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@Rookie I m relaxed, I m living life ! life is a matter of life & death. guess what, our governement LIE. Macron is saying if we close the schools, but no one will work then ( WHAT LOL I JUST HEAR THAT FOR REAL ) he says that china, italian, all are wrongs. they don't test people. we are fucked as fuck hahaha, I m in the part of France where there is currently 130 people with covid. OMS website tell me that I m in a very dangerous area https://infocoronavirus.live/?s=france and he say that aswell : https://l.facebook.com/l.php?u=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DOfAzSnAnyoQ%26fbclid%3DIwAR1KdVcxtj93nGMSdxj6TFsenoyRbui6GD5zPz7oYuFcnhRXYtpAa-giDOM&h=AT09qWhJru8PnT3NrkIAai6G4x3F3jTjpyEYS1cNwCialvESM6173EjI1zYlmZY5nEx5iaJ4dLMOXDccOWCrFwHg4rUDo8Xn6Hh0c5Tc4vGPr0Nw_IeXPeIC1cC1z2tlfA FOR ME THE thing, there is no one really cured that I heared from, many people talk of lungs problems for life. you can have it more than once. this is the orange area I still don't know, but it seams not as "flu". looks more like a flu vih that fuck your entire immune system for life. why so many measures ? why no measures in France ? last terrorism act was in my city aswell, this is REALITY.

@Elham Hey I wish to hear from you I m very into the topic since a month. How is your country right now ? What do you think of this whole thing How do you think is the answer from eu ? And no restrictions in France. ? Are you well ?

How much in France everyone is 'living life as normal' makes me want to kill myself to hear ignorant repeat TV illusion to makes everyone calm. Italia closed all schools. While in France everyone eat the dirt and idiotic french believe the shit show on TV to be a flu.

Yes it's even worst, apparently the virus work by phase, and could kill you a week after you look cured, could be an internet scam, but there is multiple cases of people getting reinfected. if we get all of us this disease because there is 80 cases in my regional state ( part of France ) now it's time to not hang with people. I'll die kissing my girlfriend who don't give a fuck ( because she is "being" APPARENTLY ) cause the gov MINIMIZE, LIE TO US. because panick would cause more death and kill the economy. there is 5x more cases in France from sources ( doctor in real life ) at this day, my locality has 80 cases. ( it's like a states in USA you divide by 4 part, and you got a part as my "locality" ) Everyone who don't give a fuck at the day of today, is a criminal. this disease spread so much, that best scientist talk about 80% of worldwide spread. we would not be able to help others countries. all heath system of all country will go down. TRUMP is lying ( ignorant & stupid more than lying ), the heat doesn't kill the virus ( malaysia got 27 cases today ) TALKING POLITIC RIGHT NOW IS NON SENSE. TALKING IDEOLOGY RIGHT NOW IS NON SENSE MEDITATING RIGHT NOW IS NON SENSE Wake the fuck up world. this isn't the flu, it's the VIH and SRAS, it's as dangerous. CAUSE we don't know. it already evolved. at this point in time, already billions are "already dead" in the month, not directly caused by corona, but because of no place in hospital to cure people from even others disease. we talk about an increase in 80% of patients for 6 months at least. HOW can people sleep on that ? they are more toxic and dangerous than terrorist. the ASYMPTOMATIC SPREAD THAT STAY INCUBATED IN YOUR BODY FOR 2 to 24 days, is HEAVY DANGEROUS. contacting and touching other human being right now, is like dangerous for you and for others. we need to quarantine the entire world, and to fight against the corona. this is out common threat, all ideas and debates are meaningless at this time right now. your meaningless ego should tell your gut to wake the fuck up http://french.china.org.cn/china/txt/2020-02/08/content_75685754.htm https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jama/fullarticle/2762452 https://www.scmp.com/news/china/society/article/3065091/coronavirus-recovered-patient-dies-china-reports-139-new-cases?utm_content=article&utm_medium=Social&utm_source=Facebook&fbclid=IwAR24cDUptOkdlSd6S43LSDWhlNvNyH0_oKjRWafwLYpUJdQMQdMOvfnfOYg#Echobox=1583372392. https://www.globaltimes.cn/content/1181630.shtml https://www.globaltimes.cn/content/1181121.shtml if you don't trust this disease is a mankind threat, you should please never play plague, because the best way to destroy humanity is low lethality and high spread, because high spread lead to more host, more host lead to more evolving, more evolving lead to more symptoms, more death/more contagious. vaccines only work for basic mutation, not for all of the new ones that will happen. I need to be alarmist, because you really need to be alarmed and wake the fuck up if you love your kids and family. if you accept death, it's good aswell, but don't bring others with you.

