Origins

@JKG It's creativity. There's nothing else. Anyone says anything else unrelated here is either lying or speaking nonsense because they're indoctrinated, can't think originally, didn't get spanked enough by their parents, got bullied by their gym teacher, bitten by a rottweiler (I would have tussled with it till death --- unless I could have saved him/her, likely a he!)... I mean, take your pick, there's so many reasons why people go down the life maze incorrectly, plain maladaptive genetics that breed stupidity is just one very simple and legible reason for most cases. But that's how I move forward in life now, instead of outrightly saying they're stupid I'll just ask, were you bitten by a chihuahua when you were younger (as opposed to rottweiler)? Demeaning people is the first lesson in the book I've never taken too may notes from - How to Win Friends And Influence People by Dale Carnegie. On creativity. There. Is. Nothing. Else. This. Is. Where. It. Starts. And. Ends. Move on next question. (feel free to checkout my journals - just a hint, nothing more)

What is the ego? First we must understand it on the level of generation. Then we must understand it on the level of integration Further we must understand it on the level of recycling. And through the interaction of these dynamics we need to understand it on the level of transformation. So that can be remembered via the following acronym, of course, GIRT. Rhymes with dirt, if you remember Joe Dirt, you'll remember Girt. I'll elaborate on these mechanisms in the future, and yes, this is simultaneously how we grow, heal and shift the ego in various ways relative to where awareness wishes to take it.

THEORETICAL: Locate, translate, trace, forecast and transform state: Location: “I don’t really _____ ______”, being the subconscious feeling that appears as a conscious thought (notice the deception). Translation: This probably appeared due to x, y and z Trace: There is a relationship between these events, these inner experiences and the way I feel in response to this time, object, person, phenomenon, etc Forecast: When x happens, y is likely to happen (i.e. when x event happens I’m likely to experience y, and z will likely be one of the possible outcomes) Transform: In light of my forecasts and best tracing, I predict that I can adapt here and here, which might be a modification of a belief, value, even, environment, time, place, etc, etc. Just adaptation that serves higher grounds of creativity regardless as to the loss, you forecast and adapt for the better and wiser profit in the long run.

1. The first principle is Reactivity, no wait, I mean, let's see if you can reorder the word to figure it out (shouldn't be too difficult) Firstly though, we must understand what that word means, reconceptualize it beyond and through your present paradigms so you don't just simply move into the word through confirmation bias using purely your memories to determine the actual placement of the word, thus skimming over the main essence that I'm attempting to translate through this post. Reactivity, have you figured it out yet (?), first begins with the minds awareness and lastly ends with the minds awareness being expanded as a beginning goal in your movements in this life otherwise why exactly are you living it? To be reactive, is not just to create something new, to achieve the adoration of others, change the world, yada, yada fill my cup of soda can to destroy more brainwashed 21st century brain cells. No, Reactivity starts with understanding how it is a foundational property of how the mind comes to know itself through the world, and it does this through the generation, articulation, invention and reinvention of narrative. This latter aspect designs the purpose of the former aspects and describes the impetus to the ongoing metamorphosis of the universe itself. So to be Reactive, is to understand your position in space and time afforded to by your consciousness's navigational properties, such as but not limited to intelligence, and then move through time exploratively to achieve the planned inventive aims created by your consciousness. Thus Reactivity becomes not just an external cause of creation but a foundational way of coming to realise yourself within being and consciousness and through that extend yourself out into life as life itself within the biological, environmental, cultural and integrative frameworks that gave birth to your perception of the possibilities presented here as well as what you will do with them and how they will be expressed as a future creation for you in this universe in its ongoing manifestation. [ to be continued - gotta run off for the minute ]

Taking up the eventual non-edit space (so future posts can be continually edited as it serves to do so).

