Consciousness is fundamental. LEO FUCKING GURA. YOU & I ARE ONE. HAHAHAHA ONENESS. REALITY IS INFINITE. I AM THE BODY AND I AM ALSO NOT THE BODY. Then I watched Leo's "What is Reality" video and it blew me, I felt that this episode was designed perfectly to suit this moment. It felt like Leo is welcoming me to the other side as my elder brother. I contemplated about my career which is about becoming psychedelic therapist & also about things I will be taking back with me after the trip- GOD IS. STAY SANE, Explore Psychedelics deeply. Speak less. I AM LIFE. Do not be attached to your goals. LIVE TOTALLY. YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR VERY NATURE IS HAPPINESS. ONLY ME. THERE'S ONLY ME HERE. ONLY ME. ONLY ME. MIND, BODY is tool for exploration you idiot. You self deceptive fucker. Understanding of self. Mind is nothing but you talking to yourself. Use it when you need to communicate. It's enough for today. Sleep. I LOVE YOU(myself) Still I wasn't able to sleep. I meditated for a while, it was morning. Then had breakfast and I could feel the food in my body. watched some hot Indian models. Finally slept and after waking up I was much more aware than usual. Contemplated about the trip for 3-4 days. Meditation has improved. One thing that I know is that I don't know a thing about reality. I am much more aware now of what is a belief or a concept & fears.But I am back to normal. I feel I was not able to integrate the experience properly. How do you guys integrate any profound experience that you have? Thanks for staying till the end, I feel so lucky to have found Actualized.org and this forum and this life that I am living. Love you all!

@WaveInTheOcean thankyou very much. Those words just hit me right in the feels. After that trip, day by day my sense of wonder is increasing and I feel like I know so less, desire to understand has skyrocketed. I have gotten much more aware about the fact that language, thoughts, thinking are second order phenomenon and Pure Consciousness is fundamental which cannot be named, symbolised or spoken of.

@knakoo Thankyou, I will surely try this during my next trip. I heard the samples of both the tracks & found them very meditative. Wow that's wonderful. Do you use this for regular meditation also, when you aren't tripping?

I see. Earlier I used to think that TRUTH was some kind of special experience/state. Now I get that it is a meta-understanding. Thankyou so much Leo for the work you do. I have grown so much since I started watching your videos. You are such an inspiration. @Leo Gurawhat is the most important quality needed for getting to the deepest levels and staying committed to the path?(apart from open-mindedness)

I get it now. Me. Ego. All the beliefs. All this needs to go. This is really about removing the layers which I have put forth on the "rawness". Thanks. Thankyou @Moon It will be the most wonderful experience/state of being you will ever have. It will bring you tears of joy and a laugh for which other people will call you insane.

Thankyou. I only do few of them- Isha Kriya by Sadhguru Meditation, Mindfulness AUM chanting, Brahmanand Swaroopa chant Contemplation Psychedelics is most direct and straightforward for this work according to me.

It was 250ug. No it is'nt.

@Ar_Senses I have thought about future trends of Psychedelics but no way to this much extent..man you really did some solid brain-storming there. Yeah we can connect, I have similar interests. I think all these things are gonna take much more time than you think. First what needs to happen is legalization. For that we need more and more people like Leo who spread awareness and proper usage of these substances. What needs to happen is shift of perspective among the people so that we don't hold Psychedelics in the same category of drugs like opioids and others. Recently released documentary- "Have a good trip: Adventures in Psychedelics" on Netflix is a good watch for some beginner who knows nothing about it. Hearing the take of celebrities,leaders,artists, & musicians inspire people to explore the substances more than anything. "The Goop Lab" is another series which talks about it in one episode. We need such kind of things more. Research is the most important factor of all, I think there should be a proper dedicated institute which is dedicated only to this, study and research of Psychedelics in every field not just mental health. Yeah MAPS is one of those, we need more like it and much diversified. After legalization, huge amount of funding from the big companies for Psychedelic businesses to flourish. Not just in these industries, in every field we can see new breakthroughs especially in science. Psychology will change drastically as Stan Grof mentioned in his works. In education sector, Students will be given 5 Meo before they pass high school. Psychedelics will be taught as basic compulsory subject in schools. Stigma will die but there are high chances that these substances will be abused even more, so proper laws regarding that must be built. There can be a license system and restrictions to do it in parties and public areas. But there's so much factors for all this to work. Huge systemic changes are required. @Leo Gura we would love to have your take on possibilities and solutions in future of Psychedelic use.