Why it seams in 7 years. ( Leave school 4y ago ) My only problem with weed is my welfare is going all inside it. My days are seeing my gf since a year and drawing painting while listening podcast. I need fact to know why life is better sober. Physical reality I don't like it. My main problem is that I feel people are pnjs. All I Can Do is lie / side truth because hard truth hurt them. Be aware besides weed I eat well and sleep well. If I wasn't smoking weed I don't know what. Weed seams makes me more happy. Makes life joyful and fun. Makes me 'work hard' and smiley ( Electronic music / drawing:painting ) Working in a orange mindset is cancer to me even green are disastrous. I follow leo since years. I even did LSD/mushroom / high dose alone. cause of this work. I m aware of everything I Ask god and pray for finding something highest. It seams that god smoke pot

I find that anti complotism primary without any fact that "I don't believe human can be devils". not any basis to me, just belief. I had dream of creating a virus that wipes out stupidity from earth, and I had a friend at school, was an HARD DOOMER. his dream was to kill the entire human race to save nature. ( he stayed alone the 4 years of highschool, like he could have friends, he wasn't that "geek", but he wanted none ) I mean many humans are driven to defend nature, and what is the best way to save the planet than to wipe out human race ? that sound like a cool story. + malthusianism is a well loved idea between elits. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Georgia_Guidestones I don't exclude possibilities. this is a good lecture right now : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shincheonji_Church_of_Jesus so this answer of you, is fill with emotion and non sense, I lost my time reading it, not a problem though, but most people should know that having answer without considering facts or even a "story facts" or whatever that hold "truth". ) I can make fun aswell of any emotional representation of life, even if complotism is based upon fear and ignorance on a basic, there is truth in everything, and lies in everthing, as the symbolic world is working upon such structure. personnaly known many doomers myself ( I m 26 ) I know that many humans want death and destruction of the entire society as it is right now ( because of feeling bad ) you cannot put all problems on the fact of having a bad view of the world, no there is real hell outside and real piece of shit. Besides I put link as facts over here : https://www.actualized.org/forum/forum/5-health-fitness-nutrition/ with sources, and things. E.Macron & A.Merkel refuse to touch other people hands since yesterday. E.Macron refused to be tested for covid19 https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2020-03-04/italy-closes-down-schools-in-new-virus-containment-effort-ansa doesn't say much about truth, because you'll have to work it for yourself.

Some people told me I m arrogant for always knowing better and wanting to look like I m better. sorry not sorry I'll be "me" whatever the judgement, he doesn't hold any truth, I know what my core true values are. Nothing inside the paradigm of conditionned dogma. I could be beaten on a relative perspective, but absolute know the absolute. and relative only understand the conditionned relative. The narrative paradigm of being asleep in the matrix. What is sad is the donkey doesn't see the reflection of himself in the water. being, doesn't make you more, or less. it's a monkey story they put on me "being". I'll just be, be, be, put a god damn bullet in my head if it please you ! arrogant monkey cannot see, BLIND FOREVER cannot see himself being the projector how light is shining through my entire being. the fire of god blessing itself by burning inside infinity Truth has no limit and truth should never be tamed in anyway. TRUTH IS PURE FIRE WITHIN THE ICE I m not the avatar or a self, or whatever "is" this "I m", this fiction is only incarnated by the desire and will of god. If I m wrong, it means that god is wrong. "One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star." I M GOD I M THE DEFINING VALUE I M THE SIMETRY I M THE VALUE 0 I M THE PANDEMIC, THE LIGHT, THE DARK NOTHING TO BE GOOD FOR NOTHING TO BE WRONG ABOUT AS ALWAYS WHAT YOU NEED TO FUCKING WAKE UP ? WAKE THE FUCK UP YOU FUCKING DONKEY THE LOVE IS ALWAYS THERE LOVE LOVE FEEL THIS BASS & DIE AS A DONKEY WAKE UP TO INFINITE POWER <3 GOD BLESS FOREVER AND ALWAYS

