WonderSeeker

@something_else not just backpacking, but travel in general. that's the power of it: you meet other open-minded, interesting individuals seeking expansion. a year ago I was in Mongolia for graduate research, and in just a couple weeks I went on like 10 dates, made a couple strong friends, and developed a new love for life. doors opened in a flash So, if you've got the money, go back and meet more people. Hell, what are you asking us for?! ^ is this your voice, or a parent? you know goddamn well that there is a chance at long-term value here; you basically said it yourself in this post. if anything, cut the travel to just 3 months. then you'll still have some money to fall back on.

^ right on! do your science but also notice the limits of academia and how your field has an effect (pos/neg) on different aspects of your life. then develop some original perspective on the matter (how the social system can be improved, what your field overlooks, new syntheses, etc.). that's basically what I've done. @Epikur ya that's somewhat the idea for the next few years. my field is cool because companies fly you to their mines all over the world, so I intend to work in Australia by late 2024 and visit southeast Asian countries to do more seduction, exploring, etc.

^^ I'll slide forward instead. @Cocolove sounds epic. hope those were non-gmo mushrooms

@Leo Gura For now I will stake my development mostly on pickup and travel. Then grade into a more refined career and so on. Many thanks for the encouragement.

It's an anime. Warning: it's a tear-jerker Search: Bakemono No Ko or The Boy and the Beast. In the beginning of the movie, you have the narrator implying that raising children is a big responsibility; this is expected of someone who wants to become a grandmaster in the fictional world of Jumangi. Watch how the two main characters––Red and Kumatetsu–– emotionally transform throughout the movie. And the grandmaster takes notice, wisely stating that they helped each other transform as interdependent parts. The movie is also a cool showcasing of the concepts of the hero's journey and psychological shadow as well. Enjoy!

Bro I'm the same way now, used to think there was something wrong with me

@Rishabh R the second you get with a girl, you won't care that it took hundreds of rejections to get there. It's all about emotions. There is no logic in dating. Maybe 5% just to steer the ship.

primary: 2.6 secondary: 2.1 (higher than ~30% of other participants)

12 / 40 I was expecting a 17. Over the past year spiritual practice has made me realize how freakishly devilish I am. Maybe I do a good job at filtering it, lol I'm curious about the link between narcissism and self-esteem. I go through periods of high/low self-esteem, and in my last swing of high self-esteem, I was Narcissistic (capital intended). To me, big Narcissism is where you are not only self-absorbed, but Self-absorbed, as in you want the best for all beings in your awareness. Action-wise I was able to be more giving, compassionate, and dynamic with people. Would be interesting if NPI changes with self-esteem.

Well, mindfulness meditation is what would kill your itch to go masturbate, so of course you masturbate in place of meditation. Consider learning mindfulness. You'll find that your urge is linked to a thought or feeling that says "go masturbate" just before you pull the trigger. I'm gonna challenge you and say that you DON'T want to meditate. Why? Because, you're not doing it! And nobody is going to save you and get you to do it except YOU.

Watch from 0:46-0:52... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GI27mX1BHvk

^^ lol how true it is

A couple things to consider– 1) All of those ego games that you see in other people: see how you play those same games. And if you don't, then you're suppressing them, which is unhealthy. To be human is to exist as an ego in some capacity. I personally like to have friends from all stages of spiral/ego development (if you're familiar with those models). Doesn't mean you have to eat the pizza or smoke the weed per se. 2) Your yearning for close friends of high-caliber intelligence and creativity is nothing new. That is mostly limited by geographic location. For me, I've been living in tight communities of <50,000 people my whole life. (Not so great, not very many originals or true creatives in these places. I live in Burlington, VT and people often call it the "Burlington Bubble" because of the rampant SD Green groupthink here.) I'm looking to move to Reno, NV and socialize a lot to fix this. Also consider joining online mens groups based around success/lifestyle. I've been a part of a few and now have access to like-minded people all over the world to hookup with. Met up with one recently and practiced a little pickup together and helped each other with emotional issues. "Winners"––or what I'd translate as 'highly motivated people'––are typically found online through memberships to these types of groups, at least for guys. I guess what I want to know is where do you live? Is it adequate for meeting cool, creative people? If not, do you have an escape plan yet? If not, why not? Deuces.

Newish song by alt rock band, Muse, which is entirely about cults. Good for after listening to Leo's series on cult psych.

This is surface-level stuff, but still relevant. A dating coach recently posed this question to me: "How do you dress when you know that women will see you?" As guys, we very seldom ask this because some of us assume that women don't give a damn about looks. After going in public and observing how people dress as an experiment (which I highly recommend you try), I realized that most women dress up very carefully and deliberately to look attractive. Although not a dealbreaker, it follows that style is pertinent in seduction. Speaking form your own experience, how did you find your style that's both attractive and that suits you?

