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@Corpus I think the order that a scholar should interprete the scriptures might be almost every one else was illerate to that time but thats only speculation

Hey Dunnel, that's very sad to hear and I feel with you, but there is still hope. It might feel as if there is no way out and that it is undoable but you can do it if you take the time and build it up slowly by growing and by feeling it and a change in the way of thinking. I know that its harder done than written. Do you have a therapist and medication? Might be tough without it. I've been there and I know how hard it is. There was a time when I had to distract myself constantly to avoid those horrible feelings and thoughts. I couldn't sleep without medication and alcohol or Marijuana. It was terrible and lead to catastrophy. But I came to a point when I realized that the only problem is avoiding these things. It's been 2 years from that time and I've grow so much that I literally have more life quality than everage people. You can't meditate them away. Start giving those feelings room during your meditation and be mindful during the day. Mindfulness was the only was that helped me to go through that even though it felt freaking horrible. Start noticing your thought patterns and repeating negative thoughts and write them down. Then replace them with a positiv. Then start using them when you have negative thoughts and repeat the positiv a few times. After you have a few positive sentences make a practice of repeating them every morning or evening. After a while those sentences will feel more and more positive and bring you into a positive mood. You have to be careful to not let your negative mood stop you from doing it. Those pattern try to stick and there will be arguements that thats bullshit. But just do it. It will take you min 4-6 months to notice differences. The negative stuff has to be felt to grow lesser and lesser every time. Nahm has good advice (thx?), didn't speak with him though. Don't give up. There is still the possibility to overcome those things and create something beautiful. The thing is that you have the god given power to overcome it in yourself and it would be a pity to lose this opportunity to find out how amazing you are. My English isn't the best but I think you've got the point. Warm regards

I've had experiences on psychedelics that opened my mindbfor all that stuff and helped me get over deptession and it could be fun too. But maybe James is right. If considered why one takes them it seems always the to be the case that one wants sth different than what is now and thats in itself no problem. But its a hindrance to accepting whats now and therefore one must ultimately let go of them some day on their path imo. The thing is also that one can only know if he's successful and then in retrospect tell what the obstacles was. Examined it for yourself. Maybe i am wrong and still a noob. Regards

I don't know if he's already listed.. He is very far developed. But I don't if he uses the terms green and tier 2 from the sd model or from another one

When I was 24 I had a very mixed up friend (23) and she got a boyfried who was 34. he took care of her a lot and supported her in her growth and handle her fear disorder. He often took part in things we do at that age like going to a bar, barbecues etc and for my external perspective at that time he was a nice and caring man over that period. It lasted about 4 years. Now, 7 years later I think a little bit different of that what happened. She was insecure and had some troubles with career and family and she needed eagerly support of someone who has both feet on the ground. After 4 years she was growing them out to some extend and needed more of her freedom and the chance to make up for her own experiences that she was missing due to the disorder and this kind of relationship (even if we were often out together, she lived her life predominantly like a 30 year old). He did grow older and changed too and stopped behaving like a 25year old and got a bit rusty. There was also this power disbalance and they had to break up because of that amonst other things after these 4 years. Although he did help her get her shit together he was stuck to their old roles and they were striving in different directions with different obstacles etc and so after a while the thing became unhandleble. As in every relation there were more facets to it I can't mention here. But I wouldn't compare that to a 19 year old. Being almost 24 is a different cognitive level.

https://www.filmsforaction.org/watch/beware-of-images-documentary/ After I've read so many things on this forum I just want to make a contribution and share a documentary of how media works. I haven't checked the webside yet but they seem to have other interesting documentaries. Kind regards

Mike tyson has been interested in spirituality since his 5 meo trips. On utube he even asked sadhguru on his bike tour across the usa a question which shows that he is interested. Reckon he wont become a jogi but i think he is on a good way.

During the trip you will see if the vibes are ok or if you can improve things like light, music. If meditating sucks go with the flow and just chill. Actually in my experience by just chilling the best effect occured. But you see everybody has a different "method" And even if nothing happens, just enjoy the trip. Sooner or later it will be obvious. The more mindful you become in everyday life the less dosage you need to see truth.

@bulgarianspirit Hehe, yeah. Thx for reminding me of my own experiences. I had similiar experiences with lsd and saw it the same way and preyed that Iwould forget and come back..and I did forget about it almost every time after a couple of days. But on other occasions seeing that was far more beautiful as i went beyond that state and saw the infinite love aspect in all that. It is strange the last weeks I start remembering all this in a "sober" state and sometimes there is a lot of fear of becoming crazy because the ME doesn't want to die. Warm regards

Hey, I've done vipassana meditation on a regular basis for a year and some ordinary meditation. I also do some lsd. After my last few trips I`ve started noticing that the seeing arises every moment again and ceases. When I look it`s a little bit like flashing and I realised that in the between I am with my thoughts and feeling. It`s quite frightening though most of the time not. Only when I try to make sense of it. Does anybody has the same experience and some advice how to integrate this and am I still on the right track? thx