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I don't think you're even grounded enough for the current teachings, just from reading this and your previous posts. Your ego conflates and projects things a lot. I had 0 thoughts about suicide after reading this post, so I would question where that is coming from. I have no idea about the course though, it might account for beginners coming in, but Leo's teaching style has always been very brash and unsuited for beginners, so I doubt it. Might be wrong though, I haven't looked into what Leo said about the course.

Great post

I learned that lesson when I did try lube lol.

I can only see this happening if your penis itself is very dry, or you're just applying way too much force, or a combination of the two. Back when I was using generic brand harsh soap in the shower, I could feel that it made it too dry after I came out, but it usually resolved itself pretty quickly. Within an hour or two it would be back to normal friction.

I think I might be the only one that finds masturbating more pleasurable without lube. I think the dryness allows for more friction or something, which makes it more pleasurable for me. I am strictly talking about masturbation here, btw.

So true. Just having that context/intimacy can multiply the arousal into another level. It can actually be more arousing than looks imo.

You're tempted to be a spiritual devil Time to summon the legendary video

People interpret things differently

Are self and other not vital to understanding solipsism? Solipsism is basically the recognition that only one mind or experience is known to exist, which simultaneously cuts at the root of this idea that "you" and "other" exist. If you don't deeply understand what "self" is, then you also don't understand what "other" is, and so as a result you will contort some inaccurate version of solipsism in your mind which includes "you" or "other". If you told some random guy on the street that he is the only one that exists, or that solipsism is true, imagine how he would interpret that in his mind. It would be very different than what we are talking about here, because he has a bad understanding of the dynamics between self and other.

Yeah, any "other experience" is imagined within my experience, and that is what "other experience" is, imagination. Anything to do with "other" always necessitates imagination, because "other" is imaginary. Sure, you could say it that way. I'm just warning about the misconceptions that stem from these realizations, which happens quite a lot because the ego likes to project its own relativity onto these insights, kind of like a last ditch effort to keep itself alive.

Sure, here are some relative misconceptions which can come after realizing that others are mostly imaginary: - Imagination is "less real" or "less valid" than the rest of reality (How can one part of reality be less real than the other?) - A "you" that is lonely ("You" only exists in relation to "other", so there is still a duality being projected here. "Other" is as real as "you", and vice versa, they are both the same thing and cannot exist without each other. FYI, I'm talking about the ego when I say "you")

If someone isn't conscious that others are imaginary, then that basically becomes their reality, and vice versa. So even if the truth doesn't change, it can feel like it does depending on how you're viewing reality. The content doesn't change, but how we perceive it does, kind of like that optical illusion where you can see either a rabbit or a duck, despite it being the same image. An inaccurate perception taken as truth is not really ideal, and can lead to suffering, which is why I'm advising against it. Conflating the relative with the absolute is a big trap, because it basically converts your insight into a relative perspective without you even realizing it.

Because they conflate the relative with the absolute. Most people still believe in a subtle ego mind which is lonely, and then they contrast it with a lack of "other", which is just an inaccurate perception of reality.

Pain is related to survival, but not in the same way as thoughts. Pain is something that is avoided, whereas thoughts are something that's constantly perpetuated and is basically essential to survival.

I think it's just more useful in terms of survival to focus on thinking instead of not thinking. It's more comfortable to think. You're more used to it. You've been using it to navigate your entire life, so it's second nature now.

When I first found Leo every video felt like a trip. My reality was being reshaped just through words.

There probably is. I get it as well. But it's very easy to veer off into delusions when it comes to such unexplored territory. Even if it's partially true, that's not really good enough. People are hooked through words which might actually be truthful to some degree, which is why it resonates and pulls them in. And then that takes them down the rabbit hole. Leo's conspiracy video and cult videos are good resources on this.

The all caps title is an offense in and of itself unfortunately

You know damn well Leo hasn't found this thread or it would be locked rn lmao somehow this thread has been under the radar

me as well but idk if i like it

Ask yourself, how are you perceiving "past" and "future" from the present moment? How is that even possible? Where does "past" and "future" exist, if they are supposed to be distinct from the present moment? If it's experienced in the present, and the present moment is your only way of experiencing, then it's not in the past or future, but the present, right? Maybe "past" and "future" have always been in the present moment, and you were just imagining they weren't?

That's what you're imagining. There is a thing that exists, and then you're imagining that there was a point where it began existing. There is no process of "making" existence, unless you imagine it and then project it onto your current experience. The process of making existence would also be something that exists. Existence can't escape itself. Something nonexistent bringing on its own existence is basically correct, but kind of redundantly put. There is no "bringing on", that part is imagined. It just exists there, and then it is subject to whatever imagination you want to throw at it. I think your problem is you're trying to put something infinite into a finite criteria, which leads to paradox. You're unable to see that reality might function paradoxically, and so you're stuck saying things like "in order for this to exist something MUST have created it before." There is no beginning or end to reality, it's infinite, and so there is no real need for a maker or creator or creation process.

Work on your fears and relationships in the waking state, then the dreams will dissipate. The dreams are simply acting out your psychological and physiological state in the waking state, similar to how when you have a full bladder during sleep you might get a dream about having to pee.

The only time I've experienced something negative after fapping was during my flatline, when I would basically get ED everytime I fapped. But that was mostly temporary. And ironically, it was caused by no fap. Otherwise, I feel amazingly euphoric and clear-headed when I'm done masturbating. I think the feeling of post-nut clarity is great. It's kind of like stepping out of a shower.

The good thing is that your direct experience isn't finite, unlike your imagination. You can experience things that aren't finite, which is actually happening right now, even if you're imagining that you aren't. Experiencing nothingness is not really a problem. You can experience it to know what is true. You know it's true cause you experienced it. You basically have two ways of understanding things: direct experience and imagination. If you want to really understand nothingness, experience is your best option. Then afterwards, maybe you can imagine certain words or ideas that point to the experience of nothingness, but aren't actually the experience itself. Using words and concepts isn't entirely bad, it might help someone reach the experience, or map it out for practical relative use. But of course, words and ideas are just pointers, not the actual experience itself. I can actually tap into the fact that I am experiencing nothingness right now, to a certain degree. And that as a result, I am also infinite. I'm able to very easily recontextualize my current experience, because of my previous experience of nothingness. It made the implications of nothingness and how it interacts with life very clear to me. I just have to look at my current experience and convert it to imagination/words. In a sense, yeah. In order to be nothing you have to be conscious that you are nothing. If you're not conscious of it, then it basically doesn't exist. You are nothingness, to a certain degree, right now. And also as a result of that, you're also infinite, right now. The question is whether you're conscious of it or not, similar to how you became conscious of how everything is being imagined, when previously you weren't conscious of it at all even though it was already the case.