Origins

@28 cm unbuffed My mother was more or less a coping borderline. She did what she knew best, we all do, sometimes that's not good enough and we get angry and frustrated because of that which is fine its important to process our feelings including doing so through the lens of helping us establish what was right about our upbringing and what was wrong about it so we can better orient ourselves towards good value generation. It's very important to get to the level of consciousness and well being where you're able to discriminate between and distinguish at the level of felt experience and conceptual experience concerning our past. For the former, we have emotional identification to processing to conscious shifting and generation. For the latter we slowly educate ourselves on subjects from child psychology and therefore identifying what we missed out on to both our own and our parents psychology so that we can accurately generate more creative answers and subsequent responses to our autobiographical history there. Otherwise, something which will be good for both nervous system recovery and emotional processing. All the best mate feel free to ask questions, just follow the trail of links.

@Seed It can be body. It can be mind. It can be both. Feel free to checkout anything useful here for you, I recommend as noted the Wim Hof method because if you've got a good memory and therefore it has nothing to with your capacity to remember your insights about life and how you'd like to live along with good strategies on how to do that it more than likely has something to do with your nervous system. Wim Hof plus learning the method I describe in the link added in the following link: Feel free to ask any further questions ( and of course I realise your issues have nothing to do with anxiety, it can be used for most if state management where conscious thought in the context of a feedback loop can be optimised for ones betterment )

@Pernani Simulate beforehand, experience the feelings, notice the patterns, determine the answer for yourself. Simulation will reveal the same answers likely as real life in this sense because social is so familiar to you. I shared this recently, it might be a useful tool for you in the context of learning about your emotions through the lens of social simulation, and of course, not social simulation to strategically win approval . Best

@Preety_India I notice that I don't notice peoples journals as much when they're printed that small haha. I'm also being mindful of people who either forgot, broke, lost / have not been prescribed glasses/contact-lenses haha Font 16.

Just for some humour how can you help the prisoners breakout?

Transcendent Empathy - addendum to above post: Physical Prisons: Visiting every prison on planet Earth, as many as I'm aware of. All the prisoners, I can see them in my minds eye. Every single prisoner in solitary confinement, every single prisoner experiencing violence/suffering, every single prisoner forced to do drugs, deal drugs and steal drugs, along with changing the word "drugs" to any other seemingly unavoidable error in judgement like weapons and various other forms of contraband. Mental Prisons: All over the planet going to every single psychiatric institution, every psychologists office presently working, every form of negative group dynamics that compromise the sanity of individuals to every single lonely, ostracised and or just internally suffering person on the planet. Go to every human experiencing sadness, every human repressing their emotions, every human dissociating from their body, every human experiencing anger, every human experiencing literally any negative state of being. There are likely at least a billion people at any one time in the second category and there are over 10.3 million people across the planet presently incarcerated (the first category). How can they be helped? How do they help each other? What solutions did they come up with? What solutions can you come up with with the suffering's that they go through that you can somehow share in your local or internet space or even apply to your own life? By reading the previous post you'll understand what I'm doing here.

@Preety_India Feel free to share. Answering anything you say may help others . Two+ birds with one stone kind of thing ha

@Blackhawk Share your worst. C'mon, you posted now you gotta share and I gotta see where I can take this! It's okay, only what you're comfortable with haha. Here's something I shared just recently, feel free to checkout at your leisure otherwise feel free to do whatever you wish first I'll roll with the punches. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63537-childhood-traumas/?do=findComment&comment=871590 And as it serves your curiosity something I do nearly every day that's helped in a unique way independent of emotional intelligence (above link) mastery. Otherwise feel free to ask questions about anything I mention of course: Heal Yourself with The Ice Shaman | Wim Hof & Russell Brand https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPPlicAEFec Wim Hof Guided Breathing (3 Rounds) BEGINNERS ⏱ With Onscreen Timer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sHe2RMnMA8

