WonderSeeker

I think this so-called 'trolling' went in the other direction. But I agree, life has to be lived before it can be transcended. Even Peter Ralston admitted to this in his interview with Leo. I don't even necessarily buy everything Leo says. It depends on where you're coming from and your particular situation. I think our uniqueness has to be factored into how we structure our awakening journeys a lot more than we let on to. I don't understand you original comment @Hojo. If you can articulate yourself better, I'm open to taking you seriously. @Asayake I was thinking the same thing.

It's important to learn from celebrieties in the sense that whatever you admire in them is something you can amplify in your own life. I think having role models is healthy especially at younger ages like 20s and 30s. You should be proud of what you've done in your time away. It's like you completed a growth cycle that came to a close with you 360ing back to your native geography. Maybe. How would you define it? Here's to new chapters to come 🥂

This is so true it's not funny. Some of the best sex I ever had I didn't penetrate. Not once. We just kissed and wrestled naked, and I kept whispering all sorts of things into her ear that even the best comedian on earth couldn't come up with. It has to come from pure inspiration for life, and genuine interest in who's sitting across from you. I think seduction has a 360 spiral to it, where: 1) the simpiest level is telling her how attracted you are and that you'd do anything for her 2) in this level you're more sublte and cooler, more nuder the radar, but still egoically looking out for number one 3) here, you go back to worshipping her, but from a refined place of joy and celebration for her and life, side-by-side I've only had 1 such affair, It lasted 2 weeks, It was better than any multi-year relation I've ever had.

So untrue. I did door-to-door sales. People in said business are persuasive. Now you tell me, the next time a pest control salesman knocks on your grandma's door, is he telling her the truth?

I'm 28. I am deeply conscious of my life-story, going back to when I was about 6 years old. I'm an INFP, I have imaginative overexcitibility, and I'm good at weaving meaning together. There are a high number of events in my life that in the moment, or in retrospect due to the trajectory they sent me on, carry deep visual and emotional significance for me. As a result, I attribute a lot of meaning to these things and often review them in my mind. They are what made me who I am now, and new things and events still are sending me on new paths to hit my dreams and desires. I sometimes wonder: Does anyone else feel the same way? I find in general, people don't share deep things about themselves, in favor of social manipulations to make themselves look cool, or, wierdly, to keep playing small in life. So I don't know what it's like for others. Either way, there's a nuance to this way of being. I think you have to consciously choose to love your life-story; and, YOU must be the one that loads it with meaning (especially AFTER some awakenings when you learn your life is inherently meaningless). See, for almost my entire life I never understood celebrity worship. I found it to the most respulsive thing ever; because what is it, but loving another's life story while ignoring yours. "Wouldn't you rather ongoingly create something more beautiful out of the one life you have?" That's what I thought, even in my early teens. When I was about 14, I was at a scary low in my life. I got bullied at school daily, received dog-shit grades at school, and had no purpose, or even hobbies. At taht early age, I knew something have to change (imagine having a half-quarter life crisis). Instead of looking to celebrities, I found my first ever self-help videos, by a Lebanese dating coach of all people, and got to work. After sone time, I got a girlfriend, started getting A's in school, and became a talented athlete. Then all of that fell apart and new life events, which I'm very fond of that bring me on the verge of tears, unfolded to save me from chasing success forever. I started using psychoactive substances and spending more time with new friends, which led me into college post-modernism. I recall specific missions I set for myself that felt enlivening and made life this great adventure. Then things began to feel dull and drab. I began deep psychedelic research; and, that's when I found Leo. He broke my paradigms about life and I binged every video he ever made over a span of 6 months in 2020.I remember Covid hitting and escaping to the mountains in Upstate NY. Without telling my parents I left home and slept in my car deep in the forest. I was so scared of the cops or some crazy person finding me I barely slept loger than an hour. Also, my underdeveloped brain was trying to swallow the latest video I'd listened to by Leo about "you not existing as a self," and trying to use my hyper-logical brain to understand it. That plus Covid all made me depressed and lost at the time (and yet I'm so in love with that story and the pivot it represented -- me dipping my toes into something scary at the time, but something that seemed important nonetheless). The above 3 paragraphs are little snippits from certain chapters of my life. They all feel so real and significant. I think part of what makes life beautiful is falling in love with your imaginary past. It's so unique to you. And in your world, YOU are the celebrity. Not Bieber, not Taylor Swift, not Obama. Who cares, your story is so unique, and it's all yours. Cheers~

Indeed, giving oneself problems. But also subtle shifts that lead to order-of-magnitude changes. Lucky shifts that, if they didn't happen, I wouldn't even be sitting here with the knowledge that I caused them from a higher perspective. It's so utterly trippy... - if I didn't shatter my hand through a glass door - if I didn't talk to the young professor and contact his old professor who helped me study in Asia - if I didn't break up with my first gf (good Lord...) - if I wasn't lightly (sometimes not-so lightly) traumatized by my family growing up - if I didn't fail at all the businesses I tried to start in America in my mid-20s I would have never gotten into awakening work. I would have been too comfortable to get into awakening work; instead, I would have coasted through life, only lightly depressed. I would have never known what was missing and would have been too cozy to bother looking.

