Nick_98

That's a brilliant picture. However, It's really tough for us to become like dogs.

No matter what he says ,This sound like a man who doesn't know how to communicate with people. Doesn't take a genius to figure that out. Don't be hard on yourself, just drop him. If he was really good at what he does .. then why we would be having a conversation here ? It's OBVIOUS.

Who doesn't feel confused and lost ? Specially during that phase of lock down/pandemic that we were in. Almost most of the people I know are praying to god one way or another because of how lost and confused they feel. It's normal. Everybody has this. Many many people have suicidal thoughts. That is normal as well. Thoughts are just thoughts, they come and go. Whenever you notice a suicidal thought say to yourself the word "Impermeable", this is a strong reminder that no thought /feeling stay with you forever, it comes, and goes. If you watched a thought deliberately you will realise it has a point it starts and point where it ends "where the f** did it go ?" .. Intense Visualization will do the trick. Give yourself a reason to believe in it. Notice that when you don't believe in that trick, it comes from the same Bias illusion that make you believe in it. So what is the reason to stick in not believing in visualizations ? THAT IN ITSELF IS A BELIEF THAT IT DOESN'T WORK. So believe in it, and it's going to do the trick, it will change your life. I had days when thoughts are like this "I'm dumb, Wtf I'm doing,I hate my life..etc" , and days where my thoughts are like this " I love myself so much, My life is so amazing, Omg I'm living my dream life". So who am I Really? , am I the one from that day or this day, in fact I'm neither. This could open the possibility for awakening, but requires much work and consistency. But for now.. let you focus on visualizations/ affirmations. Jason stephenson Channel on youtube is a really good one, It changed millions of lives if you have trouble getting started. Give this child (mind) a little training. Leave it with no training one day and see how it acts different to what you wanted (which of course are positive thoughts). Completely normal.

Well, Here's my grasp of what Leo told us. From watching dozens of videos/reading blog..etc.. Feel free to correct me. Leo says Hey It's Leo from actualized.org: " I want you to stop watching the video right now, and wake up ". " WAIT ? Do you still think that this video will wake you up? " "I want you to notice that you still haven't woke up" " WAKE UPPP! You moron I've been doing that for tons of videos and you still don't get it" " Are you for real ? Still watching my videos?, Do the work!!" "I AM YOU. Doesn't this statement buzz you to start waking up!" " I don't know what else to tell you, if you haven't woke up till this point just sit and enjoy maybe one day you will entertain the possibility of you waking up"

I'm not sure what you're pointing at.

Well, Sleeping is good anyway.

Yeah , for sure. Chasing Ideologies is a big trap. It's always helpful to remind yourself that truth doesn't exist in your mind answers,thoughts , images. Well, I don't know about that really. They say that.

I'm 21, I would be surprised if you're younger. I wouldn't say I meditate or do breath work, I just contemplate for the sake of awakening. But, I don't have a place to do that without distractions. That's why I'm always On and Off consciousness work.

I've been having a lot of discouragement lately. Specially , because things are going well. So I be like.."What I'm doing this for"? . Then I read statements like "You're wasting your time if you are not using psychedelics."..

First of all, you're in a good position because you've done the first step, which is realizing it's the illusion. Realize , that you have no mind that's different from Einstein's , Bill gates, Barack Obama, Eminem,Prostitute,Homeless , Whatever. The mind is a powerful thing, it's able to knock you down your whole life, or let you invent something great, which are both powerful outcome. Play with your illusion, to add more to the self.. Have a happier life, love yourself,chase your ideals, and hopefully have the life you always wished for.(This is what I do mostly).. So what can you do ? Visualize the impossible and make it possible, affirmations,etc.. etc.. Visualizations got me far in life to be honest with you. I don't know where I would be in life without it. I feel like the mind is like child, that you gotta teach him to behave accordingly. And when you don't teach your child on how to behave, it acts incredibly random regarding to the circumstances. You shouldn't blame him when that happen. Set a time each day for like 30 minutes, and do conscious visualization.

Curious.

I think he has done a really good job with his work. In my opinion, He's not the best to stimulate you to care enough to know You. However , he's the best at attracting you to listen. Through his entertaining way to engage his thoughts with you. He's the best to trigger you who didn't have any history with spiritual concepts, to engage into spiritual concepts in the first place. Which is a really strong impact to whoever has never been entertained by the ideas. It's a must to entertain the ideas first, and this is what he's really good at. For example: Leo attracts 20 people from a crowd to the concepts of awakening. Among them 5 have disciplined themselves to do the work. Another teacher attracts only 7 people from the same crowd to the concepts of awakening. Among them 3 have disciplined themselves to do the work. Which is a better ratio, but Leo had the bigger impact.