@ROOBIO Hey mate, just shared this process I created here feel free to ask questions about it. And as it serves your curiosity something I do nearly every day that's helped in a unique way independent of emotional intelligence mastery: Heal Yourself with The Ice Shaman | Wim Hof & Russell Brand https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPPlicAEFec Wim Hof Guided Breathing (3 Rounds) BEGINNERS ⏱ With Onscreen Timer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sHe2RMnMA8

@Rishabh R sometimes you have to run through walls in the mind, or just perform healthy feedback loops. Here's one that may be useful, feel free to ask questions. You'd just perform the activity on said disabling intrusive thoughts:

@HERO_ Feedback loop I designed just for you (updated with steps 13, 14 and 15): 1. close your eyes 2. sink into your body 3. feel your emotions 4. label your emotions while staying contact with your body --- you mentioned failure, target that first then work down the list of "negative" emotions 5. recall a memory that links to that emotion (may just end up being association/s) 6. remember to keep your eyes closed and stay in any of those associations that come up 7. ask yourself, what is behind the feeling that I'm experiencing relating to this association 8. any other emotions, prepare yourself, experience them fully, the body is learning to understand these new commands you're providing it in doing so, its learning how to bring up emotions as you ask it to in response to your associational mind-body memory 9. focus on your breath for a few moments away from other associations and emotions while not blocking them out either 10. shift to the emotion of compassion on the experience you're going through, do this for 30 seconds as a practice run, as you get better and better at cycling through these steps, learn to transition between this state and love so that you learn to transmute that state to the level you've automatically learned to do, that you've developed a natural instinct for anticipating the amount of time you personally need to devote 11. notice any changes you're experiencing and now here's the step where I'd advise that you start a journal to help you encode the experiences you've had in this practice so you can recall the benefit of doing it, in doing, increase the likelihood of continue to do it 12. in this journal I want you to repeat the above exercise with/without the noted transitions but in doing so, I want you to mind map those associations in a more regimented manner, going back to the earlier question of asking yourself "what emotion is behind this emotion", taking that to the next set of associations and the emotions that are behind there In the beginning it'll be difficult to perform these steps but as you improve your proficiency your mastery over your emotional intelligence will become second to none. Go through the same process with your: - feelings of shame - family dependency or dependency in general, work through any feelings associated with the idea of independence 13. have trust in your intuitive intelligence to notice patterns you performed in step 12 and then translate those insights into actions you can take right now to begin repatterning those associations, for example as it concerns any associations relating to dependency, do the opposite of withdrawal that may have arisen when you say perhaps wanted to shy away at an independent move. The same can be done with shame, by focusing on say pride and performing a corresponding action that produces said pride you can train your relationship to pride and better transition naturally away from feelings of shame 14. before bed read your journal which would include your experiences in step 13 and remind yourself in the morning of those insights 15. remind yourself throughout the day of these insights you've uncovered, this will trigger dopamine (makes you feel good) and a positive progress feedback loop for yourself

@rd5555 If you sit quietly in your mind and imagine their presence when they're not there, what kind of experiences come to mind? What is the experience of sitting with them like in pure observation? This is particularly important as it concerns discerning the nature of the actual anxiety and the reasons it comes up. Outside of the anxiety, what are other problems you experience with the wider friendship group?\ May as well share this while I'm at it just shared, may serve (not necessarily relating to childhood traumas of course though perhaps, just in relation to your anxiety:

Transcendental Empathy (core tenet of communication) ======================= The following requires a lot of psychological development as well as being a unique portal into consciousnesses further development into more than just less than obvious ways. Traveling the Earth Into the blue Into the yellow And all things mellow And all things dark Light a spark That’s the art Of empathy Transcendental communication across the planet Communicating with beings all around the world Through imagination alone is it Perhaps But why is that not just the beginning of the enquiry into the nature of that reality To journey across the lands Gain wisdom that I could never experience first hand Beyond consciousnesses middle-band Exploring the heights, the skies, the heavens and the hells What is this concrete formulation in any moment? This moment of discovery rediscovers its unencapsulated mystery Geometry that has more bends than we can comprehend To speak to the angry To speak to the elated In doing so, Learning to communicate and adore all As I simulate, I create Multiplicities That force the emergence of reshaping pictures That encapsulate the sound of the previously non-transmissible The chaotically untraceable, and destructive Into a peaceful melody That you can hear outside of prejudice And instead with the ears of understanding, like God’s Take me to New York and listen to the footsteps of thoughts at Times Square Or to observe the curious eye gazing under the Eiffel tower Or take me to a funeral to experience the myriad of experiences of the people paying their respects (and sometimes other) Or to the end of a grand final football match to experience both the jubilation and the sorrow of thousands of fans The destiny of life finds itself in these moments that live in the gaps of experience that make up the observation of human beings How they have resolved within themselves To comprehend and experience the life they live Through their perceptions, their painted curiosities, tainted sorrows, pure intentions and not so This is the journey of mind Via empathy and imagination The capacity to travel the globe, and even into the realms of beings from outer space To listen to how they communicate, feel the depth of their understandings in their reactions to the life they experience in their subtleties and unexpected pondering's Take the elevator in your mind to the heights and deepest levels To the highest, you experience the greatest depths of existence including the capacity to communicate with any being anywhere in the universe and through that experience transcendental empathy To the lowest, you will experience the greatest depths of self, including the capacity to communicate with aspects of yourself in alternate realities, past lives and “dream selves” And everywhere in between to prepare, experience and teach the self anything you wish to teach it (fly a plane, enter into a war at any time in history, etc) as well as travel to any time in history across the universe, including any future time This is transcendental empathy, excellence in imagination and an ingenious portal to wisdom, insight and transformation The mirror of consciousness that reflects back to you your capacity to walk through life with ease, joy, love, truth and of course, the chaotic pursuit into the unknown for transcendent evolution of the self ==================== okay here we go better presentation I'm sure plenty of people can resonate with this (an unlisted improvisation for A list exclusivity ----- haven't sang or "guitared" for a few days")

ideas for "stuck in self awareness" (number 3 above) ------ voice all shaky etc because I didn't do any warmups and sang excessively that day plus its a sleep deprivation experiment haha some of them are horrible but that's a part of the fun of it, give it a go (message me if you need help with creativity) (early days of learning the piano --- hence why I'm putting in at least 5 hours a day every day)

So I want to produce a spiritual, life, experiential, thought, emotional, universal awakening in those that are capable of experiencing said awakening through a set of song that will transform their life directions for the better upon listening. It's been in my subconscious for a while now trying to figure out what the following improvisation meant to me but its strikingly obvious now when I compare it with the transition I've made since I created it in September of last year. The song, directed by subconscious realms I don't fully understand, was marking an awakening point, and in deed it was. Pattern here used in the title is meant to reflect of course the underlying truth pertaining to music in general and the affect it has on the directionality of unique consciousness (reflecting the individuality of all beings). We cannot continue on any path let alone transcend said path be it in spirituality or anything else if we, "see the situation with the same reasoning we did before", there must be a shift, and in the context of spirituality for lack of a better word, it has to be an Awakening Point, that's what this song was all about it makes total sense now. So this will essentially be the first of a series of songs that will mirror my own transition to higher Transcendence for lack of a better way of expressing it at this point. (have shared this song a couple of times already) For fuck sake, finally I know where to extend my creative energies without dissonance. It's perfect.