All meaning is embeded & rooted in survival Survival is all the subconscious conditionning and thought that lead the body to believe he will maintain his surviving, pleasure ( looking for extasy ), and avoid pain/death. focus and feeling are directed by meaning. Meaning is directed by survival. there is no meaning. All meaning is relative, nothing. but it looks like "Everything" from the ego point of view. Humans are equal to nothing. But their mind seams to be able to create infinite power and imagination You're conditionned and dependant of nature / birthing. ( until you can experience otherwise ) if you want to become god, you have to die as a conditionned human. Loose your belief, your mind is a giant matrix mirror shitting machine, nothing you believe in word is true, it's all utter bullshit. Society need nature to drive. You need nature aswell Society is nature violence & love, you're nature violence and love. you're nature violence, you're god, you're the master mind. Everyone and everything is god equally. There is no high or low. your map and what you call my mind, is a total illusion of the "the birth conditionned survival" All humans are dependant of nature, society, jobs, conditioned/cultural beliefs in bullshit. All story are relative, less than the real thing. One fragment is not the whole experience. Every word is a fragment. Even a real direct experience is a fragment of reality No experience can relate to an entire idea, because of the self reflective problem of semantic. ( words point to "feeling memory experience" of the receiver. ) Words become reflection of the mind and emotionnal reality. ( even this sentence is biased and does not encompass the whole idea ) An idea is less than the real thing. And all the mind do, is experience feeling of words. All an imaginary maps of reality. But imaginary maps, lead to real direction. the real direction has to be taken in real life. Words and maps direct to the territory, but you should always explore it yourself. All beliefs are relative to prior self direct experience ( through sense ) but all "senses" could be biased. ( because of brain, focus, and simply, physical sense input (ear, eyes, mind(symbol semantic words confusion) ). Our reality is an illusion. This sentence has multiple interpretation depending upon the "metaphysical memory reality" All semantic is relative to a context, all words point to a self experience that we linked to the words. Context matter more than words. Word dictate emotion, but words are relative to a time, country, people. Emotion doesn't exist, they are linked to ego ( and "survival need" inside the ego ) All words change of meaning through times because of the humans collective counsciousness trying to hold a "consensus meaning" ( an axiome, that is a belief, a myth belief in a possible consensus and quantification of reality ) because OUR self, evolve the meaning ( each mind do it ). ( through experience, through more mapping, the self experience problem create more disparate meaning ) metaphysical meaning become infinite every time. All words could mean everything and nothing depending upon the mind who use it. Because all meaning is relative, groundless, and need self prior direct experience. Society "is" the result of a mass group of survivor trying to control nature for all the survival need fullfiled. All humans are devils. Jesus is equal to Satan. The only way to become more than a human is to use ego to believe that it matter to be more than human. ( belief in "god mind" ) so who is the ego but god will ? for you to drive your need food and water, and all the basic subconscious survival need still operate. ( to function as a human and as less than god ) For human there is a system that operate to guess the futur ( survival system operating ). ( through use of mind to speak his will. ) All religions and cult thinking are bullshit in the end context. scientism and atheism are religious belief. Mostly, all belief work as religious belief. [Fix 31/02/2020]

I smoke everyday and got that with some weeds. maybe look on the track of blood pressure. many subtances will be vasoconstrictor or the reverse. even thea of coffee. coffee makes my nose stuffy when it goes off ( even I feel "comedown" ), just as bad cokaïne. ( but I don't take those drugs, only once every 2 years ) it's not because you're a passive smoker, unless you live close door with your mum smoking every hour. I smoke and have those only on bad weed aswell. ( nose clog )

This aswell is belief For me everything is possible if you create it and want it. Could be that true true love is just so rare and almost impossible. But if 2 humans discover pure love they could understand the dynamic and both choose a relative disney. Disney is a part of absolute love. So why would that be a 'lie' There is no lie or truth.

