Psych2Awak3n

You comparing a natural peaceful death after a fulfilled life and a cow being slaughtered violently with deathly fear is the big flaw in your argument.

during a grocery shop visit I had a moment where my perspective shifted from ''the spot behind my eyes'' to everything in sight, and immediately I got so frightened of not being able to do human things anymore that I whiplashed my way back into my normal state of consciousness. Was this an actual spiritual experience? Or was this my ego trying to make it look like a ''spiritual experience'' just so it could ego trip? Not sure what to make of this.

The following may not make sense and I may sound absolutely bat shit crazy, but I'm going to ask it anyways. In the paradigm of non-duality, from my experience, or the experience that ''I am'', you (the person reading this) do not exist other than the thought I have of you in my mind. However there is a consciousness or field of awareness in you, right? i don't understand how you do not exist currently in my experience or how you are just a figment of my imagination, but you are an awareness, so you do exist... does this make any sense at all?

I have a problem with the idea that everything is self-aware/awareness. Awareness/consciousness is made up of the combination of the experience of the senses: touch, sight, hearing, smell and taste. How can there be awareness outside of what we experience as animals if nothing outside of animals have eyes, a nose, nerves etc AKA no means to perceive or be aware of anything?

@Terell Kirby Isn't there nobody to do the imagining? Aren't we the imagination/experience itself?

I'm looking into doing self CBT for my social anxiety which is moderately severe (get very tense if people get close to me, blush easily if i'm the center of attention, avoid social situations, mind goes blank when trying to talk) Has anyone here tried this? Not only for social anxiety but for any anxiety. Would love to hear your experiences and tips/tricks or a guide on how this is done?

So I had my third shroom trip today. The first one was 3 grams, second 5.5g lemon tek and this one was 4.5g lemon tek. During the first trip I didn't experience much of anything. During the second and third, I did, but nowhere near what I had expected. For my 2nd and 3rd trip I set goals. Goals of finding out what I want to do with my life and alleviating some of my depression. These trips were pretty much identical though. I felt in pretty good control over the trip, and didn't really experience any healing experiences. Didn't even experience a lot of introspective thought about my goals either... The only thing that has happened during these trips was me feeling as though I had acquired this information of reality. Information outside of our human grasp, but no helpful information on dealing with my personal problems. I'm not saying it's not cool to feel like you know everything... It's cool... But i'm doing psychedelics for personal growth, and I haven't really gotten any personal growth out of these trips. These trips were in silent darkness, but after an hour or 2, on both trips, I felt the urge was too bad to move and do something that I went and did things like opened the window, watch videos, look up on psychedelics on the internet... When I read trip reports of 5g (especially lemon tek) I read about ego deaths, talking to entities, deep spiritual and personal healing experiences... or terror trips. I'm wondering what i'm doing wrong not to experience any of this. Am I simply not sensitive to psilocybin and I just need to take more? Are my expectations way off?

I feel very drawn to the substance 5 meo dmt. Is it okay to take this alone? I've heard horror stories of people dying and that you should always get a trip sitter with this substance. Thoughts?

@Serotoninluv My experience is pathetically low, but I have done LSD. 100 mics, then 200, then 300. I want to use 5meo to actually feel myself dying. I feel as though I need a near death experience to tell me how precious life is and how i'm wasting it away. I am anxious and have no motivation to do anything. This might be simply my stupidity speaking. What's your take on the situation?