This is all going to be redesigned. Perhaps all of it re-conceptualised from the lens of CREATIVITY as a foundational underpinning principle. That is to say that creativity itself is an act of war, that war without creativity is just chaos without order, and true creativity is always chaos and order, thus, the correct war to wage in the context of the overall outcome of creativity itself, is always simply an act of creativity. Further, that war without creativity emphasized, is peasantry, that war should be a spontaneous act of reason, thus strategy ancillary, and a planed act of chaos, thus a process of re-design foundational to the cause. Thus what is war other than a subset to creativity, and if not creativity, a waste of the universe's resources?

This is the most important for all of the principles of war: The principle of scope, perspective, depth and breadth on life. This includes yourself. What war are you waging when you don't even have a reference frame for your own existence? Who is this "I"? Do you even understand narrative in the context of consciousness creation? What exactly is your reference frame for the emotions you're experiencing in the context of this war? How about life itself? Tell me. If you dare to, wage that war. See the following two journals: (1) Title: Psychological Integration - Theory to personal and or Modelling to Theory https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/60410-psychological-integration-theory-to-personal-and-or-modelling-to-theory/ (2) Title: Origins: Chronicles of Existence, the Diagnostic Interface for the Extension of Being https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/58876-origins-chronicles-of-existence-the-diagnostic-interface-for-the-extension-of-being/#comment-795841 And how about your experienced contrast for existence itself, see the following journal. (3) Principles I'm Creating for Having a Journal https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/57745-principles-im-creating-for-having-a-journal/#comment-777047 So you want to wage war when you haven't even got a clear picture, compass and informational data base on all the reference points for said conditions that led up to that design for a war, the war itself and what lives post this war? Wow. Just another human you are then.

(1) Title: Psychological Integration - Theory to personal and or Modelling to Theory https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/60410-psychological-integration-theory-to-personal-and-or-modelling-to-theory/ (2) Title: Origins: Chronicles of Existence, the Diagnostic Interface for the Extension of Being https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/58876-origins-chronicles-of-existence-the-diagnostic-interface-for-the-extension-of-being/#comment-795841 (3) Principles of Life - This is dogma, drink my coolaid or skirt away into nonsense https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/60414-principles-of-life-this-is-dogma-drink-my-coolaid-or-skirt-away-into-nonsense/#comment-821485 (4) Principles I'm Creating for Having a Journal https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/57745-principles-im-creating-for-having-a-journal/#comment-777047 (5) Just a random journal on the Principles of War (will redesign this journal) https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/57557-just-a-random-journal-on-the-principles-of-war/

Ideational Stage: If originality is a rare trait among the human species, why is everyone so hell bent on saying they have an "I"? Shouldn't only very few people have an "I" if originality is rare? To have a "I" is to be a God in some way, I don't see too may Gods walking around but that's just me maybe you see many. To create an "I", you create distinctness, but what virtue does this distinctness have for it to warrant such distinctness from the rest of the world? What ethos? Just a feeling? So you've come into this existence with such distinctness and afterwards you will go back into the world through your remains where distinctness fades, you must have lived a very distinct life, no? Something that is not just distinct to humans, but all of life, all of nature, the entire planet, the entire universe. Please tell me more about this distinctness so I can bow down to your godliness and drink the wine of immortality that you've no doubt either drunk from or created in light of your own supreme powers.

Ideational Stage: What is this notion of awareness, and is it even an important property? Are we even aware? Don't we merely judge such awareness by its relative capacity? We look into and compare amongst ourselves attributes of awareness and assign either higher or lower status of a beings level of awareness based on what we've constituted is awareness. Where's the awareness in that exactly? Perhaps there are various modes of awareness that exist in features that we've been biased towards saying have little to no awareness, perhaps there are key attributes of awareness itself, a category we've built through our interactions with one another which also happens to be more than just an intersubjectively agreed upon construct, that we severely lack, may not only never have but ultimately be completely incapable of having regardless as to what technological progress we make in this world.