I mean yeah, nobody will ever understand you in your full uniqueness. Then you added the Awakening cherry on the You-sundae for good measure. It sounds like you're at the stage where you're at least becoming more comfortable with this fact, which is key.

The main goal of life can be summed up as follows. First, some context. Lately I've been seriously wondering: What is the specific reason that I exist in this particular way, as this particular self, in this particular realm? In other words, Why Am I? And, if I can possibly know, What is my ultimate calling based on my genetics, experiences, and upbringing in this short existence as a human? I took 60ug of LSD. I didn't think that would be a particularly powerful trip. Usually I top out at 200ug. But, the usual come-up took effect and before I knew it the insights came rushing in. I was shocked that this museum dose was getting me somewhere! At around the 2 hour mark, deep escastic feelings from my root to my heart arose. Waves of energy took my being over. They flooded me so deeply I surrendered. I layed there on my bed as my imagination started converging directly with reality. Then, the big insight. What is the meaning of life really? It is: Make yourself into the best apparatus for awakening you possibly can. Wherever that insight came from, I thank it for being so deliberate in it's wording. By apparatus, it meant to treat your body and mind in such ways that make awakening easier and more probable to happen at any time or place. It's basically another way of saying 'self-actualize,' but for the sole purpose of awakening deeper and deeper to Truth, Beauty, and Consciousness. Physically, it means maintaining baseline fitness and health standards (nutritionally, socially, physiologically, etc). Mentally, it means cleaning up your epistemic diet ever so steadily over time (screen-time, content quality, introspection and targeted ideological skepticism, etc). Spirituality, it's about seeking with the right principles in mind, and using better methodologies and tools as you discover them (meditation, yoga, psychedelics, etc). Really all of this is no different than what I already knew. BUT, what was different was the resolve, recognition, and understanding I was left with. As a little cherry on top, I had a second insight that was almost equally as big. I had a DEEEP direct experience of construct-awareness, where I saw my whole narrative past before me — from birth to now — and how, the whole thing was like a video game that me as God created for myself to run. I could see how EVERY little thing that 'I did' or that 'happened to me' was intentionally and ingeniously 'put there' or 'made to happen' by my higher Self or God. Then, ON TOP OF THAT, I then saw how I was playing this game with myself where I was imagining myself as a higher Self mapping out my life, and that my ability or inability to evolve my consciousness was due to the fact that my higher Self was protecting me or pushing me to evolve at a rate that best suited me. (Note: This does not mean if you are having trouble evolving that you can be lazy, or if you are grinding and it hurts, you cannot take a break. This is tricky stuff.) What I didn't get, however, and what I suspect will come later, is the 'why' of awakening. Not the why of Life. But the why of Awakening. (Two very different things.) I wanted to know what my personal consciousness was about and how it fits into the life I'm living and building. But, that's for another day. AMA, or if something does not jibe with how you've experienced awakening, let me know what that is. I'm open and curious to other experiences and perspectives. Awakening: Make yourself into the best apparatus for more awakening.

Awesome.

@Lyubov That place is blazing hot, take care. Apparently Peter Ralston visited China this year too. Take a look: https://mcusercontent.com/8a146e2bfe98efdd8c326d97a/files/50489f08-c5d5-475d-9399-a52a4a87283a/CHNL_Fall_2026.pdf?mc_cid=de92e4dd5c&mc_eid=a080dd7600

@Lyubov Any update on your trip? I just secured my visa and flight set for Chengdu

