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Yes, exactly! That is the true intended purpose of that emotion, before it is co-opted by thoughts about yourself. By the way, thoughts are always ABOUT yourself, they are not your ACTUAL self, which is your entire physical experience. Thoughts are just thoughts. You are you (not thoughts). What I said actually applies to ALL negative emotions in ALL situations. So, if you extrapolate this method to your entire experience in general, your life might blossom into something really beautiful, you might even achieve enlightenment or something.

There is no visual experience of tree AND cat, because you are referring to TWO visual experiences (as you have separated tree and cat). There is one visual experience, which has tree and cat. You separate it and abstract the experience through thought. The difference you're experiencing is not distinction. When you say "difference" you are referring to visual perception. Distinction is you splicing up the visual perception through thought. A flower has no capability of distinguishing itself into something else, because when it distinguishes itself, it's not a flower anymore, it's a thought/distinction. Anything that exists cannot reduce itself down further. Experience cannot "distinguish itself", it can only create a THOUGHT (which isn't experience) that imagines a distinction. The letters are experienced differently but they exist at the same time as everything else in your experience, so it can't be distinguished as "a letter" or "B" or "A" until you think of it first. Everything in your experience exists at the same time as eachother, so therefore distinctions of "a cat", "a tree" or "a letter" are not accurate to what you are experiencing (because you're separating experience with labels) and therefore they are NOT the experience itself. Sure. Sure, but that's just a human conception (which is created through words, thoughts, and other methods of communication). The concept is never the actual thing itself, it's just a method of communicating or describing experience. Maybe, but distinction is just a specific type of thought which describes an abstraction of experience. It's just a thought. It might seem like I'm saying the same thing over and over again, so I'll try to bite at the main contention. You're saying the actual physical experience, or any aspect of actual experience, IS distinction, which is wrong. Distinction is just thought ABOUT experience, not the actual experience it is describing. Experience is infinite and one. If you look at a painting of Mona Lisa, the entire painting is one thing, although you are still experiencing SOMETHING (the painting). But, this SOMETHING you're experiencing is still one and it has no distinctions. Then, your thoughts come and say "Mona Lisa", "human", "background", which then creates a subtraction of experience through thought. Experience can never actually subtract itself, so it has to create a simulation of a subtracted experience through thought, but then that is always ONLY just thought, not the experience itself that it describes. A thought always ONLY factually exists as a thought. Nothing else. It doesn't matter how amazing or descriptive it is, it is never smarter than any other thought, it is never more intelligent than any other thought, because they're ALL JUST THOUGHTS. They are never the qualities of "intelligence" and "smartness" itself. When you say "human mind" here I'm just gonna assume you're talking about "human experience" or "the experience of being human" for lack of better words, correct me if this is a wrong interpretation of the term though. No, the human mind is just the human mind. Not two things. Not human mind + distinction. Just human mind. The distinction is just a sensory perception WITHIN human mind that it describes, and so it not the whole thing itself, and so it is not human mind itself. What you're doing from a metaphysical perspective is this: You're taking human mind, which is infinite and one, then you're subtracting a part of it through thought, focusing on that subtracted thought form, and then saying: "Human mind IS this subtracted thought form (distinction)" Really try to understand this: IF existence, at least theoretically, is one and infinite. I mean, you can try proving it, for example, try to point to the edge of your vision. But yes, IF existence is one and infinite, then "a cat" or "a tree" CANNOT exist, because all of these are just subtracted FORMS of existence and they only exist INSIDE existence. Existence is not JUST "a cat". Existence is not JUST "a tree". Existence is always the entirety of existence itself. And then any "distinguished" part of existence cannot be existence itself, because it's just a distinction/thought, not the entire thing itself.

Nothing. Thought forms. Things that aren't you and can't touch you. Fear is just paranoia of what doesn't exist. Paranoia is following "threatening" thought patterns, but of course, thoughts cannot threaten anything. Paranoia is just a radical and noticeable degree of fear. "Normal" and "functional" paranoia is just called fear or survival, but it is still ultimately paranoid, because it never makes contact with what actually exists. Fear is a negative emotion. It's a combination of two things, "negative" and "emotion." The "negative" part comes from thoughts. "Emotion" is just actual physical sensation. You can separate the two. The physical symptoms associated with fear are real, but they are simply things like adrenaline, heartbeat, excitement, etc. So, they can actually exist without the thought. It becomes negative when you associate it with thought, and then that's how fear is created. Otherwise, it's just a physical symptom, nothing negative or positive about it. It just motivates you to avoid danger, without any reference to future or past selves. Fear is just a personification of physical symptoms, and then that personification just exists as a thought form, which is ultimately not describing anything real or physical.

No, it's exactly not yourself. Fear is a subset of reality, not reality. You are reality.

No. Visual experience is not equal to distinction, which is thought. The experience of vision is infinite.

