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@Friend ahhhh... they were shot down from within so they did it to themselves if it is true. I'm beginning to feel like awareness is the key I'm kinda happy smiling writing this to you because I'm being aware of my body. I'm not worried about what I did after all, it seems that I don't have freedom of will and it's not my life just yet, or it is I'm just not aware of it yet. Sorry to you all that felt shot down, I have a huge huge huge ego, and currently working on it with awareness meditation. Everything I've done has led to this point so I'm learning not to regret anything...awareness is beautifully beginning to be more peaceful than my usual hellish state. So thank you God, and everyone else because without everyone and everything I wouldn't have gotten to this point of awareness. Boooooobbiiieeessss!

Hey guys, just wanted to share a tip with you guys Create your own audio file asking the question over and over why is it true? and put it in a loop... That'll fuck the shit out of your mind I'm guessing and lead you to a point of not knowing anything Could potentially even sell such a file if it works Anyways..I'm ordering a microphone to record my own why is it true audio file and.. well.. I wont have to ask shit and let me my mind do nothing and.. you know how it goes I suppose Hope this helps someone out there and if you do test this please let me know how it works for you Thanks Mike

OK wanted to update you people on this sound experiment At home to develop awareness I've created a sound file saying "awareness alone is curative" and looping in a sound file Thank you Leo I still have to test this sound file in public to see if it is better than the I don't know sound file I tested in public... But to build awareness as a beginner this is helping immensely I went from being sad in my bed to... holy crap I feel happy now and I don't need anyone! Mwahahaha! Probably will be my crutch for awhile until it just comes naturally I'm smiling like it feels awesome to not be so sad all the time Will update to see if this will work good in public might help people with disabilities in public such as myself.

REMINDER TO SELF So I had the realization that I'm not me, or anything around me..therefore.. I am not Michael..or NO THING around me.. so what the fuck am I? Was scary as shit... Leo said.. I am everything and nothing simultaneously ... so... pretty fucking weird experience to realize that I thought I was a thought, but I'm no thought And I realize that in order to keep this realization I have to be persistent in spiritual enlightenment because the teachings can fade due to the distractions I am surrounded by.... By the way ego death I thought it was gonna be scary as shit.. but.. it's not that bad, but it is bad when I can't keep the realization constantly..like.. on the edge of nutting but I cannot... My hands are moving but I'm not moving them...pretty fucking weird ... where am I than?.. Will do some meditation, bye

@electroBeam I found it!!! I was the coffee table all along!!!

@mikeyy awareness alone is curative sound file might help saying it over and over Certainly is grounding me and I'm being much aware of my body

@Dragallur whew thank you I was scared shit less from it I don't know if this will help you but a sound file saying awareness alone is curative is making me aware of my body and I'm feeling more happy.

@Kazman Google and youtube autistic relationships I can almost guarantee there is a wealth of information on this I really do hope he gets what he is looking for I feel for him in my own way.

@ProblemSolving do what you have too so you don't get kicked out. AND you feel the most centered within is my advice Dont... disregard your integrity of who you are, be you.. you know?

Realizing I'm getting to the point where I don't need shit I think although I haven't put it to the true test but all I want to really do now a days is meditate and talk my ass on here So I'm pretty confident enough to say to those people with shadows who don't like me. I probably don't like your shadow either. Anyways it's pretty awesome to feel like you don't need anyone I was able to meditate through the pain when I thought I was breaking up with my wife and get to a blissful state, feels pretty cool I'm starting not to give a shit what anyone thinks I don't need you! Can't wait to say that to you all

@jes create a sound file saying I don't know with a microphone on the computer Get headphones and a phone This is what I do Works fine for me because it grounds me to let me know that my mind doesn't know shit when it thinks it does. You can transfer your file on media fire and download it from your computer You can also directly download it from the computer through micro USB If you wanna hear my voice you can download my sound file Jk I wouldn't like that

@JevinR Do you feel the need to do so? Is it like this I don't know.. calling that you have? Where no matter what you've got to do it one way or another in your life.

@Emerald Wilkins Its all about perspective, the original idea of wanting is even more silly due to it being subjective. At least with mine... you actually have some candy in your hand darling

@99th_monkey 99 66 Cool me too.. but I already have Its not that bad at all Graphics make me jazz all over the place

@Emerald Wilkins when I have candy in my hand and want it, does it still count ?

@Heart of Space what a shit sense of humor heh ?

@abrakamowse well you'll never know personally. Tell you what after I nut in there I'll let you know.... naaaaaah Over 200 want to know but as the drake line goes.. SHE AINT MESSIN WITH U WIGGAS Hey.. is yours spacious?.. you know.. Like the grand canyon.. because you know.. EVERYONE GOES THERE!!!! Daaaaamn!

No wonder here and not over at teal swans place, this place reflects me purrfectly! Rofl OK ok gonna go meditate now and use will Gotta save the world and stuff for you all even though the general population is synthetic. Talk about fallout 4

@Saarah agreed have to be careful what is said for reasons that shall not be explained, dropping the evil I feels so much better! Thank you monkey... Ironic

@99th_monkey is I'm sorry better for you? Oh I have it was very entertaining I had a lot of fun! Lighten up.. Cm on Brother! Laughing is wonderful for I.. err..me.. errrrrrrr There that's better ☺ Wait wait let me talk without I Hello how are you today, today was a pleasant day, hope you have a wonderful day and may your future be a blessing. There I go!

Remember Leo's video where he says you can reach enlightenment? At the end he says EVEN YOU I feel sorry for the poor fellow thar was directed at lmao Oh.... it was me lololo Damn... being stupid was worth it... I can't stop laughing... and don't lie... your laughing too!

@abrakamowse sure doesn't feel empty when I open my girls gate You know park my car in her garage Let the snake slither into the hole Land my airplane Have her break her cocoNUT Milk the cow I could go on but you get it ?

@99th_monkey buuuut... I was never there!!! ? Hmmmm... this is all sounding very fishy ... you mean to tell me thoughts appear out of no where!!!!!! Woooowwwwwwww

@99th_monkey maybe, if I don't die first, oooohh stop my thoughts.. OK ok lemme try I'll tell you how it goes Sexy beard by the way!

@Gone not unless he has enough money that he doesn't give a flying fuck and is secure.