Ideational Stage: As I look out into the world, who is the looker? When I take in the outer landscapes of the world and they enter into my consciousness, what are they to my brain versus what are they to me? And what I assign as me, what are these assignments other than narratives that have been created through my interaction with my brain based on those landscapes that have entered within me? This psychological distance versus closeness I have for the people that exist in the world, how do they exist relative to the existence of my own consciousness? How do they exist in my mind versus their existence in the world that I perceive and eventually call the world? Why does my consciousness look out "at the world" and call it a world? Why is it not merely an object? Why does it not have a direct emotional location outside of particular objects and people my mind has associated emotions with? How did I come up with this notion of "brain"? How did I come up with this notion of "consciousness"? How did I come up with this notion of "I"? If I did not come up with these assignments, if I am lost of this originality, what am I describing in this moment then that is "I"? That is anything that has assignment relative to this object that I perceive as my awareness? Who gets to say what object I am other than the attributes they get to compare me to based on the narratives they've so far perceived? Thus to "me", that I'm assigning as an object linguistically (why have I been? - what level of psychological development is this and does it relate to a kind of psychological development), why have I arrived at "me" as the object to assign relative to my state of awareness? Why do "I" need this assignment? If I don't know precisely what I am perceiving in the moment that "I" and "me" is constructed, I should wait. When "I" no longer look out at the world, I see myself as the world itself. This is a psychological adjustment. If you notice yourself assigning "I" to yourself as you look out, suspend that notion while looking out, your consciousness will become the world and no longer just an "I" looking out. But do we want this psychological adjustment? What is its efficacy? While at the same time, what is the efficacy of "I"? To answer these questions, we need to understand how narrative emerges in the first place. If we do not understand how narrative emerges through the assignment of personal, "I", and interpersonal, "we", values in the construction of determining the relationships with these features, we will ultimately fail. We will instead become ruled by the narratives of consciousness before we are even fully aware of their constructive processes and, dare I say it, purposes. Thus endeavour is in the understanding of narrative and how it is constructed within us, more than it is in understanding the content of the narrative. This is ultimately moving to a higher plane upon which existence is carried out by this notion of consciousness that we've constructed we operate by and through.

This is a reminder of myself to do a clip comparison for this song.... Will have it up by tomorrow sometime. Compare with how I sound here which is early days with how I sound today. I should be able to do it much better, not if I forget the style I did this in though which I like. On that note, secondly, a reminder to myself to remember to keep some of that granular rusty essence and not be too smooth which is an easy trap to fall into when you forget other good qualities to your voice when you're working on 'technique'.\

My first diagram around lyric production being created on the fly by consciousness. Created quickly just now. Intellectual property is owned by me but feel free to use of course just so long as you don't take credit for it haha .

Note to self: Always aim for self awareness over self punishment, especially SA directed in the context of ongoing potentialization and remedying any dissonance in that ongoing process. Remedying the dissonance is a payoff in itself, so instead of seeing it as something blocking you at any time, see it as a key part of both the challenge and the prize to overcome and feel the points of growth that result from that as well. When you’re tired, still, meditate on SA, truly, it’s the gateway to all future highest creative payoffs, treat even the slightest improvement there as video game points to achieving the next level. The results will be better both in the short and long term.

Thoughts of Awareness (reflexive).

What technologies am I using to measure the accuracy and efficacy of my actions? Why would it be anything other than self awareness? Self awareness being in line with well thought out self knowledge, ambitions, goals and the like plus, plus, plus. This tied in with obvious technologies that improve/aid self awareness like things that improve our ability to track, compare and organise time. Self awareness and how we get it, be it other people but most importantly our own awareness inclusive of meta-awareness, is not only our most reliable technology so far to measure how close we are to our own potentialization, but our only technology. It is our primary medium of exchange with reality and the transmutation of its contents into intelligent appraisals, that without which, internal progress loops with being would demonstrably be short-circuited. Thus a good idea to improve our credit score with self awareness where we can, Mozart of inner psychology, that kind of thing. Thank you Draenei Paladin ?, my conversations with you here will always be treasured. “This may be too crude of a framework for what we define as real versus not, but it’s all we have reliably discovered up to this time in the 21st century. We need a verifiable pattern, and intersubjectively we require at least one other person to verify that reality (and sometimes just a very good measuring tool we’ve created, like a microscope or telescope). So it’s important to differentiate between reality and our framework for deciding what is real from what is not, this framework that speaks to the latter, is purely best fit relative to this time in history, but it’s not the same as reality of course, but to its credit, it does help us glean a very simple, straight down the line materialistic appraisal of events, and the ability to do so with extremely high accuracy a lot of the time. We’ve built all these technologies to help us measure all the physical objects around us, but not enough yet to measure love. Imagine if we did, how much future pain we’d be able to save people from experiencing, or sometimes, potential love that they should continue pursuing based on that external measurement being better than the internal measurement.”

