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Who knew God would hide itself in such a process. It's like finding a glitch in a video game. Yeah you have to take this specific substance and shove it up your ass and you'll be booted out of the game into creative mode for a bit.

It might not be the alkalinity itself, but all the different stuff from the previous diet that got cut out when switching to the alkaline diet. And also the more healthier foods that tend to come with the alkaline diet. I'm personally opposed to PH based-diets, just because I believe that the body is amazing at maintaining balance and homeostasis and that it has many functions to regulate its PH. For example, consuming something alkaline is not gonna really affect your digestive acid PH, because of homeostasis. This pattern of balance and adaptation can be found everywhere in the human body. At this point, I would say there is more evidence in opposition of the diet, as there are many different functions in the body which help to balance things out regardless of food intake. Food can affect the PH of your urine, though. And I do admit that more alkaline bottled water tastes better than more acidic bottled water for some reason, don't know what the correlation is, but the acidic stuff tastes like plastic.

I was shocked when I saw that he was responding here at all lol

Something interesting I've noticed is that my anger and irritation depends on who did it. For example, if someone spilled something, depending on who did it, I will have an angry or more understanding response. Similar to how you would have a different reaction to a spill if your pet cat spilled it rather than a human. I think this tells us something about anger, which is that when we perceive an incident, we might make up a story in our mind about the person who did it and why they did it, and then that story makes us more angry. If a cat spills it, you might even find it cute. Oh, the cat just didn't know what it was doing. It's silly to expect better from a cat. If a human spills it, you feel very angry. You expect much more compared to the cat, I think this is where the anger and resistance begins. How can this person be so unintelligent? After all I've done to educate them? How much longer do I have to put up with stuff like this? And then you get pulled into this rabbit hole of anger and blame and frustration. Simply put, your expectations don't align with reality. And then, on top of that, the ego actually has another human person to blame for this, which is the perfect recipe for cultivating anger. The ego loves shifting blame and responsibility onto other people, it gives it a vessel to direct its anger into. So overall, I think it's a matter of grounding yourself and not getting caught in the stories and assumptions that you instinctually pull out. Easier said than done though.

I'm getting deja vu from this message, almost like I've seen it in a past life or something

My pleasure

Yeah basically. I never thought that was weird, I thought that was normal for everyone, but now that I think of it, a lot of non-English speakers have to go through English learning classes and stuff. It still boggles my mind how any languages are learned to be honest. Like, I've never in my life consciously decided "I wanna learn this language", but here I am. Parents are from Pakistan but I was born in an English-speaking country. Maybe that's why I was able to learn English so easily. I guess I kind of learned two languages at once, but my first language was not English. They teach very basic English in school, like in kindergarten they would make you write 5 letter sentences or whatever. That's about all the training I got. I was always an anomaly when it came to English, though. I would score 100% on every single spelling test they handed out in middle school and I never had to study for any of those even once. I also spent a lot on time on video games which had English speakers, and I was also very fascinated by words since I was a kid. Like for example, I would see the word "universe" and "university" and I would see the pattern that both of the words have "uni" in them and then I would look into it and realize that "uni" means "one". So that curiosity combined with all the chatting on video games probably helped a lot. Thanks, that came out of nowhere lol

You can call it compassion or forgiveness. Same as love/understanding. Love in essence is just an absence of hate/resistance to reality, and then that absence of hate/resistance might come in different flavors and degrees, like compassion, forgiveness, excitement, joy, etc. All of these involve an embracing and acceptance of reality. Essentially love is an embrace and acceptance of reality, rather than denial or resistance to it. Depending on which aspect of reality you're trying to accept or understand, you might feel different forms of love like compassion, joy, etc.

The psychic probably freaked out when they realized Leo's soul was not human or alien, but rather a mouse

Looks really interesting. Will probably check it out later, thanks.

I'm surprised I know how to speak at all. No one really teaches you. It just happens, you pick it up from childhood somehow. Man I learned so much from that game, including how to type like 500 words per minute on my keyboard.

In order to hate someone, you need to lack full context of who you are hating. In order to hate, you need to imagine a myopic version of someone, which doesn't include the full context of their life and what they've been through. If you did perceive them with all their context, you would fully understand them, and thus be unable to hate them. Metaphysically, there is something very interesting happening here, which is that you are literally imagining a version of someone which doesn't and cannot exist, and then hating and rejecting it, because why would reality be so harsh and cruel so as to allow someone like this to exist? The answer is, they don't exist outside of your limited and myopic imagination of them. You wouldn't get mad at a crocodile for trying to bite your arm off, because that's all it knows how to do. That's how it survives. It's too ignorant to understand morals or even consider empathizing with you. That's just how they are. Just like the crocodile, people who do low-consciousness things literally don't know any better. If they did, they wouldn't be doing those things. It's not accurate to look at what they are doing from a high-consciousness perspective. It's like expecting the crocodile to know morals and not bite your arm off, and then becoming morally outraged at it when it does bite your arm off. People who commit what is perceived as evil, although it might not look like it, are doing what they believe is best with their level of understanding. If they were at your level of consciousness, they wouldn't do what they're doing, but they aren't. It's ultimately just ignorance. That's just their survival mechanism. That's all they know. They're unable to perceive how what they are doing is incorrect or evil, or else they wouldn't do it.