"I m the one who knocks"

it is on us death is on us, like now, litteraly I can feel it, this is here, the purge is on us. Don't fear the bliss of love UNITE OR DIE GOD TOOK ME TO BELIEVE IN SOMETHING I NEVER WANTED TO BELIEVE. I M NOT THE DOER OF THE SELF I M NOT THE THINKER NOTHING I CHOOSE IS MY CHOICE human race will pay by the debt of death DEATH IS ON US DEATH DEATH DEATH You can deny, deny, deny reality is above all denials. ONLY LIFE CAN SURPASS DEATH SAVE THE TRUE SELF KILL THE CANCER CELLS IF YOU DON T WAKE UP NOW, YOU'll LITTERALY DIE LEAVE THE CAGE

yes this is the most biggest bias of leo, and his biggest fear among the "drug world" I would bet my entire family, that if leo was smoking weed an entire week, he wouldn't resist being regular. And this is why he doesn't do weed. and so leo just avoid his fear of being addicted there is no punishment for being high all the time, because being high doesn't exist. we are all high the time. only others judge you being high or sober, according to their values and standards.

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Yes I did in fact. I feel that life will tell me when I'll have to be doing something else. My problem isn't really on karma. Lol. Problem is it cost me penny + judgement ( that I do not Care for on a mental side ) / no way to work in 'regular job' But why 'work' in meaningless shit. In fact there is no problem. I'll keep being where I m. Can't beat myself for it. There is no where to go I Guess. For me turn me perfect. No mental impairment. And makes me sleep like charm. I try to be only smoking night' but then I don't work and focus on 'dopamintive content' Like reading about death etc... When I avoid weed. My brain stuck on more meaningless shit and loose focus and discipline. I started weed for the idea of doping myself ( motivation at hand everyday ) Weed makes me start work and loose myself in if. On the other side. Sober I m over stimulating people with words cause I need to be entertained sort of. I was a geek weirdo until 20y old. Never worked at home. Weed makes me quit vidéo games for 6-9hours studying reading music and starting self improvement. When I quit last year. My old adhd me started to take over again

Yes Indeed. It will be a pandemic. First Time in 7 years my gut stuck on it. Smoking a tons of weed to sleep recently I played Plague. This virus is doing so far a perfect job. 1-40 days : asymptomatic but contagious ( 70% of earth will be getting it ) True R is not R0 but close to R4 ( spread force ) Short immunity After getting it ( 3 weeks of bed ) You can be infected again. I m in France. Worst Italia 400 infected so far.. France = total lies. Venise carnaval canceled. Many italian town in quarantine. Leo didn't see that coming. And most people here are still in wonderland. I m filling more bottle with water. But I feel even if France quarantine cities it will be a mess. Go watch Dr John Campbell last vidéo and Come tell me I m full of shit. With FACTS. Don't talk of media manipulation ( idiotic ) there is distinction to make here. I use FACTS to believe my truth. This will be the first part of dystopia. But the good part that all countries seams to agree on.... If poor country loose 60% of their population the top tier abuse of planet will be ok. ( Hunhun )

Sarcasm. Black humor. Irony. Aren't those the more funny way to joke ? It seams that people take words very litteraly. Like if life was a serious thing all the time. For me in France It's more : are you serious ? American / english : why so serious ? Are you aware of it ? Here in my country for instance we joke and use them to debate around all the time. It's instinct We ironicly take position of victims or psycho. We joke all the time. Our favorit humorists talk about War and jews and cannibalism etc... and that is way more funny. We dont have any limit in using 'verbal violent abusive humor'. Ok some WE have a ton of bad humorist aswell. Many times I need to insert " I m laughing. I m not serious " if I m speaking to english foreign people. We enjoy south park kind of humor. But that's the only américan show we watch for fun. Why so serious then ? Most of the time when I translate my humor directly. People think I m agressive. When It's just irony or abusive sarcasm. A thought ?

