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I've been in your shoes for most of my life. Bro you need to get rid off all possible triggers (photos, presents, texts etc.). Otherwise it will take you years to heal yourself. I remember when my first serious relationships collapsed I was crying a lot for a long time. The first month I cried in the morning, in the evening and at night. It was horrible and I didn't know what to do about it. I was having her in my dreams, everything would remind me about her: places we've been to, common friends, songs, movies and so on. In crowded places I used to see her, but of course it was different girls. It took me 2 years to finally forget my ex and a lot of work on my psyche.

Breakthrough is terrifying experience. It means becoming God and therefore, death. It feels like something that can't possibly be real but absolutely is. Breakthrough is when I stop imagining my separate self and I'm becoming everything and everybody, It's terrifying because you don't feel boundaries anymore and you realize that boundaries itself were never real. What's so more terrifying is the fact that you can't control your expansion. It just keeps going and going and going. Nothing stops you because there is nothing but you.

I've done shrooms more than 50 times so let me answer your questions: 1. You can either eat them or make some tea. If you plan to make tea you need a thermos. Grind the shrooms and leave them for at least 30 minutes in the thermos. You might not like the taste so you can try them with some dark chocolate (just a little bit). 2. A trip on shrooms usually lasts 5 - 8 hours 3. Since you're doing them for the first time I recommend you do it in the morning and in the safe environment. You can also put some background relaxing music. 4. Do not eat anything at least 4 hours before drinking tea or eating shrooms. About the fear. Do not expect shrooms to magically heal you from it. They can introduce you with a reason behind the fear but it won't help you to deal with it in your default state of consciousness. You can make a list of questions before tripping in order to get the answers (but it's not guaranteed that you will get them) About the dosage. 1 gram is not going to be enough. Better do 1.5 - 2 grams.

Well, I did try anyways I took one tab of 155mg LSD and after 90 minutes 2.5 grams of Penis Envy. Not a good combination. I guess I had the weirdest trip ever with intense visual hallucinations. I don’t remember 99% of the trip and I’m still tripping!

Have you tried mixing them? What kind of a mindfuck should I expect? Bad trip?

When I'm in relationships I crave my girlfriend 24/7, especially if she's physically close to me. Sometimes I can have sex 5+ times per day and it's still not enough. My penis pains but as soon as I touch my girlfriend even in a non-sexual way I get aroused. I don't know whether it's healthy or not but that just the way I am. Apparently, for me to have sex 3 times a week wouldn't be enough.

I've been doing psychedelics for the last couple of years, mostly shrooms, dmt and recently 5meo. Although I had a few absolute awakenings I felt like I couldn't integrate them in my daily life. There was something in my ego that I didn't want to look at, something that I've been avoiding for a long long time. Not only that, I’ve been avoiding one specific psychedelic – LSD. I’d done it two times only, first time with zero effect on me and the second, where I had a “party like” trip. Eventually I gave up on LSD. Yesterday I was watching Leo’s video “How survival shapes who you are” and I got triggered by it. Some of the past situations appeared in my consciousness, leaving me with tears. I knew I had to come back there, to re-live my traumas. For this very reason I consumed two tabs of LSD (155mg each) and here what happened: I entered my subconsciousness and I was literally shattered by the pain and suffering I had found. As a kid I had to please my mom in order to get her love and attention. I tried my best not to upset her, because I wanted her to love and appreciate me. She was working a lot because my dad had left us when I was two years old. I always lack her attention and love. Sometimes I used to stay in kindergarten for a night or at one of her friends. We lived in a small Ukrainian apartment with only one bedroom, so sometimes when she was with a man (“boyfriend’) I saw them having sex. I was very angry at that time because I saw my mom giving her love and attention (I was too young for the notion of what sex is) to others, but I was left abandoned (at least that’s how I felt about it). All of it led to some dysfunctional patterns of my behaviour in my “romantic” relationships. I overestimated and pleased women. I was looking at women trough my inner child’s lenses seeking their love and attention. Most of the staff I used to do were designed in order to get approval and love from others, especially women. Unfortunately, because of my neediness and toxicity I was attracting the same toxic partners. All relationships that I had with women were toxic in the way. I believed that in order to be loved I needed to behave in a specific way, to be someone girls wanted me to be. Of course, all of my toxic relationships collapsed and left me with more pain. During the trip I was re-living a lot of my personal baggage, crying my ass off. I realized that it’s impossible to work with this type of traumas on a conscious level. It doesn’t matter what your conscious mind is saying when the subconscious is at the wheel. Affirmations, psychologists, friends, meditation is not going to help with it. LSD seemed to be the one instrument that helped me to uncover all of my shit. Now I finally beginning to feel like my adult and healthy self, but I’m gonna be fighting my demons further with a sword named LSD. P.S. My professional knowledge helped me a lot during the trip, so if you also want to go trough some traumas of yours, please educate yourself about basics of how psyche works (especially subconsciousness) and do it with a sitter or a psychotherapist (if possible). Love You All

Yo, I totally agree about duration of lsd trips! For me it’s around 12-14 hours. It’s way too much. lSD i a key to ego’s levels of subconsciousness

What kind of techniques would you recommend to deal with traumas ?