Interesting, I can see how that can easily be misused. It is a fine line.

This isn't really love, it's a lack of love towards yourself. It's based on fear. This is a narrow and neurotic form of love that stems from something conditional. It's being a doormat. You deny yourself love by putting other people's needs and perception above yours. This is an important nuance and misconception to notice.

I love him because he spreads awareness in regards to abusive relationships and how you shouldn't judge people (such as Amouranth) without knowledge into their personal life I love him because he gives us the opportunity to practice deeper levels of love and understanding I love him because he donated 250k to a pigeon and dove adoption agency (Even though it was out of anger towards Amouranth and it was meant to drain their bank account. Maybe he has a soft spot for birds?) I love him because I know that any hate towards him comes from a lack of understanding

Famous twitch streamer Amouranth has leaked phone calls and messages from her husband showing him to be a manipulative psychopath. On the call he threatens to kill her dogs because she didn't hear what he said correctly. In the text messages he says he is throwing hundreds of thousands of dollars of their income down the drain because she isn't responding to his texts when he wanted her to. He has apparently been the one in charge of a lot of the streams and the one advising her to do hot tub streams, so he has had a lot of control over her. On her last stream, a door opens behind her and the stream instantly ends. We haven't heard back from her yet. The husband thing has come out of left-field, until now Amouranth has kept it ambiguous as to whether she is single or not. It's likely to be real because there aren't really any benefits for her to pull a stunt like this.

i like how you've classified ice cream as a fruit/vegetable, very clever. i will use this trick next time i have to eat my fruits and veggies more like, a giant glorified raisin when is the last time you had pineapple?

I'm very adamant on the idea that younger people see spirits and entities much easier. The stereotype is true, where you see little kids in horror movies that point to some invisible monster that the adults can't see. Although, I get that this was a psychiatric hospital. There was also some study, I'm too lazy to look it up, but it said something like babies have a more "psychedelic" and flexible mind. You can probably find it on Google somewhere.

hopefully in my next reincarnation I will become such an entity

shadow people and disembodied voices during sleep paralysis when i was very young saw some ghost/spirit/entity with a blue tint, in the waking state. It looked like a little boy. I don't really purposefully pursue entity work, but sometimes you end up encountering the odd ghost here and there. Plus I think it's kind of creepy so i'll just let them do their own thing.

yea but it had a bit of info wars propaganda sprinkled in

You gotta test and isolate variables. If porn does something for you, then that tells you that there's something specifically about being in front of a real person that is the problem, and it is not necessarily some biological dysfunction or complete lack of libido. And also it might validate or invalidate your theory, if you can't even get turned on by porn anymore then it's most definitely not porn-induced, cause porn should at least turn you on. This is important info. If you're not horny enough after 8 days of abstinence, I personally would say that rules out porn as a culprit. Especially if you were horny enough to be masturbating so regularly prior to that. From my experience, the horniness caps at around day 8-10. Unless you are some serious porn addict, like masturbating 5 times daily over a long period of time, I doubt much of the problem is porn, and if it is, I'm pretty sure the 8 days would negate that. I understand that people can be very different in terms of sexuality though. This is just how I have noticed that this stuff affects me personally and what I would do. If you're scared of undoing your progress in abstaining from porn, fine, you can go for a month or something and then watch if it gets better or not. IME, I've gone that route before, and libido really does not change much beyond day 10, but maybe it will be different for you. Even if porn offsets progress, you can always go back to abstaining. So I wouldn't sweat it too much. That's not bad considering you were watching it as an experiment, which is not the most attractive scenario to watch porn in. Do you feel the 8 day abstinence has made some sort of difference?

A lot of times people get nervous or feel like they're under lots of pressure to perform well during the sex, which turns into a self-fulfilling prophecy. Did you feel nervous around her? Were you able to be playful around her or were you mostly serious? Is your libido still dead even with porn? That seems out of the ordinary to me, that it really just vanished like that. It might even be that, you were nervous the first time, and now you are so fixated on that experience that every time you try to engage in a sexual experience you're just reminded of that experience and it makes you feel nervous and lose libido. Like I said, the psychological aspect is big. If possible, you can even edge yourself to porn before meeting her to get your head in the game. Maybe you weren't in the mood or weren't in the right headspace, this can help with that. If not, it might be some odd temporary phase. Give it a week or two and see how it gets better or worse. Our bodies are constantly trying to maintain balance, and reaching that balance might take a bit.

I'm sure this is the cause then. Do you think something triggered it? Or did it sort of gradually become worse? Do you also have any lingering feelings of anxiety, or is it just a very neutral state of anhedonia? Are you able to be calm? What's your diet like, then? What do you usually eat? Do you eat a lot? Maybe not, since there's not much pleasure?

Have you been especially depressed recently? Or especially stressed? Are you getting enough sleep? Any big changes in diet? A lot of libido really just comes down to your psychology and how you feel mentally. Have the 8 days of abstinence helped at all?