Distractions-The ego's favorite defense mechanism

I don't think I have ever had a single argument in my whole life . I can't seem to quite understand this part.. Usually when someone have a different point of view than mine , I just follow it with an " Ok " . Why do people argue ? What's the point of it ? What does it serve ?

The key to quitting addiction is to quit the addiction there is no key. To not beat around the bush here. that's just it. It could be an extremely heavy emotional process, the urges are going to come and go, there is no rational way to go about it. it's all willpower. I find this extremely similar to the question of , What's the key to getting shit done? How to stop procrastinating ? It's to get shit done. there is no easy way to go about it. maybe an emotional support from people is going to help. other than that you going to have to go the hard route. and certainly , the ego don't like it .. probably will give you shit for it, it would come as excuses to relapse, negative emotions, anxiety, whatever. Source: Quit cigarettes smoking for 50 days then relapsed.

HAHAHA, Love it

Question is So vague. Who's telling me this ? is it my friend ? someone I know ? my parents ? my partner ? Why's he telling me this ? did I hurt him? Is he aiming for a negative outcome ? or a positive one? for mine ? or us ? or him? Let's give a vague example: X: I don't know why you keep doing x/y/z Me: What's bothering you with it ? X:But that's totally wrong you shouldn't be doing that because of x/y/z My default reaction Me (Convinced): You're absolutely right , thanks for pointing it out. (Proceed to fix the problem) Me (Not convinced/ dishonest): You're right , thanks for pointing it out (totally toss out what he/she has said). Me(Not convinced/ honest) : ok (clearly showing that I don't care). To be honest , Maybe I will hit a point down the road where he/she persists , that it would naturally opt for an argument. But I generally try to avoid it at all cost. Like the default mindset is to not get into one.

I am a newbie, and I don't know what to say. I have never believed that what was on actualized.org was true, or what any other spiritual teacher has ever said. So I had to verify it for myself. I would use a question format here. Why Am I making this post ? I need someone to integrate what happened to me, because I can't seem to integrate it myself . What happened to me ? I was sitting at my room contemplating who am I ? in the dark. It was the closest direct experience I have ever had. I remember I've lost my sense of self. I've said " Who am I ?" "I have lost my sense of self" I repeated it a couple of times then..Boom.. My whole body was vibrating like crazy, I had an urge to vomit. And I felt like I was nearly dying. There was three feelings involved : Scared , Excited that this could be what people call an awakening, Worried if someone of my parent entered the room or if am i going to have a panic attack. It was kind like an horror movie, like when the actress has the devil come from her stomach ,through her mouth to the outside . What happened after that ? I remember there was a sense of worry that it might be a panic attack. My ego took over and the experience has ended. ( I don't know if that's true, this is basically why I am making this post ) Where you more conscious during the experience ? Weird as it sound, I actually felt less conscious when my body has started to vibrate. I didn't took another form or had any non dual insight after the fact. The only thing I can assure you has happened was "My sense of self has dissolved" "My body was nearly vomiting and was all vibrating". What is that ? Is this close to an awakening ? What happened in there ? Guys.. I don't know what to say. I remember saying to myself after the fact, What the f**? This whole stuff about spiritual work is true ? , and laughed hysterically.

good point

@JosephKnecht I would just reject giving a reason. If he doesn't get it , that's on him. I do not indulge in an argument over it.

The latter.

Ok

@peanutspathtotruth @Inliytened1 @cetus @Leo Gura Tonight I have the same exact experience of yesterday's post. Same vibrations/urge to vomit ,probably a little bit stronger ( can't tell because I'm beginning to get used to it ). But this time it has extended for a longer period as I was surrendering , the ego came back from the back seat to the driver seat, and the experience has ended,the same way it happened yesterday. Frustrated , so frustrated.. I may need advice from you folks. At this point , I would probably keep going. The thing is , it could be really counter-intuitive to do something. Literally ,anything that could be done is a distraction to the destination. Clueless.

I thought it too, Thanks for integrating

Are you talking to yourself Leo ? Thanks for integrating man.. The day I awaken I will send you $