No. You can't point to something that is infinite. It's just one thing. You cannot point to the edge of your vision, for example. It proves that you're talking, ABOUT something. Anything you talk about isn't what you're actually talking about. It's always AROUND the thing. It exists as a thought. You are interpreting thought as something that you should connect to something that isn't thought (your experience), and so it seems like it is not just a thought, but it is. Yes, the thought is one and part of experience, but, in your experience, you are connecting this sensory perception (thought) to things that are not thought, and you are mistaking it for those things.

It's not the worst place ever on the internet. There's Twitter.

I mean, I'm fine. Don't know about you guys.

I think their diet advice is in the right direction. Very intuitive. I find most people's diets nowadays to be logical rather than physical. That's because their junk food is super spicy and oily and tasty, and there is like no knowledge on health there, this applies to a lot of these less developed countries. What happens is, you'll have their traditional healthy whole food, like lentils or whatever. But then you also have the more unhealthy stuff that they love to snack on. Most indian people do not really care about diet at all, they aren't taught about it, it's not really enforced there. So, lentils are indian food. But then also, some ball of dough fried in week old frying oil is ALSO indian food. So there's the disparity. Then, you'll have candy and imported western products, which they know absolutely nothing about, and they just indiscriminately eat all of it or put it all in their food. They just don't care, and the doctors don't really care either (they just perscribe pills), and they're never really taught much about diet. So, ultimately, I think it's bad to judge something more secular like Ayurveda on this. But also, you will never know until you personally try. Just my two cents. Might have some biases and assumptions of my own in there, but I've lived in similar areas and seen what it's like. I would also say, the pollution of the country is probably unrelated to diet. I don't know why you would consider that as a factor. I mean, India brought many enlightened people as well, despite being poluted, since you like correlations.

You can't talk or think of an "actual tree" or "actual car." So, no, you aren't. These are just abstractions of the actual experiences. The medium that you are perceiving these differences in is literally wrong, and it is not reality itself, it is just a thought. A tree is your experience. A car is your experience. The experience can't point to itself or reduce itself further, so you separate it with thought and say "the tree is different from a cat, and vice versa." Experience cannot separate itself, you can only create a simulation of separation through thought. So, the distinction is just a thought, and then the actual experience does not have distinction. Note that you say "make" a distinction, meaning that this distinction did not exist previously before you "made" it. This previous state which existed before you made the distinction is not a distinction, it is the real experience itself, and it contains no distinctions, because experience cannot separate itself or point to itself. It can only create a simulation/description of "pointing to itself" through the medium of thought. It's just a thought. There is perception, but perception is not distinction. Perception is experience. Distinction is not something that magically embeds itself in reality, it is just a very descriptive thought. That's literally all it is. Just a thought. Just as an analogy, you might think that your experience includes: "A human being, a chair, a table, a computer, the sun, the sky, sounds, etc." But no, it's redundant to create those distinctions and separate them in a list like that, it's more like your experience is just "your experience", and then "your experience" experience includes humans, chairs, tables, computers, etc. There's no need to create the separations "A human being, a chair, a table, etc." because it's all included in "your experience." It is all your experience, and it is literally YOU. This might be confusing, so let's imagine you're playing a game of Mario. Notice that, when you play Mario, even though you are controlling Mario, you are still experiencing the entire game, including Bowser, the goombas, Princess Peach, etc. These are all included inside of the experience of Mario. The game isn't JUST a guy named Mario, in the same way that your life isn't JUST a human being. Your life includes other human beings, it involves food, it involves music, etc. So, it's the entire experience of being a human, rather than just this secluded distinction of "I am a human." Ultimately, these distinctions are just abstractions of you and your experience, not the actual experience itself.

It's limited. You will have to transcend it eventually, IF you wanna progress forward after a certain point. Reality and truth is not a book. Book just points towards things.

You might need something more practical and grounded. Some more objective perspectives on your matter. Talk with someone. Talk with an online therapist or something. Heck, even just talk with AI, they're super understanding and insightful.

It gets kind of tricky here, so bear with me. Distinction is ultimately just a thought. That is the only medium it can exist in. For example, there is this distinction of "physical object", but "physical object" always only exists as some form of communication, in this case it is words on a screen, and then you might describe it to yourself in your imagination as well, but it is NEVER the actual experience of physicality itself. The experience of physicality is NOT distinction, it is just physical sensation. Physical sensation is not a distinction, and it is not limited by anything. The actual physical experience itself cannot be contained by anything. You cannot limit or distinguish qualia that is genuinely in your experience. So, you have to use your thoughts to create a limited simulation of your experience that says "these things are physical", but that thought/distinction you made up is NOT the experience of physicality itself, and you cannot find a distinction outside of that thought, you can only find the sensation of physicality outside of that thought, which is not a distinction.