And there's an auto-correct mechanism to that feedback loop of course, like obviously you're not completely energetically going to war with your mind or body in so much as it compromises your consciousness and or being, to me it's just the maximisation of war relative to the maximisation of growth, everything else is just style, grace and beauty.

Most of life has to do with simply intelligently and wisely identifying what to go to war with versus what to love, and it's an act of will which is the symbiosis of both the love and war aspect that personifies the completion of the intentionality that carries out that process and action in the moment. To that end, here is how I presently divide the expression of some of those aspects for me: 1. To go to war on both my mind and body 2. To go to love (if that's a thing) with both my consciousness and being Consequentially, in creating pairs like this via their divisional but complementary (because mind relates to consciousness and being body) cause, done right, a positive energetic growth spiral begins to emerge relative to the subsequent actions produced in that interaction.

Note to self: Every experienced moment, the ease I take advantage of due to past successful attempts at psychological, emotional, intellectual and physical integrations, and the challenge a moment that will make me proportionally experience future ease to the extent that I rise to said challenge; of course, intelligently. To the latter, this is why the investigation of the mastery of consciousness over being, is even more causal than focusing on mind and body, we must instead have the mastery descriptive of the interplay between consciousness and being, being and consciousness, this makes mind and body then, points of mastery consequentially and thus more fully, rather than rudimentarily using mind or body to compare itself with only a mirror that only it sees itself and not the shadow that it casts nor the makeup of the mirror itself. Mastery of being is the mastery of consciousness, but, the mastery of consciousness must involve the full embracing, unifying and integrating of being for naturalised growth to be made full manifest, without false strings, pulleys and mechanisms that rely on a distortion of perception for growth, like that of using images of the mind as vehicles for growth rather than merely being a supportive gesture to the underlying essence (I.e. focusing on the level of being and consciousness over body and mind) that makes up this existence. This paradigm shift is necessary to focus on in light of prior conditioning and what is ultimately popular among the cultural rubble, an inferiority complex the vast sum of humanity is often plagued with in the context of realising their potential. To reach ones potential, one must understand at the deepest level, what makes up potential itself, and then, what at a fundamental level, best makes up its extensionality. And to do so outside of surface level intersubjectively derived memetic chains that only act as vehicles of growth through group think and it’s subsequent introspective irrationality that false reports on its validity and workability. The former is potential realised that makes an individual whole and begins a new culture, the latter keeps a person bound to no sense of real individuality and culture caught in the feedback loops of unchanging slowly degenerating consciousness feedback loops made up by its unoriginally inclined only near thinking populace about its own designs.

@Ghost Integration. There is a huge distance I sense between your perception of the world and your individual perception of yourself, so, you become enmeshed. Enmeshment radically manifests all projections you have onto the world and both yourself to the degree of said intersection between enmeshment and lack of integration. Our collective IQ is quite low, yes, but we as a human species have been around for over 200,000 years and if you’ve had any past lives you’ve already at least partly been through this before, so, the simple aphorisms of “get used to it already” and “deal with it” are useful forecasts for the healing you need to go through regarding your own perceptions of the world and most importantly yourself and perception itself. “Pigs are dumb!” proclaims the man frustrated by his continual attempts to turn pigs into his watch dogs for his castle, “well duh!”, is my response. Time to mature your consciousness, something we all need to continually do through our energetic ups, downs and integrative spirals. Take this seriously and you’ll be fine I know it. Add in the obvious health checks as well, meditation plus, etc, all those obvious hacks, but what I’ve stated is the core wound of the world, the fact that the majority of the human species consciousness struggles to handle it, their consciousness among consciousnesses and the world they’ve imagined exists in that dispersion and interconnection. You have a huge amount of growth to go through, I know this because I’ve been where you are. Embrace that path of growth now and get where I am sooner than I did.

