For a few years now, I have been following consciousness content. A lot of it and have been meditating etc. So basic understanding says enlightenment is destruction of ego. But I am having a big mind fuck here coz I want to move towards enlightenment but my ego says wtf, you have a test tom or some other thing. Its a constant fight. Sometimes I feel like leaving everything behind and moving towards the mountains or something. But then again the mindfuck begins, my ego says stfu and just do what you were about to.. Does anyone feel me? my head aches