@neutralempty Give an example. As it pertains to connection, that's because I write like this (see below), comparably. It enables me to fit more into a sentence. Whether people understand is up to their capacities, I'm not in the business of being people's school teacher nor am I here to make friends here with people who don't as you put it, fluidly understand (to replace read). I seek like minds in this lifetime, there's too many ingredients in the social salad bowl of life, would cut 99.99% out with the rest of the villager ancestors that have already passed. Buffalo is to cow as …. is to pig Goat Boar Mule Hare I don't care to explain this example. If you understand it you understand it, if you don't, move along please. Abruptness is my style.

@neutralempty My writing is perfectly coherent outside of your ability to provide accurate feedback there, of which you've added none. I'll have a think about it and won't get back to you (feel free to ponder it for yourself though - its explorative at this stage). Whether psychopaths are violent depends on the psychopath, this is where environment comes into account. Convicted psychopaths are more likely to have had an upbringing that fostered said reality compared to psychopaths that didn't, other than say, being less intelligent than psychopaths that didn't get caught.

Transcendent Resilience: haha now just starting my 10 hours and 30 minutes on piano at 9pm at night remember my philosophy its completion or death for me, don't give a fuck just freaking carving away at that resilience I got, time to dominate it an't gonna do it itself What can I fucking muster to get through it? Will probably write about it when done.

There's so many now right. Can't not do this . (feel free to use any of my ideas at your leisure, literally doesn't phase me, create a book from them make profit doesn't bother me, send me the book you created not the royalties to see if I can add anything there to my own personal insights / or even better just PM me to develop concepts further). Title: What is Transcendent Communication? Spectrum: Openness: Depth: Connection https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63834-what-is-transcendent-communication-spectrum-openness-depth-connection/ Title: Transcendent Relationships: Understanding https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63832-transcendent-relationships-understanding/#comment-871024 Title: Existential Transcendence (Important Questions) https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63753-existential-transcendence-important-questions/ Title; Existential Transcendence (its poetic analogue) https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63739-existential-transcendence-its-poetic-analogue/#comment-870934 Title: Remembering the Ordinary: Who was I before Transcendence? https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63838-remembering-the-ordinary-who-was-i-before-transcendence/ Title: Transcendent Humour https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63839-transcendent-humour/#comment-871135 Title: Transcendence: Album (finally resolved on the pattern I want to produce) https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63836-transcendence-album-finally-resolved-on-the-pattern-i-want-to-produce/ Title: Transcendence: Notes, Areas, Goals (so yeah: miscellaneous all covered) https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63841-transcendence-notes-areas-goals-so-yeah-miscellaneous-all-covered/#comment-871133 Title: Transcendent Production: Creative Feedback Loops (handling the experiential) https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63843-transcendent-production-creative-feedback-loops-handling-the-experiential/ OLD: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/60412-list-of-highlighted-journals/#comment-821426

And yet another journal for Transcendence (probably more to come ). So, using the following outdated journal (that's just the category I'm putting it in for now) for creative inspiration: Title: Principles of Life - This is dogma, drink my coolaid or skirt away into nonsense https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/60414-principles-of-life-this-is-dogma-drink-my-coolaid-or-skirt-away-into-nonsense/?do=findComment&comment=821492 (Just for the record I no longer really believe in "principles of life" that just seems to be a lower point of resolution to all this) This is where you get physical with physical existence, where you master the highest possible creative flow within this life experience. And not just action sweet pee, you want to do it in thought, emotion and any of their relatives as well, this is where you conceptually paint the geometry of creative flow in the context of creative production and live through those feedback loops generated in action. It sounds "robotic" but in the action its not, that's your visible flow like any professional athlete, master at their craft would experience through their own flow, you're just doing it via all of life bitches. Read the book (here's a review): Flow - The Psychology of Optimal Experience https://www.meaningfulhq.com/flow.html#:~:text= book summary - flow 1 Flow,a pathway to greater meaning%2C happiness%2C... More

reminds me of the poem I did here ---- encapsulates the humour I depict above. Such a good poem, I do these all relatively quickly: Title: Open Chaos and this oak tree of time https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63739-existential-transcendence-its-poetic-analogue/?do=findComment&comment=870246

