DizIzMikey

Do you think it is possible to obtain silence using words as a catalyst? If so.. which would be proper IN YOUR OPINION "I don't know" "Awareness Alone Is Curative" Or "Why Is It True?"/"Why Are Thoughts And Feelings True?"

@DizIzMikey Man... my ego is such a dick Can't wait till it dies

@Ayla Thank you Ayla, I love you

@Raphael I've went through something similar, I concentrated on the mantra why is it true? Felt like I faced my death....It was like.. I went away for a moment than I came back Was weird as shit..I have no idea if that even happen.. I'm like in the fucking twilight zone Bro

@Truth 1 thumbs up sounds better =)

@JevinR This is the kind of open mind we need in the world.

@Philip error, I was repeating a mantra and than my mind went yellow bus on me and started to have speech slur in my head than.. if I tried to force thought it would hurt I don't know if I lied because I seem to feel like I have no control over anything I do Currently .. could change later Scary and sad but reliVing but more scary at the same time... feels like a fucking script.

@Kath do do nothing meditation and let go I have no control over anything I do rofl I think !

@Ayla wow....

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Going to the studio with this... copyrighted but check it out it might help you, that's what I'm hoping for The simple things, people at home secretly wanting to be kings Or other things, Nobody wanting to lend a helping hand America looks like the nation where we stick our head in the sand I ain't seen no love on these streets, I just see love when I'm making the beats (figuratively) Was there ever a time where holding hands in public showing love was a normal thing I don't know but what I do know is how to flow, so watch me go so we can be acceptive of people smoking indo We already know the truth cigarettes are worse, this country sometimes feels like a curse Having a grandfather that hates you growing up it hurts, And I'm not the only one because pain I think it was made tim burts But is this the way it should be, or should I have grown up with a smile loving and happily People don't like to see other peoples pain, because there scared of there own pain Why do you think you're told not to cry, because feeling yourself would amount probably worse than the die I'm not perfect but I promise slowly I'm workin on it, And I realized that I do give a shit Which is why slowly I'm trying to kill myself, the ego that's a bitch I'm slowly training myself not to give a fuck whether I'm poor or I'm rich Matter of fact, inner wealth is who is rich, and who is rich, probably the calmness Those who get rowdy like me the proudest, I honestly don' t wanna be the loudest I'm so sorry that I didn't do what I said I was gonna do, but I was so blue, I didn't know how to cope I turned to dope, I turned to pope, I turned to the rope, I guess god said nope, I wont release you until you change this world for the better, so here I am hoping I really deliver this letter I just hope I reach someone out there with an open mind, So we all can be on our grind, I'm starting to feel like, we're all the greatest of all time, because we all got problems after we're done feeling like we shine I was so worried about mine, but god broke me down and I think I'm here on time, I don't know sorry I didn't mean to cross the line I hate the world because the world hated me, telling me I was worthless but it's all good baby baby Because I'm learning how to not be hades, I'm kinda like mash potatoes and gravey You see I mix, And fuck the minds tricks, All along honestly, I'm thinking it was me But I don't know yet, so I can't say indefinitely, But what I'm hopen is that I can give to hope thee Because I had nobody, Felt like Mr nobody, except without the control, Remember this God can only judge my soul, So when I die, I'm at gods mercy wont say shit because I have no room to talk I just hope I don't get fooled in the process, God forgive me for I do not know what I do I really do hope all is forgiven, if you don't like me, than that's your right, that's a given I don't blame you for not liking me, I don't blame you for hating on what I do because I speak emotionally Makes you wanna puke doesn't it? Well I'm telling you now, I'm not gonna hide who i am and I don't give a shit We call that a vent, baby girl you're heaven sent, My mind went out the door than it came back twisted superman I'm feminine due to the lack of test more estrogen still in my zone when I was born, but don't you dare call me dysfunctional when you have so much scorn, because the women are the true ones who are reppin, all the men are life suckers, so guess who are the ones are suckin, and this time...I'm letting it out I aint duckin Don't you dare get all offensive, You can take it you're a man right Hey as long as the pussies tight, If she ain't a certain type, get her outta my sight Treating women throughout the whole history like they are a possession Sounds like you are possessed by your possessions, this whole time we didn't realize they were the ones in recession My grandma was born and raised when the man had rage so her heart was put in a cage, and I'm the spell to bring it out like a mage, how dare you say that they deserve minimum wage, while a man should sit there and read a page, Newsflash America without the ladies butt holes would need a sage So quit treating them with your stupid fucking evil ways And I ain't done yet, because I wanna make sure you get it Just because you're alive doesn't mean you're liven this is my opinion but society I think it's what you're given With what you are given there's always a way to be livin This idiot that you people call an idiot does have some wisdom Even if it is to give someone something to believe in If something was wrong I apologize in life I have been mistaken Speaking of mistaken Why you got that beautiful wife at home, how do you feel when she feels like she is alone You do not think she does not doubt, you do not think she is human and she experiences a drought Is being senseless is what you're all about, come to your senses if that's not what you're about Because breaking her heart slowly is a slow death, But freedom for her heart is a weight off her chest cherish life with every breath give what you got, with what you got left, god will see you through if you be brave with what's left Who I am to judge your faith was your gift, I've been such an idiot so I wanna make it up to you with this Killing a goat is still killing an animal, which is murder, hannibal What gives you the right to take life, nature was here before you Honestly I don't know but if it was meant to be than you were meant to be a cannibal Same thing, you're just eating flesh like an animal, and yes I understand that it's a struggle I just wanna let you know that I'm here for you, I feel like I could never abandon you Who am I really to judge you, so forgive me if you so please because I think I love you