Finished Life-Purpose course. It's so deep and exhaustive.This course was the best thing that ever happened to me. Also I became sure about being Psychonaut after watching Leo's video on "How Psychedelics work".Thankyou so much @Leo Gura LIFE PURPOSE- I will build Spiritual-Infrastructure in the world by using my ability to Go-Meta. (by spiritual infrastructure I mean-retreat centres, schools, consecrated spaces,online videos and courses) ZOG- ability to Go-Meta DOMAIN OF MASTERY- 1.Psychedelics for therepeutic and NON-DUAL use 2. Humanistic and transpersonal psychology I know the domain is too vast;I am 22 and lack life experience, so I will narrow it down as I walk the path. I am currently doing BA-Psychology in India and planning to pursue Master's degree in Integrated Counseling Psychology from CIIS, San Francisco. This will give me entry to US where Psychedelic renaissance is boosting. I can see myself as a psychedelic-therapist but my ultimate aim is to open a Psychedelic retreat centre and become a Non-dual practitioner as Martin Ball mentioned in his book. Uptill then I will be doing Blogging related to spirituality. So my QUESTIONS are: 1. Do you think Higher education is worth my time and money? 2. Any other advice and views related to my Life purpose? Thankyou for reading! Love for all!

@GodDesireOnlyLove,yes I understand this. When i first took LSD, I did it in a party setting, taking it with cannabis and without contemplation. Had some bad trips too. After that I realized that this is not something to be abused but to go deeper into yourself and explore. Thank you for your advice Namaste

Thankyou @Serotoninluv @GodDesireOnlyLove @flowboy. I am working on it. I will be starting to journal on this forum, i will update my growth and research there.

Happy Birthday Leo!! I discovered you at the time of my first mid-life crisis. You helped me overcome my depression, made me discover my Life Purpose, introduced me to Spirituality, and completely changed my perspective of life. I can't thank you enough. You are awesome man! Much LOVE! A little tribute to you - (this frame is hanging on my room's wall & keeps me inspired )

Thankyou friend for your suggestion. I will watch out about the CULT thing. I have heard of MAPS, once I get to US many doors will be open for me, I currently reside in India and it will take few years before I move there.

Thankyou @LordFall Great, DMT sounds so cool, I wonder when will I get the chance to take it. About Timothy Leary, despite the controversies and many imprisonments, I think he was a great guy, way ahead of his time. He talked about space colonies, eight-circuit model of consciousness,LSD for expansion of consciousness and much more. Surely his way of advocacy was very direct and lacked structure. After his research only black market of Psychedelics emerged. Here is some interesting information I would like to quote from Wikipedia- "When he married his third wife, Rosemary Woodruff, in 1967, the event was directed by Ted Markland of Bonanza. All the guests were on acid." "League for Spiritual Discovery was: "Drop Out– detach yourself from the external social drama which is as dehydrated and ersatz as TV. Turn On – find a sacrament which returns you to the temple of God, your own body. Go out of your mind. Get high. Tune In – be reborn. Drop back in to express it. Start a new sequence of behavior that reflects your vision." "In place of scientific data about the effects of LSD, Leary used metaphors about "galaxies spinning" faster than the speed of light and a cerebral cortex "turned on to a much higher voltage." "The couple "married" in a hotel under the influence of cocaine and LSD two weeks after they were first introduced" "While in prison, Leary was sued by the parents of Vernon Powell Cox, who had jumped from a third story window of a Berkeley apartment while under the influence of LSD. Cox had taken the drug after attending a lecture, given by Leary, favoring LSD use" "he preached about space colonization and extension of the human lifespan. He expounded on the eight-circuit model of consciousness in books such as Info-Psychology: A Re-Vision of Exo-Psychology and others. He invented the acronym "SMI²LE" as a succinct summary of his pre-transhumanist agenda: SM (Space Migration) + I² (intelligence increase) + LE(Life extension)." According to his son Zachary, during his final moments, he clenched his fist and said, "Why?", and then unclenching his fist, he said, "Why not?". He uttered the phrase repeatedly, in different intonations, and died soon after. His last word, according to Zach, was "beautiful".

Yes I want to gear this for spiritual use but I will love to explore other therapeutic possibilities as well. I have a history of marijuana and cigarette addiction & was able to completely quit these after my first few LSD trips.I went into depression and sort-of existential crisis for few months after that. So I personally know there's a lot of potential there and have a desire to help addicts and people suffering from depression. Yes one of the factor is credibility too. My parents have a extremely orthodox background. They can never fathom that I am working with drugs(acc to them) and that too without so called proper credentials. I am even concerned whether they will allow me to go to US for higher studies.But then again I will fight for my cause, and as Leo says, ACCEPT THE COSTS. Yes I will spend huge amount of time in experimenting the substances for myself, documenting my journey and building up knowledge. And I will also think more about your point of spending my money on books and courses rather than college education. Thankyou for this information, I will surely research about this. I have done 5 Lsd trips and 3 MDMA trips uptil now and haven't touched any of these since one year as I found it very extreme and powerful. I felt as if I was not ready for it but now as I have educated myself about it and started meditation too, I am starting to explore them again. I have one acid-blotter in my shelf right now but can't do it as I live with my parents and can't go out due to lockdown. I am so eager to do it and thinking of taking it in night but worried about having a bad-trip. QUESTION: Apart from LSD, what other psychedelics do you all recommend to start with?And how frequently? I am interested in emotional-healing and spiritual growth. I will leave 5-MEO for last and build myself up for it.