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@Spiral Yes CORRECT! Im with you, it feels so mechanical by asking. I want some passion in it so to speak But still, I would get the same reaction.

Ive quited my comfortable and safe job and starting an entreprenurship buisness in the same genre with another partner. But i never knew how emotionelly hard it was gonna be tell my job that i quit, its like breaking up with someone. It feels like youve let everyone at the office down, i was in a role were much are independant on me. And this new job is taking a risk, a risk i ve always wanted to take but right now its all kind of mixed awful feelings. Also no one understands why you are doing it or why taking such a risk...im really out of my comfortzone now. Whats your experience with quitting your job for the pursue of your "dream"?

People tell im not ready to do this on my own, that shouldve waited. Im actually not the best at what i do. But i aspire to be and doing it on my own.

@Nahm its got to be hard in the beginning emotionally?

I was sitting meditation and suddenly wierd things started to happen that i want to have some explanation of. First it was like some force wanted to spin my head, then my heartrate got up and my head got warm. After that this "force" wanted to spin my whole body. After that i felt it in my lower back and spine. I cant really explain it and my english isnt the greastest. I didnt get any further cause I had some resistence to the experience. Does anyone know what im talking about or what it could be? Ive never had it like this intense before.

I know its not "necessary" but is it alot harder to get some profound insights or going deep etc without psychadelics? I dont know anyone who can provide me with it. Some time ago before Ive even heard about enlightenment Ive tried MDMA that a friend had, but that was at a party and not at all for some deep contemplation. It seems like everyone here uses psychadelics, that why im so curious:)

All my life ive been terrified of the dark, if im home alone in the apartmant I have to have lights on. For example when my girlfriend who works as a nurse works night shift I cant sleep alone in our bedroom. I lay on the couch in the livingroom with the tv and some light on. I dont know how to fix this. Ive tried to face my fear by not having lights on but It hasnt worked at all. I might say this is my biggest fear.

@Leo Gura thanks for the reply! As it seems right now ill be sticking to my meditation, contemplation and reading books. Who knows what happens later on. Im kind of bothered i cant share this with my girlfriend, she has no interest in it at all. Ive tried some small contemplative senctences to just open her up but it just ends with her telling me im crazy and insane. She doesnt like the books i have either. This was some time ago, now i dont bother at all actually, she can do what she wants and i do what i want, i just keep focus on the work i put in. Also I cant thank you enough Leo for the videos you are putting out, its really priceless to have this knowledge. Forever thankful!

@5driedgrams thank you

@5driedgrams thanks for the reply. Even if i could get hold of some mushrooms i dont know when i will be able to use it. I live togheter with my girlfriend and she isnt at all into self actualizing or psychedelics. I meditate everyday and throughout the day Im kind of contemplating also , i always think about something that is about enlightenment. I also read books from peter ralston. Ive got some insights for sure but never like it gotten me to a big shift.

Anyone have some good programs or videos on how to do kundalini yoga? Please tell me also what experience you have had with it and what it has done for you

I need to get some support and advice on this. Its about my younger brother who now is 22 years old, he has some kind of problem or disorder but I dont know what and I dont know how to help him. He hasnt had a job yet, he says he wants to study further but didnt get in to the school he wanted and now he will apply again next year. I tell him that he needs to get a job and not just sit and wait for a whole year. He is living with our parents right now, he has no friends at all. It has been worse the last couple of years, he needs to have control or something over everything. In his room he has everything in order, you are not allowed to even move a pen on the desk. When you talk to him its like talking to a wall, he never speaks first, there is no feelings at all. He eats only at certain times and in a day he sits only at home doing almost nothing. Everything has to be in line. He is super picky about his hair, you cant touch him for some reason. He can go shower in the middle of the night for hours even. He cant go for example to the movie theater because he says he could panic and needs to get out. My mother and father dont have anymore energy to tell him to get a job and an own appartment, my mom cries and tries to talk to him but as I wrote before its like talking to a wall...it doesnt stick to him at all. The worst part is that he can scream and yell at my mom some times. When I hear about it my heart cries out. I am really sad about this, the whole family is. We talked with him about seen a shrink or something but he doesnt want at all. I feel this is a waist of his life and even my parents lives because they suffer because of it. The same with me when I think about it or hear from my mother whats going on. I feel Ive lost my brother completly, its just a shell. It hasnt been this forever, a time ago we could do stuff togheter and have fun but now its impossible. I feel that this came gradually with everything. I have a real hard time explaining the situation but I hope you can understand. From all this negative he is a miracle at what he desides to do, he learned to play the guitar all by himself. And he plays REALLY great, its not only me who says that but many people ( this was some time ago) wonders how the hell can he be some good at it. And that school he didnt got in to was a school for making computer games in 3D(dont know the name) but instead he bought some books and now he learnd to do 3D animations by himself that are fantastic. He is also really good at math. I think ive gotten it all down, hope some can share thoughts or advice with this situation. Thank You!