....Watch you, watch me fuck me....From another planet... Cigar.

Title: Necessary rigidity, the beginning of unravelling the tyrannical flexibility of being. A self discipline in the art of mind, the art of understanding and through that, expression of the universes fundamentality from the perspective of being. Awareness to attention, where is the divide? To attend to, is to multiply the impressions of the phenomenon that is in that moment impressed upon our experience, a memory, a sense perception, thus to become aware. Consequently, the limits of awareness are coupled with the limits of attention, their division is in their qualitative expression, attention is the mathematical constraints of the awareness itself and attention expresses itself as the circumference of our cognitive capacities. To pay attention, firstly, to pay, that is, to give an aspect of oneself to an experience in order for it to form in our minds, enough attention, and a sense of wholeness is impressed upon us about the result between the phenomenon and our embodied experience with it. Secondly, how about energy, what is awareness and attention other than the energy to be aware, the energy of that awareness and the energy to not just attend to something simply, but to extend said simplicity beyond the horizon line of possible interpretations of the phenomenon? Thirdly, how about memory, what is awareness other than the memory that one is aware, or to join with the previous question, the memory of the energy that is aware? Thus to wit, our cognitive infrastructure thus invariably overlaps with just how much being within spirit and spirit within being, if there is such a distinction (inclusive of the word self in the non-universal true sense), is to become aware of itself, and through such awareness, learn to attend to the right elements of experience that in retrospect, are the clear tenants for being transforming itself not just through self knowledge, but via the self knowledge that transforms and extends both the cognitive parameters of self awareness and the humanosphere of possible phenomena to experience, be aware of and understand. Being is locked in a cognitive hold and unlocked by being learning to pay attention in the right way at the right things, energetically so and via memory as well. To the former, we have our present moment to inspect such energies and via memory, the learning of how to release and extend what energies we've determined we wish to. For determination, is nothing but a subject of attention and energy, of course; for the former, we have meaningful constitutes like chemical precursors to move the latter, and to the latter, the experience of moving said byproduct energies to aid in the honing of the former. This investigation then surrounds awareness, but said awareness acts through the remembered (is to memory) nomenclature of its understanding the limits and extension points regarding the interplay of these two. This is the descriptive lens by which we can interpret an actualization process that follows, not to follow the pattern of being trying to improve itself, rather this is a false interpretation for its probably somewhere at the hallmark of the imperfect-able, rather, we are building and following a storyline that is designed to express the full character of being or character trapped in being, energy of which is just the present attempt at briefly describing the qualities of those energies that are inherent to and construct the blocks for interpreting the most indomitable and intrinsic natures of being, in its nature. To encompass, being, at birth from the perspective of the body, trapped inside the oyster of the human skeleton and the stories that are injected into its consciousness from its inception, through vital attention to this process our snake skins of time which includes all of our prior misinterpretations begin to shed and we are left clothed in only the silk beyond the shadow that is cast by the human form. The action of attention in this sense is like a pair of scissors that decisionally cuts away via the unbiased lens of observation outside of experience, which is ironically, encompassing the memory for the capacity to do so as previous thoughts illustrate. In this manner then of course, being uses the mind as a vehicle for not just understanding itself but for engineering its experience and cinematically recalling those details from the lens of multiple genres, the latter here a discussion on the limits and boundaries of the imagination to construct not just a theatre for experience itself but a theatre for investigative work that propels being from one train station of metamorphosis in the universe to the next. This whole work can be classed as a refinement process that being through reflecting on its changes can transform that immaterial mental content of time into energy that it uses to further improve the process by which it learns to leverage the growth it knows it can achieve to express the greater breadth of the parameters of intrinsic self operation; operatively augmenting and awareness through that underpinning and corresponding operation that further develops itself through the perception and relation to time. Next question: Where and