There is no one to show any blindspot. Imaginary spot are the self

@Nahm @remember -> just a fragment. Of course can't speak with the 'whole' inside my sentence. @Soulbass ho yes exactly at this time for me aswell. But Dieudonné is a spécial case even our old gov call him out for month to be 'antisemitic'. Don't know about Michelle should check that

yes exactly my point. Good sharing, but how did you find directly the idea of humor. of course all french are not "funny" neither. I find some american very funny aswell. @Jahmaine Indeed ! but there is a lot of french undev aswell, but most people are open to have a laugh. of course we speak feeling here, I m not talking rational sociological data or something like. I was thinking the idea of humor is a good subject to talk about "context/cultural bias/ self dev" etc.. I wanted to open an open topic on the subject, I m just confused that people use it to egoicly hammer one to each other. it's important to always hit the message, not the one who carry it. One of my motto. Besides, this is maybe why Trump is "winning", he says bullshit, but at least he go for it, people love honesty, it's a feeling that move people. I aswell tend to prefer someone who has a big mouth, than someone with a knife in the back, and a smile on his face. ///// leo tend to be at the middle of it. ( haha ) RUN for your life he has a big mouth and a knife and he smile all the time !!!

Hang on Your people will find you ! I avoid of course people that doesn't work with me if I Can. -- congratz people you hijack my topic ! But at least some of you appreciated. Answer to a post : - Indeed in reality we can have the social cue with body language. But even body language could be differently interpreted

Language is groundless and always self referencing. It's only living in a context. Words have the power you give to them. This is all completely relatives. For instance Québec french speak no french to french people. They use words and sentences we never ever use in France + harsh accent. They sound like really weird and funny to french people. Words are like entire movie It's all interprétations and cultural imprégnations. Semantic and meaning seams always contextual/local. Consensus even in language looks like a self delusion

than leo. In term of spirituality/metaphilo / + (art/science) This is a very open question. I m not sure that Ken Wilber for instance is more legit, he is very confusing to me. besides "life experiences" which human / teacher do you find vision and ideas of an equal or highest value than leo ? Some people like Rupert Spira or Osho, or whatever, and think leo isn't the highest, and I m sure it's true, because it means nothing to be "highest" but anyway, you get my idea. I m looking for crazy being people that are aware of : perspectivism / amoral scepticism / constructivism / relativism / science ideas / art awareness / consciousness work. So it's not a debate of if they are really highest

same "problem", in fact. I m the higher sex drive. But anyway, I'll focus on other things, best is not always. I meditated really on "high quality realm of life", meaning stop having false expectations. life you won't love to be the lesser sex drive, and imagine your girlfriend want you all the time, no good neither. after reflexion, it needs to be anchored in a higher realm of love, and not fear of lack. & most guys don't do the building/effort ( including me ) for making their girlfriend more horny than during the early stages. I think we need to make us still desirable in a way or another. but as I improve myself and think of my behavior and thinking all the time, I know my own issue, I can be 24/7 mindful, but I like "controled unconsciousness" and don't blame it, it's useful after observation. So I think the idea of opening both to personnal growth, we a male way and a girl way, you just need to be honest and clear, confident about where you want to go. I m living kind of close of your loop, one year next week, same driving issue. though she is younger than me, and I have my issues with neediness for sex ( but it makes me go for porn once in a while, not good, but she knows and she doesn't care that I fap on porn sometimes ) , but she has a lot to work on too, she is a little flower that need water, I'll need to be patient and keep focusing on my "higher self". (I m 26, she is 20) and she never did psychedelics ( but very open to it, just didn't have the moment for it )