WonderSeeker

Integrity. It's such a beautiful practice. It's the highest form of taking care of reality. Making sure things are as they should be. But this 'should be' is devoid of ego. Which is hard in practice. Still worth it.

Imagine switching brains for a day to see what it would feel like. Man you must have gotten lucky finding Actualized because there's too much brain in these forums!

Ah, you must be a fan of Andrew Henderson. He raves about KL constantly. Maybe our tastes are different because without even going there I'd expect Shanghai to be too much like NY/LA (high-speed energy). Way too big and fast. Hangzhou is right nearby. Excellent tea culture and scenery. I haven't been to either yet but am considering living in Hangzhou. This guy was ahead of his time. Videos are useful and entertaining even a decade later.

What skills are you building over time? For me, it's practicing Mandarin / Pinyin. I do 2 hours a day minimum. 3-6 hours a day on weekends. Watching Chinese movies, TV, handriting, etc. Planning to take it deep (HSK 4 and beyond) as long as I'm living in China. P.S. If you are a world traveller, then learn to love learning languages! Language study felt like such a chore in high school. But as an adult having been exposed to French, Mongolian, and Korean (and soon Chinese) in countries that speak these as native languages, I've found they open up to you so many opportunities when you learn thier languages. You become an object of total fascination which in my experience has been great for career and dating.

This is it. When I think back to my best seductions, all I did was act like a retard and drop off-hand compliments like sprinkles on a cake. Things escalated so naturally... If it's a date or a social circle meetup, you just do things that you're passionate about and share them with everyone there. I believe @integral posted about this the other day. From there you go on little quests. Man with a plan type shit But @jacknine119 you got this! Start small. Step 1 is make a solid female friend. Don't assess hotness, just make a friend. ...And don't try to fuck her (like my stupid ass has done before). Sometimes you can, but the goal is momentum, not the first one that validates you. As you go you'll buld that social proof and get with one you truly like. I'm moving to a new country soon. I've been studying the language and I plan to meet women and show them what I've been up to. Playfully, of course! Having fun with it. Will probably post about it after a year or so

Part of it was a friend told me I never let my space get even 1% messy. He said "Come on, throw some clothes on the floor, leave a notebook or two open." Over time I learned to 'tolerate it'. Then I had a girl move in with me for a couple months. After that I started a business. Both made me realize "I just don't have time for this petty, small stuff. Why bother." And not even from an apathetic standpoint. Just in a realistic, human sort of way. People are beautifully messy and so am I. Trying to keep my messiness crammed behind a paradigm of contraction is exhausting and energetically wasteful. But @integral a question for you is why do these kinds of people bother you? Have you ever considered keeping everything tidy, even beautiful to a tee? I don't know you but I'm assuming maybe not. I agree with this from the perspective of being a highly sensitive person (HSP). My brain is wired to at least have SOME level of order in my environment. The main thing for me these days isn't so much things being exactly where they need to as having clean air, water, floors, etc. Right now in Korea we get a lot of fine dust and sometimes high AQI levels, so I use an air purifier to keep things pure. Yes, this is a little different from the aestheticism perspective but it ties in in the sense that clean environment leads to clean mind. Being actionably aggressive about it isn't necessarily wrong; it's only a problem if you get emotionally triggered by things being out of place or a little dirty.

I used to be this way. Scolded many old roommates for not keeping up with cleaning. After a while I learned to let go of needing things to look 'perfect'. You can easily waste loads of precious consciousness on myopic bullshit if you're not careful.

I'm just asking what you like about nature man. Give us the tea I typed out a detailed response about how I engage with nature and how it brings me joy.

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@Schizophonia good thread idea. Every couple years I move cities. Ever since getting a university degree in geology, I've made a ritual of exploring all the local river beds and mountains in the city I lived in. I've done this in New York, Arizona, Virginia, Utah, and now Korea. Even Alaska and Mongolia a bit. I take a notebook and a compass, and try to make sense of the environment from scratch. It's so fun! Will share photos soon Also, learning Mandarin. Just starting but know about a dozen expressions. It's a fulfilling project.

What's stopping you now? It's still a good time to go! nǐhǎo haha. Yeah I've heard that's super sommon there. It's such a homogeneous culture still.

Godammit. Reminds me when one of my ex's dropped a nuke on me IRL at my place saying I'm acting like I need to be mommy'd. She was a literal psychopath horrible-person, so I hated that she was the one to share such truth with me. But she was right and I thank her for it to this day. I've uprooted some tendencies of looking for mother in the women I date. Are you happy you got the truth as well?

Was originally going to put this in the intellectual stuff section. Space signals are somewhat sciencey. But the reason I'm sharing here is because of my reaction to them. I've been searching different space signals that NASA and other space agencies have picked up. I don't know about you, but these kinds of things send chills and shivers down my spine. (Good ones of course)! My vision blurs, my eyes roll up, my head vibrates fast, and I take it in. It's funny becuase we humans have things like primal drumming, heartbeats, bird chirping, and other natural sounds that get us in touch with ourselves. But these space signals... they are so distant, yet (I think) baked so very, very, very deep within us, that if you listen to them from a certain perspective (perhaps a more refined emotional OS after spiritual practice and psychedelics) you can really let these noises penetrate your soul and connect to yourself deeply. Links: Now someone can correct me if I'm wrong, but I don't think these sounds are the literal raw sounds coming from space, but rather vibrations that we then filter through instruments to make the 'sounds' or 'music' you hear. But still where else in the world can you find these rhythms?! Nature reigns #1. Most people would find this haunting. I find it just... fucking awesome. Let me know if you're equally touched by such things. You just might be a highly sensitive person like me P.S. I'm listening to these on $300 Sony headphones. Good audio tech makes all the difference.

I might not use psychedelics -- at least on a monthly basis -- for 2-3 years. Honestly learning to take integration more seriously. So much to integrate still from 2023-2026 trips... Plus I'll be living in China. There's a different vibe present when you trip inj a country where there's almost 0% support for it. At least in America there are hippie and nondual enclaves you can find. When I tripped in South Korea in the first hour I had anxiety the police were gonna bust in. As if they'd know, lol... Side tangent but felt the need to say that. We have our lives ahead of ourselves if we're 20s/30s. Many trips to be had.

Yeah, the contrast can do that. Was this your highest dose? For LSD I've never gone higher than ~200ug plugged. Love that for you. For us. Thanks for sharing~