@Pelin I know how to EXACTLY do that, I love pressing my wife's buttons The one I got upstairs, literally and figuratively..because she's heaven =)

Since I'm pretty much a master of the ego.. I thought I share these lyrics HeLLo my name is the ego I don't know when to let go I hate when I see you succeed Everything you have, is everything I need I feed on your energy, than I replace yours with greed I just know how to plant the seed, I know how to make you feel like me is what you need Guaranteed, when you meet me there's a hidden beast, I'll make you feel like you can succeed Everywhere you go it's about me, Talk about you I'll talk about me A little secret about the ego, here we go, I'm really a child who is wild Who will make you feel like I got style, because I got so much motha fucking beguile At least that's what I need you to think, All I do is convince you that the color is what I think Did you know you could possibly be seeing green, while someone else doesn't see jack So who is right it's possible that your perception is whack, I downsize because I despise I got problems with myself so I want you to listen to my lies Perpetual anger, because I don't know how to solve the danger And even that is in a lie itself, I'll tell you what's true and rich inner wealth Everything else, bullshit, why am I admitting this shit? Maybe because I wanna get rich Either that or I'm tired of being in this ditch, And with the ego who hasn't repaired, I'm seeing every girl as my bitch I want all the glory to myself, I want you to bow to me and nothing else, I want you to worship me like a god Because I am what I am dog, I'm looking at every peice of meat, like it's peace of meat I ain't following the beat, the beat is following me, arrogance is the only thing I can see I wasn't loved as a child, why do you think I'm looking at you wild... I wanna be on top and the only one with the holy grail I wanna see me succeed and the rest of you fail, I am the galaxy so I have a galaxy ego, You can't help but love me I wont let go And the day you do I'll burn until I can cope with what you don't know, and that's how I like to keep it, getting to the point where I don't care about you or who you blow, oh you didn't know, to infinite and beyond, I am above Khan, I am more futuristic than Tron I made the bomb the bomb, so when I blow up you can look at my mom, I'm so childish that's who I'm going to put the blame on Anybody but me, Because you did this to me, you made me, me ....*INDEFINETLY) I don't deal in maybe, I deal in absolute, so if you're hating one me I'm more likely to give you the boot, and I don't give a hoot I don't give a damn about what you feel, I'm just gonna keep it real, I'm more about hurting you than you are about hurting me If I didn't have you in my life, everything would be perfect right, Oh my god I can't stand your sight, You're so wrong I am the light You should see it my way, because there is no other way, It doesn't matter what you say, OK!? I can make you feel in heaven, than I can make you feel like it hell, the hope that keeps you, will sell Excuse me but does this ring a bell?, Nope I don't know what you totally mean, OH WELL!

@99th_monkey No worries, be happy

@99th_monkey Maybe

@99th_monkey Man do I agree... when I was young and a child... I had no worries... All I had to worry about is playing video games and I didn't even wonder about my fucking existence .. it's frustrating as fuck.. I need to get back to the childhood ways where I didn't worry about shit.

Reporting on the experiment I did on the "I don't know" sound file on loop in public It was successful...it grounded me and I had way less anxiety, dare I say I even got to the point where I got bored and did or almost did not give a shit, but the parameters were not alone and with my wife and child. Nonetheless it is a gain due to me to be able to function in society with a dramatic drop in anxiety and fear, I felt like I needed a water bottle when I first entered the store, but than what I did was let go somehow, I wasn't even aware of it but of course the "I don't know" in the background helped immensely.

@abrakamowse Nice

@99th_monkey lol true but what I'm wondering is if it can be used as a catalyst to produce silence from within "me"

@abrakamowse yeah... I myself am scared to lose my identity, actually I don't want to lose it and I hope I do not, that kind of unknown. Is scary as shit and I think this is what might be helping me back.

Will be adding a sound file saying awareness alone is curative to test that principle in practice, I am guessing the probability of what I'm currently using will be more efficient, will report on findings for myself and for others.

@jes felt like healing for me when I cried while meditating

@Teags Thank you If you can I would recommend headphones to cope out in public when you can, which actually what I should be doing for myself now that I think about it. Perhaps some calming music without words, or perhaps a mantra IF IT HELPS in public. The most important thing you can do is self improve yourself Meditation is the single most important habit for self improvement that you can have according to Leo is Meditation, and I agree.

@Mal @Mal I wish I could, but as I said I am in a state of not knowing, it is impossible for me to own every thought when I am unaware if every thought is mine, and for that matter if everything is one. I do not know what I know or if I even know what I know because I do not know. Perhaps you are at an elevated state which I am not at yet But regardless the fact the remains that I'm in the unknown I cannot own every thought because I do not know for sure if every thought is mine Thank you for your kind words and helpful insight...you are highly intelligent from what I perceive <3

@Teags I'm on the same boat figuratively I have panic attacks when I leave the house, I feel like everyone hates me when I go out but than I realize that everything is a concept in my head but the problem with me is that I go back n forth in my head from concept to believing everything my mind says way too often I feel as if I need to meditate a lot more to realize that everything that my mind tells me is a concept I am doing too much, I should be meditating more in order to break my mind to have a successful life Because this type of work that we do in actualized.org is intense, and keeping up with real life at the same time can make it even more intense In no way am I a professional like Leo, but I feel like I can relate to you because I'm bit of a loner myself that cannot be alone I have a wife and 2 children, I go through torture really because I am in a toxic environment A hateful grandfather doesn't help either.... To make you feel better I'll tell you a little about myself I've been isolated from society for approximately six years with no friends but my wife,children and uncle Besides going out occasionally and getting groceries..that's it I've been different all my life so acceptance was hard to find in the area I was born in Hope this helps you, if you need someone to talk too I am here