WonderSeeker

Nice. I personally like this: And this:

Just in time! Pursuing Consciousness and The Genius of Being, by Ralston will be on my doorstep this Friday. The two will pair nicely. Thanks, @Leo Gura!

Funny you posted this as I'm re-reading it a second time currently. In terms of readability it is very challenging. 9/10 in terms of how hard it is to read and grasp. Reason being is you have to read it slowly and think of personal examples of each point from your own life. He also created his own list of vocabulary words/phrases like pendulums, balanced forces, inner/outer intention, wave of fortune, rustle of the morning stars (intuition), etc. that make it challenging. Also the book has a shitload of weird typos and grammar mistakes because, as @SimpleGuy said, the book is translated from Russian to English. But on the actual substance? I think the book is phenomenal (IF you can grasp it). It's a law of attraction book, only better. Basically it peak pragmatism, but with epistemic fine-tuning (except for occasional woo-woo stuff you gotta read past). It tells you how to set goals and achieve them from the standpoint of fully engaging while at the same time being laid back. And to avoid pendulums, or energy structures in reality that prey on your energy to serve themselves, not you. Basically Vadim Zeland's description of pendulums is a lot like Leo's description of collective ego. But what's cool is there's a lot of practical stuff about how to work in systems with pendulums and still get what you want. Talks about witnessing consciousness vs dreaming consciousness. Admits that Transurfing (his book) is just a model and not ultimate truth; he recommends you actually apply it instead of taking it on faith (that's how I know it's a well-intentioned teaching). Overall a good SD stage orange/yellow book assuming you apply it with good morals. But the author repeatedly says having negative intentions backfires in his model so really it only works from the standpoint of good mental health and honesty. Out of the 90 books I've read, It's in my top 5. If you read it, good luck! (It's 700+ pages)

I want to become more peaceful, graceful, and conscious. Also to find a chill lady to wife-up and go on erotic nature adventures with. But to be gentle on myself along the way to attaining these things. In other words, aim high, but do not rush the process. And be detached, so even if I fail, I can be at peace with whatever happens in the end.

So you want to not-want? You're still wanting...

A friend of mine just confirmed that Julien is separating from Self Mastey Co (SMC). He announced it on a coaching call today. This doesn't have to do with his spiral development per se, but it goes to show how he's matured beyond Owen.

Simplicity = Beauty , my friend Yeah exactly. I think the main point is to conform consciously.

Wow dude you have tons of sexual experience. Pat on the back for that! I've had like 6 at age 27 (missed out on another 5 or so due to the "demi" factor for sure. But of course, body count is a stupid human game. Depth matters as much, if not more. So, my 6 feels like 30; and whenever I am with a new partner it's like I get the experience of 5 lays in 1 hahaha. Being an HSP has its perks (because, intensity). Anyways, it sounds like you've made quite a transformation. I too value having a beautiful space, though I've never fully actualized one as I'm constantly moving cities (I value geographic novelty pretty hardcore being in my 20s still). Now I understand why the pool feels so limited for you. There aren't many out there who value beauty. Or, they over-value overstimulation, hype, materialism, and consumerism. (Having just moved to the 3rd largest city in Korea I've noticed a huge materialist culture. So finding my ladies here will be quite a fun challenge, haha.) P.S. - The reason I call my demi-sexuality more innate is because, over the years I've taken girls home or gone to their places on several occasions and either sex didn't cross my mind, or it did, but I got confused about why my body wasn't feeling it alongside the mind. Happened when I brought a girl home from high school (parents not home). Happened after clubs in Miami (went up elevator with 2 Latinas, but lost attraction after they got in a cat-fight). Happened after a homemade dinner date with college chick at her place... sat in her bed and we looked at each other and my brain said 'yes', but my body was like "no, even though idk why." And another time in college... same thing. P.S.S. - Yeah there's a ton of watchers on here. They watch the videos as fans (or even read the forum in the same way), but don't like actually self-reflecting and sharing for some reason.

Yes, actually did some research into it the other day. I think I've had it for a long time tho. What signs are you seeing in yourself?

I've been following Julien's content deeply for 3 years. I can tell you he's distanced himself from Owen quite a bit. He actually disagrees with him often (though not by name). I had a friend go to a Julien event last year and he thanked Julien for his pickup stuff from 2012. Julien said "Glad it helped" and walked away. He has moved on from the punk he was. But MOST IMPORTANTLY, I went through Julien's 8-week Transformation Mastery (TM) program recently. It's somatic release combined with weekly calls to ask questions about trauma and the releases. I got to talk to him live on Zoom calls every week. I've talked to lots of people at SMC (formerly RSD). And by far, in terms of overall awareness, Julien is the most advanced. Owen is a loud-mouth, but also a genius in his own right (but not necessarily conscious!) What I like about Julien is he's actually done the hard work of smoothing himself out in a such a way that I'd call him high green, MAYBE Tier II. He openly allows blue, orange, and green topics to be discussed on his calls. He gives advice from many different perspectives. He also uses a scale of emotional development based off of David Hawkin's work (see attached photo). It works similar to a developmental psychology model where you go from a lower vibrational, competitive, destructive state, to more embracing, loving, conscious state. In his own work Julien cites perspectives from people of all age ranges. He is genuine on the calls and I sense no bullshit or games with him whatsoever. Whereas in the more pickup side of SMC, I've met Owen in person several times and his other coaches too. They are more salesy, sleezy, and it feels like there's some BS hiding underneath them. They weren't as lucky as Julien was to get gut-punched into green (and possibly Tier II). One of the only things that is holding him back from Tier II, is he hasn't gone into military-grade deep spiritual territory. Otherwise it does appear like he's building out conscious systems, with TM as the foundation (happiness), Purpose Process (wealth), and High-Vibe Communication (relationships). He doesn't have much to say about health, education, spirituality, or psychedelics though. He doesn't cover every base but he goes really deep with what he does know and is therefore a pretty healthy green/orange (maybe some Tier II) nonetheless. My 2 cents.

Perma-tripping, suffering, making loud clicking sounds with my mouth. Also, randomly, I can guess birthdays and ages insanely well

You must balance emptiness with fullness. You meditate to empty out bullshit and replace it with truth. But part of the truth is your human condition so you gotta satisfy that too. You said you visualized having a perfect girl, house, body, and job. But it made you miserable. Why? My guess is you might have set too many goals at once, without taking them one at a time. Or going all of them bit by bit slowly (my strategy). Another reason it might have failed is how do you know what's actually right for you? Have you experimented with different ways of living, dating, working, and so on? If so, great, you know what you want. Just some things to think about. You got this man~

@Leo Gura how will it be similar/different from this:

Hahaha bro, I get you on the dating end! I'm not attracted to most ladies even if they're physically "hot." It's the way they present themselves and act that turns me off. Honestly, I think it's best to pick one gem out of the dirt and keep it. No bother in chasing "hot" or "perfect."

Gut feeling. 3 years ago I stayed in Mongolia for 6 weeks, and not a day has gone by since without me dreaming of moving to east Asia. This part of the world is so fascinating and has so much potential for growth. Also my own growth is speeding up here, because I feel passionate about life again. That's why.