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Oh yeah, using your ability to conjure up New Age teaching to rip off poor souls and screw your groupies is ...good... especially when it attacts feeble-minded individuals seeking guidance who then bump into a narcisisstic, grandiose and lying egomaniac. such great "double edge effects". Using a front of spirituality for your own selfish needs, is again, good

That sounds awfully reasonable but honestly your YouTube channel portrays you in a different light

Well, the truth as you see it and proclaim it. Millions would disagree with your views on what truth is and how to reach it. Many people would disagree that taking drugs is the way to truth. Since your base all of your final truths on truth on experiences fabricated in a lab, perhaps you should reconsider the genuineness of your discoverings. And perhaps you should reconsider whether or not your final stance on truth truly is the cause of your relationship problems or whether it's the fact that you definitively claim to know these things and that there is no way anyone could reach the heights you have reached.

Let me get this straight. You enter into relationships with women who you assume to be vastly intellectually and emotionally inferior to. Then you get into arguments with them, where you can't get the point across because of said intellectual inferiority. But then you justify being in a relationship with them because it means that you can act out your God complex wich you have already made accessible to the public? The question remains why one would want to enter relationships where such a power differential exists and if one's own "truth" and that of the other is so different, what even the point of such a relationship would be. I find it highly unlikely however that it is possible for your partner not to understand your truth and that you have to hide it for that reason, especially becase as you have pointed out yourself it's lying.

Gotta love this contradiction "People can't handle truthbombs." Indicating that other people shouldn't be given access to a basic right of honest and open communication (which of course, is not accessible to "non-Gods") basically just means that you don't see them on the same level as you. And then next, you admit that that's not honest and immediately backstep from it by advising @Capital "Try not lying to her." Which one is it now?

First of all you might ask yourself why you need to manipulate people in order to get what you want. Why can't you be honest and straightforward when it comes to your wants and desires in your relationships? Is it because you assume that others operate under the same manipulative pretenses as you? Having no regards for their feelings indicates that you don't care about what consequences your actions have on the world. Think about what this could mean for yourself (if everyone acted like you) and also for how we work as a society. If everyone would act in this manner we could throw out civility. Pretending to love someone is an assault on one of the deepest emotions that someone can have. Likewise, it is an assault on what you could have with another person provided you both feel the same way. Pretending to care about your girlfriend is another manipulative mindset. You want your cake and eat it too. Have girlfriend, but not the commitment. Reflect on what this means for her. Your manipulative mindset extends to your workplace where you use it for monetary gain, unfair towards the other people in this game who play by the rules. Maybe you could refrain this. If you approached it from a less manipulative side and instead said to yourself "how can I be the most charming I can be to this customer" then you might exceed in business and also build your character at the same time. You're robbing yourself because the fact that you're gaslighting yourself into believing that this makes you happy really means that you're not paying homage to the things that are truly worthy. This will catch up with you, and if it doesn't then you still need to reflect that it could catch up on you and it raises the question why you don't care about what happens in your future and also why you have such little regard to your own life that you're willing to short-circuit it. Seems like this points in the direction that you don't really care about what happens in your life, you can't appreciate what's really good and you're not making steps to more constructive habits. Overall, I think it's good that you're aware of the fact that you're not living your fullest potential. I used to be a lot like you. Realize that everytime you try to trick life and rob it and you're not engaging deeply you are really robbing yourself. You're setting yourself up for future failure and your ways will disturb your relationship with others. I am convinced that life is not meant to be played on easy-mode and rewards those who play it with honest intentions. By gratifying your lower impulses this way you are ruining what could be fruitful to you. You don't always realize it, because the consequences aren't immediately visible. Double whammy: People might still be friendly to you and you might still be able to function in society. But eventually they will come to despise you and you won't notice it until it's too late. I used to be a heavy drinker and all I saw in my drinking was the positive aspect. However, what gets blurted out is that on the other side of that coin is the people who are judgemental (for good reason) and start to despise you. But because you are deeply involved in your lie you just don't recognize that and keep cementing your downfall. This might not be applicable to you, and maybe you are still functioning but clearly you are looking for a change and I think for good reason.