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@100rockets Energy is another concept, another belief.

@Saitama click!!!! holy moly thanks I appreciate that, such relief because it makes sense to me.

Empirically, I do not exist because I cannot be a thought, if you notice each thought fades into the oblivion, than another thought pops up, and than another, but at no time do all the thoughts exist at the same time, just a thought after another thought, so where am I? Am I a thought? I cannot be a thought because it fades away, anything that fades empirically cannot exist, because I am looking at the evidence at hand from within, nothing else nothing more. What I'm wondering is if a thought exists for a moment because it does appear, but than does it die? Yes.. I have concluded that a thought exists, than it dies, but it does not mean it has to poise truth, because it doesn't, the foundation empirically from within, when a thought fades is... nothingness, now to only stay with the nothingness.

@Jonathanz Might be counter intuitive, but this helped me even if it was a belief, Intellectually understanding with faith that everything is you, so for instance, Jay Z..I'm him, we are the same and one....I'm rich and I have a sexy girl ETC...

@Saitama The self is a concept once I think about it from within, thanks for that, but what about externally? What is the self outside of me???

In what order do you recommend I watch the youtube videos on spiritual enligtenment? The youtube list from top to bottom or bottom to top? I plan to listen to those videos maybe 6 hours out of the day.. realistically probably 4, for the purpose of removing some potential bullshit out of my head, and hopefully being convinced that I do not exist if it is True. Probably do this for a week to see how it goes.... Hurts like shit realizing for myself thay ive had fake growth, and I didnt just buy into it, thought about it. I do not think it will be beneficial for me to write any notes as I need the constant flow of information to break me so ill just be actively listening as much as I can

@Mess The law of attraction sounds fear based to me.

@Leo Gura Is it possible that truth can be obtained externally?

Yeah... trying to resist at the moment and not succeeding, cya guys, off to actualize while wifie isnt present.

Thoughts are not stored anywhere? QUITE POSSIBLY! Maaaaybe maybe maybe neener neener They would have to be things in themselves? Maybe they are and I cannot see them, so maybe they are! YES i might or might not be my thoughts. Here is a question of me being something, I am michael and i am questioning me being anything! This thought I am thinkingbi am questioning. Chewing, taste great ... mmmmmmmm

Truth might not be like everybody else has taught me, if I do not use just empirical evidence, I cannot find a reason to believe that I am or I am not my thoughts, it is possible that my thoughts are actually stored somewhere, thereby making up who I am, like a knowledge graph. This is what is keeping me from realizing I am not my thoughts I guess. Deconstruct this Even if you think you have the Truth with a capital T, you will never know truly possibly until you die, and maybe not even than.

@A way to Actualize

I decided to post a topic where if you would like, share any meditation insights or anything that helps you, I will continually add tips that help me. 1. If you do not yet realize that you are not your thoughts as all these geniuses have implied, you are not helpless do not worry. What you can do is realize though you may not know whether they are your thoughts or not, it does not mean you have to BELIEVE they are, you can even meditate on the mantra I am not my thoughts or feelings, and choose that as a belief for some relief until the next stage of your spiritual development appears, I think of this as a crutch to heal. 2. The mantra as above so below mantra helps to come into acceptance for what is, many interpertations for as above so below, I follow this one for now until I can realize I am not my thoughts...As above So below means to me that the heavens above ordain everything, therefore anything below heaven that is happening is accepted by heaven, therefore, everything that is happening is meant to be so, so absotuletly NOTHING to worry about! Alas another crutch that has helped me walk when I could not. How ironic a thought possibly saved me when I thought I was going to die.

@The Alchemist It is a bad ass name I agree, I will check out blade and soul, thank you beautiful soul.

Anyone recommend a good new mmo that is actually fun, because I have not found one that does not get boring fast in like, a year or two.

@A Lone Wanderer Because I do not follow the limited belief that you should not discuss this with random strangers on the internet, and... she saw the whole fucking post. Should my wife be more trustworthy? I will think about at a later time when I feel like it.

Don't like the shadiness of his approach to business, do not care for his opinion now that I think about it. So anything he says or does I'll completely ignore from now on, as much as I can at least.

@Amplituda You've spiked my interest, will look it up, thank you.

@Truth sounds like? Ahh.. ok how ironic your name is Truth with a statement like that! HEHEHE

INTP

@Phocus She didnt like the post, got pissed a little. @A Lone Wanderer The reminder that everything ive been taught is not me helps a lot, thanks... even if my brain manifesta my wife cheating on me or imagines her getting fucked by her ex ill try my best to let it go, but im so frozen. @Dhana Choko When I was younger it did not matter, now it does. @walterwego If I ever get divorced I think I will stay a free man, I actually like being alone for the most part. @Emerald Wilkins Were you hurt by someone? Anyways.. bears will kill you more so than a wife, although she did say she would cut my dick off while im asleep.

Well everyone, adding to my journal to tell you that I've lost it trying to do this than that than this BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!(NOT REALLY BUT) So I've decided to bear down for a week and just do what I want... while I do what I want though my mind, I'm just going to allow the monkey chatter in, except when I have to read on a video game or focus for whatever reason that I deem necessary. Do nothing meditation for almost a full week, than...even when it feels like I'm going to die if that happens, just keep going and let it run. I have a feeling I'm going to get sick of letting my mind just do what it wants, because I can't take the thoughts sometimes but, I feel like this is what I have to do. So I'll be taking a vacation but not, but anyways I will report back in my journal to let you know how that do nothing meditation went when stationary, and mobilized. Wish me luck!, and I will see you in a week, or less, because I might pop in to share a track, if I get my ass into a studio, but that's it. See Yah On The 2ND of next Month Michael YOUrs truly

@99th_monkey Yeah.. taking a week off playing video games, and I guess...just let the mind do what it wants fuck it I don't know anymore..I'm so lost that I'll just do that now, I AM AN IDIOT SOMETIMES I APOLOGIZE, well.. probably not really but that's besides the point. See you guys on the 2nd, and will report how the do nothing walking meditation goes for a week. Basically...let my mind go crazy if it wants, like when Neo stopped resisting the Agent..I'm going to be swallowed hole.

@The Alchemist lmao

If everyone rebelled against the experience, what god would do, like a strike.