In structure, yes. In content, no. Imagine a box (structure) with different items inside it (content). You can perceive differences in the content. A distinction is a thought (structure) which creates a simulation/description (content) of experience/reality. Note that, ultimately, content and structure are one and the same, but for the sake of communication and understanding it is useful to distinguish the two. To further cement this point through analogy, when we listen to music, the structure of music is the same (sound), but the content (different notes and pitches) can be perceived as different, although the content cannot exist without the structure, and vice versa.

You're bitter towards women because you perceive a severe lack of love towards yourself, and you rely on them for that. That's all. This relationship is bound to make you bitter and misanthropic, because you are forced to use other people as a clutch for basic levels of love and acceptance. Please be mindful of this. Also, please note that this lack of love is not the case for everyone, and that the women in question may not be actually aware of the fact that you are so deprived of love. If you yourself cultivated that love, there would be no need for bitterness, clinginess, or vengeance. You are just in a state which lacks love and acceptance and clarity. It will pass.

All emotions are intelligent in that they respond to what you believe you are experiencing. I imagine a monster under my bed > perceived theat > emotion (fear) When your clarity of perception increases, what you experience becomes more real and refined, and so with this your emotions also become more refined as a result, as your emotions are in porportion to exactly what you experience/perceive. "Refined" simply meaning: You don't get emotional over things that do not exist. Someone who is enlightened will have close to perfect emotional control. They will be at peace sitting by themselves in a room. They might perceive fear ONLY when something to fear exists, as an example, a loud unexpected sound, or perhaps being attacked by a bear. The emotions are in tune with what is real.

Oh yeah, not to mention, fucking hypnagogic/hypnopompic hallucinations, as they're called. These are hallucinations that happen as you're drifting into sleep OR as you are waking up, respectively. I recently had one where I woke up SUPER sleepy, and I looked at the door to my room and there was this ghoulish growling noise coming from the other side of it, KIND of like sleep paralysis, but the weird difference here is that, my visual focus was continuing to perceive this door BEFORE I woke up and also AFTER I woke up, so in terms of continuity, it was perfect. So, it literally felt like I woke up, heard noises from outside my door, then the noises vanished, that's it. There wasn't like, a second "waking up", there was just a boost of wakefulness where I could move and think clearly again, that's it. So, to reiterate, because of the continuity of the visual stimuli, it was basically impossible to tell the difference between when I was asleep and hallucinating and when I actually woke up, but I assume that some part of my brain was still dreaming, hence the hallucination, but my visual stimuli was not dreaming, as it was accurately displaying my room. On a side note, I've always wondered how the visual stimuli during sleep paralysis is created. How am I perceiving my room? Are my eyes actually physically open? Were my eyes physically open throughout the hypnopompic hallucination as well?

I had a very cool nightmare today. From a structural standpoint, it's up there with that one time I had a lucid dream while inside of another dream. The characters involved are a group of popular animators i've seen on Youtube (so I guess this is how my subconscious decides to represent the dream), and they are all friends, and they were just bantering and fooling around with eachother, working on animations, like those simple cartoony ones you see on Youtube all the time. For some reason, I am present to witness this conversation with them as a dream character, I am also part of their friend group. One of them made a joke about how one of them is actually sadistic, and how he actually tortures people while they're sleeping. An animated funny video plays of this guy fucking with some guy while hes sleeping and the animator being like "you're dying wake up you're dying." The animators seem to be aware that they are in a dream and conversing in a dream, and they are just making fun of their friend and how their friend could potentially torture any of them while they are dreaming. So the dream characters are kind of self aware. (dark humor) Now, that "joke" starts happening to me! It's not a joke anymore! I start feeling invisible hands all over my body fondling me and the animator's voice saying "wake up you're dying im killing you in real life wake up" and so I panic and do my best to actually wake myself up, and so I do, and the nightmare ends. It felt like a genuine threat to my life and my real body, though. Talk about a mindfuck, a meta fucking nightmare, holy shit. The dream character played a fucking prank on me which translated into the waking state. It was a real prank. What the hell lmao. You might be thinking that this is a weird plot, and "why are there are animators?" And yes, I agree. It doesn't matter that they are animators. But that's just how dreams are. The actual structure of the "prank" being pulled on me is all that really matters. Basically, the dream character started fondling my body (which I could feel, kind of like a cross between sleep paralysis and the dream state) and started threatening me saying that I need to wake up because he is killing me and torturing my real body. Of course, nothing was there when I woke up, so I got pranked by a dream character. Such is life. Hope this made some semblance of sense, it was actually hard to articulate because of the nonsensical nature of dreams.