I'm becoming more aware of construct-awareness. Insight #1: Being construct-aware means realizing you're forever deceived It's like being in an infinite holographic movie. As you become more conscious, you become more aware of how there are so many layers and versions of movies to become aware of. By movie, I just mean illusion, or content without understanding. It's like hearing Chinese for the first time, versus starting to learn the language, versus mastering it. With each step you break through illusion. Your mind is projecting what you think the thing is as you go, but through lived experience and tooling around you come to know more about what it REALLY is. Even weirder is YOU are actually the one who is creating the experience of the langauge in the first place. So you are literally creating the illusion you live. You imagine the illusion. Then hallucinate your evolution of awareness within the illusion. It's so mind-fucky. Insight #2: Normies hate truth and love construct/illusion without even realizing it This is actually why men suck with women. Because ladies love emotions, feelings, and fantasies. Whereas men just want to get to the bottom of and express what is literally true. (Well actually, this is what dumb men without game do. But let's take this extreme). Back to the normies. People in general would rather you lie to them and give them endless fantasies to ring their egoic slot-machine bells than share deep truths or rawness. People care only so deeply about themselves and sucking value out of others that they damn the costs of doing so in untruthful ways. "It really doesn't matter how I come to feel good; if it feels good, it must be true," goes the logic. Insight #3: Breaking down illusion makes you dispassionate; you have to work hard to generate meaning for yourself This an advanced problem I'm starting to face. I am realizing that there really is no correct goal in life. If I am God, or the Universe itself, why does it matter if I become enlightened, help children grow, or heal people? Those aren't things anyone is forcing me to do. I choose to do it myself. But the more aware you become, the more imagination (ironically!) you have to use to consciously create little quests for yourself to go on. You choose your movie character. The realm you're running around in. And what quests you set out on. Then you play the game! ~ ~ ~ What is construct awareness for you?

Bump. This is a solid thread y'all, give it some life

Yeah, Thailand seems too crowded and touristy. Good on you.

Dear self-actualizers, I'm curious what self-actualization tools you've found the most useful to achieving your life goals. Of all the... self-help subfields philosophies techniques & methods ...you've tried out, which ones have made the greatest, longest-lasting impact on your life so far for you personally? ──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── What to post: 1) State your age and how long you've been self-actualizing. 2) Name your top 1-3 techniques and how/why they impacted you. ──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── I'm 28 and I've been self-actualizing for 6+ years. Below are the two things helped me the most. 1) Psychedelics / Meditation / Reading Spiritual Books LSD changed my life forever. It helped me (along with Leo's videos) deconstruct and break free from academic/industry science over a 5-year period. It helped me to see my life as a divine adventure I am co-creating alongside the rest of the Universe/God. It helped me confirm that I am creating my own Reality, from the physical to the soul - All of it. Meditation changed my life forever too. It made me realize that all I gotta do to be happy is sit on my bed or a couch and do nothing. In 2020-2021, I meditated every day without missing a day for 428 days straight. That spiritual campaign jumpstarted a lifelong quest of mysticism and I do not regret it in the slightest. It made me face demons so scary I don't really have a lot left to fear in life. It provided a soothing counter-balance to the inner-hustler within me that wants to just take the world by storm; it provided the ying to my yang. And so much more; the benefits are innumerable. (P.S. Binural beats like Holosync are PHENOMENAL if your life is currently busy like mine. And yet, even with the best technology nothing beats sitting there and doing nothing, distraction-free.) Reading spiritual books in conjunction with psychedelics and meditation was like — paradigmatically-speaking — replacing a beater-car with a Lamborghini. Spirituality is this crazy battle where you use your own mind to put itself in this place so something more refined takes over: soul/Spirit/God. Well, reading spiritual text got me closer to that elevated place by giving me licks of the God lolipop which only was enhanced with psychedelics and meditation. They all blended together, over and over, until my reality became a living-breathing expression of the universe instead of egoic human will fighting the world over attention and resources. It replaced my a to b understanding of the world with something closer to ∞ so that I was no longer as stuck inside the box. My favorites are books by Ken Wilber and Peter Ralston. Daniel Ingram's Core Teachings Of The Buddha book was phenomenal as well. 2) Trauma Psychology / Letting-go Guided Meditations / Somatic Healing I almost put this one at #1. Because honestly, I had a traumatic childhood that screwed me up for years. My mind was so messed up for a while that there were periods when I thought I'd die (2008, 2017, 2024), and I was shocked that I didn't. I'm a highly sensitive person by my nature (HSP), so growing up there were a lot of things that got to me and made me feel like I didn't belong to my family, to my society, to humanity. Over the past 5 years (and ESPECIALLY the past year), I've made unbelievable progress on my sense of esteem, belonging, and identity. I no longer root my worth in things or processes, but instead on Being. Spiritual work didn't actually get me there, it gave me the theoretical foundation. Shaking trauma out of my tissue using somatic guided meditations and the David Hawkin's Letting Go roadmap (via Julien Blanc's mentoring) is what made all the difference. I began the program 1 year ago and still use the lifetime access lessons to this day almost daily. It's unlockled so many layers of authenticity I didn't know I had in me. Because this has had such a tremendous benefit on me, I eventually want to work with the likes of Jordan Thornton or Teal Swan to clear the remaining residue. They hit things from different angles, and without sufficient trauma healing, I believe myself and most of us included won't be able to go far with spirituality / psychdelics alone. Trauma distorts spiritual insight more than I thought; if it did for me, then it will for you too. ──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── I'm curious to see what you share. Make it juicy!