Following from Transcendence poetry journal just coz it an't poetry but useful to go somewhere, its like trash you just don't want to get rid of because its time stamp is creatively useful, like that time you dry humped a dryer when you were trashed while getting a blowjob by a woman that was playing the role of hooker This brain of mine, I care not for you For as much you give to my experience, you take away from another’s Someone I care about and love So to you I transcend as well I will work tirelessly I realise now, that as you are against them in their experience (because brains are analogous of course) You must be by analogy not for nor against my own, so I will just turn against you in advance Every crack, every flaw you have, I will see through and work to transcend This is the last straw Every need you have (brain) I don’t give a fuck, I will transcend it and only give you what you need to truly grow I’m sick of you fucking destroying people’s lives as much as you make them and our ability to create a civilisation You may as well have not existed at all, then human suffering would have ended a long time ago Fuck you brain going pier jumping today gonna be fun at the beach go fuck yourself brain, every single day I will remind myself of the devil that you are, tearing peoples lives apart living life to the max, booyah!!!!!! New experiences every fucking day (knowing how to OWN this mother fucker overrated brain that we'll eventually replace and make peoples lives better than the inner torments they experience, do something new today, ignite yourself in new ways, you can do it ) Posted yesterday at 12:16 PM · Report post Title: Transcendent goal 10 hours and 30 minutes on piano today, fucking badass session to push my limits Posted yesterday at 05:56 PM (edited) · Report post I am definitely just transcending the entire animal kingdom now on planet Earth, I'll have my connections sure, but I'll see through their biologies completely now with compassion, sternness and boundaries. The entire species, the entire animal kingdom. So if you speak to me, that means, if you want my trust, etc, you'll have to check your biology before you think about speaking to me because I've analysed yours already very well and I'm only becoming more sophisticated. Don't bother if you can't be authentic, don't bother if you're not interested in earning my respect overtime. Posted 10 hours ago (edited) · Report post BOSSED IT got my 10 hours and 30 minutes done of piano (its probs more like 9 hours with the difficulty of the task and the associated attentional lapses but stoked anyhow) after I get up from my snooze I'm doing my second day in a row of 10 hours and 30 minutes don't want to use the energy I have on poetry, etc today / maybe I just don't have it in me today anyhow haha goal is to transcend this entire physical reality now (so not just what I mentioned two comments ago) Ironically this produces maximal life experience generation compared to its opposite, the former here also surprisingly only being the objective of very few, whether said experience is in mind or in physical, of course they go together where the mind can greatly reduce the energy expenditure of the physical through imagination, simulation, learning from the experiences of others, etc. Along with maximal life experience this also includes maximal connection with said life, etc, again, ironically/paradoxically. Edited 3 hours ago by Origins

