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My thoughts are like a machine gun, ive been trying to control them for so long because for the longest time they have disgusted me, they are pretty harsh.. I mean.. having a threesome with my grandparents isnt easy.... I sound like a broken recorsmd but.. perhaps ill do walking meditation with do nothing meditation more often...bleah fuck this circle. Keyblade I think for me has the right idea will attempt this now.

Exactly how vast is this nothingess, and where does it end? What is beyond the nothingness? That space suit analogy help me disidentify with the body for a a moment.

Why do you consider video games low grade entertainment?

@MaxWare1997 That track, where you said you were bored when you recorded it, in my opinion is already pretty damn awesome. I mean I wont listen to anything I don't like, and I listened to the whole thing. Dare I say even the potential to be legendary, if not already.

@MaxWare1997 Your first journal entry was ENTIRELY impressive, I'm sure the others are as well. Will probably read, no pun intended. I'm a gamer myself

Thoughts appear randomly, so does that mean they are my thoughts? They seem to come out of nowhere, which is odd, I can deliberately however think of a thought over and over which makes me believe that I have some control over my thoughts, but according to Leo I have no control over my thoughts. It seems like that is not so, but I am open to the possibility of me being wrong as usual, after all, this wouldn't be the first time. Like Leo has said a thought appears and internally disappears, for me at least, but for everybody else does it work this way? I don't know... Perhaps it does perhaps it doesn't, but for me a thought appears and than returns into the "nothingness" unless I conjure it up by thinking of it purposely. It is eerie to me to think that my thoughts are not my own however due to it appearing out of no where, they just happen sometimes out of a reaction of fear, and what not. I think my thoughts are a product of feelings perhaps. I first feel than I think it would seem with fear, now I am wondering whether or not that goes for any one emotion I think. I am curious as if someone can feel a mixture of emotions, like fear and anger at the same time...maybe emotions are like a cocktail of some sort, I think that would seem to be the case, or maybe I feel one emotion after another I'm not sure because I'm not the emotional guy, but anyways about thoughts... So if I believe my thoughts are a product of my feelings, than what produced those feelings? ......I read a book that said that feelings are the truth but that the feelings get deluded by thought and are masqueraded as a feeling, however, I am thinking that this is not so because, I have dis attached my thoughts and feelings to myself I think to a certain degree. Either way I have concluded from writing this that feelings have a source of some sort perhaps, but what is that source possibly? I am thinking that this source has to have a point to where it started, where else could it derive from? Where it all began... Maybe.. Nothing was unaware of itself, like we were when we were young, and was born of non existence, but how can something exist without something existing? Perhaps the need to exist because not existing. I have heard life has no beginning and no end, but I guess in order for something to exist forever must have no beginning or end, for if there is a beginning for something, it must have an end and not exist. UNLESS... this one theory I heard was correct...That the universe is evolving to become God as a singular being. Maybe god is made in our image and instead of his. Along the lines of god didn't create the universe, the universe created god. Maybe God has a beginning and an end for God is created by the universe, and God is finite, but powerful in this universe. Maybe God isn't the ultimate source of all.... anyways..I tire of this...just wanted to get some of this off my head and wanted to share some of my thoughts to sort out my thoughts, and it ended up in a big circle...lol..PHILOSOPHY FOR YAH Cya

@Ayla Nothing is left

@Psychonaut Not going to bed, I'm too stimulated..probably play some videogames. We haven't used dildos and vibrators in quite awhile...might make the relationship better so maybe. No thanks on the cold shower, I prefer the warm ones I'm not going to undress her tonight..tomorrow I think I'll attempt to lift the panties to the side.. Shit at her?? OHHHH lol I know you can't do it for me, even if you did trigger something in me it was me who did it. As far as I can tell You are awesome sir/ma'am Nevermind.. too many emotions..going to write a rap toooo many emotions..going to release and shit on paper instead.

@Ayla Thank you Master Jedi, I will look at this video and see if this helps.

@Ayla Of course you want your daughter to remain as your daughter (this form). What makes you think she will not? - Ayla When I die... I mean that anything external that would come up, you'll be either wanting it or not wanting it. Right? Yes, point? You mean getting rid of this perspective has more perks than I'm currently living? If it is so I agree We are trying to give you the solution, the key understanding that all these are just tricks of your mind! You have hired Mr. Mind as your CEO, when its only real purpose and capacity is that of a translator really. - Ayla What is the key Ayla simplified? This is all very confusing....Mr. Mind as my CEO..rofl yeah....pretty much lmao... The logic however is that if it is hired as a CEO, than its only purpose is not just to be a translator, maybe in the false sense I suppose, however I don't know.

Yeah you could say I'm giving some thoughts 5 star treatment sometimes, but I'm not sure what's wrong with it when it can make me smile and laugh. Are you saying the more I feed it, the more it is harder "to get out"? I'm sorry for using I, but I is what I have known for the majority of my life...would you like me to not use I when I write?

