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Not sure if this could be the problem but I would advise you to test for mold in your house.

Lol, I used to think like this too. I would sit in the balcony to freeze to death or try not to breathe... it is funny as hell when you remember this from a certain age

@Nak Khid Lol, what do you mean by that? Guess it's something like spring depression, summer fun

This cracks me up every time

Leo, what is Mahasamadhi? You said that you want to leave, why?

Alcohol triggers really bad anxiety for me. Also, it's bad since it depletes your body of many vitamins. Moderate consumption from time to time is ok imo. As for the spiritual benefits, it makes me feel music much much better and I'm deeper than when sober but it shouldn't be considered a tool for spiritual evolution. In fact, it can become truly nasty once you're dependent ?

If it is a concept, then it is something rather than nothing.

Nothingness does not exist, it is just a concept.

@Leo Gura

As for the question, ofc God exists

"While both Hindu and Buddhist philosophies talk about losing individual self to infinite oneness, Vedanta emphasizes the existence of the Self and its manifestation as all the different forms in the universe whereas Buddhism discusses selflessness but does not propose the existence of an omnipresent and omniscient Self." [source] Creator is the Self or the manifested which always manifests. The unmanifested is nothing and there is nothing outside of Self. The Self is the only one that exists. We are not concerned with that which does not exist since every-thing exists. Nothing does not exist.

Evolution is creativity, not wisdom.

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.” ― Albert Einstein ?

Creative ?

Maybe curiosity or desire for knowledge but not sure if these can be considered as being instinctual traits.

@Nak Khid Are you nature?

@28 cm unbuffed Not sure if I understand mahasamadhi but it doesn't sound like suicide or killing yourself. I found the interpretation here enlightening: https://isha.sadhguru.org/in/en/wisdom/sadhguru-spot/mahasamadhi But honestly, it's beyond my understanding why would someone be so apathetic about life. It's so much to explore imo. Also, it seems that there are many types of samadhi: https://isha.sadhguru.org/in/en/wisdom/article/samadhi-to-go-beyond-existence And from my perspective, it's not egoistic to pursue your goals in order to advance further in life or acquire higher levels of consciousness. But thinking that you're enlightened and there's nothing to do here, or wanting to become free from suffering sounds like an ego trap.

Wut? Where did you hear or read that? Dud, you don't have to die for Truth and there is a huge difference between ego and Self. That's why I don't like people saying that we're nothing, I can clearly see why this pov is damaging to one's self. You can focus on doing what you like for your own survival, that's not fucking ego. Drop this emo kid mindset

"The Dream of a Ridiculous Man" is a short story by Fyodor Dostoyevsky written in 1877. It chronicles the experiences of a man who decides that there is nothing of any value in the world. Slipping into nihilism with “terrible anguish”, he is determined to commit suicide. However, after a chance encounter with a young girl, he begins an inner journey that re-instills a love for his fellow man. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Dream_of_a_Ridiculous_Man

Animal consciousness is purely instinctual so they are dualist since their primary drives are survival and reproduction. The more self-aware an animal is (such as humans), the more it is able to recognize the outer-inner dualism and consciously create reality. Because reality is a product of the self-mind and there's no difference between reality and yourself.

Almost all my awakenings looked like a bad trip

@Leo Gura

After awakening

Lol, I feel the same only that all of this has turned into an amusement. The only advice I can give you is to not take this life scenario so seriously. It's pointless to believe this is all there is and then it's 'game over'. I think that kids are more open minded and view things more accurately til adults start repeating that boring stuff 'THIS IS ALL THERE IS, go to work, marry, have kids and then accept that you're going to die'. It just makes me pack my stuff and go to Narnia. Joking :)) But I think that balance is the key. Do the things that are required in order to survive but keep an open mind because no zombie knows what the heck is happening here. And you don't want to be a zombie, I guess.