This poetry is heart, mind and gut (action) combined which I think Self Transcendent Poetry reflects, something I wanted to be completely distinct from heart poetry: Heart poetry - https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63534-poetry-slowly-growing-to-an-inferno-again/ Instead of doing nothing on the forum for a while I thought I'd just devote my attention here to help my mind piece together the subconscious architecture of the book on Existential Transcendence I will complete by the end of the year. This poetry will naturally reflect my struggles, triumphs, questions and so on therein. + just any addendum to the book aka https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/63753-existential-transcendence-important-questions/ Music will come as it comes, my instincts will change as they change (at least a few weeks). Those that are introspective enough are loyal and those that are not are disloyal, it's straight forward in that regard as a rule of thumb (unless they see something to gain, whether that thing is there in actual reality or not). When you evolve, not everyone is going to like it for various reasons, most of the time though through no malice of their own its simply because they really struggle with a term known as "object permanence", they create an image of you in their mind and instead of updating that image of you in real time they experience too much dissonance when they see you act differently that they're unable to reconceptualise the identity structure they've assigned to you. In these moments it'll take wisdom from you to work double time on the reconceptualisation where you're not only reconceptualising your own self structure but also there's based on those changes along with the fact that they're not yet showing signs to accept those changes. Sometimes there will be conflict, as a part of your progress I recommend you either (1) save your mental energy on that conceptualisation and just move on (2) do it as a part of your conceptualisation (3) number 1 and ignore until either they come around or for the betterment of you in this case, you've both moved on. Protect your growth at all costs, hold no guests who don't respect your territory, keep no prisoners and let the rest of the chips fall as they may. It will be an excellent opportunity for you to view the rawness of their reactions regardless, document the patterns and draw any appropriate intelligent boundaries to correspond to those patterns as a part of your training on foresight for future social interactions. Focus on your growth, let the rest of the world burn because the world needs your care towards growth more than your care towards it, the latter is consequential to ultimate growth not an intrinsic goal. We have a lot of fish to fry on this planet after-all. Object permanence: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Object_permanence#:~:text=Object permanence is the understanding,children's social and mental capacities. Consider your chaotic metamorphosis as chaos to peoples perception of you, it is, our psyche needs stable images of the world around us in order to cope, so there's empathy there but first and foremost boundaries on your part as another's inability shouldn't be your emotional disability in the use of your time. Let them figure it out themselves, its not your business anyhow how they view you, let the chips fall as they may outside of "intrinsic connections" (for lack of a better way of describing them), for example, there's much I wouldn't inform my father, friends and siblings simply because I understand where and what they can understand and where they can't, for everything else, its explorational. Here though, well, there's no social betting table here. I make the changes I want regardless of any social currency any other's wish to pretend exist, that only becomes an ongoing conversation with the universes changes if I've explicitly stated such, you know if I have, you know if I haven't. These things are earned of course, on both parts, this is the medium of exchange concerning relative respect, respect also here being the subtle framework for our ability to embrace universal chaos as a whole through the higher order we attempt to imbue ourselves with in our strive towards growth and development.

A real primary psychopath. A friend of mine. Don't listen to anyone else here otherwise you'll be less accurate, happy to challenge anyone here on that. Her Quora - https://www.quora.com/profile/Natalie-Marsh-15/answers She's a bit of a rascal sometimes otherwise not so bad as far as I can tell.

@tatsumaru Pure psychopathy aka primary psychopathy is purely genetic. Environmental is what's known as a secondary psychopath a category in which both sociopathy and narcissism fall into. I'm what I could term a spiritual psychopath , so I can scare you inter-dimensionally as opposed to just merely physically. I neither fall into the category of either primary nor secondary psychopathy. But I am dangerous. Extremely. I just have no need to cause violence in areas where I don't see the necessity to do so, moreover violence has various connotations that fall outside the traditional survival reference frame of "physical" and even too, explicit forms of psychological forms of violence. I will neither cause purposeful physical nor psychological violence unless I see it as the right thing to do relative to my conscience, something that through traditional lenses a primary psychopath doesn't have, however "doesn't" is used fairly loosely. I'd much rather have creative discussions that extend my consciousness further than it was a second ago than to waste my time belting you with a bat or calling you names, I'm just not addicted to sadism in that sense, even if its mostly a lost cause relative to the population average I'm strategically manoeuvring myself to secure better social reinforcement here as my ties improve. I'm definitely a predator, there's no doubt about it. I'm just not the kind of predator you'd be expecting. We create names to describe a perceived context in reality relative to levels of differentiation we've made regarding said context, all three are often merely transitionary points to something more sophisticated. Psychology is a frame of reference / reference frame, that is, the manner in which you are framing reality relative to certain assumptions you're making about it, its not an absolute determination its a relative determination. There's all kinds of "psychopaths" that exist, variations though that need clear discrimination which the distinction between primary and secondary is good enough for a large subset of related forms. Goodnight, truly yours: The Spiritual Boogeyman