Who Is That I? .... Everything That I Am From What I Understand With Words. The computer that I'm starring at, and everything that I'm perceiving, and perhaps, not perceiving. You might not exist as a physical identity at this point and time.

@Sigma I like science for the benefit of myself, other than that it's probably way over my head. =( I envy you More philosophical if anything

@Ayla But I desire what I am NOT to be what I AM.... I don't want to lose my Athena.

@William32 Let us not pretend stabbing yourself in the eye is a choice you make, as much as getting a foot massage is. I agree with you that physical and emotional sensations still feel absolutely(Don't know about absolute) real to me experiencing them. The counterargument is that all along it wasn't real, and there was nothing really to fright over, even if it did seem real, although I agree in my current state I hate when I suffer. I suggest you follow your own path as everybody else should, no one is forcing you to do so, go save the whales if you'd like, or people for that matter...whatever floats your boat. The logic in it is this for me, there is a chance that I can become something amazing that a tiny fraction can only achieve, like the elite, and through my life I have seen MANY paranormal abnormal things that wouldn't be considered logical to some, but nonetheless I go for it because #1 I think it's possible, and #2 If I'm unstoppable from within, than I can help more greatly than I would if I would go into the world with my many dysfunctions. Ethically? They use to sacrifice people and thought it was good..don't talk to me about ethics, unless of course you push the it, I will. "Oh, and by the way, should you want to successfully overcome the worst of the worst possible feelings you may experience in your lifetime then you probably never will because historically most people never achieve true enlightenment. Sorry about that. Only some of us ever win in this preposterous game of life, but you can still maybe win a little bit every so often with my totally-not-flawed-whatsoever logic and advice!" - William 32 I'm not sure, but I don't think Leo said this is for everybody, after all... we have the majority of the fucking population watching TV and probably think that's what life is about!!!!! Whether they achieved true enlightenment or not is not the point, the point is that's what they chose to try and do, and they live with the consequences of those choices, no one put a gun to your head for you TO BE HERE. "Anyway, feel free to make more babies if it makes you happy." - William32 Uh...DUH.. IF IT..makes YOU... Happy ... It's not like Leo is right there standing over you to procreate..OR IS HE!?! I sense some victim mentality from you, I sense fear in you young sky-walker. I mean, who cares if something horrible is bound to happen to them just like how something horrible has happened to anyone who has ever existed? - William32 Who makes that choice William? Ok wont respond to the rest of your rant..or argument or whatever you want to call it I think honestly I did it out of pure entertainment, or perhaps to defend my beliefs...EITHER WAY IT WAS FUN P.S. I know you were looking for Leo, but it's ok at least you got a reponse mmkay? Love yah =) As you can tell I have nothing better to do, but in my defense today is my day off and it was quite enjoyable!

@Psychonaut lmao

@Keyblade Viking Thank you, will watch it with my "dearest"

@Keyblade Viking Is there any truth to the cube movie from your perspective? lmao at the dude in the beginning, now I'm highly motivated to watch CUBE

Very innovative sir =) Never have I seen anyone attempt to do this, or at least heard of it, nonetheless it seems to be very rare. I like your line of thinking

@Psychonaut It taste alright to me, I mean it's not as pleasant as saying eating fruit. You don't have to make anything it already comes prepackaged and ready in a bottle which is very convenient, I save about maybe 20-25 minutes sometimes I suppose if I don't make my own meal, but the thing is it is more nutritional than most of the food I eat I think. The berries things sound a very unpleasant experience lol, the Soylent would be Meh for you as well I think, but maybe not. If I could drink all my nutrition I would honestly, but from time to time I would eat food I think for pleasure, but it's more productive this way(When I Wanna Be)Pleasure is one aspect of food, I get tempted by pizza from time to time, but I resist sometimes....lol, but recently with Soylent I have less desires when it comes to food thankfully, but I have the idea since I'm still desiring something to eat I still am lacking something Soylent is not providing, thereby me concluding that I need to research what Soylent doesn't have, just my thinking I don't think your view on food is bad BTW, I like it.

@Emily AWEsome

My point of view is this, be yourself...cliche I know, but I think you would want someone who would naturally like you for who you are, and not pretend to be somebody else. Of course...you could research the hell out of the psychology of men and see how you could manipulate the situation in order for him to fall for you. I'm in a unhappy relationship because I don't see it as a priority so..maybe my advice isn't the best! That's for YOU to decide.... as with everything else.

It is such torture to not know who you are? It.. isnt my give name I am pretty sure I guess, but nonethless it is a question that is like a permanent cloud over my head with a single drop of rain hitting in between my brows, over and over again. Who the fuck am I? What am I? Where am I? Does anyone else feel empty and bothered, pissed off not knowing who they are? Just posted to see if im not the only one trying to find enlightment to find out who they are.

Well I think I know in words... We're God. However..I have nothing to prove that =( So... I don't know