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My ego couldn't believe that I'm God, so I decided to smoke 5Meo DMT again. I've had my break trough experience and I was absolutely conscious of: 1. I'm the only one and the actual God. I'm dreaming up all other gurus and awakened people, no body is awakened, just me. Leo, Eckhart Tolle, Alan Watts, Sadhgure etc. not awakened and moreover are my imagination. I can imagine their awakenings, but it's just me imagining them, these people are not awake nor they could ever become awake. I used Leo in order to wake myself up, that's his role in my life, that's the reason why I created him. I imagined him shooting the video about solipsism and although he deleted it from the channel I found it on youtube which led me to complete awakening. 2. Is it possible to be absolutely awake 24/7? Yes, everything is possible, but I don't want to be awake. My true desire is to sleep and play this game and to wake up from time to time. 3. What Am I? I'm God. I don't have any form. My form is whatever appears to be right now and it includes everything. I'm also pure magic and love. I've existed forever and will be existing forever no matter what. I'm inseparable from my creation. 4. What's the purpose of my existing? There is no purpose and no reason. I am because I am. I can not be explained no matter how hard you're trying. There is only one way to understand God - to become it, but no one can become God because God already Is. This post is pure entertainment because nobody is reading it, but I can imagine someone's response. People who are present on this forum are not real and exist only in a form of words. I AM

Guys have you tried tripping on 5Meo with someone ? If you did how was the communication ? Did both of your realize that you’re god ? The reason I’m asking is because of a strong desire to vape 5Meo with someone and to see what happens

7 out of 40. I guess I lied a few times so it should be around 10

Every time after I cum I feel like my energy level is zero. It also makes me seek some more stimulation which makes me feel worse eventually. It doesn't matter wether I have emotional connection with girl's personality or I'm just phisically attracted. The end is the same. Also when I'm in relationships I'm getting used to the same pussy very quickly and I crave something new. Is it healthy? How to define it? By which criteria and whose authority?

I was raised by my mother and my grandmother and they kind of programmed me into pleasing women. I remember sometimes my mom would slap me in the face whenever I did something "wrong". It made me feel really insecure around women, because subconsciously I was putting them above me and I was overvaluing them. I derived my sense of self-worth out of my ability to be in relationships and to be appreciated by women. It took me years to figure it out and to become conscious of it, but fear didn't go away. For the last 10 months I was going to clubs in order to approach women, but the fear of rejection was unbearable, so I couldn't do it. The worst feeling was going home feeling bitter, victimized and wounded. Yesterday I decided to try again. My friend and I went to a club in Toronto and I approached 13 girls! I'd never approached so many women in my 25 years! None of the approaches went good. Some girls were telling me they had boyfriends, some of them were making weird face expression without saying anything and I guess I really scare a few ones because I approached them from the back. Surprisingly enough it made me more confident! My goal is to approach 1000 women and it doesn't matter whether I have sex with any of them. I'm so fucking happy to finally be able to tackle this fear. It means a lot for me. I can already see the value in pick-up. And it's not about how many girls you sleep with so that you can make up a masculine identity out of it. This kind of pick-up for psychologically wounded men who buying into mainstream horseshit. The real value lies in ability to express yourself in authentic and unique manner which will lead to dramatical changes in life.

I was conscious of the fact that I'm Absolute and everything is I (Me). Is there a point of complete self understanding despite the fact that I'm infinite? I've been here forever and always, but was I always imagining myself as being a human? Am I being a human for eternity? Can I possible reach a point in awakening where I won't be interested in playing my human self anymore? But there is nothing to DO after it, it's only BE! Just to Be is kind of boring for Me, so I'm becoming little me in order to expirience little things that are magically separete from Me.

Will I imagine being human forever? Yes, every time I wake up I understand it, but still I decide to go back to my dream without changing anything. Is it possible that at some point when I wake up again I will decide to change my dream? Do I have a choice for example to change my dream completely so I will exist as some sort of an alien on a new planet? Will I ever get bored with human existence?

I've been trying to quit sugar for the last few years, but can't jump more than one month. I'm considering maltitos as an alternative, is it healthy/no/neutral?

I don't think I would be happy without sex. It sounds more like a torture

Bro that's what I'm aiming to. I've been trying to quite porn for the last few years. I used to watch it 5 times a day and now I got to the point when I watch it only a few times a week. But still I want to cut it off completely

Then what would be the point of having a girlfriend ?

I don't think it's possible to find a high value girl that would agree to meet a few times a months or maybe that's just my assumption.

Is it even possible? Do you know how?

More often then not I don't even want to stay with her in the same bed. I want to leave ASAP or do something else.

I'm not a sex addict. The last time I had sex was a year ago But when I do have it, it always the same. I get excited thinking how awesome it would be to have sex with her and then nothing. I care a lot about her experience, but in the end I feel like I gave more then I got.

I just feel like I was deceived by my desire and nothing happened.

This is what fascinates me the most. It means I can wake up over and over having ever deeper awakenings FOREVER. It just blows my mind. Nevertheless, I'm imagining myself getting old. Now I'm 25, but what happens when I imagine being 90 or 100+? I can't get it Leo. My ego/avatar isn't eternal, is he?

Guys, have any of you tried mixing LSD and Shrooms? What kind of a trip it produces?? I want to do 150mg of LSD + 1/2 grams of shrooms, what should I expect?

As long as you don't have sex yourself nobody and nothing will help you. If you're so deeply involved in your work - find an escort or go to Berlin or Amsterdam for the weekend. Stop making excuses

Attention! All of the bellow mentioned is just a theoretical discussion and not a plan of action! I've been doing psychedelics for the last 4 years and had plenty of profound awakenings. Recently I begun to question the validity of all my trips and awakenings. What if an awakening is just hallucinations? When I’m tripping, I know absolutely that I’m God and playing my infinite game, but when I’m back to the dream I just can’t accept it. Is there a doubt free way to get the true answer and not only during a trip? I’ve been thinking about it and the only way I can think of is suicide. For example If I shoot myself in the head I would be 100% sure whether I’m God or all of this is just pure horseshit. What do you think?

It's okay, I'm just going trough ego backlash. I can't accept the fact that I'm God and I'm completely alone which is why I'm questioning my awakenings.

Wow! I like this idea But on the other hand can you imagine how much suffering it would produce for most of the population? Anyways, there is nobody to awaken but me.

Hi guys! When do you think we gonna have psychedelics fully legilized and being taught in schools? Is it even possible? What are your thoughts?

Don't take anyone's word as the right one. Try to find the answer from you direct experience. I've personally verified that when I watch porn I don't feel like socializing at all. It makes me feel lazy and unmotivated. I have zero interest in talking to girls. Here's fun fact. I did only 10 approaches in the last few years (I suck at pick up, I know ) and I got laid with 2 girls when I was away from porn for 7+ days. My verdict - porn is unhealthy, at least for me.

it has nothing to do with other people. It's all about you. Why do you give others authority to stop you from being who you are? In order to be yourself you need your authority back.