Hi Me! Have you guys tried LSD with 5MeO at the same time? What was the dosage? How was the experience?

Thank you for sound feedback! My ultimate and true identity is God indeed, but since I decided to play the game where I am a human who's living life, I have to change some of my survival ways, because they are dysfunctional. I want to heal my ego and make it healthier. I transcended survival, ego and otherness, but than I (as god) made a conscious decision to come back to live my life, my dream. It's kind like in a videogame. I want my avatar to be more developed. Anyways, 5MeO will keep ego away if needed

I became absolute because I smoked some 5-MeoDMT and interesting idea came across my mind. I decided to watch my favourite porn actress being fucked on pornhub. As I was watching I continued smoking 5Meo and man, ебать! (Fuck!) I was shocked by my infinite mind! I watched myself fucking with myself and getting infinitely horny! There was no limit to my sexual desire for myself. I was looking at tits and I was shuttered by their details. Of course, there is no difference between what I saw on the screen and reality. All of it is reality. So I’m glad that I finally fucked my favourite porn actress ?

I started watching Leo's videos about 6 years ago. I remember searching for some videos about toxic relationships when I stumbled upon Actualized channel. The video was very practical for me and I became its follower. I watched a lot of his content when one day a weird title sucked my attention "What is Death?" I wasn't spiritual at that time so I thought we could never now unless science figures it out. Nevertheless, something attracted me and I started watching it. Apparently, I couldn't comprehend a goddamn word - I was deeply asleep. All information sounded very unrealistic and impossible, but I received some strange feeling from withing that made me believe all of this could be true. I watched a lot of his content when two years ago I decided to take my first psychedelic - magic mushroom. After 3 trips I made a decision to leave my job it was life-changing. Long story short - I made an emotional connection with Leo, he was like father for me, teaching me life. Recently I discovered 5MeoDMT so I've been on a lot of trips since. Over and over, I've been verifying the truth - I'm absolutely one. It's so radical and profound I still can't believe it. Yesterday I opened video "Guided Exercise for Realizing You Are God" while vaping 5Meo. As the trip begun, I became absolutely conscious that Leo is absolutely, undoubtfully, and truthfully my imagination and also Me. It was extremely painful. I wish I knew it wasn’t just a philosophy from the beginning, but I know I can’t put the toothpaste back in the tube, right?

Actually, I would like to have a sex with a girl on 5Meo if she's not afraid, but I higly doubt it's possible

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Hey fellas! I'm considering buying a sex doll, but I don't know what type of a sex doll should I look for or which brand. I checked Amazon, but there are just a few options. Have you ever tried a sex doll? Was it worth the money?

Tell them if they won't take you back you're gonna kill yourself But seriously, just let it go and find another place. You created identity out of that place and now you're making your life horrible.

My best book is experience and practice. Feel your woman and you can fuck like a beast without any books or videos. I can tell if we're gonna have amazing sex just by looking in her eyes. There's no science or logic behind it. Just the way it works

God is non-judgmental. I can imagine hundreds or thousand people dying and I'm perfectly fine with it. In fact - I enjoy it. Unfortunately or fortunately God can't die. Life and death are sides of the same coin which called illusion or the great game that I'm playing with myself.

I know. Let's imagine I'm a virgin and never had sex. I want to look at this issue from a virgin perspective.

I have a better question. What happens when you actually get laid ? I'm virgin and I have never had sex (I'm 25). Will banging bunch of girls change my life dramatically? Will I feel more satisfied and happier? Also how many girls should I fuck? 10?50?1000?

I still enjoy sex, but when I'm on semen retention I feel more like myself. You know when I was a kid I didn't care about sex at all, nevertheless I was way more joyful and happy. The problem with sex for me is I can't get enough. When I'm in relationships I have sex at least 3 times a day and still can't get satisfaction for a long time. Of course all my energy disappears quickly and I loose interest for doing something else.

Nope. I've created all of them. It's only me here. You are me. I'm you. We are Me

I'm fascinated with my ability to dream up all of you guys. Fuck the dolls and debates God loves itself It doesn't matter if it fucks itself in the form of a human or a plastic doll. It's all me, myself and I.

Finally someone with a practical advice! I can't stop laughing about Taylor Swift She's one of my favorite singers, I like listening to her songs, but she's not that hot for me Maybe I could get a sex doll with a face of my favorite porn star when she was young