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It might help to treat it as "voice acting" or as if you're playing some overly enthusiastic character, like a more extroverted version of yourself. And then slowly you can mold yourself into that as social situations arise. Project your voice, don't be timid, act like you're on a radio show being a radio host, and the entire world can hear your voice. It also helps to talk about things you are passionate about, it naturally makes your voice stronger and more powerful, pay attention to that.

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How is the room you sleep in? For me, having white noise like a fan helps significantly. Also, make sure the room is dark and cool, its better to have a cool room than a warm room. Avoid caffeine/stimulants and blue light, you can download a blue light filter if you want. And try not to force yourself to sleep. Also, maybe get in the habit of turning off most lights around you as the sunlight goes down. In a sense, you want the levels of light to match outside as much as possible. This helps a lot IME, probably something to do with melatonin stimulation. Exercise is good but don't do it too close to bed time

That's a pretty cool nuance, didn't know that

How recently did you quit weed? I believe medically this is referred to as PAWS (Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome) and lack of libido is a common symptom.

I've had a phase where I got weird gore dreams as well. Didn't watch any gorey media in that time period either, so it wasnt something my subconscious picked up from some movie irl or something. One of them involved a guy jumping from a tree and then his body just splitting in half with blood and what not, strangely my dream character wasn't really disturbed by any of it. Still have no idea what it meant but it creeped me out for a bit, especially cause I woke up from it at like 3am in the pitch black and I was just left there to contemplate that dream in a pitch black room haha

Well, it's the only book mentioned, so I would assume so Maybe

Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway by Susan Jeffers

Those are the most common symptoms

Depends on your diet

I think it might. I did a 40 hour water fast and it cured my brain fog and anger issues. Some studies, like this one, also seem to indicate this: https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fnut.2021.708069/full

Does eating food made it feel better, if even temporarily? What about music? Are you often in very stressful situations? I have had experiences of anxiety/depression that lingers after extremely stressful experiences, wondering if it's related. I think it could be related to cortisol, eating a simple carb like bread made it dissipate for me.

I have some concerns around EMFs from phones and such things, seems like not much conclusive research is done there Herbicides like glyphosates are a big one, and also organic food that is sprayed with organic pesticides Also, you gotta be careful with topical products like shampoo or lotion. There can be some sketchy stuff in there, like silicones and what not. You should properly research whatever is in the ingredients.

Here is an interesting way to think of it: Peace can also be seen as attachment to the present moment. If you are attached to only the present moment, then no feeling of loss can occur, since the present moment is eternal. In this sense, attachment is somewhat illusory, since you can't really escape the present moment, so what exactly are you feeling attached to, if not the present moment? It is the thoughts in your mind, which are of another moment that is not in the present. You are attached to thoughts of some other non-existent moment, which maybe contains elements that the current moment doesn't. A lot of these negative emotions that stem from the ego use this trick. It will imagine some thought that isn't in alignment with the present moment, and then believe in it, and then that will cause discord and suffering, because the thought itself is not true and does not fit in with reality.

That seems very likely to be prostate related. The spontaneous arousal is probably the prostate getting stimulated.

I don't mind it. It's more of just a sensation than taste, and also I only notice the cold feeling if I eat it raw without putting it in anything so it ends up not really mattering, probably because the drink itself is hot.

Yeah I don't like the aftertaste either. I think you'll like the sugar alcohols I mentioned, you can find formulas where they already mixed the two together which are pretty good. There's basically no aftertaste especially with erythritol, and you might even like it more than sugar, it has an interesting feel to it. https://www.amazon.ca/Krisda-Fruit-Spoonable-Natural-Sweetener/dp/B07PGCBWZS/ref=sr_1_2?gclid=Cj0KCQiAzfuNBhCGARIsAD1nu-9sMY98Xj8t18zFMXilS8c_Qh4EkYKFf05tpcKITN0GClusVPNETB4aAiOLEALw_wcB&hvadid=325279736058&hvdev=c&hvlocphy=9060756&hvnetw=g&hvqmt=e&hvrand=10889896968636293764&hvtargid=kwd-611173042770&hydadcr=12394_10657180&keywords=krisda+monk+fruit+sweetener&qid=1639980153&sr=8-2 This is the one I use, its a blend of erythritol and monk fruit and as you can see on the back it says that the sweetness is of equal proportion to actual sugar, which is pretty accurate IME. You can probably find something similar in the organic/natural section of your supermarket or something.

My 40 hour fast cured my brain fog and anger issues. Might have done something.

Do you have a problem with sugar alcohols? You can easily cut out refined sugar by switching to monk fruit/erythritol or some blend of the two, that's my favorite at least. It's very similar to actual sugar.

True, that's very insightful, thanks

Well, OP can correct me if I'm wrong, but it's not about doing things to make people hate you more, but its more like a shift in mindset. You go from "how can I get this person to like me" to "lets see how much this person ends up hating me". So now, instead of manipulating people by hiding your personal beliefs and values so that they like you, you don't care about that more, and instead you're trying to see how much hate being authentic gets you. It might seem extreme, but tbh I think an extreme shift is needed because social anxiety is an extreme thing. I've never even tried it yet so we'll see. It's a similar concept to getting yourself purposefully rejected in order to get over your fear of it, but in this case it's purposefully not pandering to what other people like for the sake of them liking you. This is interesting, I never thought about how parents could affect social life like that, but it definitely checks out in my case. My parents are definitely like that.

Interesting, i'll try it lol

Only thing I know for sure is no-fap. The increase stops at about day 10 IME. Exercise is also a decent boost. These are good. If you are too stressed or malnourished it will kill your libido.

If you fight it, then that is part of God's will, isn't it?

I have seen the future inside of dreams as well