Hey y'all. My brother is 'partially truthful, but very absolutistic' in his worldview at SD stage green values (Cook-Greuter individualist stage); this is often referred to as "regressive Green" by Ken Wilber and Integral life. He is leaning towards Marx a bit exclusively. There seems to be no getting through to him no matter what advice I try to give him about growing yourself (logic), or even when I offer emotional understanding (empathy). Even when I put an arm around him and tell him how proud I am (he does have some strengths), he will appear uplifted, temporarily. I existentially accept my brother's attitude toward life, but still I'd rather see him not blaming "the corporate class" as a limiting belief to the promised land, but instead simply contributing his gifts. As of now he doesn't hold jobs for long and plays the victim and displays anger (in the Peter Ralston "feeling incapable" and "I will shut y'all out" ways). He's 20. I'm not in a panic: I think issue could turn around out long-term. However, if he's going to correct this so he can develop cleanly and integrally, I want to take part in giving him a hand. What do you all think about this? Have you helped regressive green see things differently before? I'm curious about how you can get to someone. Thank you

Deal actualized audience, Try this little science experiment and see what happens: Goal: Go Meta on the forum. Deconstruct the forum. Notice how you use the forum. Notice how others are using it. Ask: "How often do I use the forum?" Ask "Is this really helping me develop?" Ask "Is the forum a distraction?" Ask "Am I using the forum wisely?" Ask: "Does arguing on the forum--even if you are 'right'--serve anybody?" Ask: "Am I using this forum to avoid learning real social skills?" Ask: "Am I adding value to the forum?" (Ah, here's a good one!) You probably assume that being on this forum helps you. But is this true? How are you using this forum? Notice how you resist taking up the idea of questioning what you're doing on the forum, let alone what the forum is. Qualifying note: I'm not implying that the forum is an 'evil' or all doo-doo. Your answers to these questions should be more nuanced than that. --------------------- One thing that I've become keenly aware of over the past couple of years in this community is just how much people are trying to ape Leo's life and be just like Leo. Nothing wrong with having a role model, but can't you see how this is a giant trap? Figure out your life in your own way, cross-referencing your unique capacities, preferences, and values with some of the great models that Leo has shared. Too many of us are going for the golden fruit of Awakening too soon. It seems to me that a lot of you are absorbing what Leo says as concrete facts to be stored away in your mental store-bin as a new paradigm to which you judge all other views. This is not real learning and understanding. Can't you see how this will fuck up your aspirations in a hurry? Even worse, it will distort what you think is worth while pursuing. It's a self-defeating strategy. (I know because I lived from this trap--albeit to only a minor degree, thankfully--for about a year.) This is your reminder to work on the lower-half of Maslow's hierarchy first! Even that will give you some satisfaction, as surprising as it sounds. A fellow fool, jp

Core feeling: I am becoming more egoic through spiritual work. OR, could it actually be that I'm becoming more aware of ego, and therefore more able to dis-identify with it because now I see it? Or are the practices are back-firing somehow, causing egotism? I think over the long haul, the ego is very slowing peeling away, but I still go through what appear as spells of ego-mania! I feel ignorant in this whole thing in spite of all of the insights and wisdom. I've been contemplating this for over a year on and off and still have not a clue. (I have a hunch that it's a matter of timing and that I don't have enough 'data' to know.) I've been using binaural beats for one year and did a year of daily traditional meditation before that. I feel like I'm seeing more ugly in me than even in my life and I don't want to negatively influence others with it. That said, I've also had moments where I've genuinely helped others and felt grounded within my being too. It just all feels very polarized. Cheers

Hope you had a happy time writing all that

@flume Wow, inspiring! The habit-trackers and rituals made me laugh...they are quite fun but really do look insane after a while. After about 2 years, I'm slowly experiencing the 'becoming a kid again' aspect too. Letting-go and not being too serious about the work is so counter-intuitive because it looks counter-productive to the work itself. Cheers!

@Husseinisdoingfine Look here, you've gotta do what's right for you. After watching Leo for a couple years, I've come to realize that not everything he says/does is suitable for me. If you like meditation and other classical techniques and they bear fruit, then keep on keeping on! Don't let Leo stop you, lol. Listen to your intuition. For me, I meditated daily for 14 months straight and then stopped because the insights and emotions labor got too heavy. So I switched to binaural beats for about a year. Now I'm considering jumping back into sitting as it seriously helped my mindfulness skills while I was doing it. To me, you cannot build serious mindfulness/concentration skills using psychedelics. Psychedelics will take you further, but they won't automatically grant you skills that other techniques can. Just my take. Still a noobie for the most part.

Has anybody read this enneagram book? If so, in what ways did it change your life? I've become a personality type junkie in the past few weeks and just got this in the mail. Ken Wilber has spoken highly of it. Just flipping through the pages I can see tooooonnnns of models which turns me on. Cheers~

@museumoftrees Cutting away excessive screen-time is a mid- to long-term process. It's not going to happen overnight. Perhaps keep a personal log of how many hours per day you consume media. After a week or two you will discover an average. Slowly bring that average time down day-by-day until you reach a level that's healthy. But hey, if you are truly into entertainment in a way that is related to a potential life-purpose, then find a way to use what you are consuming rather than watching passively or in a neurotic way. Another piece of advice is to sit down and contemplate why you want to: Oh and of course, change is difficult and painful. This surface unhappiness you are experiencing is actually a sign that you're doing the right thing. If you feel at a deep level in your intuition that removing distractions is right for you but it stings on the outside, is is still the overall right thing to do. Don't let surface reactions fool you! Cheers~ ^ This too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a0B_StY__Bg&t=772s

Have any of you done bootcamp with Madison (or any of the other RSD guys)? What were your experiences? I'm seriously considering going to one but don't know what to expect.