@DimmedBulb That was good information actually. I just want to see what you can do about it

@DimmedBulb Some of it i can recognize but not all.

@DimmedBulb Thanks for the reply! No he doesnt flap his hands, roll his head and such. Yes he has feelings for sure, just that he doesnt show them. He is very short when he is talking to us. When he was in school there were some friends he hanged out with but when he finished it sort of dissolved. He needs a plan in front what is gonna happen, He doesnt come to social conventions. Like I wrote before he cant go to a movie because he says he might panic or so. I feel its more of that he is scared. I didnt mention this but I have a thought that it might have been something with when our grandmother died. She was like a mother to us, it really started around that time I belive.

@Elisabeth @Richard Alpert I have to try to talk to him more i think and come up with what help could be best and what he thinks is comfortable to handle. Thank you for the replies!

Yes me and him have talked alot about the future, that he needs to take action on what he wants. I have encouraged him to do excactly what he want to do, not just to take a job but to work for what you want to do. And he does that, he goes for the goal that he wants. Our parents encourage him to because they know he is good at what he is doing. He wanted that computer 3d development school and he went for it, he will apply next year for it again perhaps. But right now he needs to take some responsibility, either he gets a job or he goes to therapy fighting his " demons". But he does neither, he says he hasnt any problems at all. He thinks he can just end up at a high end job right away by doing nothing... Ive helped him write resume and how to get a job. He listens but then nothing happens, he can even get anoyed because I cant run in to his room how and when I want to, he needs his structure. I know there is something there that he is afraid of because his feelings are completly shut down, he doesnt smile, laugh, cries, its just empty. But its like he doesnt even know that, I dont actually know if he suffers at all in fact.

we belive he might be stuck at home were he is right now

@Elisabeth Thank you, you are completly right. Its just that I feel bad for my parents that they need to put up with him and his special traits. He knows he need a job but he is not looking at all, he is just sitting at home. I know he is afraid but he doesnt say that and maybe it even is so that he doesnt know that himself. Sometimes I see him as a parasite to my parants, not working, not paying, he is angry at my mother. I just dont want him to be stuck and getting older and older. To not have anything more than his childhood room. He thinks its all gonna be figured out without action. In a way he is right, you shouldnt worry and etc. but in his case he needs to see the reality he is facing and go for it.

Yes, the solution is to keep trying to talk to him about therapy. Someday maybe he understands. Worst would be to just let it be and let it go.

He always says when we suggest a therapist that he doesnt need any. He just says that he needs a job or that he is applying for some school that he wants to go to. he went to school for a "base year" and finished that but later on didnt got in to the other school he wanted to. When we say to him that it is not a normal behavior what he is doing, he just keeps quiet, like "mmm" and nothing more. Its so hard to make him listen, to even consider it!

yes, the biggest issue is that he right now doesnt do any improvementwork at all, we have almost stopped caring because we have come to a point were we kind of lost hope...

Yes, thats my guess too, that it may be some kind of OCD and social anxiety. The hard part is that he doesnt want any help, we have talked alot of this with him about getting help by a therapist but he dont want. We cant drag or pull him out and away to see someone professional. But lets say we get him to somehow go get help, is there a chance for it to be better? Thank you for the replies!

I want to start my own business, I want the feeling of having something that I created. Im thinking of something in line with helping people who want to loose weight in the right way by giving them the right mindset. Its similar to being a life coach perhaps beacause I love giving motivation to other people. But I really have a hard time accepting just that as a business, i dont really know why. My background is that I have been really asleep(always been angry at people) and overweight once, recent years my life has skyrocket to the point that I now want to teach others that they can do whatever they want in life. But I feel that because I have made that weight loss journey and beeing more self actualized from it, why should I motivate others to do the same thing. Its like " hey, look at me and my life, how awesome it is, you should do the same as me". Also the program I followed to loose the weight I learned from an other person who works with it, why should I almost copy him to do my own business? I know that to start my own business I dont have to invent the wheel again but it feels a bit strange, I cant really put it to words. I have no idea what my life purpose, but I can see two paths I can go on. Either I take everything Ive learned and teach others or I can take everthing ive learned and use it on something else, maybe another type of business that I dont know yet. Good thing is that I feel I have alot of energy to put in whatever I deside. would like your opinion in this matter, love to you all!

I reda self help books and business books, Everything about beeing an entrepreneur. Thats ALL I do actually, getting knowledge in those topics. sharing this knowledge in all the books and youtube videos you watch would be nice. But making it a business is for me a question, it might be. I like sharing knowledge and inspire.