what is awareness, attention and energy when it is merely the creative byproduct of a space-time manifold that describes how it came to be and how it can refer to how it came to be via awareness and the rest of these things (attention and energy)? Dimensions of which by the way, are the descriptive contents that makeup the aforementioned consequential nomenclature being builds through its refinement of the theatre of the minds perception of existence via a trial and error cognitively reflexive process acted and seen through the lens of past to present and their other possible combinations in the combination of the predicted or possible future. The answer is simple as it should be, this describes the pattern of how we build terms that refer to the same thing we're trying to describe in more than one way so that we can not only cognitively and linguistically frame the nuance of the observed phenomenon but also describe its properties and expression from multiple lenses and levels. In this sense then, the process of abstraction is merely a dialogue on orders of magnitude, or "How long is a piece of string?", the limits of the cognitive reflexive act we perform to know ourselves is precisely descriptive of our capacity to extend ourselves through this referential process, as noted, and this balance between knowing and extension then is bound by those abstract parameters we discern, build and refer to ourselves through. Abstraction then, is an important aspect of discerning the attentional limits of the mind and understanding the very boundaries of that unfoldment to further paint this descriptive relationship between being and the lens by which it interprets being through this cognitive infrastructure of all of the following from the perspective of one another and their multiple collective reference points (i.e. awareness in the context of energy): awareness, energy, time memory, and even imagination (which is also bound up with abstraction). This concludes the beginning of this ancillary investigation into the preliminary aspects of the nature of being, albeit mainly via the human cognitive infrastructure and beings incision through that process of elimination versus inclusion in understanding and performing the simple act of attention. You'll notice that I haven't yet brought up the subject of intelligence, simply because attention is so vital to the performance of intelligence that a foundation for understanding how to discriminate between the two needs to be properly built before any discernments of intelligence are made. Attention is responsible for many of the discriminatory elements that we often associate with intelligence, such association of which should be unfashionable as it concerns having a cordial discussion on the subject in both its separation and alignment with its counterparts. So here I sit, attending to this moment, bound up by the limits described above which paint the bandwidth of my experience, slowly describing how to extend being through a process of elimination but most importantly at least to begin with, directionality in the context of attention. Firstly, we must attend to what is happening as deeply and as rawly as possible, secondly we must relationally organise said attention in as sophisticated way as we possibly can, for example as I type I am aware that I am aware that I am typing, but its not as simple as this, further, I am aware that the sounds I make go in through my ears and interrupt and add to the subsequent thoughts that my consciousness will produce about my experience, further that this experience is superimposed by my visual field which tightly constricts the limits of my experience in lieu of everything it doesn't include and therefore what thoughts I will think about the subject in connection to and within. This is what it means to relationally organise attention to our cognitive limits, doing so, is the act of slowly building the dimensionality of the brains capacity to perceive and through that, the limits of the cognitive infrastructure that bind up being, of which we learn to, perform more intelligently overtime through our broadening attentional landscape of time. Bind is to bound, improve the limits and being becomes unbound, this is the predicate to terms like boundless, that is, inside the context of apprehension as opposed to just free-wheeling experience of course, of which, can't be adequately driven to without understanding how we are bound. And to the end of that song, intellectual horizonauts now ready to unleash being to its unknown end frontier, as it was always intended from the beginning of our unfoldment.

Next post is on consciousness regulation / energetic state of being regulation through consciousness of mind and or awareness based on recent personal experimental findings.

You must have had at least one psychotic/manic/like episode, so analogous as well if none of the others apply. This is a no neurotypicals welcome policy.

So I realise my previous entry on the subject was just waaaay too out there and only like maybe no one on planet earth could fulfill so I'm re-creating this from a much more practical perspective. Trial and error right? I'll refine this overtime to be as elegant and simple as I can.