justfortoday

A rock and your head. A tree and your foot. A car and your hand. Zero difference. ?

Shiva is just another conceptual construction. You are imagining shiva right now even though you are it. ?

Your life is a reaction video being watched by God through your eyes.

Barbara Streisand and Mars

You’re completely giving your power as God away, and to nihilism. You are still stuck in duality. YOU are the source.

Hello friends. After my awakening a few days ago, I have experienced multiple instances of non dual states / extreme collapse of subject/object duality. To say it is shocking is an understatement. I perceive reality as a self-aware hologram now. It is utterly remarkable. Even now using words like “I” “me” “my” seems silly, but hey, language. How do I lead my life in this state? My interest in mundane activities has evaporated. I seem to be happier being by myself, than around other people. Awakening seems to me both incredible and terrifying as well. TLDR; I awoke and now don’t know where to take this next. Any advice is appreciated.

Both. It’s a beast I must slay at some point.

@Sam Johnson There are no other holograms but THIS, and everything you imagined / invented / experienced during that lifetime dies with you. God starts each life at a certain “universe” baseline which stabilizes the dream. Once it’s stabilized your mind invents the rest of it like a dream in which your character inhabits. Then you die and do it all over again. ONE transcendental self. You are literally watching the replay of your life, which was lived already in the absolute. Yours is a relative timeline.

@ivankiss lovely. Thanks for always writing beautiful insights, I always enjoy reading them and do make me wonder...

Not the smoothest intro to this forum @rav.

Thanks to @Someone here for the insight. (If he's reading this would love his take on my post).

Shit. I got it. So, basically, you are me and I am you, we are the SAME self. All there ever was in eternity was ONE self. No reality. All that could ever exist was the one self, because it is nothing itself LOL And we generate reality as pure subjectivity. So the one self is imagining my entire experience right now like a dream. So that is why there is no reality - there is just the realm of mind, nothing. So matter is sluggish mind - like a Fourier conversion of sinusoidal waves. One self. That’s all there is. Jesus Christ.

@Someone here this fascinated me. Could I ask you to expand on this? Perpetual illusion, happening simultaneously to all egos as POVs who have inner monologues? OR happening to one being, one lifetime at a time. And everyone that being encounters in that lifetime is imagined like a dream. And can you expand also on how it is that reality is nothing?

(Image Attached for Reference - Tried my best to recreate with pictures) I shared my awakening story here a couple of days ago. Well, what happened today is even more radical. After an hour long meditation session where I tried to become aware of awareness itself, my entire "visual field" inverted in depth. Basically, I am able to perceive the "void" around the visual field now. It's as if my entire visual field ZOOMED out to the point that I can see the edges. "I" can "see" the entire scene almost as if I was the projector that is shining light onto the scene. @Leo Gura I believe you described this in a video a few years ago, where you described the absolute now as looking at the world as if inside a Christmas ornament. I have spent the last 30 minutes sobbing my balls out at the beauty of reality. Not sure how long this shift in awareness will last but it is the single biggest mindfuck. And I've had some serious mindfucks in the last week or so. If anyone else has experienced this, please DM me.

It felt like I was purified and rid of the weight of my ego. Of course it came back in full force.

One thing I forgot to add was that I have studied the occult for years. Magick specifically. I just never really thought reality would be THIS radical. The insight that its ALL supernatural was really hard to swallow. I am supernatural, so are you - there is ONLY the supernatural.

Totally. I KNOW that my ego probably wanted that state to remain forever because of how cool it is... but alas. In summary, I feel like I was skullfucked by consciousness.

I haven't delved into spiral dynamics yet - what I do know is that my stage of ego development is not up to par with the experiences I am having. They are coming fast and furious. Possibility. Correct. Complete merging with the world around you. The only psycho-active substance I use is marijuana once or twice a week so that tolerance does not build. Weed has induced partial ego death in me a couple of times before, but never like what I've experienced the last couple of days (without) smoking anything. Thank you for that. I will check it out. Very good question - I do not know yet. Thanks for that, will definitely check it out. And yes, life is amazing. I have a new-found appreciation for it. I am submerged in pure fucking magic. Mindfuck. Your assumption is correct : )

Absolutely - it felt like a complete shift in awareness - I don't take psychedelics. I had to sit down and breathe deeply as this shift was extremely radical. As far as practices, just meditation, a few months of self-inquiry and once a week I smoke copious amounts of marijuana which has helped me tremendously.

Thanks for all your input guys. I can report that the effect is gone now. ?

Thanks for the advice @Leo Gura - will do.

@Leo Gura What slightly terrifies me is that these awakenings are happening incredibly fast and furious and I’m not even taking psychedelics. I understand that’s the ego fighting back. I am just not at a stage of ego development where I can set that to the side.

The feeling of being located inside the body goes out the window. You feel like the whole scene. Good to hear there are others experiencing this.

Eyes open. Focused on peripheral vision.

Exactly - imagine your visual field goes from 1x zoom to 0.5 zoom. The very edges of the visual field are visible. I can see the darkness / void around it.