Interesting, caffeinated? I find the cold and carbonated nature of soda to be very neutral, and at times causing bloating and burping (although I haven't had it in a very long time). Something like tea is generally very warming, makes my body itself produce lots of warmth, and makes the digestion feel smoother. I also find that if you consume soda alongside something else, you will pretty much always feel it "interacting" or "fighting" with whatever you just consumed, whereas tea seems to just seamlessly combine itself with most foods (but definitely not all, depending on what tea or food you consume). I find that any warm beverage like tea or coffee tends to speed up digestion and make it much more smoother and efficient. Coffee, in particular, has very potent energetic effects, which are completely unrelated to just caffeine. For example, it is proven to significantly increase ketones for those practicing ketosis. But, your body might actually just be different. I mean, in my case, caffeine doesn't have much of an effect on me. I also heard that carbonation (CO2) can actually have certain health benefits, so yeah, test it yourself.

Find foods that are simultaneously all of what I list below: -Filling -Comforting -Nutritious Foods with fiber will keep you satisfied for longer. Also, REALLY pay attention to how food makes you feel. Seriously weigh out what IS and ISN'T worth eating. Certain foods will make your stomach feel heavy and agitated (if they are overly spicy or low quality). Like, if you pay attention, certain foods will LITERALLY taint your consciousness. It will make your conscious experience, and thus, your conscious reality, dull and agitated. This should be taken very seriously. Pay genuine attention to HOW bad food is ACTUALLY bad, don't just intellectually tell yourself "oh this is bad because my doctor told me" or something of the sort. Notice how it is bad in your own experience for yourself. On the other hand, certain foods will taste really good and make you feel full at the same time. Really, if you just master your diet and health, you won't need to spend anything for comfort, easier said than done of course, but I've kind of given you basic and practical ideas as to how to start doing that quickly.

This was one of the few experiences where it was frightening but also cool enough to balance out the fear if that makes any sense. Dunno, kind of like being on a rollercoaster I guess. Might be an acquired taste, cause I love analyzing dream metaphysics, or metaphysics in general.

Oh fuck, now that you mention it, this exact same thing always used to happen to me with my mom as a character as well. I wouldn't get any friends or other people, just her and me. I believe it is called a "false awakening", which is when you think you wake up but you are still dreaming. But yeah, I would keep getting tricked into thinking I was awake, and then the realization would creep in "oh fuck I'm still in a nightmare aren't I", and then my mom would transform into some monster or something, and then the cycle would repeat. It wasn't too long though, maybe about 3 or 5 cycles of it until I finally forced myself awake. When I was really young, I had a lucid dream, and there was some monster in there that kept telling me "you're never leaving this dream, you're trapped here forever", and then the rest of the dream was just me trying desperately to wake up, lmao. Unrelated, but I also had this weird reoccuring dream that would pop up from time to time, but it doesn't happen anymore (perhaps I've dealt with it subconsciously or something). But, it basically involved me being chased by a bunch of bees and having to avoid bees in general. Like, I would always be in some area where it's literally ALL covered in bees, and I have to meticulously watch where I'm stepping or else I would step on one and they would get angry. So yeah, reoccuring bee-related dreams. Odd.

No, but I guess the mechanism is somewhat similar, in that it is caused by an awkward or unique sleeping routine. All of this was probably brought on by my poor sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping lately. When your sleep quality is disturbed, you tend to get very odd and vivid dreams. Back when I was in junior high, my sleep schedule was so awkward and bad that I would get sleep paralysis with an 80% success rate if I kept following that schedule.

From purely a perspective of "How high quality is the education?", I would say it sucks really bad (by my standards at least), and any decent education you get from it will probably depend on purely subjective and unenforced factors such as the type of teacher you get and what their teaching style is. Not everyone learns the same, but the education system has not accommodated for this fundamental fact yet. You have to be motivated enough to learn everything on your own if the teacher is bad at teaching. If I had to pick something, I would prefer a shorter and more focused course that focuses entirely on writing, with a decent reputation to prove its quality. Not something like university which forces you to do a bunch of extra unecessary courses on top of what you are already trying to do, among other things. In other words, something practical. At the very least, you will get some sort of credential from it, and it will be in a much shorter time period than a university, probably. Aside from the quality of education, there are other factors like cost, time, location, practicality, which you can probably figure out for yourself. Above all, you should be taking responsibility for your education and asking questions like: Do I learn well in this environment? How can I learn better? Does my brain learn differently? What works for me? Is this practical for me? How well did I learn in my previous educational environments? And, for practicality, you should also be looking at it from a marketing perspective: How did other writers get their foot in the door? How does getting a job in the field look, practically? How can I build a portfolio? You could probably find stories and groups online of aspiring writers like yourself. And yeah, caveat, certain very technical fields like becoming a lawyer and doctor will require credentials from universities. This is obviously not the case with writing, which is very artistic.

Oh man, I've had multiple dreams where I developed an entire crush on a dream character and then I felt withdrawals when I woke up lmao. Stupid brain.